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Hi Guys, I was recently asked to re-post a story I wrote a long time ago. I haven't updated in a very long time but figured that at the very least I could share what I already have. Enjoy!

 

Ryan Goes To College

 

Part 1

           

            Ryan Connors was small. He had always been small. At 18 he was still only 4’11 and 90lbs he was the size of your average twelve year old, Ryan had blond hair which was always kept in a mushroom cut and bright blue eye. Ryan looked like a 12 year maybe younger and he knew. Everyone always called him cute. He hated being cute. All of the girls in his high school called him cute, he knew they didn’t mean this in an adult way but rather they thought he was cute the way a little boy is cute and he hated that. Because he was so small all of the other boys in school ignored Ryan. These things coupled with his uncle’s strict rule made it almost impossible for Ryan to have a social life.

           

            Ryan’s uncle was a kind man who had raised Ryan since his parents died when he was 2 years old. Ryan loved his uncle but he was extremely over protective. This was partially due to Ryan’s size and partially due to the fact that Ryan still occasionally wet the bed and even more occasionally his pants if he got scared or was sick. These two things together made Ryan’s uncle feel the need to treat him with kid gloves. Ryan may be a young man of 18 but that’s not how he was treated, he wasn’t even treated like the 12 year old he looked like, in stead he was treated like a child of about 6. Ryan’s uncle Paul had always been a stay at home parent which was never a problem because their family had plenty of money. So every day he would drop Ryan off and pick him up from school. Ryan had never been aloud to drive, in fact it had never been a question he was simply too little and he knew it. When he got home from school Ryan was immediately changed out of his daytime training pants and into a diaper and put down for a nap. His uncle would wake him up an hour later and take him to the bathroom where he was given his bath; Uncle Paul would always kneel next to the tub to supervise Ryan’s play time then always insisted on washing Ryan completely. After his bath Ryan was dried then carried to his bedroom to be re-diapered and put into pajamas. Then Ryan was taken down stairs where he would sit at the kitchen table and do his homework while his uncle cooked dinner. After homework and dinner Ryan and his uncle would cuddle on the couch and watch tv, usually cartoons or something Disney because uncle Paul did not allow Ryan to watch anything with a rating high then PG. Every night at 8:00 Ryan was carried up to his bedroom where Uncle Paul would read him bed time stories and cuddle with him until he fell asleep. Each morning he was woken up and dressed by Uncle Paul. Ryan’s room also looked like a little boys. His walls and ceiling were painted to look like the sky. His room was filled with toy and he still slept in a little boy race care bed. Due to his size and his uncles insistence Ryan usually wore little boy clothes which just added to the perception that he was a little boy. It also didn’t help that Ryan was a sensitive child who was prone to tears when sad or scared. 

           

            Whenever Ryan cried Uncle Paul was always there with a kiss and a cuddle to make him feel better. In spite all of his over protectiveness Ryan loved his Uncle Paul who he knew loved him. Uncle Paul told him this several times a day. He always hugged and kissed and cuddled him and spent many hours a day taking care of Ryan. In fact Ryan knew that Uncle Paul had given up a lot of his life to care for Ryan but this was about to change. Ryan was scared but excited. He was about to leave behind his loving, over protective uncle and little boy life. Ryan was going to collage where he would become an adult with an adult life or so he thought.     

 

Part 2

 

            It wasn’t easy, in fact it had taken the better part of the school year for Ryan to convince his uncle to allow him to go away to college. In the beginning Uncle Paul had flat out refused to let Ryan out of his sight for school. He had planned for Ryan to attend the local Junior college so life could continue as normal but Ryan had other plans. He has always gotten good grades and because his family had money he could afford to go anywhere he wanted to. In secret Ryan had applied to many great schools all of which were several hours away from his home which would make it impossible for him to commute. Ryan was accepted into an extremely competitive and prestigious private college which he knew was the only reason that his uncle eventually and with trepidation gave his permission for Ryan to leave home.

           

            Ryan spent the summer after high school in what Uncle Paul called “growing up boot camp. During this time Uncle Paul taught Ryan how to bathe and dress himself, they had slowly been shortening his nap times and pushing his bedtime back. By the last week in July Ryan could successfully stay up until 9:30 without taking an afternoon nap. Ryan was now showering himself independently and going to bed without being tucked in. Uncle Paul had given Ryan his first cell phone and even taught him how to use the microwave. The biggest transition was Ryan’s transition from diapers and training pants to boxers. This had been a difficult process for Ryan but after almost 2 months he was able to stay completely dry both day and night. The thing Ryan missed the most was cuddle time. Since Uncle Paul had agreed to let Ryan go away there had been fewer hugs and kiss and a lot less cuddle time but he figured that being a big boy probably meant a lot less cuddle so he’d accepted it as part of the deal.

           

            On the morning of September 1 Ryan was awoken a 6 am by the buzzing of his alarm clock. He quickly showered and got dressed while Uncle Paul packed the car. By 7 they were ready to make the 3 hour journey to Ryan’s new beginning. For the first time, Uncle Paul allowed Ryan to sit in the front seat because he said, he was being such a big boy. Ryan beamed and took his seat as Uncle Paul started the car.  By 10 o’clock they had reached their destination.

 

Part 3

            Ryan took a breath, He was nervous! This was it he had to get out of the car. The transition to a new school in a new big city is difficult for everyone especially when you come from a small country town… but especially when just over 2 months ago you were a baby.

           

            Uncle Paul was the first to unbuckle he patted Ryan’s knee and said “okay big boy lets do this” Ryan smiled Uncle Paul had stared to use the pet name Big boy since they had started growing up boot camp. Before that Uncle Paul had always called him baby. This new mature term of endearment gave Ryan a shot of confidence. He unbuckled his seat belt and opened the door. Ryan and his uncle first had to go check in. They went to the registration desk and found out that Ryan was living on the 3rd floor of the freshman dorms and that he was lucky because he had been placed room with its own bathroom. They also found out that Ryan Ryan’s roommate was named Michael ward.

           

            They went back to their car and started to unload. They made the first trip with Uncle Paul taking all of the heavy things and Ryan carrying his suitcase and backpack. When they got to the third floor and Ryan’s room, they found the door locked. Ryan opened the door to find that it was empty currently but that his roommate had already moved in. They put everything down and went to make another trip. After their third trip they had gotten pretty much everything. They had just finished making Ryan’s bed, and setting up his computer, T.V. and mini-fridge when the door again opened, the sight before Ryan shocked and scared him a little. Into his room walked the biggest boy no… man Ryan had ever seen.    

 

Part 4

 

            To say that Michael was tall was an understatement. Michael stood at 6’4 210 lbs to say that Ryan was intimidated was an understatement. He was afraid to live with this guy… he was afraid to be alone with him. Heck, he was afraid to make eye contact. Ryan solved this problem by attempting to memorize his shoes. Michael however looked right at Ryan and smiled. Sensing Ryan’s anxiety he walked over to him and bent down on one knee.  When Ryan still refused to look up he cupped Ryan’s chin with his hand and gently forced him to look up. When their eyes met a few tear escaped Ryan’s eyes Michael gently wiped them away and said “hey little guy its okay. I know this is kind of scary but don’t worry you’ll be just fine. I’m mike and I’d bet anything that your Ryan yah?” Ryan for his part shyly nodded. Mike said in a cheery voice “well that makes us roommates and I just know we’ll be great friends! Ryan nodded a little more confidently this time. Mike then asked “can I have a hug”. When Ryan nodded his approval he was pulled into a genital but firm hug. Ryan was surprised at how safe this made him feel. After a minute Ryan was released from Mikes hold Mike stood up, He stroked Ryan’s cheek with his finger then tapped his nose and said “thanks little buddy I needed that” This time Ryan was able to squeak out a “your welcome”. Which once again make Mike smile and ruffle his hair.

 

            Ryan’s uncle who had been watching this exchange took this moment to ask Ryan to go check the car for any forgotten items. Ryan did as he was asked and returned to report that they had forgotten nothing. As he re-entered the room he heard his uncle and Mike talking. His uncle was saying “thank you, that makes me feel a lot better” Seeing Ryan they stopped Uncle Paul turned to Ryan and said “Okay buddy, I should be going will you walk me out” Ryan nodded, Uncle Paul turned to Mike, extended his hand and said Nice to meet you Mike, I’ll be in touch.” Mike said Okay sir bye and please don’t worry.” Uncle Paul nodded put his arm around Ryan’s shoulder and together they walked out of the room.

 

            As they walked down the hall Uncle Paul said Mikes really nice and I think you will be safe with him. Ryan didn’t fully understand what was meant by this but he nodded and asked “ Uncle Paul what were you and Mike talking about” Uncle Paul said “on nothing kiddo, I just asked him to help you out a bit, this being your first time away from home and all. He said he would so I said I would be in touch with you to later to work some things out that all. Ryan was nervous and asked “like what Uncle?’ Uncle Paul said “oh not much, just ask Mike, Sorry but I really need to go I have work tomorrow. I love and please call me tonight and be good” Ryan said he would and he was pulled into a tight hug. Once he was released Uncle Paul got into his car and with a final wave drove away. Ryan took a deep breath and fought his feelings of loneliness. He stood for a moment and closed his eyes in an effort to gather his emotions. He felt a gentle hand on his shoulder and opened his eye to find Mike standing before him.

 

Part 5

 

            Mike cupped Ryan’s cheek with his large hand, he squatted down so they were at eye level and said “you okay buddy, I know this is scary but don’t worry I’ll help you, however you need.” Still looking sad Ryan said “thank you sir” Mike gave Ryan’s shoulder a little squeeze and said, hey none of that, you don’t have to thank me we’re friends remember and please just call me Mike okay “okay Mike” Ryan  responded. Mike then stood up and asked “how about we go to the cafeteria and get some lunch” Ryan nodded yes and to his surprise Mike grabbed his hand and led him to the dinning hall Ryan was too surprised to pull away or even comment so he just allowed Mike to hold his hand as they walked besides he knew somewhere deep inside that it felt right. When they got to the cafeteria Mike released Ryan’s hand then he stopped and looked confused for a second He looked a Ryan and said “I’m sorry buddy, I didn’t mean to hold your hand like that. I have five younger brothers and sister who I have been taking care of my whole life so that kind of thing comes naturally to me but please tell me if I become pushy okay?” Ryan just nodded.

 

             The cafeteria was huge Ryan had never seen so much food in one place He felt almost confused. Mike noticed this and said “so champ how about chicken and veggies”. Ryan wanted to protest, the pizza looked really good but before he could be was being led to the meal station where he was served baked chicken, potatoes and roasted mixed vegetables. Next they made their way to the drink station passing dessert because Mike said “we’ll come back for that” When they got there Mike asked Ryan if milk was okay before Ryan could respond however, he found a glass of milk on his tray. This was starting to bug him but again he said nothing and they made their way to a table.

 

            Once seated Mike and Ryan engaged in small talk while Mike ate and Ryan picked at his food. Mike talked about his family, how he loved children and wanted to be an early education major and the classes he was taking. It turned out that they shared two classes together their first morning class and the class before dinner Ryan told Mike that he didn’t quite know what he wanted to do. He also told Mike about his parents dying and how excited he was to be away from home. When Mike was finished eating Ryan asked if he wanted to get dessert but Mike gave his still full plate a look and said we can’t someone needs to finish his food.” Ryan said “oh no its fine I’m not that hungry” Mike said “well you have to eat” Ryan was getting huffy he looked at Mike and said in a slightly raised voice I didn’t like this, so I don’t want to eat it besides I really wanted pizza but you kind of… took over. Mike matched Ryan’s tone to a much greater effect “ well pizza is not a meal and you need to eat so please take 5 more bites for me.” Ryan said “you know what I’m leaving” and made to get up but Mike cut across him “freeze” he said in a stern voice “you will not move your little but from that chair until you have taken 5 more bits. Now I’m going to count to 3 and if I get there then I will feed you myself and if that happens you lose dessert for lunch and dinner now 1…” Ryan was shocked but obedience was something that came naturally to him so he picked up his fork and started to eat.  Once he had eaten the required amount of food Mike said “thank you buddy I’ll be right back” He picked up both of their plates and walked away. He returned five minutes later with two pieces of chocolate cake. Mike set the cake down in front of Ryan and said “go ahead” Ryan ate his cake in silence feeling very much like a small child. When he couldn’t take it any more he looked up at Mike and said “I thought you said you weren’t going to be bossy” Mike chuckled and said “I don’t mean to be bossy but you have to eat, it’s not healthy not to and it worries me so please try to eat from now on because I certainly don’t want to go through this at every meal. Ryan was still slightly perturbed but also touched that Mike cared so much for him so he nodded. With that they both got up to go back to their room. Again Mike took Ryan’s hand Ryan opened his mouth to protest but thought better of it Mike really seemed to care about him and any way we realized that he kind of liked it so he said nothing but gave Mikes and a little squeeze which mike returned as they walked in silence. 

 

Part 6

 

            When they got back to the dorm Mike unlocked the door Ryan was about to use the bathroom but Mike beat him to it. Ryan had to pee however this was okay he told himself he could wait Ryan sat down on his bed. 1 minute passed He needed to pee. Ryan got up and started to pace the room. Ryan really needed to pee he looked at his alarm clock could it really only have been 2 minutes? Ryan went to the bathroom door, this was bad he really, really had to pee. Ryan knocked on the door. He heard Mikes voice call out “just a second kiddo, I’ll be right out” Ryan knew he might not have a second, he used all of his energy to concentrate on not wetting his pants but it was too much, He was going to pee. Ryan had tears in his eyes as he attempted to hold his pee in. He needed to. He couldn’t take the embarrassment but... be also couldn’t hold it any more. Just as he thought all hope was lost the toilet flush and the bathroom door opened Ryan ran into the bathroom and closed the door. He managed to get his pants down just as he lost control; however the crisis was averted, besides for minor wetness in his underpants and a very small puddle on the floor Ryan managed to get every thing into the toilet. He pulled up is pants and cleaned the floor flushed the toilet and with a sigh of relief left the bathroom.

           

            It was then that Ryan realized just how tired he was. What he wanted was to lay down and sleep for a while but the idea made him nervous. After what had just happened he wasn’t sure if he trusted himself not to wet the bed. However once out of the bathroom, Ryan noticed that Mike was lying on his bed, when Mike saw Ryan he said “I’m gonna take a nap for a while but do you want to go to the book store before dinner. Ryan said sure and decided to chance a nap…he was really tired.

 

            Both Ryan and Mike slept for almost 2 hours Ryan woke up and was relieved to find himself dry, however he was again hit with a sudden intense urge to pee and he again managed to get to the bathroom just in time. He walked out of the bathroom to find Mike out of bed and putting his shoes on. Mike said “hey kiddo you want you want to go to the book store now”. Ryan said sure but was hit with a sudden realization Money, he had forgotten about money. Uncle Paul had forgotten to give him money and he had never thought to ask. Ryan was starting to panic he felt like crying but he needed to stay calm. In a voice far calmer then he felt he said, “I don’t have any money, my uncle forgot to give me any and well… I’ll have to call him.”  Mike looked a bit surprised but responded “no he didn’t. I’m surprised that he didn’t tell you but your uncle was worried about giving you a large amount of money because this is your first time away from home so he gave it to me to hold for you and give out as needed.” It was Ryan’s turn to look surprised he asked you mean “you’re in charge of my money but…” Mike seeing the hurt in Ryan’s face stepped closer to him and pulled him into a hug. He said “look little one your uncle was just doing what he thought was best. He has given you a very generous allowance and placed it in my bank account whenever you need money just ask.” Ryan though for a moment “ask” he said “that means that you can say no” Mike pulled out of the hug and responded carefully “Yes… but I won’t… most of the time and if you want to overrule me you can always call your uncle, I have no problem with that. Look this may take some getting used to but I promise to make it as easy as possible” Again mike cupped Ryan’s cheek and asked “Okay”.  Ryan didn’t like this but what choice did he have. He just nodded and tried to put this out of his mind. A minute later Ryan had put his shoes on and they were heading out the door. This time it was Ryan who slipped his hand into Mike’s without a conscious though. Holding Mikes hand although very juvenile was beginning to become routine for Ryan and it did make him feel very safe and protected.     

 

Part 7

 

            Anyone who saw Mike and Ryan walking together holding hands never would have guessed that they were roommates or that Mike was in fact 9 months younger then his little roommate. Most people who saw them assumed that Mike was a big brother babysitting his younger sibling. Some however assumed that Mike was a man older then his years (this happened often due to his height and amount of body hair) who had had a son in his teens and that Ryan was his little boy (maybe 10 years old, 9 if he was tall like his daddy). As it would turn out the second way of thinking would prove to be more true.

 

            Anyone who looked closely at the pair would see that the man had a huge smile on his face as though he had found the thing that he loved most in the world while the little boy wore a look to suggested that he may have been punished recently. For his part Ryan just assumed that everyone was too busy doing their own thing to pay attention to what he was doing. Mike on the other hand knew that people where noticing them and hoped that everyone saw a daddy with his little boy because in his heart that is how he felt, he couldn’t believe how much he already loved Ryan, From the moment he saw him Mike felt a spark of love of the little boy. Some might call it love at first sight, although it was not a romantic love he felt, it was more pure than that, it was more complete. It was the love a parent felt for his child upon seeing him for the first time. Ryan too recognized this feeling, but he was yet to name it. All he knew was that Mike was definitely, in control and despite what he had earlier said was definitely assigning him rules and despite the fact that his conscious mind told him he should be angry and fight back, a bigger part of his heart recognized that he felt safe and cared for.

 

            When they got to the book store both quickly found their books although Ryan needed mikes help getting his books from high shelves and made their way to the cash register. Ryan gave his purchases to Mike who he knew would be paying and saw a candy bar that he wanted and added it to their purchase. Mike raised an eye brow and took it off the counter. He looked at Ryan and said, “We don’t need this we are about go to dinner where we will get dessert so please put this back” Ryan felt extremely embarrassed at being talked to in this manor but to avoid further incident he meekly nodded took the candy and placed it back in its assigned box. The cashier handed Mike their bags and as they walked away, Mike put his hand on Ryan’s shoulder and said “thank you for listening back there, it made things much easier. However Ryan was feeling miffed so this time as Mike went to take his hand Ryan pulled away and said “don’t”. Mike immediately stopped walking He turned to face Ryan and squatted down in front of him. He took a deep breath then said “ you do not pull away from me. We are about to go outside and its dark out. I don’t want to be separated. Now you will hold my hand at all times if not I can carry you but if it comes to that not only do you not get your dessert after dinner but when we get back to the room you will be going strait to bed. I just gave you a complement for listening and I expect good behavior understood little boy?” Ryan looked down in embarrassment as a few tears escaped his eyes. Mike saw this and gently brushed away Ryan’s tears he said “It’s okay buddy, I’m not mad but I need you to do as your told” In a final attempt to regain some dignity Ryan said in a barely audible voice “but you said earlier” however he was cut off Mike said rather gently “I was wrong earlier adults make mistakes too you know now are you going to be good or do I… Ryan cut him off in a desperate plea “I’ll be good” He now recognized after Mikes little speech that he was a little boy and Mike was the adult. Mike stroked his cheek and said “okay little one what do I expect?” Ryan immediately responded “listening and good behavior” Mike beamed at him and said “good boy” and to Ryan’s surprise he leaned in and gave him a kiss on the forehead before standing and once again taking Ryan’s hand this time without protest and they walked to the dinning hall.     

 

Part 8

 

            When they got to the cafeteria Ryan was again attracted to the pizza Mike seeing this said we can eat pizza on Friday tonight we’re eating beef stir fry. Although this did not sound nearly a good as pizza Ryan recognized the clearly defined limit which had been set for him and chose to comply without complaint. At the drink station Mike gave Ryan a glass of milk but got himself a soda. This Ryan chose to comment on by saying “Oh can’t I have a soda” Mike simply responded “not tonight” Ryan stomped his foot a little and whined “but you got one”. Mike sensing a little tantrum coming on stepped closer to Ryan and said in a carrying whisper “I don’t speak whine and sometimes the rules are different for little boys and adults. I don’t want you drinking soda this close to bedtime but if your good tonight and tomorrow morning you may have a glass with lunch, besides as of right now you are still getting dessert which is more then enough sugar for little boys so close to bedtime”. Ryan recognizing the veiled threat and feeling that his dessert was in jeopardy chose to let the issue drop and accepted the glass of milk he was offered. As the walked to the table however Ryan still had a sulky look on his face which led Mike to comment “I think I have a tired little boy on my hands”

 

            Ryan did not want to be put to bed early on his first night of college so he made an effort to turn his attitude around. He and Mike actually had a very enjoyable dinner talking about the classes they would have the day after tomorrow and things they still needed to get for the room. They make plans to go shopping the next day. Even when Ryan wanted to be done eating but Mike told him to take 3 more bite Ryan complied without a fuss. Because Ryan had shown perfect behavior at dinner he was given an ice cream Sunday for dessert which he devoured leaving quite a large amount of hot fudge on his face which Mike laughed at before he spat in his napkin and cleaned Ryan’s face.

 

            Once they had both finished they got up and walked hand in hand back to their room. On the way Mike said to Ryan “when we get back to the room I’d like you to change into your jammies and get ready for bed please.” In a sulky voice Ryan responded “but I don’t want to go to bed.” Mike smiled and said “I said get ready for bed not go to bed and I told you earlier I don’t speak whine okay?” Ryan felt a bit better nodded.

