tyrantblade3500 Posted December 22, 2018 Share Posted December 22, 2018 I sent some angry texts to my mom at work (during one of my break times) about not including me in her "grand ideas" next time; I know she didn't mean anything bad by what she did; but with the "self lender" coming out every month; the winter season being slow at work (i had a $180 check, my lowest check in years and after next weeks check I will have no check for 1 week) and then this stupid debt collector BS (when i finally gained the ability to pay towards the credit card they decided to send debt collectors after me, so I had to agree to pay $1500, which is $1500, even $125 a month is $125 less I have to pay towards bills, less money to spend on hobbies, etc; and it hurts). I have already been struggling just with the slow season and Self Lender, plus I have to worry about if the company runs out of steel, or maybe their orders get cut down to almost nothing (or if they have production lines in changeover for several weeks, which seems to keep happening), and then I may have to take a layoff because I'm pretty new to the company and I have never had to take a layoff before, ever; so it is unknown territory and all this stuff is stressing me too much. And the stress seems to either throw me into Depression or Mania (I dont seem to have traditional Bipolar as I really dont seem to know how long I will be depressed, or manic, or whatever and I'm normally pretty stable and happy, but all this stress is just wrecking me). It also doesn't help having my younger brother not paying anything towards bills, pushing me and my mom further behind than we would be if he Manned Up and paid the low minimum $ amount we want from him (anybody in the US tell me you wouldn't jump at $240 a month and nothing else with heat and Electricity and everything included) ; which he obviously cant pay with no income. I mean I do pretty decent in an average month, and sometimes there is a fair amount of overtime; but I am a chronic worrier; always worried about the worst things that can happen (which sometimes does happen, I cant pay all the bills I normally would with a 1/2 paycheck). I can worry a lot less once I know they are going back to full production with no major setbacks, but right now I cant 100% enjoy the holiday season knowing any number of setbacks could happen in just a few weeks. Link to comment
Baby Girl Sarah Posted December 22, 2018 Share Posted December 22, 2018 We can al make those mistakes in lashing out to our mom hon (me included ) the good thing is you can always let her know youe sorry after (again been there done that SO many times in past years )to me it sounds you finally stepped up and accepted and moved on and for that you deserve (WELL DONE ) i know its not fun dear , 125 /month is WAY less then what you thought of 100 /week utliest dear. I agree it SUCKS but we have to pay and we HAVE to make it work somehow . and the less money for hobbies and fun ? Well hon what can i say welkome to my world and SO many others with low income Im sorry about youre worries dear and they are QUITE valid i should ad. Again welkome to my life since MANY MANY MANY years I have both Bipolar (or as it was cold back then manic depression disorders ) Anxiety among gazillion other side diagnosis to my ord ones so i UNDERSTAND dear even if you dont think so i do I understand as i and others have said its TIME to get him to MAN up /STAND up and get a job and contribute & STOP drinking Its not that strange youre as you say a chronic worrier dear Im afraid that youre NOT alone dear there are MANY out there as well as around the world (me included ) that cant find the joy of this season nor have the funds to use for said season of jolly JUST ALWAYS know youre NOT alone im among others RIGHT here if you feel you whant to talk hon Link to comment
horrorfan Posted December 26, 2018 Share Posted December 26, 2018 Everyone blows a fuse every now and then, just know how to come back from it and people tend to understand. Link to comment
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