I love origin stories. This is mine, how about yours

[247dlwear]

I know there are a lot of these stories on here and I have posted to them before. This is how I discovered the AB side of me too and my most complete story. I would love to here yours I love these stories and I think other do too.

For me I was DL before I became ABDL but I really just never grew up. It took me until my late 20s early 30s to put together that being a diaper lover and really never growing up and still playing with kid toys and going to the park to play in the playground that these two things are related. It wasn't till my 30s that I was not just a DL but an ABDL.

   It all started in the 70s way before the internet. I was potty trained late around 4 as I am dyslexic. My earliest memory is around 4 that I took the whole roll of toilet paper and stuffed it in my underwear to make a makeshift diaper. I also remember some time around 3 or 4 I was in my crib and I remember climbing out and my parents put me back in and I kept climbing out. It turned out I just wanted some toys. Eventually they got me a bed, but in the morning they would find me in my crib. I would climb back in the crib. The day they got rid of my crib was a terrible day.  Between 5 and 12 years old, I remember taking diapers from family members when we would go visit them. At 6 my mother made me bare footed pajamas for a school play. I wore it for years. My mother kept on fixing it up so I could wear it. I cried when she threw it away. At some point around 6 and 7. I remember wetting myself and at my parents' place of work and my mother took me and took maxi pads and made a diaper out of them for me. Between 13 and 16, I remember taking my sisters maxi pads and making a diaper out of them. I was always fascinated by diaper commercials on TV. I just loved them and I thought I was a weirdo. This weirdo loves going down the diaper aisle in the store. Just the smell of them. (In the 80s). Around this time I was still playing with small kids toys too and my family would just say he is a kid at heart. 

At 16 I got a janitor job in an office. at 17 a lady at that office had a 40th birthday party and one of the people brought her some adult diapers. When I came in that evening to clean up. The person that bought the adult diapers for the birthday party had the whole pack next to the trash as they just opened it up to take one out for the party. I had no idea that there was such a thing as adult diapers. (BTW there were attends, back in the day attends were the best they have changed and now suck). I took one and ran to the bathroom and put it on. I was in heaven. I took the pack of diapers home. The very next day I pretended to be sick to stay home from school and work. As soon as everyone left the house I went and got the diapers and put one on. I was on a mission to find these at a store. Over the next week I went to the pharmacy and I found them there. I did not buy any. I was too embarrassed and lived in a very small town where everyone talks to everyone else. After a few months have gone by I ran out of the diapers I had. I keep some that I did not wet or use but worn but they were worn out. So I went to a town nearby and spent my whole paycheck on 4 packs of diapers. My problem now is how to hide them. Also during my teenage years I started to play with RC cars but I would still play with little kids toys too. Any time I would see a little kid playing with blocks or any building toys I would join them and play too. My family would say that they did not think I would grow up.

Fast forward to my 20s when I moved out of the house and got my first job on my own. I started to buy diapers and then I started to wear them at night 7 days a week. I still thought I was a weirdo and was very confused as to why I love to wear diapers. I also still was a kid at heart and loved going to a toy store like Toys R Us looking and buy my own kids toys. At this point I still have not connected the two. My love of toys and me playing with kids toys and till going to the park playing in the playground. I would always play in a park with no kids and adults around as I was embarrassed. 

In my late 20s was the start of the Internet and I started to look to see if others were like me. This is when I decided that I was a diaper lover and not an adult baby. I would see people dressed up online with baby looking clothes. I still haven't made the connection.  It wasn't until I saw an adult baby online with a baby bottle that I started to notice that maybe I'm ABDL. When I saw that photo I had to go to the store and get a bottle, a Binky and some apple juice. That evening I had my bottle full of juice while wearing a diaper and I felt little. I felt complete. It still took me a few years later before I really realized that I was ABDL. I think I was in denial. During my mid 20s I was wearing diapers every night.