 

            One back in the room, Ryan collected his pajamas and went to the bathroom to change without being asked again he figured it was less embarrassing and made it feel more like his choice. Ryan changed, brushed his teeth and washed his face. He then emerged from the bathroom in pajama shorts, a t-shirt and bare feet. He felt slightly embarrassed that he was pajama clad while Mike as still dressed and wearing shoes even more embarrassed when he noticed that it was only 7:30 but took a breath and went to sit on his bed. Mike feeling that Ryan might need some encouragement went to sit beside him and said “thanks for being such a good boy I think we should call your uncle. Ryan then called his uncle and assured him that he was behaving for Mike. Uncle Paul then asked to talk to Mike who confirmed Ryan’s good boy status and assured Uncle Paul they would call in a couple of day. When the call ended, Mike asked Ryan “what should we do now?” Ryan knew right away what he wanted to do. He asked Mike “will you show me facebook I’ve never seen it and everyone talks about it. Mike though for a secant but agreed after warning Ryan that he was not allowed to make a profile or go on without his supervision. Facebook Mike explained could be dangerous. Ryan Agreed to these conditions and Mike went to get his laptop and open facebook so he could sign on without Ryan seeing is password. Mike then handed the computer to Ryan but sat next to him to supervise. Ryan loved it he looked up some people from high school and played some games. He was about to give the computer back when he accidentally stumbled across Mikes personal Information.

 

             The thing that caught Ryan’s attention was Mike’s birthday, this couldn’t be true it said that Mike was 9 months younger then him, still 17. Ryan looked up in shock and asked “your 17” in a desperate voice. Mike sensing Ryan’s distress but not understanding it said “yah kiddo why” Ryan shuddered and started to splutter “but your sooo big and you keep telling we what to do like umm an adult but I’m older then you and you can’t I mean shouldn’t have to take care of me!” Mike who had been really worried for a minute laughed out laud in relief which just made Ryan cry. Mike knew that he needed to get control of the situation so he got up from the bed and stood in front of Ryan. He took Ryan’s face in his hands and said “Ry its okay I promise I am an adult, I have been for as long as I can remember and I’ve taken care of lots little boys my whole life. Ryan calmed down a little but was still in tears and choked out but I bet no one older then you. Mike thought for a second then responded “that’s true but age really doesn’t matter here buddy, you still have some growing up to do and I’m here to help you. Your uncle asked me to take care of you and I will. I promise you are safe with me. I’m here however you need for as long as you need and you wont always like me like when I make you eat or set a limit but remember I’m just doing it because I care okay and please don’t be embarrassed about our ages. We all grow at different speeds”. Ryan nodded and was able to calm down.

 

            After this Ryan and Mike watched some television around 8:30 Ryan started to get tired and his eyes were drifting closed. By 9:00 Mike had noticed this and said “bedtime kiddo” Although he was tired Ryan didn’t want to go to bed he huffed and said “but I don’t want to go to bed and your not even in pajamas yet. Mike who had seen this coming was ready he sat down on Ryan’s bed and said “Let me remind you of a few things first I don’t speak whine, second little boys and adults have different rules and third when I tell you to do something I expect you to obey me like a good little boy okay?” Ryan sadly nodded so Mike said in a more cheerful voice “okay why don’t you go to the bathroom then we’ll get you tucked in”. Ryan did as he was told then returned to find Mike standing next to his bed with his covers turned down. Mike patted the bed and said “come on bud time to snuggle down” Ryan walked over to his bed and hopped in he allowed Mike to fix his covers as he lay down. Ryan rolled on to his tummy so he was facing Mike. Mike adjusted his covers one last time then stroked Ryan’s head as he said “good night buddy, sleep tight and thank you for being such a good boy today. I’ll be right here if you need me” before he walked away Mike bent down and place a gentle kiss on Ryan’s forehead noting that his little one already almost asleep. Mike turned out the lights before sitting down at the computer and eventually going to sleep around midnight.

 

            Ryan was awakened at 2am by wind and rain pounding against the window and lightning outside. He as scared but to his horror he realized that he had wet the bed in his sleep and not just a little, he and his bed were soaked. Between the scary storm and his wet bet Ryan felt completely overwhelmed and started to cry.

 

Part 9

 

            It took several deep breaths for Ryan to get himself under control and stop crying. He had a plan he would be very quiet. He’d changes his pajamas and get a towel and cover the wet bed with that. He could change his bedding in the morning but above all he did not want to wake Mike up, this was embarrassing enough. However, this plan had a fatal flaw Ryan slowly and quietly creped out of bed with no problem, however as Ryan opened his pajama draw it squeaked. This drew a response from Mike. He sat up in bed looked around, he spotted Ryan and in a sleepy and irritated voice asked “Ryan why are you out of bed!!” Ryan hesitated for a moment, this was bad. He found his voice and said “I’m just going to the bathroom, go back to sleep, I’m fine”.  Mike however was not satisfied with this answer, he frowned in confusion and said, “you were not going to the bathroom you were going through you drew now please tell me what you were doing”. Ryan could feel heat rise in is face and his stomach muscles clench. He shook as he sobbed out “nnothing I’mmmm fffffine”. Mike seeing Ryan’s distress got out of bed and walked over to where Ryan stood as he approached, Ryan made to back away but backed into the wall Jumped and began to sob even lauder. 

 

            Mike slowly approached Ryan so he would not scare him any further. As he got closer to Him he asked “Ryan what’s happening? Please talk to me” then taking in Ryan’s appearance he made the realization and said in a much softer voice “oh baby, did you wet the bed?” Ryan nodded brokenly and sobbed out “I’m soooo sorry” Mike immediately took Ryan in his arms and said “Its okay baby I’ll take care of this lets go to the bathroom”. Ryan was too tired and sad to resist.

 

            He allowed Mike to lead him into the bathroom. Once in there Mike started the water in the tub then turned to Ryan. He gave him a reassuring smile and said “okay love I’m going to take off your shirt raise your arms for me”. Ryan did as he was asked and Mike lifted his wet shirt over his head. Mike then said “okay baby now for shorts.  Just lift you little feet for me, there’s a good boy” Once Ryan was completely naked Mike put one hand on his shoulder and used the other to clasp his Ryan’s smaller hand Mike stared Ryan toward the bath and said “Okay sweetheart in you get” Ryan still shaking stepped into the tub and sat down in the warm water.

 

            Mike picked up the soap and washcloth and started to calmly wash Ryan’s face and neck. Ryan who had stopped crying and was starting to calm down was now focusing on avoiding further embarrassment. He reached out his hand and I can wash myself. Mike just smiled and said “I’m sure you can but I’m going to so please move your hands baby”. Ryan meekly complied as Mike washed his back, tummy, armpits and arms. Mike then turned his attention to the lower part of Ryan’s body. Mike started with Ryan’s feet. As he washed between Ryan’s toes Ryan couldn’t help but giggle. Mike smiled and asked “Ticklish baby?” Ryan nodded and Mike filed this information away for later and proceeded to wash Ryan’s legs and knees. Then they reached the most intimate part of the bath Ryan’s privates Ryan opened his mouth to say he could do it but before he could Mike put his finger to his lips and said shhh baby I’ve got you Ryan nodded in resignation as Mike proceeded to wash his peepee and bum. Once that was complete Mike drained the tub and told Ryan to sit tight and not stand. He left the bathroom and came back with one of his own t-shirts. Mike helped Ryan to stand then dried him completely.

 

            Once he was dry Mike put his t-shirt over Ryan’s head. This shirt had a picture of Mickey Mouse on it and fell below Ryan’s knees. Mike smiled and said “this shirt a bit small for me but I figured you could use it as a nightie, you look adorable!” When Ryan just nodded, Mike said “come on baby lets get you back to bed”. To Ryan’s surprise Mike reached out and picked him up. Mike placed him on his hip and carried him out of the bathroom. Ryan was shocked when Mike carried him not to his bed but to Mike’s.

 

            Mike understanding Ryan’s confusion simply said, its pretty laud and scary outside right now and so I think it would be better if you slept in my bed, besides I don’t really feel like changing sheets right now”. Ryan just nodded he had to admit that the storm did scare him. Mike settled them both into bed with Ryan using his chest as a pillow. Ryan now feeling completely embarrassed said “I’m so sorry, it was just the storm and being in a new place”. Mike said in a reassuring whisper “sweetheart its okay, you have nothing to apologize for. Sleep baby! We’ll figure things out in the morning”. Ryan didn’t know what Mike meant by “figure things out” but he figured he would drop it for now but, there was one concern Ryan couldn’t escape. He had to ask… In a small embarrassed voice Ryan asked “but what if I wet again?” Mike held Ryan a little closer and said “don’t worry about that, I’m the adult here, so it’s my problem. I’ll take care of everything but I really don’t think it will be a problem okay love”. Ryan nodded into Mike’s chest and closed his eyes. Before closing his own eyes Mike said “goodnight again sweetheart, I’ll see you in the morning”. Just before he fell to sleep Ryan snuggled deeper into Mike’s chest and with out realizing what he was saying, said “goodnight Daddy”. Mike however was very aware of that Ryan said.  He couldn’t help by smile. He gave him a little kiss and tightened his hold around his little boy him as he drifted to sleep.

 

Part 10

 

             When Ryan awoke the next morning he was confused, He was sleeping on something soft and warm and felt as though he was being hugged. It took him a moment to remember the night before and when he did he really just wanted to forget. He closed his eyes so he could go back to sleep if only to avoid facing this situation for a little while longer. But just then he felt gentle fingers carding through his hair and Mike asked in a soft voice “You awake baby? We need to get up soon we have a lot to do today” Ryan wanted to protest at Mike’s chosen term of endearment but he realized that after the events of the night before he didn’t have a leg to stand on so he settled for mumbling “don’t want to get up” Mike chuckled and said “Okay we can have a few more minutes of cuddle time but then we have to get moving little one” Ryan snuggled more deeply into Mike as Mike reached under Ryan’s shirt moving past his naked bum and proceeded to rub Ryans shoulders and back. Ryan once again closed his eyes and basked in this feeling. He had missed cuddle time.

 

            About 20 minutes later Ryan felt Mike remove his hand from Ryan’s back and with a little tap to his uncovered bum said “I’m going to shower, you stay here all nice and tucked in until I get out okay baby” Ryan just nodded in response as Mike removed himself from the bed and placed a pillow under Ryan’s displaced head. About 15 minutes later Mike emerged from the bathroom to find Ryan’s eyes closed. He walked over to the bed and gently stroked Ryan’s cheek and said “sorry angel but it’s time to get up now”  Ryan knew that he had to obey so he opened his eyes, pulled back the covers and hopped out of the warm bed.

 

            Once out of bed Mike said “well good morning love, why don’t you go get in the shower”. Ryan for a reason unknown to him felt the need to point out “but I had a bath last night”. Mike said in a gentle but firm tone “that’s true but we did not wash your hair so you still need to shower now please be a good boy for me and get going. Do you need any help?” Ryan declined Mike’s offer for assistance and was about to head into the bathroom when Mike stopped him. Mike pulled at Ryan’s night shirt and said lets get this off so it doesn’t get wet. On instinct Ryan raised his arms so Mike could slide the shirt over his head. Ryan then realizing that he was completely naked made to cover his private parts. Mike just chuckled and said “relax baby it’s nothing I haven’t seen before, in fact it’s nothing I haven’t bathed before”. Seeing the truth in this statement Ryan relaxed and headed for the bathroom.

           

            In the bathroom, Ryan quickly brushed his teeth he then showered. He stepped out of the bathtub only to realize that he had forgotten to bring clothes in with him. So he dried himself then proceeded to exit the bathroom in just a towel. When he entered the dorm room Ryan found that Mike had laid out an outfit for him to wear.  Mike looked up from his computer when he heard Ryan emerge and said “I noticed that you forgot clothes so I figured I’d help you out.  Ryan walked over to the clothing and shrugged the outfit was fine so he dropped his towel and proceeded to get dressed. Ryan sat down on the bed to put his socks on but Mike stood up and said “let me help you baby. He first put on each of Ryan’s socks on for him then his shoes which he proceeded to tie. Ryan was about to hop down when Mike said “one more thing” he grabbed a towel and proceeded to dry Ryan’s hair more thoroughly and in a slightly admonishing tone said “you need to dry your hair better baby” Once Mike was satisfied with the state of Ryan’s hair Mike allowed him to stand up. They were on their way out the door when Mike said “grab your jacket before we go” Ryan said “It’s not cold out beside you don’t have one” Mike just looked at him and said “different rules baby now please do as I say” Ryan just nodded, He ran back, picked up his jacket and rejoined Mike who said “good boy” and took his hand as they headed for breakfast.

 

Part 11

 

            On the way to the cafeteria Mike said to Ryan “after we get our food and sit down I think we should go over some rules and general expectations okay baby” Ryan didn’t like the sound of this but said “okay”. As they walked into the cafeteria Ryan accidentally walked into a girl who was exiting.  The girl immediately said excuse me but Ryan who had always been shy around girls attempted to keep walking he was however made to stop by Mike’s unmoving hand which held his tightly. Mike looked at Ryan and said “say excuse me baby”. Ryan turned bright red, He couldn’t believe it, Mike did not just call him “baby” in front of a complete stranger. Ryan looked horrified at Mike and mumbled something incoherent. Mike looked annoyed but in a polite voice said to the girl. You’ll have to excuse him, he’s just shy. The girl said it was quite alright and went on her way. Mike then led Ryan to a corner of the cafeteria lobby and crouched down in front of him.  He looked strait at Ryan and said “what happened there baby you were kind of rude” Ryan who refused to look Mike in the eyes said “you called me baby” Mike again looked confused and said I’ve been calling baby all day, I’m not calling you a baby I’m calling you my baby It’s kind of like saying I love you”. Ryan felt touched by this statement but continued “you called me baby in front of that girl”. Realization dawned on Mike and he said “and that embarrassed you?” Ryan nodded Mike pulled him into a hug and said “I never want to embarrass you baby but I’m also not ashamed of our relationship either. I call you baby because I love you and it’s a term of endearment. I’m not going to promise not to do it in public because it comes out naturally and I’m not even usually aware of saying it so I think it’s something you will have to get used to okay baby.  Ryan looked up at Mike with questioning eyes and asked “you love me?’ Mike was a bit taken back by this question but immediately responded “of course I love you baby”. Mike gave Ryan a kiss on the forehead and said “my baby” with that Mike stood up and they proceeded into the dinning hall.

           

            Once inside the cafeteria Mike led Ryan to the pancake station. This was fine with Ryan because he loved pancakes especially chocolate chip pancakes but he knew better then to order them. Ryan was getting used to the fact that what he ate was not his decision. He looked at Mike and asked “can I have chocolate chips in my pancakes please?” Mike smiled and said ”what a good  little boy you are asking so nicely and yes baby you may have chocolate chips in your pancakes today. Mike ordered the chocolate chip pancakes for Ryan and plain for himself then they made their way to get drinks where Ryan was given milk as usual. They then proceeded to find a table.

 

            Once seat Mike began the promised conversation. “So” he began “I think it would be a good idea for us to go over the rules that we will be living by for the foreseeable future. First Mike began when we go to the store after breakfast we will be leaving campus. While we are out I expect you to hold my hand at all times and do as I say. I don’t want to lose you so we need to stay together. This leads me to the next point you are never under any circumstances to leave campus without me.  While on campus I need to know where you are at all times in fact you are never to be out of my sight without my express permission.  We have our first class of the morning together so we will go together after that though we have different classes so I will walk you to class where you will stay put in your seat until I come pick you up after class. We’ll do the same thing for our afternoon classes okay”. Ryan nodded in acknowledgment although he was not thrilled with this arrangement. Mike went on each morning we’ll wake up about 8:00, we’ll get ready and be at breakfast about 9:00 and then we have class at 10:00. Our classes end at 12:30 and we are on break until 3:30. In that time we’ll go to lunch and then return to the room where I’ll get you comfortable and put you down for your nap. Ryan wanted to protest at this statement but knew better. Mike continued after your nap you’ll have an hour of free time before classes then we go to class and at 5:30 when class ends we go to dinner. We’ll leave dinner about 6:30 and return to the room where I will immediately get you ready for bed. After that you have homework time until about 7:30. After that you have more free time until it’s time for bed. On school nights your bedtime will be 8:30 and on the weekend it will be 9:00 any questions about our schedule love?” Well Ryan had several questions but the one that came to mind was “you kept saying you’d get me ready, what did you mean by that?” Well Mike began causally “last night didn’t go so well baby so when we go to the store today we will be picking up some diapers and you will be wearing them both for naps and at nighttime. I will be diapering you and you will be a good boy for me. Got it baby?  Ryan was saddened but not shocked by this pronouncement. He nodded but asked you mean bedtime right not nighttime?” Mike shook his head and said no I meant what I said nighttime. After dinner you will be diapered and you will use your diaper. Ryan was shocked and upset but this pronouncement. Mike seeing this took Ryan’s hand and said “look baby I’m not doing this to hurt you or embarrass you. If we get you diapered earlier then we wont have to worry if you fall asleep early, plus it will help you concentrate on your homework if you have no reason to get up its one less distraction, understand? Ryan felt a little bit better about this and nodded.  Mike said “good, so a couple more things. From now on I will be helping you to dress and undress and to bathe when needed. You already know the rule about food, you have to eat at least half of every meal, and you may not have caffeine at dinner. I will allow you to have soda and things like chocolate chip pancakes as treats sometimes but we will usually eat be eating healthy. I will be putting parental monitoring software on your computer to ensure that you only use it to go to approved sites and the most important rule I am the adult, you are a child if you do as your told we will have fun if not, you get punished. A punishment might mean no dessert, early bedtime, timeout or a spanking or any combination of these”. Mike looked at Ryan “Please baby doesn’t make me punish you. I love you and I just want to keep you safe and make you happy which is why we need all of these rules. It will be great, you’ll see”. Ryan doubted that but said nothing. It didn’t matter what he thought, he was just a little boy and Mike “the adult” was in control. They finished their breakfast in silence then set off for the store Ryan only holding Mikes hand to avoid the aforementioned punishment. 

 

Part 12

 

            Their walk to the store was an eventful one. Ryan had never been to the city before and he was shocked and scared at how big, nosy and full of people it was. There were cars everywhere beeping, and people walking fast and talking loudly. He heard screaming and saw some people who looked like they might be homeless or something. Despite the face they Ryan currently felt angry, he was very glad that he had Mike with him to hold his hand and keep him safe. Also after experiencing it, he felt Mike didn’t need to make a rule about him going into the city by himself because that would never happen, it was too scary and he was too little.

 

            Once at the store, Ryan immediately found himself being led to the baby isle. Mike stopped in front of the pampers and said “I think size 7 should fit you just fine. Would you rather Sesame Street or Disney baby” Ryan looked around nervously and shrugged but Mike persisted “these are for your body, you have to wear them so I think it’s only fair that you get to choose the design. Ryan who needed this conversation to be over as soon as possible just said “I don’t care” Mike shook his head and said Disney it is then. He selected the appropriate box and put it into their cart. He then added changing pads, baby powder and rash cream to the cart. Along with an anal thermometer which he insisted was more accurate and started looking for other items they may need. This was too much for Ryan so he asked if he would go the far end of the isle were the school supplies were kept, Mike who was still in the middle of shopping said “that’s fine baby but please stay where I can see you”. Ryan nodded and went to look at the art supplies. Part of him wanted to ask for some crayons but he was too embarrassed to do so. Once Mike had finished shopping for baby items he beckoned Ryan to come to his side. When Ryan reached him He asked see anything you want baby?” Ryan shook his head no and they proceeded to personal care. Mike selected soap and shampoo for both of them Dove and pentene for himself and Johnson’s baby for Ryan. Mike selected some healthy snacks that they could keep in the room then they proceeded to the cash register to pay.

 

            As they walked back to school Ryan was glad the Mike was able to hold all of the bags because he was afraid that if he was seen carrying a bag of diapers someone might make the connection that they were for him and that was the last thing he wanted. Once back on campus they went to put their bags in their room and headed to lunch. Lunch proved to be uneventful Ryan was relatively happy with the food Mike had selected for them, he was given his soda for because he had maintained what Mike called “good boy status” since last night. He ate his required amount of food without protest and politely thanked Mike when he offered him dessert. As they were about to get up Mike said to Ryan “I’m so proud of they way you have been behaving today, you handled our conversation about the rules really well and you were so good when we went to the store. You even ate your lunch. You’re the best little boy in the whole world and I love you very much baby. I’m sooo proud of you! Now come on, I think its naptime”. Mike stood up and offered Ryan his hand. Ryan took it without protest and smiled in spite of himself. Although he was not happy about the idea of being diapered by Mike and put down for a nap, he felt happy that Mike had called him a “good boy and said that he was proud of him. They walked back toward their room and Ryan’s first college diapering.  

 

Part 13

 

            Once they reached the room Mike said “Okay love, please go sit on my bed. You’ll be taking your nap there today because I still haven’t changed your sheets, that’s one of the things I plan to do after I put you down. Ryan complied, Mike could tell he was feeling nervous. Mike too was feeling nervous but he took a breath and walked over to his bed.

 

            He started by removing Ryan’s shoes then his socks. While doing this Mike was struck by how small Ryan’s feet were. He took Ryan’s foot in his hand and asked “what size shoe do you wear baby?”  Ryan looked a bit embarrassed but said “size 3 sometimes 2.5” Mike took his forefinger and ran it gently down the sole of Ryan’s foot and said “you have the cutest little feet baby” Ryan being ticklish couldn’t help but giggle. Mike smiled and said “oh I’m sorry baby is you ticklish”. Ryan fervently nodded so Mike went on “then you probably wouldn’t like it if I did this again” and he again brushed his finger down Ryan’s foot “how about this” Mike said as he tickled between Ryan’s toes “or this baby” and used his fingers to vigorously tickle Ryan’s sole. By this point Ryan was in hysterics and flailing around the bed. He was laughing so hard that he was crying and he was unable to speak as Mike kept up his attack and he was unable to escape. Mike was very big and strong and he was just a little boy. Then he felt a sudden strong urge to pee. He struggled to find his voice and said “stttoppp I hhha haha ve tooooo” but it was already too late, Ryan lost control and wet his pants.

 

            His tears of laughter turned to tears of shame and he sobbed. Mike saw this and immediately stopped tickling. He said in a soft voice “Oh baby I’m so, so sorry” He sat down on the bed and pulled Ryan onto his lap. Mike slowly rocked Ryan until he had stopped crying and was calm.  Mike looked down at Ryan and said “You okay sweetheart” When Ryan weakly nodded Mike went on “okay then let’s get you changed”. Mike got up and got a diaper and the needed supplies then returned to where Ryan still lay slightly out of breath. Mike started by pulling off Ryan’s shirt, then he unbuttoned Ryan’s pants and pulled them off. He finish by removing Ryan’s now wet underwear. Once Ryan was naked, Mike asked him to raise his bottom and placed a diaper under him. Mike took a paper towel and dried Ryan’s private area. Mike looked at Ryan and said “I’m going to put some cream on you okay baby?” Ryan nodded his consent so Mike some took Rash cream and gently rubbed it both on Ryan’s peepee and bum Finally Mike sprinkled baby powder on to Ryan’s area and gently rubbed that in. Mike then fastened the tapes and Ryan was snuggly diapered.

 

            Mike then told Ryan to lay still as he put away the diaper supplies and pulled his desk chair next to the bed and sat down, He held out his arms and said to Ryan “ now come here baby” Ryan looked at Mike in surprise and said “but I thought I had to take a nap”. Mike nodded and said “you do but I thought you might like a cuddle first”. Ryan did not need to be told twice he scrambled to get off the bed. Mike then lifted Ryan onto his lap and positioned him so he was laying in Mikes arms. Ryan looked up at Mike who gave Ryan a kiss on the cheek and said “close your eyes and rest baby, just try and rest”. Ryan closed his eyes. He felt warm and safe as he fell to sleep in Mike’s arms.

 

Part 14

 

            Mike could feel Ryan’s breathing even out as he held him but we waited and extra few minutes to ensure that he was truly asleep before standing up with Ryan in his arms and transplanting him to the bed. After putting him down and tucking him in Mike gave Ryan another kiss on the forehead and started to do some general housekeeping and picking up. Mike gathered all of his and Ryan’s dirty clothes and put them into his hamper. He then stripped Ryan’s bed. Next he unpacked the food they had gotten at store and converted 2 of their shelves to a diaper supplies station. Mike didn’t mind doing these kinds of chores. Cleaning, organizing and laundry were adult work, somewhere along the way Mike had decided that none of these things would be Ryan’s responsibility, he would do it all. After all how is it fare to be made to live like a small child if you get none of the rewards? Mike was intent on making sure that Ryan was given as many rewards as possible. There would be cuddle time every day, lots of cuddle time and he would provide lots of kisses and hugs. Toys! He thought, he had to get toys, and coloring books and crayons! There would be special days out for good boy behavior, lots of praise. They needed a bedtime ritual! So… storybooks and a comfort object, maybe a teddy or a monkey. They needed so much. Mike decided that he would skip his second class the next day to go shopping for supplies. This was more important they reading a syllabus. Mike sat down at his computers and looked up the location of a toy story. He was in luck! There was one within walking distance. He would go tomorrow; he wanted to make his little boy as happy as possible.

 

            Mike went and got a clean set of sheets and remade Ryan’s bed. He then sat down on the bed and looked over to Ryan’s sleeping form in his own bad. What he saw made him chuckle, Ryan was sound asleep but somehow his thumb had found its way to his mouth. As cute as this was (and it was adorable) Mike knew that he couldn’t allow this behavior to continue, it was bad for Ryan’s teeth. Well he thought at least I’m not completely unprepared. He walked over to the shelves where he had set up the changing supplies and from a small bag extracted a pacifier which he had gotten “just in case”. He walked back over to Ryan and gently removed his thumb from his mouth. Ryan opened his eyes when Mike did this but Mike quickly soothed him by stroking his cheek and saying “its okay baby just go back to sleep” Ryan nodded and quickly dropped back off. As he did Mike inserted the pacifier into Ryan’s mouth. Ryan began to rhythmically suck on his new binkie without missing a beat.

 

            Mike sat to watch Ryan sleep. He was mesmerized, He stared adoringly as Ryan slept in just a diaper and he nursed his pacifier. A stuffed animal he thought would really complete this picture. He couldn’t get over how adorable Ryan was! So small and cute He was also polite, respectful and obedient, such a good little boy! Mike’s heart filled with love as he thought of Ryan. He knew that he loved Ryan. He would do anything to make him happy. He had another thought, he hated the idea of punishing Ryan but he knew that would happen too. It was his job to keep Ryan safe even if it meant making his little boy cry. He love Ryan that much, more then anything else. In just one day Ryan had become his most precious thing, the center of his world, his little boy, his baby really. He had even called him “daddy”. He had only done it one time but it was the happiest moment of Mike’s life and he really hoped he would hear that beautiful word come from his little boy sweet little mouth again, but he couldn’t push. It would happen in its own time.

 

            Just then he looked at the clock and realized that Ryan had been sleeping for over an hour. He thought it was probably time to wake him up when Ryan opened his eyes blinked twice and sat up. Mike smiled at him and said “sleep well baby” Ryan nodded, took out his pacifier without even really noticing it and in a groggy voice said “Daddy I think I’m wet!”

 

Part 15

 

            Ryan realizing what he just said turned bright crimson and clapped his hand to his mouth. In a frantic voice he said “Mike! I’m sorry I meant Mike”. Mike stood up and walked over to Ryan he gently brushed his cheek with his finger and said “its okay baby you can call me daddy if you want. In fact I’d love it”. When Ryan didn’t respond Mike said “well how about we get you changed and into a dry diaper!” Ryan froze looking sad and said, “But I don’t need diapers in the day”. Mike responded “well that’s true but we aren’t going anywhere this afternoon so I think you should get used to being in your diaper, after all you will be diapered every evening after dinner. You can change back into big boy clothes after your next change. Okay baby” Ryan obediently nodded and he lay down and allowed Mike to change his wet diaper.

 

            After Mike had Ryan securely taped into another clean diaper he said “it’s not cold in here right now baby so how about you hang out in just your diaper” Ryan was not cold but he was shy so he said nothing. Mike reading Ryan’s expression said “come on love there’s no reason to be shy around me, I change your diapers now, I’ve seen you naked, I’ve even given you a bath. There is no reason to be embarrassed about me seeing you in a diaper that I put you in. Ryan seeing the truth in this statement nodded. Mike said “okay good, hay how about I let you play on my Facebook for a while” Ryan loved this idea and happily nodded. Mike then picked Ryan up and carried him to his desk where he sat down with Ryan on his lap and allowed him to play games on Facebook.

 

            After about an hour of games Ryan had a sudden thought he stopped playing and turned around in Mikes lap. He looked at Mike and said “Da… I mean Mike I have a question. Mike smiled sadly but thought it’s just going to take time so he responded “yes baby what’s up”. All of a sudden Ryan felt shy and he whispered “What if I’m diapered and well… you know”. Mike was confused so he said “no baby I don’t know” Ryan turned pink and said “you know what if I have too do the other thing…” Seeing Mike was still confused Ryan searched for the appropriate word and finally said “you know poops while I’m in my diaper” Mike smiled and said “Oh I see… well baby if you need to makes poops while you are diapered you can tell me and I’ll help you get to the bathroom. For now at least you don’t have to use for a diaper for that, but you can if want or need to. I won’t ever mind changing you little one. I mean it’s a dirty job but somebody has to do it and it’s my job to take care of you however you need, poopie diapers and all, okay baby?” Ryan nodded, Mike had a sudden thought, and he said “you know baby I can thing of one benefit of you wearing a diaper? Ryan said “what?” Mike responded “I can tickle you all I want now”. With that Mike began to mercilessly tickle Ryan’s very exposed body focusing his assault on Ryan’s tummy and feet. Ryan was squirming all over Mikes lap and laughing hysterically. By the end Ryan had wet his diaper. He looked at Mike sadly and said “I’m wet, I always wet when I get tickled”. Mike just gave him a little squeeze and said “but you’re wearing a diaper this time so its okay baby now how about we get you changed into your clothes again so we can go to dinner early tonight. Its 4:30 now so we’ll go at 5:00. Mike lifted Ryan off his lap and carried him to his bed where he had placed his folded clothes. Mike removed Ryan’s diaper then proceeded to dress Ryan as one would dress a small child. Occasionally he would request Ryan add some minor assistance such as “raise your arms love” or “baby point your toes for me” but Mike was always in control. Ryan by this point was used to this and accepted this treatment as almost normal. Once he was dressed Mike suggested that Ryan use the bathroom and reminded him that he had to remember that he was not wearing a diaper right now. Ryan flushed red but did as he was told. When he reentered the room, Mike helped Ryan put on his shoes and socks then they set out for Dinner holding hand as usual.

 

Part 16

 

            Dinner went very well, Ryan who now knew Mike’s rules and what was expected of him ate the food that he was given without complaint, he didn’t argue about his drink and he didn’t even fuss when Mike tucked a napkin into the front of his shirt to protect it in case Ryan spilled any of his pasta. By the end of the meal Ryan who had always been a messy eater was a mess. His face was covered in pasta sauce as was the napkin which protected his shirt. Once they were done eating Mike removed the napkin bib from Ryan’s shirt. He looked at Ryan’s sauce covered face shook his head, he gently took hold of Ryan’s chin and used the same napkin to wipe Ryan’s face clean. Even this obvious parental gesture did not cause Ryan to act out. All and all Mike was very impressed with how his good boy was behaving, He only hoped it would last, the night was far from over however for the moment things were great. Ryan was rewarded for his good behavior by getting to select his own dessert. He held Mikes Hand as they walked to the dessert table and selected a big brownie. As Ryan finished dessert he was told that it was time to head back to the room to begin “bedtime stuff”. Ryan finished his brownie and left holding Mike’s hand without complaint.

 

            As they walked back to their Room Mike gave Ryan some news which he knew would not go over so well. He took a deep breath and said “so baby when we get back to the room, your going to get right into the bath”. Ryan said in a whinny voice “but I just took a shower this morning?” Mike knew he would face this reaction and he hadn’t even dropped the bomb yet, however he could not let this tone slide so he said in a firm voice “You know that I don’t speak whine, and yes I remember that you showered this morning but normally you will be bathing at night so I want to begin that routine besides I will be helping you take your bath tonight”. Ryan was taken back by this pronouncement and asked “why?”  Mike knew this might go badly but he was ready and he couldn’t lie to Ryan, still he thought, damage control so he stopped walking and crouched down in front of him. He said in a low voice I’ll be giving you your bath tonight baby because now that your back in diapers we need to remove your body hair, diapers and grown up hair just don’t mix well together so I have to shave you”. This was too much for Ryan. He pulled back from Mikes grip and yelled “Nooo! You can’t, I won’t let you” Ryan had never been very hairy but he had some fine yet visible hair on his arms and legs and a small but solid bush on his private area. He was proud if his hair, it was one of the only things that made him recognizable as an adult. He couldn’t give it up.

 

            Mike could see that Ryan was in a lot of pain and part of him wanted to let this go but he knew he couldn’t do that. What he was going was for the best. Urine soaked hair can lead to bacteria and bacteria sometimes leads to infection and he would never forgive himself if Ryan got an infection because he wasn’t willing to put up with an angry, sad child. He was the adult, he could take it, and in fact he told himself your children aren’t always supposed to like you! So he gathered his strength put his hand gently on Ryan’s shoulders and said in a firm voice “you do not speak to me that way baby! Am I yelling at you?” Ryan who was crying by this point only shook his head. Mike continued “so please don’t yell at me, now this will be happening because you could get sick otherwise so I expect you to be a good boy and cooperate with me! Understood baby?” Ryan once again attempted to pull away from Mike. Mike could see that Ryan was not ready to accept this so he tried again “I’m sorry if this upsets you sweetheart but I’m the adult here and you are the child which means I makes these decisions weather you like them or not. But I promise this will be okay love really it’s not that bad please trust me!” Once again Ryan screamed noo! and attempted to extract himself from mike grip. Mike could see that this was getting him nowhere so he pulled Ryan into his chest and held him there for a moment. Ryan was still sobbing and attempting to hit Mike at this point. Mike whispered “I love you baby” into Ryan’s ear as he stood up with Ryan still cradled in his arms struggling to get free “but” he continued “if you don’t stop right now you will get a spanking when we get upstairs” This was enough to make Ryan stop. He immediately went limp in Mike’s arms but continued to sob brokenly. Mike felt bad, his little boy was in pain and he wanted to make it better. He kissed Ryan’s hair and said “good boy thank you for listening! I promise you baby this is not that big of a deal and if you’re a good little boy for me tonight I have a big surprise for you tomorrow. But I don’t reward little boys who misbehave. so please trust me baby! I’d never hurt you, I love you”. Ryan heard Mike’s words but was too sad, too tired, too defeated to respond. He simply stayed quiet and allowed himself to be carried back to the room. Although he did not like what was coming he didn’t have a choice but to accept it. This was yet another decision that he could not make because he was just a little boy and Mike had already decided so he would obey.

 

Part 17

 

            As they entered their building Mike noticed Ryan laid his head on his shoulder. By the time they were climbing the stairs Ryan had rapped his legs around Mike’s waist and his arms around Mike’s neck. Mike was surprised by this show of affection but realized that like all small children Ryan currently was struggling with his need to receive love and comfort from his parent and his feelings of hurt and anger at that same parent. It appeared that Ryan’s need for comfort was currently winning and Mike planned to take advantage of that.

 

            When they reached their door Mike shifted Ryan onto his hip and found his key. He unlocked their door and entered the room.  Mike walked across the room and sat down on his bed so that Ryan sitting across his lap with his head resting against Mike’s chest. Mike began to slowly rock Ryan in his arms as he murmured words of comfort and love. Every so often he would he would drop a kiss on Ryan’s cheek or forehead. Slowly Ryan seemed to respond to Mike’s attentions and was eventually able to say in a small voice “I’m sorry I was bad Da… Mike” In a gentle and reassuring voice, Mike said “oh baby your never bad. Your behavior wasn’t the best but you were upset and were able to calm down so I’m actually very proud of you for that. You’re still my good boy, always and forever!” This statement made Ryan snuggle more deeply into Mike’s chest Mike proceeded “now I know that you are not looking forward to this but we have to do it so is my good boy read to show me how well behaved he can be?” Ryan nodded and Mike again kissed his forehead and said “such a good little boy, so we are going to get you in the bath then I will shave your arms and legs then your private area, I don’t think you have hair anywhere else so we should be okay.” Ryan didn’t argue this time but he did ask “why do we have to shave my whole body, can’t we just do my crotch?” Mike felt bad but said “no baby you’ll be wearing diapers both at naptime and at night. You won’t want to bathe twice a day and anyway we don’t really have time. We can’t guarantee that you’ll never leak or have an accident and when those things happen pee sticks to hair. It can start to smell or even make you sick and I know you don’t want to walk around being a smelly little boy and I can’t let you get sick so we have to keep you clean shaven. Ryan nodded in understanding and acceptance as a few tears slid down his cheeks.

 

            Mike wipes these away and asked “Why is this bothering you so much baby no one even sees this hair”. Ryan took a deep breath and searched for the right words finally he said I’m short and thin. I look like a 10 year old, I wet the bed and need to wear diapers which I can’t change on my own. I’m still such a little boy that I need you to give me a bedtime and take care of me. My body hair is one of the only things that I have that proves that I’m an adult!

 

            Mike thought for a minute, he had to proceed gently. He said in as kind a voice as possible “but baby your not an adult, you’re a little boy if ever I’ve seen one. For all of the reasons you said and more. You were right when you said you needed to be taken care of and that’s okay because you’re just a little boy physically and emotionally and I love you so much. You’re my little boy and it’s my job to take care of you. You need to accept that baby and I think your hair is standing in the way of you accepting the truth”.

 

            Mike had an idea, He stood up and brought Ryan to the full length mirror which hung on their closet door and put him down in front of it.  Mike knelt down in front of Ryan and started to untie his shoes as he removed them he said “baby do you remember what I said would happen if you used bad behavior?” Ryan looked scared and nodded. As Mike pulled off Ryan’s socks he continue “what did I say” Ryan meekly reported I’d get punished… a spanking”. Mike smiled encouragingly and said that’s right baby now do adults get punished? Do they get spankings?” not waiting for a response mike pulled Ryan’s shirt over his head. Once Ryan was shirtless he shook his head no. Mike continued “that’s right baby, As Mike unbuttoned Ryan’s pants and allowed them to fall to the ground he said “baby you take naps everyday and have a bedtime, who usually needs naps and bedtimes?” Ryan looked down at his fallen pants and responded “little kids do” Mike said “Yes baby now please step out of your pants!” Ryan obeyed. Mike continued “sweetheart I love to cuddle and hold you but you need to be cuddled and held, who else needs to be held like you? Again Ryan responded “little kids” and Mike went on “I tell you what and how much to eat. Do adults need this kind of help?” Ryan shook his head no. Mike went on “I hold your hand to keep you safe and sometimes I carry you. Do you know any adult who need to hold hand’s or get carried”. Ryan’s eyes sparkled with tears as he said no.  Mike then lowered the boom. “You need diapers to keep your bed dry love. Do adults need diapers or do little kids?” tears streamed down Ryan’s face as he said “really little kids need diapers” Mike pulled off Ryan’s underwear which left him naked and wiped away Ryan’s tears then said “yes baby that’s true now please look at yourself and tell me what you see!” Ryan look at himself naked in the mirror, he took in his size and weight. His flawless skin and lack of muscle tone and finally his tear stained baby face. Except for his body hair he could easily pass for a 10 year old, and he acted even younger! He knew the answer he had to give. In a clear but broken voice Ryan said “a little boy with no clothes on!” Mike said “me too baby, now as a little boy do you think you need body hair because I don’t even think it looks right on you. It doesn’t match up with your appearance or your actions does it? Ryan knew the right answer and he shook his head no”. “So then” Mike continued “let’s take care of that okay baby”. Ryan nodded and launched himself into Mike’s arms sobbing. Acceptance washing over Him, Ryan cried for a long time as Mike held his naked little boy and attempted to sooth his cries.

 

Part 18

 

            After Ryan had calmed down a bit Mike carried him to the bathroom. Mike started the bath water then sat on the toilet seat with Ryan still in his arms. Ryan was still crying and clinging to him and Mike did not want to end the physical contact before Ryan was ready so he sat and cuddled him rubbing his back and stroking his hair at the same time. By the time the tub was full, Ryan has stopped crying so Mike helped him to stand and get in his bath.

 

            Mike knelt down next to the tub. He took the soap in his hand and gently washed Ryan’s face. Next he moved to Ryan’s neck. Slowly and gently Mike washed Ryan’s entire body stopping only momentarily to enjoy Ryan’s giggles as he washed his ticklish bits. He realized that Ryan’s laugh was his favorite sound in the world and promised himself that he would do whatever he could to help Ryan laugh more often. Once Mike had cleaned Ryan completely he reached into the bathroom cabinet and got his razor. Mike looked at Ryan and said “Ryan, Baby look at me!” Ryan complied and Mike continued I’m going to be using a razor blade to shave you so I need you to stay still and let me work. I promise I won’t hurt you but you have to be really good for me and cooperate, ok”. Ryan nodded and Mike got to work.

 

            First Mike took Ryan’s face in his hand. He stroked his cheek and said “do you shave your face baby you’re very smooth”. Ryan Shook his head and said “no I don’t have to”. Mike said “good, that makes things easier”. Next Mike rubbed Ryan’s arm and said we’ll start here. Mike took shaving cream and lathered up Ryan’s arm and proceeded to slowly remove all of the hair from his arm. When he was satisfied with his work he moved on to the other arm. Once both arms were hairless, Mike shaved Ryan’s chest than he lifted Ryan’s foot and shaved his leg. Putting it back in the water Mike said encouragingly, we’re almost done baby”. Mike shaved Ryan’s other leg then drained most of the water from the tub and had Ryan lay down. Mike spread shaving cream on Ryan’s crotch and gently shaved his private area. With this was done Ryan was hairless.  Mike, satisfied with his work helped Ryan to stand and step out of the tub. Once out of the tube Mike folded Ryan into a towel and dried him from head to toe. As Mike dried Ryan he said to him “see baby it wasn’t that bad”. When Ryan just shrugged Mike said gently “you’ll get used to it I promise”. Once Ryan was dry Mike picked him up still naked and carried him to his bed where Mike had laid out a changing pad. Mike placed Ryan on the pad.

 

            Mike told Ryan to be still while he stepped away from him to get the changing supplies.  He then returned to Ryan’s side with the needed diaper things and a bottle of body lotion. Ryan looked up at Mike with still red eyes and asked “what’s the lotion for da,ummm Mike I mean Mike! Why do I keep doing that?” Mike deciding to address Ryan’s questions in order said “Well baby I’m going to give you a message with lotion to make sure that your skin doesn’t get irritated by the shaving plus this will help to keep your skin nice and soft. I promise it will feel really good okay baby”. Ryan nodded and as Mike squirted lotion on to his hands and rubbed them together to warm it up. Ryan saw this and gave Mike a questioning look. Correctly interpreting Ryan’s question Mike answered “I’m worming the lotion and my hands, I don’t want to make my baby cold”.