In my early 30s I went from wearing only at night to wearing 24/7 and threw out my underwear. This is also about the time when I started my own business. I had an office in an office complex. I made friends with the other offices in the complex. I passed out nerf guns to everyone in the complex and once a month Friday at noon for 10 minutes we had an all out nerf war. Showing my kid side again. This is about the time that it clicked that I love to feel like a baby and I started to embrace my ABDL side of myself. Also my friends would see me as having a bladder issue and know I am a kid at heart.

My late 30s early 40s, I really started to collect baby stuff. This was the time we started to see ABDL diapers on the market. I started to mix ABDL diapers with my regular diapers. In my mid 40s is when I met my now wife. She's not ABDL nor is she even into anything and not a mommy to me but she loves that I'm into it and enjoys watching me play with my toys and wearing a diaper. She's even bought me toys and baby clothes to wear. She does interact with me when I am little. I make my stuffed animals talk with her and she talks back to them.

Now in my 50s, I have a play pin that I take out now and then. I have a play mat with roads to drive my hot wheels on. I have a hot wheels collection, Nerf & water gun collection. Lots of stuffed animals. Bottles and pacifiers. And lots of clothes. I even have a bed rail on our bed. I am also somewhat Incontinence. I wake up wet every morning and most of the time don't know that I wet myself. I just noticed a warm spot. I wouldn't change a thing. I have also recently found out that I have ASD (autism spectrum disorder) which explains a lot about me.

 

[Rachael-Little]

As one who is gender fluid and didn’t understand myself I finally just decided it was just a part of me.

As I’ve gotten older I too decided being an AB is just something I am or deal with.

As someone told me, you do you.

I’m glad your happy and the wife is ok with your little side 

[Little BabyDoll Christine]

As with everything about me, it is complicated, so I put it in a blog entry

 

[Rainbowdashie]

interesting topic of choice, honestly mine goes way back. I born in the early 90s, 93 to be exact. and i wore diapers until 3 or 4 . as a autistic , i was late to use toilet. my other grandma said shell be wearing diapers down the aisle if you don't stop her.

 

Funny enough, i had a super strong bladder as a kid but they're WAS times i almost had accidents. which honestly had it been allowed to occur my parents may of put me in diapers or pull ups. but i tried not to let that happen.

 

As i got older i realized i was maturing slower then my friends.

 

i still liked SpongeBob and my teenage friends were watching  mtv.

i asked one time at my friends house, if we could watch SpongeBob and she went WHY? its such a baby show. i said you used to like it. she said not as much anymore. then after me whining a bit about it she changed it to SpongeBob instead of jersey shore. My friend was unusually flexible with me, if i wanted to stay inside and  play ps2 we would. or if she demanded we go outside i would be way behind her running as i was struggling with tachycardia. still we would be friends for another 15 years.

 

once i hit 21, i discovered BDSM through a new partner i made, and they considered themselves a master. i would then develop my submissive side. this continued for years until i moved back home, to parents house. that's when they discovered my DDLG side. particularly my "little side".

 

From then on the abdl began to develop inside me. i started watching binkie princess on you tube and she was a very popular abdl youtuber at the time of 2017-2019. in 2019 i bought my first adult onesie and pull ups.

 

i LOVED it. i also got my first pacifiers for adults. also loved it. i would then start keeping my hair in pigtails and wear cute jewelry and outfits.

 

once i hit 32 i became even deeper into ABDL.

 

I started to wear pull ups daily and nightly 24/7.

I started wearing onesies. pacis and used sippies and bottles.

i began to buy toys around 33, blocks, plastic blocks, coloring books, beading kits, stim toys and began to literally organize my place in closet for my items. using bins.

now days im a full time abdl. as im disabled. And with exception of morning coffee and sometimes watching adult shows, im all baby girl. Single as well , but not alone. still have my parents who actually embraced my idea of abdl and little space and don't even care if i get things for it.

 

im very lucky i know this.