 

            Mike asked Ryan to lie on his tummy. Once Ryan had flipped over Mike began to slowly work the lotion into his back starting by rubbing his shoulders then moving to his lower back. Mike moved down to Ryan bum then had Ryan Flip over so he could do Ryan’s front. It was at this point that Mike chose to address Ryan’s other question. As he rubbed Ryan’s arms he began “I’ve been thinking baby and the way I see it you keep almost calling me daddy because it feels natural to you. You are doing it without thinking. You actually have called me daddy twice, both times you were sleepy. Now you keep catching yourself and that’s fine but I want you to know that I love you well... you know that I think but I love you sooo much and I would love to be your daddy, I already think of you as my baby and I’m here to take care of you and that’s not going to change no matter what you call me but just think about it because you’re my baby no matter what and If you want me to be your daddy then I am. Just think about it baby your heart knows what it wants”. Ryan nodded, Mike finished with Ryan’s arms and moved on to his tummy. He then did Ryan’s legs leaving Ryan’s very ticklish feet for last. Mike slowly and gently ran his lotion covered hands down both of Ryan’s feet and he wasn’t disappointed by Ryan’s reaction. He was giggling and squirming in and effort to escape Mike’s grasp. Mike kept tickling Ryan for a moment but stopped before Ryan got so worked up that he had an accident Mike would never intentionally embarrass his little boy. Once he stopped tickling and lotioning Ryan’s feet he gave the sole of each foot a little kiss and said “thank you for being such a good boy today baby, I know it was hard. But you did great. Now let’s get you into a nice diaper”. Mike quickly diapered Ryan. Once Ryan was diapered Mike helped him to sit up and pulled the shirt that Ryan had worn the night before out of a draw.  He said “you can wear your nightie again tonight, it’s still clean and you look so cute in it, actually I have to look because I know that I have more cartoon shirts that are too young for me but would make perfect night shirts for you. Please raise your arms baby”. Ryan obeyed and Mike slide the shirt over his head and it fell to his knees.

 

            Mike looked at the clock, it was already 7:30 and he wanted to get Ryan into bed early. Tomorrow was an important day and he could tell the little boy was tired besides he needed some adult time. Figuring it was best to be a little sneaky Mike sent Ryan to the bathroom to brush his teeth then found Ryan’s pacifier here it had been discarded on his own bed. He quickly kicked off his shoes and lay down in Ryan’s Bed where he was waiting when Ryan came out of the bathroom. Mike held his arms open to Ryan and said “come here baby I want to cuddle”. Ryan Ran to Mike and jumped none too gently into his embrace. Mike pulled him close and kissed his cheek. Mike asked ‘Baby do you want your binkie” Ryan looked confused and asked “my what?” Mike pulled out the pacifier and said “you don’t remember? You were sucking your thumb at naptime which isn’t good so I gave you a binkie and you seemed to really like it, you used it anyway, do you want it now?” Ryan looked embarrassed and said “no that’s fine”. Mike said “okay but if you start to suck your thumb I’ll switch okay” Mike slipped his hand under Ryan’s shirt and began to gently rub his back. Ryan rested his head on Mike’s chest and his eyes began to drift closed. Mike looked down at his little boy and watched Ryan begin to fall to sleep then jerk his eyes open in an effort to stay awake. Mike said “Come on baby it’s time for sleep”. Ryan said in the whiny tone of a sleepy boy “but daddmike it’s not my bedtime yet” Mike said in a soft tone “yes baby but after the day you’ve had any little boy would need an early bedtime, besides who’s the grown up here?” In a sleepy voice Ryan answered “you are” Mike continued and “who’s the little boy” Ryan half slurred “mee” Mike went on “and good little boy’s do as their told which means it’s bedtime baby”. Ryan was too sleepy to argue already half asleep me mumbled into Mike’s chest “good night daddy” Mike chuckled and continued to hold Ryan until he was sure that he was asleep. 

 

            Once Ryan’s breathing had evened out Mike extracted himself from the bed and tucked Ryan in. He bent down, he kissed Ryan goodnight inserted his binkie which Ryan immediately began to such. Mike then looked at the clock, He was proud of himself. It was 8:00 and he had already bathed, diapered his little boy and put him to bed. Mike made his shopping list for the next day and decided that he would go shopping in the afternoon after dropping Ryan off at class.  Both of Ryan afternoon classes took place in the same room so he would not need to be walked to class and If worse came to worse he could go to class late or just pick Ryan up after. This way he could take his time shopping without having to get a sitter for Ryan, although he though he would have to find a sitter soon. He loved being a parent but he still planned to have a small social life and he wouldn’t let just anyone care for his baby so it would take time to find the right person.  After completing his list Mike watched TV and played on the computer until 12:30 then he went to bed.

 

Part 19

           

            Mike was awoken at 2:45 am by a crash and the sound of crying. He opened his eyes and jumped out of bed. Ryan was on the ground sobbing. Mike knelt down and in a worried voice asked “baby what’s wrong, what happened?”  Ryan was shaking and crying but he managed to get out the word “fell” Mike took a relieved breath a fall he could handle. He lifted Ryan into his embrace and slowly began to rock him in his arms while whispering words of comfort and love. In a short time Ryan’s sobs turned to gentle crying so Mike sat down on his bed positioning Ryan so he was cradled against his chest and asked “you okay baby did you get hurt when you fell out of bed?” Ryan shook his head no but said “scared Daddy” Mike smiled reassuringly down at Ryan. He felt happy! Two daddies in one night, it was progress still he thought, Ryan was half asleep both times but still they were moving in the right direction. In a gentle voice Mike said “I know baby, it scared Daddy too but I think you’re okay”. He gave Ryan a kiss on his forehead and cheek then said “how about you sleep with Daddy tonight?” Ryan smiled and nodded his approval, it appeared that he didn’t pick up on the fact that Mike was referring to himself as daddy right now. Maybe Mike thought he’s just too tired or maybe it feels right to him. Mike Laid back down with Ryan settling in on his chest and reinserted Ryan binkie. Ryan took it without protest and closed his eyes. He had been scared. But his daddy had calmed him down and cuddled him and now he felt safe and warm and loved because Mike or… Daddy would be there to hold him and protect him all night long. This was Ryan’s final thought before he dropped back off to sleep. Mike feeling his little boy drop off was able to close his eyes and sleep himself, feeling safe in the knowledge that nothing could happen to his baby while he was safe in his daddy’s arms.

 

            The next morning when the alarm clock went off Mike was immediately aware that something was wrong, but he couldn’t figure out what it was. He made to shut off the alarm then it hit him, it was too easy, his movement was unrestricted. There was no weight on his chest! Ryan wasn’t in bed! Mike sprang from his bed frantic only to find Ryan lying on the rug propped up on his tummy still in his night shirt. He was drawing with pencils and absentmindedly scuffing his bare feet against the cold tile floor and nursing his binkie. Relief washed over Mike as he began to breathe again.

 

            In his best parental voice Mike gave Ryan a stern look and said “just what do you think you are doing little boy” Ryan immediately knew he was in trouble but he couldn’t figure out why so he removed his pacifier and said “morning daddy umm Mike umm daddy” Ryan was nervous but he went on “I’m drawing see” and he showed Mike the picture he had been working on. Mike said, I do see and it’s very good baby but I also see that my little boy is out of bed without permission. Ryan catching on to the problem said in his best little boy voice “but I wasn’t tired anymore daddy, I slept for over 11 hour plus you never said not to get up on my own”. Mike looked thoughtfully down at Ryan and asked “I didn’t baby?” Ryan who could tell he was winning this one fervently nodded and excitedly kicked his feet as he said “you didn’t daddy, you didn’t, I remember daddy and you never did!” Mike who was overjoyed that Ryan was calling him daddy while awake reached down and lifted him into his arms. He pulled Ryan against his chest and said “its okay baby you just really scared daddy and for now on the rule is you stay where daddy puts you unless you have permission understood?” Ryan rapped his arms around Mike’s neck and his legs around his waist. He laid his head on Mike’s shoulder and said “yes daddy can we cuddle now” Mike said “sure baby” and sat down to have a nice wake up cuddle with his little boy.   

 

Part 20

 

            About 20 minutes later Ryan who was thoroughly enjoying his cuddle time with daddy was also becoming uncomfortable. He had woken up wet but knew better then to remove his diaper and he did not want to wake Mike up. Though as it turned out that would have been the smart thing to do, he knew that Daddy wanted to punish him and that he had only gotten off because of a technicality and his own prodigious cuteness. He had wet again while he waited for daddy to wake and another time while they were cuddling so his diaper had pretty much reached its limit plus he was growing cold. Ryan knew what he had to do. Removing his head from where it rested under Mikes chin and gathering all of his courage he looked up at his Daddy. Without thinking about it he gave Mike a kiss on the cheek then asked “Daddy will you change me?”

 

            To say that Mike was impressed by his little boy’s behavior was an understatement. He gave Ryan a squeeze and responded “thank you for the kiss baby and of course I’ll change you. Daddy will always change you, that’s my job! Come on we need to start getting ready anyway. Mike stood up and held Ryan on his hip while he gathered the needed supplies. He then laid Ryan on his bed and quickly removed his diaper and cleaned him off. Mike instructed Ryan not to not to move from his bed while he went to Ryan’s dresser to select an outfit for him to wear. Mike selected underwear, socks, jeans and a sweater. He realized as he looked through Ryan’s wardrobe that he was not impressed with the clothing that he saw.  This clothing was very generic and far too old for Ryan. His little boy was too cute to be dressing in these clothes. He would add clothing to his shopping list as well as something to prevent Ryan from falling out of bed. He would take every precaution necessary to ensure that his baby didn’t get hurt.

 

            Mike returned to Ryan with his clothes and dressed him. Mike then looked at the clock and realized that they were running late so he parked Ryan in front of the television and put cartoons on for him. Mike took Ryan’s chin in his hand and looked into his eyes. He said “remember our new rule baby, you stay where daddy puts you! Above all else, do not open the door or answer the phone. You can let the phone go to voicemail and if someone knocks call me but do not answer okay baby?” Ryan nodded and said “yes Daddy” Mike bent down and gave him a kiss on the cheek and said “good boy”. Mike then went off to the bathroom and took his shower. He quickly dressed and left the bathroom. Mike put on Ryan’s socks, shoes and jacket and they left for breakfast. As Mike took Ryan’s hand he said “we’ll have to eat cold cereal today baby we’re running late, Class starts in half an hour”.  This didn’t bother Ryan much so he just nodded and said “yes Daddy that fine”

 

            Once they reached the dinning hall Mike quickly got 2 bowls and got cheerios for himself. Thinking his little boy might rather a sweet cereal, Mike asked “would you rather Lucky charms or Fruity Pebbles baby” Ryan smiled and responded “Fruity Pebbles please um… Mike”. Mike felt hurt by the change in title. He hoped he hadn’t done something to upset Ryan without meaning too. He couldn’t dwell on it now though, they were late! They got milk for their cereal and to drink then sat down. Mike rushed them through breakfast then practically had to drag Ryan to class, however his efforts paid off, they walked into class and sat down just before class began. 

 

Part 21

 

            In their first class Mike and Ryan took seats in the back. Mike chose to sit in the back of the classroom because it would be less disruptive if Ryan needed any attention while the professor was teaching. However, Mike also worried that because of Ryan’s small size he might not be able to see over other people’s heads. Ryan however solved this problem on his own. He sat down in his seat and to Mike’s surprise began to untie both of his shoes. He then removed them and peeled off his socks. Although Mike was confused and a little annoyed he said nothing. He would not embarrass Ryan in front of a room full of strangers, Ryan was already sensitive about their situation to begin with. Besides, Ryan it turned out had a plan. Mike watched as Ryan repositioned himself in his seat so that he was knelling on his chair and sitting on his heels. This gave Ryan an extra few inches of height and made it possible for him better see and participate. Mike couldn’t help but be proud of his smart little boy as he watched him raise his hand to respond to something the professor had said. This was a different side of Ryan. Mike noticed that when his little boy spoke in class his voice was more confidant and self assured. Ryan still appeared just as cute and no less vulnerable, he just seemed at home in the classroom. Mike promised himself that he would do whatever it took to help Ryan feel just as safe and at home with him after all he was Ryan’s daddy.

 

            When their first class ended, people began to stand up and file out, Mike however held Ryan back. He had to put Ryan back in his shoes and anyway they had about 30 minutes until their next classes and Mike wanted to ensure that Ryan was prepared for their separation even though he knew that he wasn’t ready for it himself. The idea of leaving his sweet little boy all by himself in a room full of adults terrified him. He could only imagine how Ryan’s uncle felt dropping him off at school and he knew they both felt relieved that things had work out the way they had. There was something innately pure, cute and innocent about Ryan that made you want to take care of him. If someone had told Mike that as a college freshman he would be changing diapers, setting bedtimes and being a daddy to his 18 year old roommate we would have said without a doubt that that person was crazy, but then Mike met Ryan and from the moment he saw him he knew that he was meant to be Ryan’s daddy and Ryan was meant to be his little boy, they just fit together somehow.

 

            Mike saw Ryan bend down to get his shoes but stopped him. He said “let me do that for you baby” Ryan looked around apprehensively for a moment then smiled and said “okay Daddy thanks” Mike gave Ryan the smallest of bewildered looked before reaching down to collect his socks and shoes. So he was daddy again? Well… he’d ask later. Mike looked as Ryan and asked “are you going to take off your shoes in the next class love?” Ryan shrugged “maybe, I usually do why do you mind daddy?” Mike shook his head and said “no baby if you’re comfortable that way it’s fine, we’ll just leave your socks off for now then.” Ryan nodded and allowed his feet to be fed into his waiting shoes then he and mike set off for his next class.

 

            On the way to class Mike stopped at a bathroom and told Ryan to “go potty” although he didn’t appreciate the babyish word Ryan did have to go so he did as daddy asked. Ryan picked a bathroom stall and walked in but to his horror Mike walked in behind him. Ryan was extremely nervous and spluttered “Daddy. What are you doing?” Mike smiled and said don’t worry baby there’s no one else in here and I noticed during changing that you just don’t wipe that well so I thought I’d help you out. Its okay love just do your thing.” Ryan still looking mortified sat down on the toilet and to his surprise almost immediately he both peed and popped in the toilet. It happened so fast that Ryan seriously wondered if he might not have had an accident if he had waited too much longer. Once Ryan has finished he stood up He reached for the toilet paper but Mike stopped him and said “I’ll do it baby” Mike rapped some paper around his hand and proceeded to wipe Ryan clean while he stood their trying to be a good boy but feeling very uncomfortable. Once Mike was satisfied he said “all set love lets go wash our hands” They both washed their hands then left the bathroom.

 

            They arrived at Ryan’s class early and the room was empty.  Mike led Ryan to a center seat in the front row right in front of the professor’s desk. Ryan who was not happy about this Whined “but Daddy I want to sit in the back again!” Mike looked down at Ryan and said “Remember baby Daddy does not speak whine! And I want you to sit here so that the teacher can see you at all times. If there are any problems text or call me right away. I’ll be looking at my phone the whole time, okay sweetheart? Now be a good boy in class and remember do not move from your seat until Daddy comes to pick you up, now lets get you settled in”. Mike took Ryan’s bag from him and positioned it so he would have easy access to it as Ryan sat down. Mike bent down and was in the middle of unlacing Ryan’s shoes for him when a couple of students entered the room. Ryan quickly shooed Mike away from his feet almost kicking him in the process. Mike chose to let it slide understanding that Ryan was shy and easily embarrassed. He stood up and lean close to Ryan. In a low voice he said, “Now be good baby and I’ll see you after class, I love you”. Ryan motioned toward the other students and said “okay Mike thanks for helping me find it” he then waved Mike away. Mike took the hint feeling hurt. So he thought as he left the classroom that was it, He was Daddy in private but Mike in public. They’d talk about that later he decided. This bothered Mike a lot, he was a daddy and he didn’t care who knew it! He felt hurt but had to remind himself that it was his job to help Ryan accept things and they  would work on that tonight. He felt sad for another reason too. He realized as he entered his own class that he hadn’t even gotten a hug. Well he thought this will never happen again! 

 

Part 22

 

            During class Mike was unable to concentrate. Afterward as he packed his bag, he realized that he had not heard a word that his professor had said. He had spent the whole lesson, staring at his phone worried that he might miss Ryan if he needed to call. At the same time he had spent the entire class dwelling on his own hurt feelings. He knew this was difficult for Ryan but that wasn’t really an excuse for Ryan’s behavior earlier. He had been rude and Mike knew he would have to talk to him, he could not let his little boy turn into a spoiled brat who disrespects his daddy.

 

            Once Mike had gathered his things he quickly left the class and headed for Ryan’s room. Despite his hurt feelings, he couldn’t wait to see Ryan, and find out how his class went. When he arrived at Ryan’s classroom, the sight before him made him laugh, the classroom was empty and there was Ryan obediently sitting in his seat. He was once again barefoot and his shoes which lay at his side looked as though quickly and eagerly discarded. Ryan was drawing with his head down. He was humming to himself as he absently grazed his feet back and forth on the classroom carpet. He looked every bit a little boy who had just come home from school. Mike smiled to himself. He quickly got out his phone and took a picture. Then putting his phone away Mike walked into the class.

 

            Ryan who was absorbed in his drawing did not notice Mike enter. Mike said “Hi baby” then walked across the room and bent down to kissed Ryan’s forehead. Ryan jumped when Mike spoke then smiled at him and said “hi Daddy” In spite of himself Mike’s heart leapt in his chest he was Daddy again! Mike bent down next to Ryan and asked “what are you drawing baby can Daddy see?  Ryan nodded shyly and pasted his drawing to him. Mike was impressed, Ryan was a very good artist and he was currently drawing a picture of a monkey. Mike pasted the picture back to Ryan and said “it’s beautiful baby! Why the monkey?” Ryan smiled proudly and said “monkey’s are my favorite Daddy.” Mike said “oh really”. This information made his life easier. He had been struggling with what type of comfort object to get Ryan. He now knew he would get a monkey, one problem down!

 

            Mike then moved around the desk and bent down on one knee. He gathered Ryan’s shoes and removed his sock form his pocket where he had put them. He motioned toward Ryan’s notebook and said “Can you put that away for now baby we need to get your shoes and socks on so we can get to lunch, unless you want me to carry you?” Ryan looked horrified and said “No Daddy!! People would see!!” This was the reaction Mike had hoped for, this was the opening for the conversation Mike knew he had to have with Ryan. Without saying a word he gently but firmly pulled Ryan from his seat and sat Ryan on his out stretched knee. Mike put a protective and supportive arm around Ryan’s shoulders and gave him a kiss on the temple. Mike took a deep breath then began “baby I don’t care if people see I’m not embarrassed by you or our relationship. You’re my baby and I love you. I want people to know. Anyway do you really think we could hide this from people! Ryan looked pensive and shrugged. Mike continued. “I know that you were embarrassed earlier baby but your behavior was not okay! You really hurt Daddy’s feelings the way you acted and I won’t allow my little boy to treat anyone that way. I don’t care how embarrassed you are if you ever treat me like that again you will be punished! Understood baby? Ryan nodded as a few tears escaped his eyes and said “yes Daddy”. Mike kissed Ryan’s cheek as he wiped his tears away. He continued, “I’m not angry love, so don’t be sad. That’s another thing. I love it when you call me daddy but then it hurts too much when you go back and forth because you’re embarrassed. You can call me Mike if that makes you feel comfortable, I’d rather you call me Daddy but it’s up to you. I’ll love you no matter what you call me. And I’ll still take care of you the same no matter what. I’ll always be your daddy even if you don’t call me that, but I need you to make a choice and stick with it because It hurts my heart when I think you’ll call me daddy and you don’t!
I just need to know what to expect. So think about it for a while baby and let me know what you decide.

 

            Ryan however didn’t have to think. Mike was always taking care of him and doing things to make him happy. He could do this one thing for him, anyway calling Mike Daddy felt natural and right just like cuddle time and if he admitted it to himself diapers. Ryan swallowed back his tears and said “I don’t need to think. You’re right, you are my daddy, all of the time… Daddy”. Mike smiled and asked “are you sure baby” Ryan nodded and mike swept him up into his arms and spun him around. He then put him down and said “Thank you baby! You have made Daddy very happy! Now let’s get those shoes on.” Mike once again had Ryan sit. He put on his shoes and sock then they lift for lunch. A daddy and his little boy holding hands.  

 

Part 23

 

            They arrived at the dining hall and Mike selected chicken with potatoes for lunch since they had only had a light breakfast. Although Ryan did not fell like eating chicken again, he knew better then to argue with his daddy so he accepted his food like a good boy and was rewarded by being allowed to have a soda with his meal. Once they were seated, Mike looked at Ryan and said “Daddy has something to tell you baby” Ryan who by this time was used to these “talks” either meaning he was in trouble or he was going to be unhappy looked at Mike and asked in a sad voice “what’s wrong Daddy” Mike seeing the fear in Ryan’s eyes stroked his cheek and said “oh nothing love, I didn’t mean to scare you. It’s about the surprise I told you about yesterday remember?” At once Ryan’s expression changed to a happy one and he said “oh yah, I get a surprise don’t I daddy?” Mike chuckled, he’d never get tired of Ryan calling him daddy. He responded, “You sure do baby. You have been such a good boy for Daddy through this whole thing!” Ryan asked excitedly “when daddy when do I get my surprise!” Again Mike had to laugh, Ryan sounded just like a little boy. He answered “well baby after dinner I think. The thing is that Daddy has to leave campus to go pick it up”. Ryan asked “am I going with you Daddy?” Mike responded “No baby not this time Okay?” Ryan nodded so Mike continued “Daddy will go while you’re in class, I’m going to skip my afternoon classes today to make sure I can get this done for you but I will be back in time to pick you up. Just like this morning baby you are not to move from your seat until Daddy comes to get you okay?” Ryan nodded but looked scared and asked ‘But what if I need you Daddy?” Mike seeing how scared his little boy was pulled him from his seat to sit on his lap, he gave Ryan a kiss and said “then you’ll call me baby and I’ll come right away, I’m not going far. Daddy will always come, no matter what! Okay love?” Ryan nodded and to Mike’s surprise snuggled into Mike’s chest. Apparently Ryan’s feelings of embarrassment were outweighed by his anxiety about Mike’s leaving, plus he was tired and just wanted his daddy. This public cuddle did not last long however because Ryan noticed a female student walk by and give them a look so he quickly extricated himself from Mikes lap and went back to his own seat.

 

            Although Mike was upset about Ryan’s reaction, he knew that they had made a lot of progress in one day so he decided not to push the issue. Once they were finished with their lunch, Mike allowed Ryan to get an ice cream cone for them to share and they walked back to their room holding hands and passing their ice cream back and forth.

 

            Once they got to the room and finished their snack mike immediately got to work undressing Ryan and getting him diapered. Mike once again chose to leave Ryan in just a diaper as their room was warm. Ryan sat on the end of his bed as Mike pulled down his covers and patted the bed motioning Ryan to crawl up and lie down. Ryan did but, as Mike was tucking him in he asked in his sweetest voice “Daddy will you please take a nap with me please!” Mike smiled and said “well how can I say no to such a polite little boy!” Mike toed off his shoes and lay down next to Ryan. As usual Ryan rested his head on Mike’s chest and was about to close his eyes when he had a question, he felt slightly embarrassed but also knew that he didn’t have to so he asked “Daddy can I have my binkie” Mike smiled down at his baby and responded “of course love but you have to move for a secant so daddy can get it. I’ll be right back though”. Mike got the pacifier from where it had been left and went to lie back down with Ryan. He inserted the binkie between Ryan’s lips and kissed his hair. Mike gently rubbed Ryan’s back and whispered “Close your eyes baby and sleep, daddy’s got you”. Ryan obediently closed his eyes and felt completely relaxed. He very quickly fell to sleep. Mike continued to hold Ryan as he debated whether he should get up and clean or stay with Ryan. In the end Mike decided that he would just relax and hold Ryan. After the morning he had had Mike needed to feel close to his little boy and anyway he didn’t really feel comfortable leaving Ryan alone in bed after he fell last night, falling out of bed could be dangerous. So Mike just closed his eyes and relaxed as he held his baby and thought about the up coming surprise.         

 

Part 24

 

            Mike opened his eyes an hour later to find Ryan still peacefully sleeping on his chest, Mike knew that he had to get up soon but he was enjoying this feeling too much. He continued to gently rub his hand up and down Ryan’s back as he closed his eyes and took a deep breath. It was then that he was hit by a sudden smell. He opened his eyes and looked down at Ryan’s diapered bottom and sure enough, he saw a bulge. He gently patted the back of Ryan’s diaper and that was all the conformation he needed. Although he wasn’t exactly happy about this, he was kind of excited. He was a daddy and he was about to change his baby’s first poopy diaper. He only hoped that his little boy wouldn’t be too upset about this turn of events.

 

            Knowing that he couldn’t put it off Mike removed Ryan’s binky then began to rub Ryan back a bit faster and giving him a gentle shake said “baby wake up we need to get you changed, come on love naptime is over baby”. Ryan slowly opened his eyes and looked up at mike, he yond and snuggled in his chest as he said “hi Daddy”. Mike rapped his arms around Ryan’s body and said “so baby we need to get you changed in a minute”. Ryan nodded then seemed to freeze as he realized for the first time what he had done in his sleep. Becoming embarrassed Ryan began squirm and struggle in an effort to get out of Mikes embrace. When Mike wouldn’t release him, Ryan yelled in a hysterical voice, “Let go, I need to get up, let me go now! Ryan then burst into tears. Mike knowing how much pain his little boy was in just held him and in a gentle voice said “baby calm down, its okay Daddy’s got you. Daddy’s going to take care of everything!” Ryan was still sobbing so Mike took his binky and gently brushed it against his lips. Ryan instinctive took the pacifier into his mouth and began to nurse.  This helped to calm Ryan and once his breathing had leveled out Mike began to speak “Baby I know your embarrassed but you don’t have to be, I’m your Daddy. Remember I said before that it would be okay if you used your diaper, I meant that, this is just part of being a daddy and I love being you’re Daddy, okay. Ryan gave a sad little nod. Mike kissed his forehead and said let’s get you changed.

 

            Mike Shifted Ryan in the bed careful not to make him more uncomfortable by moving things around too much. He then quickly gathered the needed diaper supplies and laid Ryan down on the waiting diaper pad. When Ryan’s bottom met the bed tears once again began to fall as he felt his own mess move around his private area. Mike gently stroked his cheek and said “Daddy’s going to take care of this right now baby”. Mike quickly untapped Ryan’s diaper and removed it taking most of the mess with it. He then wiped down Ryan’s peepee and bum with wipes. Once he was satisfied with how clean his little boy was Make applied some rash cream to eliminate the minor irritation that he saw. Then in an effort to cheer his baby mike leaned down and in a move that caught Ryan off guard blew a loud raspberry into his exposed tummy. In spite of his sad feelings Ryan couldn’t help but giggle.  Seeing that he had been successful in making his baby laugh, Mike repeated this action. Ryan by this point was giggling and laughing flailing as his daddy continued to blow on his tummy and tickle him with his mouth.

 

            Once Mike had Ryan laughing he quickly gathered the naked little boy into his arms. He walked over to his desk chair and settled Ryan in his lap as he gently rocked him and cuddled him. Ryan looked up at his daddy and in a small voice said “I’m so sorry daddy” Mike tightened his hold on his baby and said “Please don’t apologues love Daddy will never mind taking care of you, that’s my job. It’s just part of being your daddy and I love being your daddy okay baby?”  Ryan nodded so mike asked “are you ready to get dressed and go to class so Daddy can go get is good little boy his surprise?” Ryan got an excited look on his face. he propelled himself up and rapped his arms around Mikes neck, He said “Yes daddy and thanks for taking care of me, I love you” Mike hugged Ryan back and said “Daddy loves you so much baby so, so much!”

 

            Mike then stood up and shifted Ryan to his hip. They walked over to Ryan’s discarded clothing and Mike quickly redressed him. Once Ryan was dressed Mike walked over to Ryan’s closet and after digging through a box found Ryan’s flip-flops. Mike held them up and said; “Baby, I thought you might like to wear these instead of your shoes since you’re just going to take them off anyway” Ryan looked happy and nodded. Mike walked back over to where Ryan sat on his bed and put the flip-flops on his waiting feet. He then took Ryan by the hand and they left their room so Mike could drop Ryan off at class and get shopping. 

 

Part 25

 

            On the way to drop Ryan off Mike once again stopped at the bathroom and led Ryan inside. Ryan was worried about someone walking in on them so he said in a pleading voice “Daddy I don’t have to go potty right now really!” Mike bent down in front of Ryan and explained in a calm voice “Baby Daddy will be away for about 2 hours which means that you will not get another chance to potty until I get back so you need to go now, I at least need you to sit on the potty and try for me”. He looked around the empty bathroom and said “there is no one in here right now, but the longer you fight with daddy the greater chance someone will come in. Daddy does not want to embarrass you but you are going to sit on the potty like a good boy whether someone comes in or not so we should hurry, okay love”. Ryan knowing he was not getting out of this nodded and said “please hurry Daddy”. Mike stood up and brought Ryan to an empty stall, he led him in and closed the door behind them. Mike again squatted down in front of Ryan. He then unbuttoned Ryan’s pants and pulled his pants and underwear down to his ankles. Mike then took Ryan under his armpits and lifted him onto the toilet seat and said “do your business baby”. Ryan nodded and waited to feel his body cooperate with his brains order to go potty. He didn’t have to wait long within 30 seconds of sitting down Ryan had once again peed and pooped in the toilet. This both surprised and relieved him. He looked up at mike and said “ok Daddy all done” Mike smiled down at him and said “good job sweetheart now stand up so Daddy and wipe you please!” Ryan rose from the seat and allowed Mike to once again wipe him clean. Mike then righted his little boy’s pants and led him to the sink so they could wash their hands. They then left the bathroom.

           

            Again Mike and Ryan arrived at the classroom early and found no one was there. Mike once again instructed Ryan to sit in the middle seat in the front row of the classroom so that he would be close to the teacher. Once Ryan found his daddy assigned seat and kicked off his flip-flops He looked up at Mike and in a worried voice said “you’re not going far right Daddy?” Mike bent down and kissed his cheek then responded “no baby, Daddy won’t go far and you can call me if you need me, I’ll come right away I promise”. Ryan nodded but still looked scared so Mike went on, Daddy’s going to stay until someone else walks in okay baby, will that help?” Ryan eagerly nodded. Mike then busied himself with getting out Ryan’s notebook and pencil and getting him settled in for his two classes.

 

            With about 10 minutes to spear, two students walked into class and took seats in the back of the classroom. Mike knowing this was his queue to leave leaned in and in a low voice said to Ryan “Ill see you in a bit baby be good” and not wanting to embarrass Ryan he turned and started to walk out of the room. Once he reached the door however he was stopped by Ryan who was calling “wait, wait” Mike turned just outside of the classroom and to his surprise Ryan came charging up to him and through his arms around Mike’s waist. This surprised mike and he asked “What’s wrong baby?” Ryan looked up at him and said “nothing Daddy but I’ll miss you so I wanted a hug okay?” Mike immediately drew Ryan tightly into his embrace and said “of course baby”. As Ryan let go he said “see you soon Daddy I love you”. Mike gave Ryan a quick kiss on the forehead and said I love you too baby, now go sit back down so Daddy can see you”. Ryan nodded and retook his seat then gave mike a final wave goodbye and whispered “Bye daddy” Mike gave Ryan a last wave then turned and walked outside.

 

            Mike quickly left campus and found his way to the strip mall he was looking for. He decided to go to Wal-Mart first. Once inside he first went to the boy’s clothing department. Mike found t-shirts in Ryan’s size all of which were brightly colored and adorned with popular cartoon characters. Mike knew that Ryan would look really cute in these so he picked out several. He then got some brightly colored long sleeved shirts and sweaters all of which held cute patterns, pictures or logos to complete Ryan’s new look. He then moved on to the pants section. Mike bought Jeans, kakis and shorts for Ryan. He was surprised and excited to find overalls in Ryan’s size so he bought 3 pair. Mike then picked out matching socks and under-roos for Ryan in Spiderman, Sesame Street, Disney and curious George designs. Mike made sure to get under-roos that could fit over Ryan’s diaper just in case. Next Mike moved on to Pajamas. He already had several long shirts which Ryan could wear as a night shirts but he was overjoyed to find one piece sleepers in Ryan’s size. Mike got several of these in different colors. With clothes shopping out of the way mike moved on to shoes. He got Ryan two pair of sneakers one with Elmo on them and the other with Spiderman. Mike than flip-flops, he bought 3 pair of these all with different Disney characters on them.

 

            Mike went to the baby Isle where he picked up more diapers and some other things which he thought might come in handy. He then found a bed Rail that fit around Ryan’s Bed to ensure that he could not fall out of bed or even get up without his assistance. It made Mike feel better to know that his baby would not be able to get out of bed unsupervised, it was just too dangerous. Mike made a run for the bedding department and got several different cartoon themed bed sets.

 

            With all of the serious items out of the way Mike moved on to toys. In the toy isle Mike first went to the stuffed animal section. He found an adorable brown and black monkey which he thought was perfect for Ryan. He also picked up a stuffed bunny, teddy bear, 2 dogs and a kitten in case Ryan wanted to play with more then one animal. Mike next got crayons, markers, paint and coloring books for Ryan then moved on to play dough. Building blocks came next followed by a farms play set and race car track. Mike got some action figures for Ryan and decided to add a tea set and doll house to the cart to give his baby some gender neutral options. Finally Mike selected bath toys for Ryan. Mike knew that he was forgetting things but he reminded himself that he could always pick things up as time went on made his way to the check out line. As Mike put his order on the check out line, he was very glad that they had Ryan’s uncle’s money although, he knew that he would always find a way to provide for his little boy with or without assistance after all he thought, this was his job as Ryan’s Daddy.

 

            Mike decided to take cab back to campus due to the size of his order and the time. He arrived back at the room with enough time to set everything up. At 5:30 Mike finished. He looked around and was extremely satisfied with his work turning off the lights he left to go get Ryan and take him to dinner. He couldn’t wait to see his baby’s face when he walked into the room and saw his surprise.

 

Part 26

 

            Mike was running late, he looked at his watch it was almost 5:40. He picked up his pace and practically ran the rest of the way to the building which housed Ryan’s class. As he entered the building Mike slowed to a walk but took the stairs 2 at a time. Mike got the hallway which led to Ryan’s class and took a moment to compose himself before he walked into the room, he didn’t want to scare his little boy. However as he entered the room Mike realized with a sickening twinge that he had already scared his little boy. In the classroom, he found Ryan In his seat in the fetal position whimpering as tears rolled down his face. Mike knew the cause of Ryan’s distress without having to ask. Ryan had already been nervous about Mike’s leaving, his being late only scared him more. Mike immediately went to Ryan. He gathered him up into his arms and slowly and reassuringly began to rub Ryan’s back as he continually offered an alternating monolog of I love you’s and I’m sorry’s. Ryan for his part didn’t hear the actually words that were being said but he was comforted by his daddy’s voice and his strong, loving embrace.

 

            Once Ryan’s sobs had quieted Mike put him down and bent down on one knee so him and his little boy where on eye level. He looked at Ryan’s sad face and his red watery eyes and felt horrible because he knew he had caused Ryan’s tears. He promised himself that he would never scare his little boy again. Mike kissed Ryan’s forehead and said “Daddy is so, so sorry baby I didn’t mean to scare you”. Ryan sniffled and said in a small voice “I called you Daddy and you didn’t answer”. Mike looked confused and felt his pocket for his phone. It was then that he realized the he left his phone in the room. Mike pulled Ryan in once more and promised “Daddy will never do that again baby, I’m so sorry” Ryan nodded but was unable to stop himself from saying “I thought you left Daddy, I never knew my first daddy, he died and I thought maybe” Ryan trailed off but Mike didn’t need to hear anymore. He pulled back from his little boy and said “baby, listen to me Daddy loves you soo much, more then anything. I will always love you sweetheart.  You are Daddy’s little boy and Daddy will never leave his little boy as long as I’m alive. Got it angel?” Ryan felt relieved and nodded before throwing his arms around Mike’s neck.  Mike once again rapped his arms tightly around his baby. After several minutes Ryan broke the hug and said “I need to go potty Daddy” Mike wanting to avoid an accident said “okay baby lets get your flip-flops on so we can get you to the bathroom”. To Mike’s great surprise Ryan shook his head, he raised his arms like a small child and asked “will you carry me Daddy” Mike grinned and said “of course baby” He quickly gathered Ryan’s bag and put his flip-flops inside, Mike then lifted Ryan under the armpits and settled him on his hip. Ryan silently rested his head on Daddy’s shoulder as they walked toward the bathroom. He still felt scared and sad. Like any little boy he needed his Daddy and at the moment he didn’t care who saw.

 

Part 27

 

            Mike carried Ryan to the bathroom and selected a stall before he placed Ryan on the ground. By this point Ryan knew the routine so he waited passively while his daddy undid his pants and pulled down his underwear he was then deposited on the toilet seat. He waited for his bladder to let lose while his daddy absently combed his fingers through his hair. Just as Ryan started to pee the door to the bathroom opened and someone walked in. Ryan felt terrified, this was so embarrassing. He didn’t know what to do. He looked to his daddy pleadingly for an answer. Mike looked back calmly at Ryan. He put his finger to his lips and motioned for Ryan to be silent and continue. He then resumed stroking his baby’s head in an effort to keep him calm. Ryan finished peeing but stayed seated on the toilet. Soon, they heard a flush and the sound of running water as the other person washed his hands and left the bathroom. Ryan breathed a sigh of relief. Mike beamed down at him and said “see baby no big deal, you did great though love. Good boy!” Ryan just said “I’m all done daddy, can we go to dinner now. I’m hungry!” Mike gave Ryan’s nose a poke and said “sure baby stand up so Daddy can fix you up”. Once Ryan stood Mike gave his bottom a compulsory wipe with tissue paper then readjusted his underwear and pants. Ryan was again lifted onto Mike’s hip then he was taken to the sink to wash his hands.

 

            Once both had clean hands Mike looked down at Ryan and asked “do you want to walk now baby or do you still want daddy do carry you?” Ryan had to think. If he was honest with himself, he still wanted to be carried but he felt a bit braver now and he was very afraid of what other people might think if they noticed Daddy carrying him like a baby. He made his decision and said “I can walk now Daddy” Though Mike was slightly disappointed he had expected this so he just smiled and said “let Daddy put on your flip-flops then baby” Ryan nodded as Mike bent down,  he removed Ryan’s sandals from the bag and placed each on the correct foot. Mike then took Ryan’s hand and the proceeded to the cafeteria.

 

            Mike still felt guilty about scaring his little boy so in an effort to make it up to him he asked “Baby do you want to act like a big boy and choose dinner for you and Daddy tonight” Ryan looked overjoyed and said “really Daddy anything I want, even pizza?” Mike gave him a wink and responded “”sure baby anything you want tonight!” Ryan thought for a second then pressed on “even soda Daddy” Mike looked reluctant but he had promised and he did feel guilty so he said “Okay baby just this once and only a small glass”. Ryan looked positively beside himself with joy as they entered the dinning hall. Seeing his baby so happy after what had just happened, Mike told himself that this little exception to their rules was worth it, even if it did mean that he would have to deal with a hyper and cranky kid at bedtime.

 

            Mike and Ryan walked over to the pizza line and Mike asked “do you want to be a big boy and order for us!” Ryan felt nervous but nodded. Mike said “please get me 2 pieces baby and remember to be polite” Ryan nodded again and walked up to the counter. He asked the man giving out the pizza “can I have 3 slices of pizza for me and my daddy please sir” Ryan blushed he had not even meant to call Mike daddy just then however it had become so naturally and felt so true that he had said it without thinking Ryan smiled to himself. He had a Daddy. The man behind the counter did not bat an eye at Ryan’s choice of words he just said “of course my friend coming right up. Mike walked up behind Ryan and placed his hand on his shoulder. When the man handed Ryan the pizza one slice at a time Mike took them. They then got their soda and proceeded to find a table. Dinner was a quiet but pleasant affair spent mostly by Ryan trying and failing to guess what his surprise could be. Mike was excited by this game. First he was eagerly waiting the moment when he would get to see Ryan look at all of his presents. He imagined it would be something like seeing Ryan on Christmas morning. Mike was already looking forward to Christmas time. He knew that he would be bringing Ryan to see Santa this year. The other thing that excited Mike was the fact that all of Ryan’s guesses were much smaller then his actual surprise so his little boy would not be disappointed when he got his present, this made Mike very happy. They quickly finished dinner and took dessert to go. Both Mike and Ryan almost broke into a run to get to their room and Ryan’s waiting gifts.

 

Part 28

 

            When they got to the room Mike released Ryan’s hand and turned to face him. He smiled as he said “Okay baby close your eyes” Ryan did as he was asked. Mike opened the door to their room and turned on their light. He then led Ryan who still had his eyes closed inside. Once they were standing in the middle of the room Mike positioned Ryan in front of his surprise and said “okay baby open!”

 

            The sight which met Ryan’s eyes was amazing. He couldn’t believe it, his daddy had rearranged all of his things and there were new things, a lot of new things. If Ryan hadn’t better he never would have believed that this was his room. He looked at everything disbelievingly. The first thing he noticed was all of the toys, He saw stuffed animals, a house, clay and much more. Ryan was beyond excited, he had always loved toys but even though his uncle had generally treated him like a little kid he had never allowed Ryan to have toy’s because they interfered with his studies. Ryan looked up at Mike the question obvious in his eyes, Mike nodded his head and said “yes baby their for you” Ryan walked over to his new toys looked at everything, He felt like he was in heaven. It was then that he took notice of the rest of the setup. Daddy ha raised his bed to the highest possible level so there was about a four foot space underneath.  This space was not big enough for Ryan to stand up in but he could very comfortably sit under there. Daddy had put a rug down there and some cushions and even a beanbag chair. All of Ryan’s toys were under there too. This was great!

 

            However Ryan’s eyes next fell to his bed. Being so high he knew it would be almost impossible for him to get up there himself and he wondered how this would work. The next thing he noticed was then new bed guard that his daddy had installed, it was about 2 feet tall and surrounded the bed on all four sides almost like a crib. Ryan was also aware that his bed now had Toy story themed bedding. That didn’t bother Ryan, he liked toy story. Ryan then noticed his dresser which now rested against the foot of his bed under the diaper supply shelves. The dresser had been cleared and was now covered in a permanent diaper pad. Ryan realized that this would now be used as his changing table.

 

            Ryan did not like this part of his surprise nearly as much. It made him feel very babyish. Mike seeing the sadness in his little boy’s eyes asked “what wrong baby, don’t you like your present?” Ryan not wanting to hurt his daddy’s feelings responded “I love my toys Daddy but my bed, my dresser I mean, why?” he finished the last part in a whisper. Realization downed on Mike and he pulled Ryan to him and settled them into a chair. Once they were seated Mike said “Ryan, Baby daddy loves you, you know that right?” Ryan nodded so Mike continued “well sweetheart I rearranged the furniture like this for a few reasons. The first and biggest is about keeping you safe. You fell last night. It scared you but it scared Daddy too. If you fall again you could get hurt. Daddy can’t let that happen. Also I’m not mad but you gout up this morning without permission and that can’t happen again so Daddy put in the rail to keep you safely in bed until I can get you out. It works the same way a crib rail works, it can be lowered and raised from the outside. Ryan looked put off and said “so I have to sleep in a crib?” Mike shrugged and said “yes Baby and you are never to get out of your crib without Daddy’s help, that’s a new rule”. Ryan was surprised that this information did not bother him more, the fall last night had been pretty scary he reasoned with himself. Ryan shrugged “okay I guess” Mike was relieved, he thought he saw a tantrum coming on. He kissed Ryan’s cheek and said “good boy! Thank you for understanding”. He then went on “I raised your bed to give you a place to keep all of your toys, a place where you can play kind of like a toy room or a playpen. This way all of your things are in one place and I’ll always know where you will be playing. I think it works hmm?” again Ryan nodded if he had a crib, why not a playpen too. Mike continued “now since I’ve raised your bed I needed some place to change you and your dresser is the perfect size for a changing table for you plus it will make dressing you easier on Daddy because all of your clothing is right in the drawers. Ryan said nothing, he just stayed quiet.

 

            After a minute Mike looked down at Ryan and seeing his sad expression asked “you okay baby, I mean I know it’s a lot but Daddy’ only doing this to keep you safe and because I love you”. Ryan took a breath then said, “I know Daddy, it’s just that well I wish I could be big sometimes, you know like I wouldn’t need Diapers anymore and maybe I could take care of myself”. Mike gave Ryan a squeeze and said “but baby daddy loves you just the way you are and I love taking care of you so don’t worry about being big, just worry about being Daddy’s little boy for now. Besides I think I’m big enough for both of us don’t you. This made Ryan laugh which made Mike smile and ask “so did you like your surprise baby I know it’s a lot but do you like your toys?” Ryan answered I really do Daddy, I love them and my bedding, its fun. Can I play with my toys now Daddy?” Mike wanted to let Ryan play but it was getting kind of late so he said, “not now love after your shower, why don’t you get really and go shower now so you can get to playing”. Ryan nodded and started toward the bathroom but stopped himself, this didn’t feel right. He was a little boy, He wore diapers and slept in a crib! He knew what he had to do. He looked back at Mike and asked “Daddy will you give me my bath? Mike was slightly surprised but just nodded happily and said “of course baby, lets get you in the tub”. With that he took Ryan’s hand and led him to the bathroom.

 

Part 29

 

            Once they were in the bathroom Mike started the bath water then kneeled and began to strip Ryan. Once Ryan was bare Mike guided him towards the tub. As Ryan stepped into the water Mike gave him a playful slap on the bottom. Once Ryan was seated in his bath water Mike produced a bag from under the sink and said “here baby Daddy got you bath toys too”. Mike reached into the bag and pulled out a rubber duck, toy boats and some bath crayons. Ryan was immediately drawn to the boats. He picked one up and looked at it tentatively then put it back in the water where it floated in front of him. Ryan felt conflicted, he wanted to play with his new toys but he felt embarrassed at the same time. Seeing this, Mike looked at Ryan encouragingly and said “go on baby play with your toys” Ryan smiled up at Mike, this was all then encouragement he needed. He picked up his boat and began to drive it around the bathwater, soon he was engrossed. He was playing with 2 boats at once and making them do stunts and tricks in the water while he made splashed and made vroom noises. Mike smiled as he watched his baby play. Ryan looked so happy that it made Mike happy, however after 30 minutes it was it was time to end playtime and get down to business.

 

            Mike looked at Ryan and said “come on baby, its time to get you clean!” Ryan did not seem to hear him and he kept playing with his boats. Mike gave him another minute then said in a slightly raised voice “sorry baby playtimes is over” This time Ryan looked up at Mike and said “but Daddddy!!! I’m having funnnn!!” Mike chuckled and responded “Daddy does not speak whine, remember baby?, Now if you’re good for me, Daddy will let you play with your other toys until bedtime, but if you’re going to be cranky then it will be bedtime now and Daddy will put you strait in your crib. A cranky, whiny baby is a tired baby after all. So which do you want to be, a good baby playing with his toys or a cranky baby in his crib? Ryan looked horrified and said “I’ll be good Daddy I promise” Mike smiled and said “Okay baby, just checking lets get you clean”.

 

            Mike picked up the baby soap and lathered a wash cloth. He started with Ryan’s feet, He noticed that the top of Ryan’s sole and his toes which have been sticking out of the water were almost black. Ryan giggled and squirmed as the wash clothes made contact with his foot and washed between his toes. Mike smiled at him and said “your feet are kind of dirty baby from being naked so much” Sounding like a little boy Ryan said “ohh but I hate shoes Daddy” Mike winked at him, gave his foot a little tickle and said “that’s fine baby it just means that Daddy will have to pay special attention to keeping his little boy clean”. He laughed as he said “I just hope it doesn’t tickle too much!” Ryan couldn’t help but giggle at his Daddy’s joke.

 

Mike proceeded to clean both of Ryan’s feet then moved up his legs. Once he had cleaned both legs he quickly and efficiently cleaned Ryan’s peepee and bum before moving up to his chest, back and arms. He washed Ryan’s face and neck then gently washed Ryan’s hair. Ryan loved having his hair washed and leaned into his daddy’s gentle touch. Mike seeing this spent an extra few minutes messaging his baby’s hair before he rinsed out the shampoo and started to drain the bath water. Mike grabbed a towel and helped Ryan to stand in the tub. He completely dried Ryan before lifting him from the tub and settling him on his hip.

 

            Mike carried Ryan out of the bathroom and put him down on his new changing table. Just as the night before Mike took his time and gave Ryan a message with body lotion which Ryan really liked. He then quickly diapered him. Mike sat Ryan up on the dresser then reached into the top drawer and pulled out Ryan’s night shirt. He said “lift your arms for me baby” Ryan obeyed and Mike slide the nighty over his head and down his body. Mike gave Ryan a kiss on his forehead then lifted him from the table. Placing Ryan on the floor he said “you can go play now baby” Ryan did not need to be told twice, He practically dived under his bed into his new play area and began opening his new toys. 

 

Part 30

 

            Ryan sat in his playpen and looked at all of his toys. He had a big decision to make, what to play with first! He decided he wanted to use his doll house. Ryan scooted over to the toy house and lay down in front of it so he was on his tummy propped up on his elbows. He then started to happily arrange all of the furniture in the house room by room. Mike watched his little boy play as he sat in his desk chair and did a little shopping. An added benefit of Ryan’s playpen was that when he was in there he was viable from every area of the room so Mike could easily keep an eye on his baby while he did other things. Mike turned his attention back to his screen, he had decided that they needed a rocking chair, a good one for cuddle time. He looked at many different options before he selected one that seemed perfect, Mike paid and was pleased to find out that it could be delivered the next day between 1 and 3 which would fit into their schedule perfectly as that was around Ryan’s naptime. Once Mike placed the order, he looked at the clock and discovered that it was already 7:30. Mike wanted to get Ryan into bed in about 45 minutes so that be would be settled for 8:30 anyway, Mike still had to give him one more surprise.

 

            For the next 45 minutes Ryan contentedly played with his toys while Mike contentedly watched his baby play. It was adorable to watch Ryan laying on his tummy, knees bent, legs kicking in the air, his diaper in full view. He looked so young and sweet, it was hard to believe that he was 18 and not 8. But Mike thought age is just a number and with Ryan’s appearance and all of his new clothes, he could easily pass for an 8 year old.

 

             At 8:15 Mike walked over to Ryan’s playpen and said “come on baby it’s bedtime”. Ryan looked at the clock then said “but dadddyyy it’s only 8:15 my bedtimes not until 8:30” Mike responded in a light voice “8:30 bedtime mean in bed and I’ll bet that we need to get you a diaper change before we get you tucked in plus you need to brush your teeth and Daddy has one more surprise for you so lets get going love”. Ryan stopped for a moment then to his surprise realized that we was in fact wet and his diaper did need to be changed, seeing no room for augment he began to pick up his toys however Mike stopped him. “No baby don’t worry about that, daddy will do it, how about you go brush your teeth”. Ryan who did not particularly want to clean obeyed and left to do as he was told while mike picked up the playpen.

 

            Ryan reentered the room after washing up and was greeted by Mike who ushered him over to the changing table. Mike lifted Ryan onto the table and quickly removed his wet diaper. As Daddy was re-diapering him Ryan said “thanks for cleaning up my toys Daddy” Mike smiled down at his baby as he worked and said “what a polite little baby I have but, don’t worry about it love, cleaning is a daddy job”.

 

            Once Ryan was diapered Mike lifted him from the changing table and carried him to his crib. Mike lowered the side then proceeded to tuck Ryan in. He stroked Ryan’s cheek then said Sit up a second baby, Daddy has something else for you. Hold on one minute. Mike took a bag from his desk and handed it to Ryan. Ryan looked excited as he opened it. Ryan’s eyes got huge when he opened the bag. Inside he found the most beautiful black and brawn monkey. It was big enough for Ryan to hold, its fur was soft and it was very cute and huggable. Instinctively Ryan hugged his monkey which made Mike very happy. Without really needing to ask, Mike asked “so baby to you like him?” Ryan nodded and said “yes Daddy I love him!” Mike continued “I’m so glad baby does he have a name yet?” Ryan shyly nodded his head and said “Christopher I think” Mike looked down at the monkey and laughed before saying “Christopher is perfect baby, however I think that it’s time for you and Christopher to go to bed now my love” Mike had Ryan lay back down before once again smoothing his covers. Mike leaned in and asked “can daddy have a kiss goodnight baby”. To Mike’s surprise Ryan leaned in and gave him a quick peck on the lips before saying “goodnight Daddy I love you” Mike beamed at his baby, he gave Ryan a kiss on the forehead and one on the cheek then said “Daddy loves you so much Baby. Good night, it’s time for quiet now but if you roll on your tummy and close your eyes daddy will rub your back”. Ryan nodded and rolled onto his tummy he placed his hand under his pillow and discovered his binky there waiting for him. He pulled it out, put it in his mouth and breathed a contented sigh. Ryan had never felt more at peace, there he lay in a warm comfortable bed nursing his binky and cuddling his Christopher while his Daddy put him to sleep by rubbing his back. He was a lucky baby indeed.

 

Part 31

 

            Mike continued to rub Ryan’s back for about 10 minutes until he was sure that his baby was asleep. He then smoothed Ryan’s covers one last time and locked the rail of his crib in place. Mike gave the rail a little shake and feeling confident that his baby would be safe and secure in his new crib he shut off the lights and went to his desk to go over the work he had missed in his classes. After he felt sure he understood each class Mike decided to watch some television before going to bed some time around 1:30. Mike got into bed and looked across the room to where Ryan was sleeping peacefully in his crib. He looked at the clock and realized that if this morning was any indication, his little boy would be up early so he figured he better sleep while he got the chance. Mike’s last thought before falling asleep was that he couldn’t wait to wake up and be Ryan’s daddy again tomorrow.

 

            Mike was awakened 5and a half hours later by a soft voice calling “Daddy, are you awake? I want to get up”. Mike groaned, he was still very tired but he had to admit it was a very nice way to wake up. He decided to wait 5 minutes and see if Ryan would go back to sleep however Ryan called again “Daddy, I need to be changed please Daddy”. That was all Mike needed to hear, he would never allow his little boy to be uncomfortable no matter how tired he was. Reluctantly he got out of bed and went to Ryan’s Crib. Mike looked down at his baby and smiled. As he lowered the crib rail he said “morning beautiful boy” Ryan raised his arms in a gesture that indicated that he wanted to be carried and said “good morning Daddy”. Mike lifted Ryan into his arms and carried him to the changing table. Mike removed Ryan’s very wet diaper then pulled out a clean one and proceeded to re-diaper his little boy explaining “it’s early baby and we’re not really getting up yet so I think a another diaper is a good idea”. When Ryan didn’t object Mike continued “Daddy is still very tired so how about we lie down in daddy’s bed and cuddle for a while”. This Ryan did object to, trying not sound as whinny as he felt he said “but Daddy I’m not tired anymore, I want to play with my toys!”  Mike looked at his little boy’s hopeful expression and smiled, He looked at the clock before saying “it’s 6:30 now baby Daddy wants to lay back down and rest but if you promise to be really good and stay in your playpen you can play with your toys quietly until Daddy gets up about 8:00 okay sweetheart, can you be good and stay in your playpen for Daddy?” Ryan eagerly nodded and asked “can you get me Christopher and my binky daddy”. Mike said “sure baby” he retrieved both items and hand them to his baby before lifting him off the changing table and placing him on the ground.

 

            Once his feet hit the floor Ryan happily scampered into his playpen where he plopped down on the floor and sat cross legged with his feet out in front of him. Ryan picked up his stuffed rabbit and was happily introducing him to Christopher by the time Mike had laid back down. Mike knew that he would never be able to sleep while his baby was out of bed but he figured he might be able to dose for a while or at least close his eyes. This however proved to be difficult as Ryan was happily giggling and talking to his toys in his playpen.  Just a Mike was about to open his eyes and get up the noise stopped and he felt a little hand on his chest.  Mike opened his eyes to see Ryan staring back at him. In a tired voice he asked “What’s up baby?” Ryan gestured to the monkey in his arms and said “me and Christopher are kinda tired so can we do cuddle time now?” Mike smiled and said “nothing would make me happier baby” He lifted Ryan into his bed and settled him against his chest. He leaned down and kissed Ryan’s hair. As he closed his eye he absently began to rub Ryan back. Mike sighed happily and realized that he slept better with Ryan in his arms, he just felt more complete somehow. Quickly both Mike and his baby fell into a light sleep and they still had an hour before their alarm would go off.

 

Part 32

 

            At exactly 8:00 a buzzing filled the room waking both Ryan and his Daddy up. Mike quickly silenced the alarm then once gain rapping his arms around Ryan’s body said “we need to get up in 5 minutes love” Ryan nodded sleepily into daddy’s chest but did not open his eyes. The next five minutes were very enjoyable for both Daddy and baby as both basked in the feeling closeness and love they got during cuddle time. At 8:07 Mike tapped Ryan’s diapered bum and said “okay baby it’s time to get up”. With that he got out of bed taking Ryan with him. Holding Ryan against his shoulder Mike checked his diaper for wetness. Satisfied that he could wait to be changed, Mike deposited Ryan in his desk chair and put on the Disney channel for him. Seeing that Ryan looked cold, Mike grabbed a blanket from his bed and rapped it around Ryan and Christopher saying “okay baby Daddy has to go shower, you know the drill, be a good boy don’t answer the phone or door and stay put”. Ryan took out his binky long enough to say “yes Daddy I’ll be good” then reinserted it and turned his attention to his morning cartoons. Mike kissed Ryan’s hair and said “thank you baby” before laving to take his shower.

 

            Once Mike had finished his shower and dressed he walked out of the bathroom to get Ryan ready for the day. Upon first sight Mike could tell that his baby was agitated. Ryan was sitting stiffly in his seat and bouncing up and down like we could not sit still. Mike quickly approached his little boy and gently asked “baby what’s wrong” Ryan had tears in his eyes as he said “Daddy I have to go poops real bad!” Mike said “hold on baby” he quickly pulled Ryan into his arms and carried him to the bathroom. Once in the bathroom, Mike removed Ryan’s wet diaper and put him on the toilet seconds before he let lost control. Mike knew that if they had waited even 10 more seconds Ryan would have pooped his diaper, He could tell by Ryan’s sad but relieved expression that his baby knew this too. Once Ryan was finished Mike had him stand so he could wipe him. Mike then assisted his baby in washing his face and brushing his teeth, Ryan insisted that he could do this things himself but Mike explained that he enjoyed helping his little boy however he could so Ryan allowed his daddy to wash his face and put tooth paste on his tooth brush before handing it to Ryan to brush his own teeth.

 

            Once they were finished in the bathroom Mike carried Ryan to his changing table and laid him down. Mike proceeded to remove Ryan’s nightshirt then he cleaned Ryan’s diaper area before applying rash cream. Once this was done Mike looked at Ryan and said Daddy got you some new clothes while I was out yesterday, he reached into Ryan’s top drawer and selected a pair of Curious George under-roos. He showed these to Ryan and said “aren’t these cute baby” Ryan looked unsure but nodded. Mike slipped these through Ryan’s feet and worked them up his body then grabbed a t-shirt which also had a picture of Curious George on it and slipped it over Ryan’s head. Next Mike pulled out Ryan’s new overalls and put him in these. Mike then selected the socks that matched Ryan’s undies and pulled these onto his feet. He lifted Ryan from the table and placed him on the floor. Mike couldn’t help it, he took Ryan’s face in his hands, kissed his forehead and said “you look adorable baby! So, so cute!” He release Ryan from his grasp, gave him a playful swat on the bottom and said “go look baby!” Ryan quickly ran to the mirror and was overwhelmed with what he saw. He stared at his reflection then turned to Mike and said “I look so young Daddy!” Mike could tell that Ryan was not happy so he went to him and pulled him into a tight hug then said “sweetheart, you look like a little boy which is what you are. It’s okay baby trust Daddy. I love you so much and you don’t have to worry, Daddy knows best”. Feeling Ryan relax in his embrace Mike continued “we need to get to breakfast so lets get your shoes on”. Mike once again lifted Ryan onto his hip and put him down on his bed he then grabbed Ryan’s new Spiderman shoes and began to put them on his baby’s feet. Ryan had a thought, he knew it was silly but if he was just a little boy then it made sense. He look up at his daddy who tying his shoes and asked “daddy can I bring Christopher with me to school? Please” Mike responded “of course Baby if you want to but you have to leave him in your bag during class okay?” Ryan excitedly nodded and said “thank you Daddy” Mike grabbed Ryan’s new Toy Story backpack from where it lay he then found the monkey where he had been left near the TV. As Mike was putting Christopher inside the bag, Ryan called from where he sat on Mike’s bed “my binky too please Daddy” Mike smiled as he placed the binky in the bag Ryan had already become very attached to his comfort objects just like a real baby and it was adorable. Smiling Mike grabbed his own bag and went back to Ryan. He lean down and said “can Daddy have a kiss” Ryan nodded and this time Mike was unsurprised when Ryan leaned in and gave him a peck on the lips. It was so sweet, so innocent, such a little boy thing to do and Mike loved it. He said “thank you baby” then lifted Ryan from the bed and placed him on the floor. He took Ryan’s hand and they left the room.   

 

Part 33

 

            As Ryan and Mike made their way to the dinning hall for breakfast a girl form their class walked by them and said hi. Mike returned her greeting, however Ryan looked terrified and said nothing. Mike noticed this and drew Ryan close to his side in an effort to calm his little boy. Mike was becoming very worried about Ryan’s socialization. He was very shy around people, adults really, especially girls. Mike knew that he had to fix this problem for his baby but because Ryan was so much a child he didn’t think trying to socialize him with people from school was a good idea. They wouldn’t have much in common and anyway your average college student could be a very bad influence on his sweet innocent baby and as a Daddy he couldn’t allow that! Still he thought, he’d have to figure out some way help his baby get over his shyness. Maybe he could find more appropriate friends for Ryan’s emotional maturity level. As they walked into the cafeteria Mike said to himself I’ll figure this out later, but I fix this.

 

            Mike led Ryan to the grill where eggs were being cooked. He asked Ryan which type of eggs he would like. Ryan said he wanted scrambled so Mike ordered scrambled eggs for both Ryan and himself. Once they had gotten toast fruit and orange juice to complete their meal they sat down. Again, Mike insisted that Ryan tuck a napkin into his collar to protect his new clothes. Ryan obeyed with minimal fuss and both baby and daddy enjoyed as pleasant breakfast before heading to class.

 

            Once inside the classroom, Mike and Ryan took the same seats that they had the day before. Once seated Ryan immediately took out his notebook then motioned for his daddy to take off his shoes and socks. Mike complied, excited by Ryan’s willingness to allow Mike to take care of him in public. Things were defiantly changing for them. Once Ryan was comfortably barefoot he again sat back on his heels to give himself extra height. Mike laughed and pulled out his own notebook following his baby’s example and readying himself for their lesson. The girl from earlier walk into class and once again waved hello this went unnoticed by Ryan who was drawing in his notebook, however Mike smiled and waved back, noticing for the first time how pretty this girl was. Then the professor walked in and class began.

 

            Once class had ended Mike and Ryan again waited for the room to empty before Mike slipped on Ryan’s shoes and packed up their bags. Mike walked Ryan to his class stopping at the bathroom along the way as usual. They arrived at Ryan’s class with enough time for mike to get Ryan in his seat with his shoes off and note book out and for Mike to give his baby a goodbye hug and kiss before another student walked in the door. Before leaving Mike leaned in close and said “remember to be good baby and call if you need me. I love you!” Ryan said in a low but audible voice “I love you too Daddy see you later” Mike was pleased, he winked at his baby before leaving the room and heading toward his own class.

 

            When Mike got to his class he sat down in the back of his room and pulled out his phone, He was staring at it and worrying about Ryan when the same pretty girl from earlier sat down next to him and Said “Hi I’m Ally” Mike was surprised but recovered. He smiled and responded “I’m Mike, nice to meet you”. They made pleasant conversation until class started. Although this did not relieve Mike’s worry about his little boy it did make it easier to handle. Ally was very pretty after all.

 

            When Class ended Mike said a fast yet pleasant goodbye to Ally then quickly left the room. He walked directly to Ryan’s classroom intent on getting there as fast as possible, he would never leave his baby waiting again. However as he entered Ryan’s class his heart stopped. He was confused, but the emotion the registered the strongest was fear. The room was empty. Ryan was not there. Mike took a breath to calm himself then went to Ryan’s seat. His bag was still there, so were his shoes and socks. The only thing what was got besides for his baby was Christopher. Mike started to panic. Ryan was barefoot which meant that we wouldn’t go outside plus he didn’t take his bag. Did some carry him off? Mike started to cry.  Had he been taken, was someone doing horrible things to his baby? He felt lost and helpless he didn’t know what to do.  Call the police? Then he realized that he could call Ryan’s phone. He took out his own phone and quickly dialed his little boy’s number only to hear it ring inside the bag. Now Mike was really crying. He had never felt so scared or lost in his life. He couldn’t breath. He was hyperventilating. Just as he was about to lose control completely a voice from behind him called “Daddy” Mike Immediately felt his insides unclench, he turned around. It was Ryan, his baby was safe! In trouble but safe.

 

Part 34

 

            Mike looked down at Ryan. he was fine, he was even smiling. Mike had never felt so relieved and angry at the same time, he crossed the room in 3 steps and dropped to his knees in front of him. Still crying he pulled Ryan into his arms and held his little boy while he fought to get himself under control. As he held Ryan he rubbed his back and he continually repeated “Oh my baby. My baby you’re okay” When Mike managed to get his breathing under control and stop crying he pulled back slightly kissed Ryan’s forehead and said “you’re in so much trouble baby” Ryan sputtered and said “but Daddy that’s not Fair” This made Mike angry. In a raised voice he said “not fair, really well I’m sorry you feel that way little boy but what I think is unfair is walking into a room where you expect to see your little boy and not seeing him. Feeling scared and helpless because your baby goes somewhere without his Daddy’s permission, that’s unfair. Why did you do this baby? You scared Daddy sooo much why?” Ryan looked into Daddy’s eyes and said in a slightly embarrassed voice I had to go potty Daddy real bad” Mike felt bad for his baby this was not an excuse. He looked back at Ryan and asked “you had potty so badly that you couldn’t wait 2 minutes for Daddy to take you” Ryan shook his head so Mike continued “well baby I’m sorry but that not okay and why didn’t you call, Do you know how worried I was, I thought you had been kidnapped! Ryan looked sad and said I’m sorry Daddy I didn’t mean to scare you”. Mike caressed Ryan’s cheek as he said “I know baby and I understand that you needed to potty but neither of those things makes it alright for you to disobey Daddy, so we are going back to the room and unfortunately baby Daddy is going to have to spank you” Ryan look horrified he pulled out of his Daddy’s hold and said “No!” Mike was trying to be fair and stay calm but he had had enough. He caught Ryan’s arm in a firm grasp, He turned him around and gave him 3 sharp swats on his bum before saying “you have already been a very naughty baby today and you have earned a spanking if you keep being naughty, Daddy will have to punish you more understand! Ryan felt panicked and sobbed “I’m sorrrryyyy Dadddddy” then quickly dissolved into tears, that hurt, he didn’t want a spanking, he was scared. Mike Picked Ryan up and settled him on his shoulder. He gathered Ryan’s shoes and bag then walked out of the class with Ryan in his arms. Ryan wanted to object, He did not want to be seen crying and be carried while holding a stuffed animal but he knew he did not need to get himself in more trouble but still he was very embarrassed. Ryan laid his head on his Daddy’s shoulder and without thinking brought his thumb to his lips and began to suck. He was still crying as he held on to his daddy, his only source of comfort and allowed himself to be carried toward his oncoming punishment, his first spanking.

 

            Part 35

 

            Mike was dreading this spanking almost as much as his baby was. He knew that it had to be done but he didn’t like the idea of hurting his little boy even if it was for his own good. But Ryan had disobeyed him today, what he did was unacceptable and Mike knew he had to punish him.

 

            Mike carried his crying little boy through campus and when the walked though their door he took him right to his own bed. At this point Ryan began to sob hysterically knowing what was coming.  With difficulty Mike dislodged Ryan from his arms and sat him on the bed. He looked down at his baby, this wasn’t going to get any easier so he figured he should get it over with. Ignoring his baby’s tears and his own heavy heart Mike began to undress Ryan. He started by unsnapping his overalls and pulling them off. He then lifted Ryan shirt over his head leaving Ryan in just his Curious George under-roos.

 

            Mike then sat down on the bed and gently but firmly pulled Ryan across his lap. Once Ryan was in place Mike reached down and pulled his underwear off completely. Ryan was still crying so Mike rubbed his back for a moment to let his baby know that he loved him then positioning his left hand arm so it held Ryan securely in place Mike raised his right hand in the air and closing his eyes brought it down on Ryan waiting bum with Smack. The sound of flesh meeting flesh filled the room. Ryan called out in pain. Steeling himself Mike raised his hand again and once more brought it down on Ryan vulnerable bottom. This time Ryan’s whole body quivered as he whimpered in pain.  Mike gave Ryan’s bottom 4 four smacks by which point Ryan’s bum bum was red and he was franticly kicking his little feet and endlessly begging “Please Daddddyyyyy!! I be gooooood Dadddddy pleaseeeee” This broke Mike’s heart but he had to get the point home. He raised his hand once more and once more it landed on Ryan’s waiting tush but this time as Mike’s hand made contact with Ryan’s bottom Ryan completely lost control. His bladder let lose and Mikes lap was soaked with urine. Mike who had half expected this was not mad. Ryan however was mortified and hysterically yelled “Daddy I pottied, I sorrrrry, I didn’t mean to be baddddd!” Mike momentarily stopped the spanking. He gave Ryan’s back a reassuring rub and said “its fine love” then knowing this needed to be over he calmly gave Ryan 3 more spanks which left Ryan wailing incoherently. He rubbed his baby’s very red little bum for a moment before wordlessly pulling Ryan off his lap. Cuddle time would have to wait a minute. Ryan was beyond hysterical at this point, far to worked up to talk and anyway Mike had to change. Mike directed his naked baby to a corner of the room. He positioned Ryan so that he was facing the corner then said “from now on this is the naughty corner, whenever you get a timeout this is where you will stand now please stand here and do not move until daddy calls you” Ryan tearfully nodded his understanding. Mike gave his shoulder a squeeze before going to change his pants in the bathroom. Just as he came back into the room and was about to release Ryan from timeout there was a knock at the door. Ryan was terrified, He turned around and looked imploringly at his Daddy. Mike however gave him a stern look and said “you are still in Time out now please turn and face the corner unless you would like daddy to restart your time. Ryan looked crest fallen but complied. Once Ryan had obeyed Mike went to answer the door.

 

            Part 36

 

            When Mike reached the door, he looked back at his little boy and what he saw made him smile, he couldn’t help it Ryan was so cute as he stood facing the corner bouncing up and down on the balls of his feet with his little red bum on display. Mike looked through the peep hole and found a strange man at their door. Unsure of who this man was Mike opened the door just a bit so he could block Ryan from view.  Despite the fact the Mike knew that Ryan disserved to be punished he would never allow anyone to see his baby in his current condition. Embarrassment would never be part of punishment. Mike cracked the door and in a pleasant voice asked “can I help you” The man at the door responded, “Hi sir, I’m here to deliver a chair to Mr. Michael Ward” the man motioned to a large rocking chair which rested as his side. Mike Looked back a Ryan then decided the best course of action would be to step out of the room.

 

            In the hallway, Mike sighed for the chair then thanked the delivery man and assured him that he did not need help moving the rocker. Once the Man had gone Mike opened the door and quickly dragged their new chair inside. Mike positioned the chair in a comfortable position near the television then decided that it was time to get his baby from timeout.

 

            Mike grabbed the lotion from its shelf then sat down in the new rocker. Mike once again looked at Ryan and smiled. He said “Ryan, Come here baby timeout is over” Ryan immediately turned around but did not move, instead looked to where his Daddy was sitting. He wanted to run to his daddy but he felt guilty and embarrassed about what had happened especially wetting all over daddy’s lap. Mike seeing Ryan’s uncertainty patted his lap and said “it’s alright sweetheart, Daddy’s not mad come here” This was all Ryan needed, He ran to his daddy and jumped into his arms and began to cry again. Mike positioned his baby so that he was lying across his lap then began “so baby firstly, the man at the door was obviously delivering this rocking chair. Daddy bought this last night. I thought it would be good for cuddle time. Now I could tell that you were nervous when the man came to the door but you didn’t have to be. I promise you baby that Daddy will never ever do anything to embarrass you okay? When Ryan nodded Mike continued “Daddy loves you so much baby and you really scared me today. I’m sorry that I had to spank you but you can not disobey daddy like you did. Our rule is that you do not move from your seat without Daddy’s permission. What you did today was dangerous and I hope that it will never happen again”. Ryan tearfully promised “Never daddy, I’m so sorry I was bad”. Mike stroked Ryan’s cheek as he said “Baby you are never bad, I told you that before you are a good, good little boy. You behavior today was not good but you are still Daddy’s good baby”. That will never change. I love you more than anything”. Ryan looked relieved and said in a small voice “you still love me, even though I was naughty and peed on you?” Mike was shocked by this question and said in a clear voice “Baby Daddy will always love you no matter what. Nothing you do will change that I promise. You could be the biggest brat in the world and Daddy would still love you because you are my baby and I don’t care about the wetting it’s not a big deal love, just part of being a daddy okay sweetheart?” Ryan felt relieved and nodded, he was suddenly aware of 2 things, His bum hurt a lot and he was very tired. His pain won out so he looked at his daddy and said “My bum hurts Daddy” Mike chuckled and said Daddy will make it better, he repositioned Ryan in his arms and grabbed the body lotion. Mike squirted the lotion into his hand then gently began to rub it into Ryan’s sore bottom. Ryan sighed contentedly as his daddy took the fire out of his bum bum.

 

            Once Mike had finished Ryan looked up at him and said “I love you Daddy” Mike gave Ryan a kiss and said “I love you too baby” Seeing that Ryan was tired Mike said “naptime I think love” Ryan Shook his head and said “No daddy, cuddle” Mike chuckled he got up still holding Ryan and found Christopher where he had been left on Mike’s bed then got Ryan’s binky out of his bag. Mike then sat back down in the rocker. He gave Ryan his monkey and inserted his binky. Then proceeded to Rock with Ryan in his arms/ Ryan took both Christopher and his binky gratefully and without knowing it closed his eyes. He was asleep within 5 minutes. Mike smiled down at his sleeping baby, he gently got up. He diapered Ryan and was about to put him in his crib for his nap when he realized that he was kind of tired himself so he lied down in his own bed with Ryan sleeping on his chest and allowed sleep to wash over him. Things were okay, Ryan had been naughty and gotten a spanking but now it was over and things were good again. As Mike fell asleep, he realized that he would rather deal with his baby’s naughty behavior everyday then have live without being Ryan’s daddy. No matter what he was very lucky to have his baby in his life. 

 

Part 37

 

            Upon waking up the first thing that Ryan noticed was how warm and safe he felt, the second thing was that he was not in his crib but snuggled in his daddy’s arms which explained his warm safe feelings. Ryan sighed and allowed this cozy feeling to fill his body from his head to his toes. The past 3 days had been quite an adjustment. He has left home and his uncle as a big boy, only to find that he was still a baby. But he had gained a daddy for the first time in his life, he had a daddy. Ryan was a happy baby.

 

            Ryan once again sighed contentedly and this time he felt his Daddy’s arms tighten around him. Ryan smiled and looked up only to find daddy smiling back at him. Mike kissed Ryan’s hair and asked “did you have a good nap sweetheart” Ryan nodded, Mike not wanting to move yet closed his eyes and gently rubbed Ryan’s back He still was not completely over his fear and sadness from earlier but he felt better as he held his baby.

 

            10 minutes passed and Mike looked at the clock although he did not want to get up he knew they only had a little while until their next class started and he knew that he was in for another fight but he had to remind himself, that while what was about to happen was not a punishment for today, today’s events had highlighted the need for what was about to happen. Mike did not want to upset his baby and he would work hard to help his little boy through this difficult change but first they had to get out of bed.

 

            Mike stuck his finger in Ryan’s diaper and was not surprised to find that he had wet his diaper in his sleep Ryan had been consistently wetting in his sleep since being put back in diapers and he had wet his bed the night before that. Also Mike thought When Ryan is awake and diapered, he does use his diaper and doesn’t seem to mind too much, this would make things easier.  

 

            Mike gathered all of his energy and pulled back the covers. He got out of bed taking Ryan with him. Instead of carrying Ryan to the changing table, Mike brought him to the rocking chair instead and sitting down, he gathered his strength and began. Dropping a kiss on Ryan’s forehead Mike started “So baby Daddy has to talk to you”. Ryan interrupted, in a worried voice he said “I’m really sorry Daddy I won’t be bad no more you I don’t need anymore spanking!” Mike chuckled and giving Ryan another kiss continued “Oh no baby no more spanking, you were punished but now that’s over, and we’re okay. Daddy was never angry with you, I love you so much and I was just scared today.  But you do need to listen and obey daddy when I tell you to do something. You did not listen today and Daddy had to spank you. I know that you really had to potty which made it difficult to listen. But that can’t happen again”. Ryan looked confused and said “what do you mean Daddy” Mike took a breath, it was now or never. “This is not a punishment baby but because you had to potty today you left the room without permission and scared Daddy and got into trouble. Now baby this was not the first time you have had potty problems in fact you have had several near accidents in the last couple of days and I love you baby but because of today and just because I think it is a good idea to avoid problems I’m putting you back in diapers full time”. Ryan was shocked, he looked at his daddy and splutter “but… no I’ll be good I promise Daddy!” Seeing that Ryan was close to tears Mike pulled him closer and said “sweetheart you are good, Your Daddy’s good, good baby. This is not a punishment, this is not about your behavior. This is happening because we keep narrowly avoiding accidents love and today you had to do something naughty to avoid an accident, that can’t happen again but even without that baby you have come very close to having accidents several times and eventually, probably soon we will not make it in time and you could wet your pants in public. I don’t want that and I know you don’t either so we need to take precessions. Daddy loves you baby, I just want to protect you, please let me”. Ryan hated the idea of being in diapers full time, it meant the he was truly regressing; even in high school he had worn training pants during the day. Now he had to wear diapers 24 all the time however he saw the truth in his daddy’s words. He knew it was getting worse. Tear running down his cheeks Ryan nodded and held on to his daddy for the comfort, love and acceptance he so badly needed. If he really had to be a baby at least he had a Daddy.

 

            Mike was relieved by Ryan’s reaction. He was also very proud of his baby for taking this development so well. Mike smiled and said ‘Okay baby lets get you diapered. He stood up and brought Ryan to the changing table. Mike quickly removed Ryan’s very wet diaper then cleaned him and put him in a fresh one. Mike then dressed Ryan and repacked his bag including Christopher and his binky. Lastly Mike put on Ryan’s shoes omitting his socks he just didn’t see the point. He took Ryan’s hand and they left the room. They were early but if they left now they could grab a sandwich before class. After all they had skipped lunch and like any good Daddy Mike could never let his baby go to class hungry.

 

Part 38

 

            Mike looked at his watch, it was 3:00, they had 30 minutes until class, but they still had to hurry.  As they walked Mike said to Ryan “you must be hungry baby, we’ll grab a sandwich before class”.  Ryan who was hungry liked this idea. He nodded and said “great Daddy”. They walked into the dinning hall finding it almost completely deserted. They walked directly to the sandwich bar and Mike made them a turkey sandwich. It was late so he figured they could split one. Once he had put the finishing touches on their lunch Mike took Ryan’s hand and walked him to the drink station where he allowed Ryan to get a soda for them to split, then they walked to a secluded corner of the cafeteria where they would have some privacy. Their isolated choice in seating and the lateness of the hour meant that they would not seen or noticed by anyone.

 

            Mike sat down in a chair then to Ryan’s surprise pulled him down to sit on his lap. Ryan struggled momentarily then realizing that they were alone, he relaxed and leaned into his Daddy’s chest. Mike smiled, he picked up their sandwich and offered it to Ryan who took a bit without protest. Mike then took a bite himself. Lunch progressed pleasantly as Mike alternated feeding his baby then himself and offering Ryan small sips of soda in between bites. Once their food was gone Mike wiped Ryan’s face with a napkin then kissing his cheek made to lift Ryan off his lap. He was however stopped By Ryan rapping his arms around Mike’s neck and saying “I love you Daddy” Mike’s heart swelled as he embraced his little boy, and said “I love you too baby so much” after a moment of relishing in this spontaneous show of affection Mike knew that they had to get going so he kissed Ryan’s hair before saying “unfortunately Baby we have to get to class” this time Ryan allowed his daddy to lift him from his lap and set him on his feet. Mike grabbed their bags and Ryan’s hand and they set off for class.

 

            Then arrived at class with 7 minutes to spare and took seats in the back. Although the class was not empty Ryan offered his foot to Mike and asked “can you help me Daddy” Mike smiled and said “of course baby” he reached down and unlaced Ryan’s shoes. Mike pulled off Ryan’s left shoe then as he removed the right one he couldn’t stop himself, he gave the sole of Ryan’s foot a light tickle. Ryan’s whole body squirmed as he let out a happy giggle and said “Daddy that tickles stop” He then through himself into his daddy’s arms still giggling. Mike was pleasantly caught off guard. His baby had initiated 2 cuddles in one day, one in front of other people. Ryan was really coming to accept his roll as Mike’s baby and Mike was thrilled. He rocked Ryan briefly in his arms then said “okay baby Daddy will stop”. Mike receive another surprise, he released Ryan but before getting up he lean up and gave Mike a peck on the lips then hopped off Mike’s lap and scampered to his own seat. Mike smiled as he watched his baby settle himself on his heels and ready himself from class. He also couldn’t help but notice how some of the other students in the classroom were beaming at Ryan who was looking adorable as he doodled in his notebook. Mike realized that they probably thought Ryan was his little boy and this was the truth, just not the whole truth but he thought, it also wasn’t anyone’s business. Class started and everyone’s eyes turned from Ryan to the professor, except of course for Mike who knew he could never get tired of watching his adorably cute baby. After another 5 minutes, it was only reluctantly that Mike turn is attention from Ryan’s natural cuteness to the professor who was far less fun to watch.

 

            After the room had emptied, Mike packed his bag and Moved Ryan to the front row as usual.  However before Ryan could sit Mike sat down and pulled him on to his lap. He gave Ryan a little squeeze before saying “Okay baby what’s the rule” Ryan knowing what daddy wanted to hear repeated “I’m not to leave my seat until Daddy comes to pick me up” Mike gave Ryan a kiss and said “good baby” He deposited Ryan in his seat before saying “you know the drill love but if you need me call and be a good boy, oh and I love more then anything you know that”. Just then another student walked into t he class but undeterred Ryan looked up at Mike and said “I love you too Daddy” then stood briefly to give his daddy a kiss goodbye. He realized then that it just didn’t matter anymore, he was his Daddy’s little boy and he was proud of that so he didn’t care who saw. They’d just see a little boy with his daddy anyway.  After accepting Ryan’s offered kiss Mike stroked his cheek and said “I’m so proud of you baby, see you in a bit” then giving Ryan a wink, he turned and left the room to head his own class.

 

Part 39

 

            Once class ended Mike made his way back to Ryan’s room. As he approached the class, he couldn’t help but worry, his fear from the morning still lingered in hi brain. However this time when he entered Ryan’s classroom he was filled with joy and love instead of fear and panic. The sight that met his eyes just about melted his heart. There sat Ryan in his seat humming to himself and tapping his toes, he was drawing in his notebook while he held Christopher and nursed his binky. If it was possible to die from cuteness Mike knew that he would be a goner.

 

            Mike walked over to Ryan bent down and kissed his head saying “Hi baby” Ryan smiled up at Mike and excitedly spit out his binky before responded “Daddy!!” He dropped his pen and raised his arms to lets his Daddy know that he wanted to be held. Mike didn’t disappoint him, He quickly raised Ryan and Christopher into his arms then settling Ryan on his hip Mike started to clean up Ryan’s things. Ryan quickly protest “you don’t have to Daddy, I can” but Mike cut him off saying “don’t worry about it love, this is a daddy job” Ryan fell silent and laid his head on his Daddy’s shoulder. Mike rocked his baby back and forth as he picked up. Once everything was put away and Mike had collected Ryan’s shoes and bag Ryan who was borrowed into Daddy’s neck said in a slightly embarrassed voice “I’m wet Daddy” Mike gave Ryan a little squeeze and said “it’s okay baby Daddy packed a diaper bag so we can go to the bathroom and get you changed, I noticed a changing station in there the other day so no worries baby Daddy has everything under control”. Ryan relaxed knowing Daddy would take care of everything and allowed himself to be carried to the bathroom.

 

            Mike opened the bathroom door and made sure the room was empty before bringing Ryan to the handicapped stall. Once inside Mike unfolded the changing station before digging in his bag for a changing pad. Once Mike found the pad he placed it on the table and then laid Ryan down. Mike had Ryan changed and redressed in minutes. He sat Ryan up on the changing table then asked “baby do want to walk or do you want Daddy to carry you?” Ryan thought for a moment, he wanted to he held but it might be embarrassing, then remembering what he decided earlier he decided to go with his heart and asked “will you carry me Daddy?” Mike beamed and said “Of course baby, in fact you don’t ever have to ask. Daddy will always hold you whenever you want”. Mike lifted Ryan back into his arms and settled him onto his hip. Ryan rapped his arms around daddy’s neck and they made their way to the cafeteria.

 

            They made their way across the campus and to Ryan’s immense relief they experienced no strange looks or mean comments. People passing them would smile as they saw Ryan cuddled in Mike’s arms some would even wave. Ryan realized this was because they thought he really was a child. This was all of the reassurance Ryan needed, he would no long worry about acting big, the whole world seemed to see a little boy when they looked at him so he knew that he could relax and just be little. Ryan finally felt free to be the little boy he truly was. After all he was his Daddy’s baby. Gone were Ryan’s ideas of growing up and becoming big and by the time they entered the cafeteria Ryan had completely accepted his place as a forever child and Daddy’s baby boy and he couldn’t help but smile.

 

Part 40

 

            Once inside the dinning hall Mike carried Ryan to the meat and veggies line. Ryan had made no efforts to extract himself from his Daddy and Mike certainly was not going to suggest that Ryan get down, this was still new and he didn’t want to do anything that make his baby feel rejected. Because of this Mike decided to get one plate for them to share, if he was lucky he thought, Ryan might agree to sit on his lap again. Mike told the person behind the counter that they were sharing and she handed him a plate with a generous helping of food.  During this exchange, Ryan kept his eyes closed and his face burrowed into Daddy’s neck, although he had come to accept his place as Daddy’s baby he was still adjusting to being a baby everywhere all of the time, it wasn’t always easy. Mike got a tray and carried Ryan and their food toward the drinks. He stopped along the way to get silverware but only selected one fork and knife. Next they went to the drink station where Mike got a soda for himself and a milk for his baby then they headed for the seats.

 

            Mike put their tray down without asking sat down in a chair and arraigned Ryan so he was sitting cross his lap. Ryan opened his mouth to protest but Mike cut in “shhh sweetheart let Daddy feed you… please baby” Ryan hearing the plea in his Daddy’s voice closed his mouth, if this would make Daddy happy then he would do it. Besides he had just been carried through the cafeteria for all to see and anyway the growing little boy inside of him just wanted to relax and let Daddy take care of him. Ryan nodded and leaned against his Daddy’s chest before asking, “Can I have Christopher Daddy”. Mike quickly dug through his bag to retrieve the monkey. Finding the missing chimp Mike handed it to Ryan, he then kissed the little boy’s cheek and said “thank you Baby you have made Daddy very happy”. Although no one seemed to take any notices of them, Ryan still looked apprehensively around the room.  Mike saw this and in an effort to make his baby smile, Mike picked up the fork, He speared some roast beef and suspending the fork in the air, made engine noises before saying “Open the hanger baby this plane is coming in for a landing!” Mike brought the fork to Ryan’s lips before putting it back and saying ‘Come on Baby open the bay doors” Ryan couldn’t help but smile, He opened his mouth and Daddy once again brought the food to his lips this time allowing Ryan to eat the offered food. As Ryan chewed Mike kissed his forehead and whispered “there’s Daddy’s good baby” Mike then gathered more food on the fork and took a bite himself.  Mike then brought Ryan’s milk to his lips and said “take a sip baby” Ryan obeyed and slowly drank from the glass his daddy held to his lips. Once Ryan had taken his sip Mike again put some food on the fork and fed Ryan repeating their game and once again getting rewarded my his baby’s beautiful smile. The dinner that progressed was full of laughs, smiles, hugs and kisses. After dinner a very happy Mike wiped off his Baby’s face and again lifted him into his arms. Gathering their bags, Mike carried Ryan to the dessert table and allowed him to get an M&M cookie for dessert. Then exiting the cafeteria Mike carried Ryan back toward their room to get his baby bathed and ready for bed.   

 

Part 41

 

            When they entered the room Mike immediately brought Ryan to the changing table. He completely undressed his baby then removed his very wet diaper. Once Ryan was completely bare Mike gave his tummy a little tickle before lifting him into his arms. Ryan wrapped his arms around Mike’s Neck Giggling as his daddy carried him to the bathroom.

 

            In the bathroom, Mike placed Ryan on the toilet and said “make poopie baby, Daddy’s going to fill the tub”. Ryan who didn’t feel then need to “make poopie” was about to protest when all of a sudden he was hit by a sudden strong urge and quickly began to poop into the toilet. Ryan was completely caught off guard by this and began to cry. Mike who was adding bubble bath to Ryan’s bathwater heard Ryan sniffling, he looked up and seeing his baby’s distress immediately went to him and crouched down in front of the toilet. He gently wiped away Ryan’s tears as he asked him “what’s that matter baby, whatever it is Daddy will make it better” Ryan was feeling slightly better because of his Daddy’s gentle words and calm demeanor however he was still sad and scared. Without thinking, He through his Arms around Mikes neck and sobbed out, “I’m losssssing contrrrol daddddy! I didn’t even know I had to do poopies but then I realllly had to go and it wasss like I couldn’t stop it and I don’t even know when I’m wet anymore, I hardly notice. What’s wrong with me? I’m sorry!”

 

            Pulling back a little, Mike gave Ryan a kiss on the forehead before saying “there’s nothing wrong with you baby! I know that you’re having a hard time knowing when you need to make peepee and poopie and I know that you don’t like it but its okay I promise, that why you’re back in diapers so that you don’t have to worry and that’s why you have daddy. I’m the adult so let me do the worrying, you just relax and be my beautiful baby boy okay love? Ryan felt calmed by his Daddy’s words and nodded. Mike once again leaned in and gave Ryan a kiss then said “I love you so much baby”. Mike then had Ryan stand. He quickly wiped him clean then picked him up and placed him in the warm bubbly bath water.  Mike put Ryan’s bath toys into the water then knelt down beside the tub to watch his baby play in his bath.

 

                          

            Ryan couldn’t remember the last time he took a bubble bath. He was in heaven, all of his sadness and anxiety from before was gone and replaced with joy and excitement. Ryan played with his rubber ducky and enjoyed weaving it over, under and through the bubbles. He used his boats and pretended that they were caught in a storm. Ryan was having so much fun that he hated to see playtime end. He felt really disappointed when he heard Daddy said “okay baby time to get you clean”. Ryan looked up and said “Noooo Daddddy, not nowww I want to keep playing!” Mike just shook his head and said “remember Baby, Daddy does not speak whine and I’m sorry but playtime is over for now but if you’re good for Daddy right now you can have more playtime before bed if not I think maybe my baby needs an early bedtime. The choice is yours my love”. Ryan was still disappointed but nodded and said “I’ll be good Daddy”, he did not want to lose his playtime or go to bed early. Giving Ryan a kiss Mike said “thank you Baby” Mike got the soap and washed his baby starting with the toes and working his way up. Ryan was fidgety and squirmy but otherwise compliant. When Mike finished washing Ryan’s hair, he drained the bath water and telling Ryan to stay seated he went to grab a towel. Coming back Mike hooked Ryan under the armpits and lifted him out of the tub. Standing him on the bath matt Mike dried Ryan completely before picking him up again and carrying him to the changing table Mike diapered his baby then grabbed his night shirt and slid it down Ryan’s body. Mike then lifted Ryan from the table and placed him on the floor. Looking at Ryan wearing a diaper and nightie and looking so small, Mike couldn’t help but smile at the unbelievable cuteness of his baby.  Ryan seeing Mike smile looked up and said “what are you thinking about Daddy, you look so happy”. Mike stroked his cheek and said “you baby, I’m thinking about you and how cute you are and how much I love you and what a lucky Daddy I am!” Ryan looked Shy but said “I love you too Daddy but I’m the lucky one” He then hugged his Daddy who wrapped his arms around his little boys shoulders and rubbed his back saying “maybe we’re both luck baby”. After a minute Mike released Ryan and looked at his watch, he said “okay baby it’s 6:45 lets both do some studying. If you’re good, you may stop at 7:30 and play until bedtime”. Ryan nodded, he knew he had to do homework. He grabbed Christopher and his binky. Ryan grabbed his text book and lay down on the rug on his tummy and propped himself up on his elbows. He put his binky in his mouth and held Christopher as he began to read for class. He only had to be good for another 45 minutes then he could play with his toys until bedtime. Stifling a yon he thought to himself, I just have to make it that long but even as he read he felt his eyes start to get heavy.

 

  Part 42

 

            Ryan managed to make it 35 more minutes and an entire chapter before he began to doze. His eyes started to close and his head gently dropped onto his book. Mike looked up from his own studying to find his little boy sleeping on his side using his textbook as a pillow. He was holding Christopher, nursing his binky and looking completely angelic. Mike smiled and looked at his clock. It was just 7:24. Ryan had been falling to sleep earlier then his bedtime a lot. Mike thought to himself that he might have to rearrange their schedule and find a different time for Ryan to study. His little boy clearly needed an earlier bedtime 8:30 was just too late his baby. He knew Ryan might not like this but his body did not lie and 2 of the last 3 nights he had fallen asleep before 8:00.

 

            Mike sighed as he got up from his chair he really didn’t want another struggle or to upset his baby but he was the Daddy and he had to do what was best for his little boy. At least he thought, this can wait until tomorrow. Mike walked over to where Ryan lay and reaching down, lifted Ryan’s sleeping body into his arms. Mike settled Ryan against his chest and was walking toward his crib when his baby stirred in his arms. Mike hoping Ryan might just drop back off to sleep gently began to rock Ryan in his arms and said “its okay baby daddy’s got you. We’re gonna get you into bed now love”. Although Ryan was still half asleep he moaned in his daddy’s arms and said “nooo Daddy wanna play, don’t wanna sleep. Not bedtime…” Mike chuckled and decided to compromise. He shifted Ryan in his arms and said ‘how about we cuddle then baby”. This was a good compromise this way Ryan could quickly fall back to sleep and Mike really liked the idea of having some daddy baby time anyway. Ryan smiled as Mike walked to the cuddle chair. As Mike was about to sit down Ryan closed his eyes and coughing a bit said in a still sleepy voice “thirsty Daddy” Mike kissed Ryan’s cheek and said “okay baby daddy will take care of it”. Make went to the mini fridge and pulled out the apple juice. Then walking over to the baby shelves he pulled a baby bottle out of a shopping bag. Mike had been waiting for the right time to introduce Ryan to his new bottle and right now seemed perfect. He poured some apple juice into the bottle then screwed the nipple in place.

 

            Ryan who was very thirsty was becoming impatient. He was trying to stay awake but he was so tired that he couldn’t even open his eyes to see what his Daddy was doing. In a tired whinny voice he said “daddyyy “I’m thirsty!!!”  Mike chose to ignore his baby’s tone, a sleepy baby was allowed to whine. So giving Ryan another kiss he responded “I know baby just one more second”  grabbing the bottle Mike went back to the chair grabbing Christopher off the floor as he did and settled himself into the chair with Ryan cuddled on his lap in a semi sitting position. Mike looked down at his sleepy little boy with his eyes closed.  Gave him his monkey then took the bottle in his hand and inserting the nipple into Ryan’s lips said “here’s your drink baby” It took a second for Ryan to realize that was going on. As the liquid came into his mouth he was immediately relieved that his thirstiness and dry throat were gone but then he registered what was happening and he was not a happy baby. Ryan franticly opened his eyes and struggled to sit up in daddy’s lap. Mike gently attempted to calm his baby by making shushing noises and rocking him in his arms. When this didn’t work, he reluctantly took the bottle out of Ryan’s lips and asked “what’s wrong baby?” Still in his whinny tire voice Ryan said “Daddy were did that come from, I don’t want a bottle!! There for babies!!” In a serious but gentle tone Mike said “well then it’s a good thing that we have it then because you are a baby, my baby. Anyway this will be so good sweetheart, you can have a nice baba during cuddle time and even in bed. Won’t that be great?” Ryan looked reluctant but was too tired to fight it so he just opened his lips and allowed Mike reinsert the nipple. This time Ryan began to drink without complaint he even kind of liked it. Mike bent to kiss Ryan’s forehead and said “thank you for trusting Daddy sunshine”. Ryan wrinkled his nose at this new pet name. Mike said “what baby you are my sunshine!” Smiling Mike quietly broke into song, “You are my sunshine, my only sunshine”. Ryan closed his eyes. He drank his baba, cuddled his Christopher and allowed his Daddy to sing him to sleep. Lullabies were great he thought and he was out before the beginning of the second verse.

 

            Seeing his baby fall asleep Mike stopped singing but continued to rock for a few minutes before he slowly got up, without waking Ryan this time. Mike gently placed Ryan in his crib. Mike settled Ryan under his blankets and placed Christopher under his arm and his binky in his lips. Mike then put Ryan’s new bottle next to his pillow in case he got thirsty during the night. Kissing Ryan a final time Mike raised the crib rail then went to his computer. He had to check his e-mail and he was determined to find a way to help Ryan with this social problem before he went to bed.    

 

Part 43

 

            Mike sat down at his computer. The first thing he did was open up his Email. One particular message caught his eye, it was from his little brother asking if he could come for a visit on Saturday which was in 2 days. Mike was excited, he had always been close to his brother and he could not wait to introduce Ryan to his family. He just knew that they would all love him. Of course he thought, how could they not his baby was extremely loveable. Mike then closed his Email and started to look at his options for socializing Ryan. He had an idea, starting the next week, their class schedules would change. After the introductory week their classes would only meet 3 day’s a week on Monday, Wednesday and Friday which meant that he and Ryan would have Tuesdays and Thursday off. Mike had the perfect solution to this problem, he knew how to help Ryan make appropriate friends and even get himself a little bit of time to clean, run errands and do the shopping. Ryan would go to daycare.

 

            Mike knew that Ryan would appose this at first but he knew that daycare was the best option to help Ryan get over his social anxiety and make peer connections. Mike also believed that once Ryan got used to being in daycare he would love it. Now he just had to find the right way to tell him. Mike came up with a plan. On Saturday morning, he would take Ryan to the park, out to lunch, to the book store to buy some stories for bedtime and maybe even to the toy store if need be. They would have a fun day out and just the 2 of them and then Mike would tell his baby about going to daycare. He was a little bit worried because of the timing of his brothers visit, He didn’t want his brother to meet his new nephew for the first time during a temper tantrum or god forbid a spanking but he really didn’t know how his little boy would take this news so he hoped to soften the blow even if it did feel like a bribe. He wanted to be a good daddy yes, but he certainly was not above a bribe if it kept his baby happy and meant that he didn’t have to give out punishment or cancel his plans. Yes, spoiling Ryan defiantly seemed like the best option. Anyway, Mike loved making his baby happy, so he didn’t really need a reason to spoil him.

 

            Once Mike had found some names of local daycares and decided that he would call tomorrow while Ryan took his nap. he decided to try to get some sleep. It was only 11:30 but he knew that Ryan would be up early again and that morning had shown him that once baby was up so was Daddy. After changing into pajamas Mike went to Ryan’s crib. He watched his baby sleep for a moment taking in the cuteness of the scene and peaceful look on Ryan’s face. Then bending down, Mike placed a light kiss on Ryan cheek saying “good night sunshine, daddy loves you”. He then adjusted Ryan’s covers one last time and got into bed positioning himself on his side so he could still watch his baby sleep. Mike loved to watch Ryan it made him feel at peace and whole, like he had everything that he would ever need and Mike knew that was true. As long as he had his baby he was okay great even. He could do anything, get through anything as long as he had his baby. Ryan was all he needed and would ever need. In his heart, Mike knew that first and foremost beyond anything else he was Ryan’s Daddy and that was all he needed to be, just Ryan’s Daddy. With that thought, filling his heart with love and peace, Mike closed his eyes and was able to sleep.

 

Part 44

 

            Ryan awoke the next morning early, the room was quiet and the curtains were drawn around the windows making it impossible for him to tell what time it was. Ryan rolled on to his tummy so he could look at the clock but receive a shock. Daddy’s bed was empty and so was the room, Ryan didn’t know what to do! Daddy wouldn’t leave him would he! He looked at the clock, it was 7:20 he didn’t like this, He was scared and he wanted his daddy. Ryan started to cry and acting on instinct called out in a laud, sad voice “Daddy!!!”

 

            Mike was in the bathroom. Having just finished showering he was in the middle of getting dressed when he heard his baby calling his name. Hearing that Ryan sounded upset, Mike opened the bathroom door and in a calm re-assuring voice said “it’s okay baby Daddy’s in the bathroom. I’ll be out in one minute, just relax and drink you baba, I put a new one next to your pillow okay sunshine”. Ryan looked relieved and nodded as he picked up his bottle, leaving the door open, Mike quickly finished getting dressed so he could go have a cuddle with his little boy.

 

            Ryan was relieved beyond words. When he saw his daddy he was able to calm down and stop crying. Ryan realized that he was now so daddy dependant that being unexpectedly away from his daddy really scared him. He was after all just a little boy and he needed his daddy to take care of him. Life without Daddy terrified Ryan he had already lost 2 parents he couldn’t lose another one. However, now safe in the knowledge that daddy was just in the bathroom, Ryan laid back down and nursed his baba while he waited for Daddy to finish getting dressed.

 

            Once done in the bathroom, Mike entered their room and walked over to Ryan’s crib. He noticed that Ryan seemed calmer, but he also noticed that Ryan’s eyes were still read from crying. Lowering the side of his crib Mike gathered Ryan in his arms. Ryan who was still feeling somewhat anxious immediately latched on to Mike neck like he would never let go. Mike took a moment to cuddle his baby before walking toward the changing table and putting a reluctant Ryan down with promises of cuddle time with Daddy right after diaper change was over.  Once on the table, Ryan continued to nurse his bottle and allowed his daddy to attend to his very wet diaper. Mike quickly had Ryan changed then leaving him in his jimmies Mike settled Ryan on his hip and walked over to the cuddle time chair making a pit stop to grab Christopher along the way.

 

            Sitting down, Mike settled Ryan across his lap so that his head was resting against Mike’s chest and covered him with a throw blanket. Smiling, Mike kissed Ryan’s forehead and cheek then silently began to rock his baby. Ryan closed his eyes, drank his morning bottle and hugged his Christopher while he lay snuggled in his Daddy’s embrace. In that moment, life couldn’t be more perfect for Daddy or baby. However Mike knew that in a moment he would embark on a conversation that while necessary might ruin their wonderful cuddle time so for the moment, he just rocked. He wasn’t willing to give this up just yet.   

 

             

 

     Part 45

 

            Mike cuddled his baby and rocked for 20 minutes before he decided he should begin. Kissing Ryan’s cheek he said “so baby do you want the good news or the bad news?” Ryan was a bit worried, he had no idea what Daddy was going to tell him but trusting that his Daddy loved him and would take care of him he decided “bad news first Daddy”. Tightening his hold around his little boy Mike said Okay… well baby, I mean it’s not really bad news but well daddy has noticed that you get really tired at night and last night you fell asleep while you were studying. In fact 2 of the last 3 night you have fallen asleep well before bedtime which tells me that you must be really tired. So we are going to make bedtime a little bit earlier. From now on bedtime on the school nights will be 7:30. Ryan looked like he wanted to protest but Mike continued “this is not a punishment love but you get tired at night and we need to find the best plan so that you can study, play and get plenty of rest. What I think we’ll do is change bedtime to 7:30 and make wake up time 7:30 too. That way you can do your studying in the morning and still have some playtime in the evening. Ryan looked really sad and in a broken voice said “butt Daddy I already go to bed real early!” Chuckling Mike stroked Ryan’s cheek and said I know baby but I tell you what, we’ll change bedtime for now but if you have trouble sleeping, we can always reassess. I only want to do what’s best for my baby so we’ll just let your body make this decision for us. How does that sound sunshine? Ryan couldn’t help but smile at his new nickname. He felt better, this was really up to him. He would prove that he was big enough to stay up until 8:30 after all, 7:30 was far too babyish a bedtime for a big boy like him.

 

            Hoping to distract his baby from the sadness he might be feeling about this rule change Mike said “Okay sweetheart, ready for the good news?” Ryan nodded so Mike continued “well, you know that today is Friday right” Ryan nodded excitedly and said “we get to have pizza tonight right Daddy!” Mike laughed and said “yes sweetheart pizza tonight and a later bedtime, maybe 8:30, we’ll see baby and maybe we can watch a movie after dinner, does that sound good? Ryan happily nodded so Mike continued “it also means that it’s the weekend so no school and I thought that we should have a special day out tomorrow. We’ll go to the park and play and go to the book store to get some nice bedtime stories for Daddy to read to you at bedtime. We’ll go to lunch and if your really good until then we can even go to the toy store, how does that sound my love?” Ryan was very excited. He bounced up in Daddy’s lap throw his arms around his daddy’s neck saying “I can’t wait daddy and I promise, I’ll be sooo good really” Mike was happy to see his baby so excited and said “I know love your always good, we’ll have a great day and then we’re going to have a visit tomorrow evening until Sunday, my younger brother your Uncle Nate is coming to visit” Ryan looked down nervously, seeing this sudden change tucked Ryan’s head under his chin and asked “what’s up baby?” In a small voice, Ryan voiced his concern “What if he doesn’t like me Daddy I mean…” Mike couldn’t help by laugh but in a reassuring voice said “oh baby Uncle Nate will love you, I just know it. In fact I want to take you home for a weekend soon to introduce you to the whole family, they really are going to love you I promise. Actually I’ve already told my Mom and dad, you’ll call them Grammy and Popop all about you and they can’t wait to meet you and I think they may have told Uncle Nate but we’ll see. Anyway He’ll get here tomorrow night and it’s going to be great okay sweet pea? Smiling Ryan looked at his daddy and said “really Daddy sweet pea?” Tickling Ryan Mike laughed and said “do you have a problem you cheeky little baby does Daddy need to tickle his little sweet pea is that what you need hem, hem Mike extenuated every word with a tickle  so that Ryan was squirming like crazy and laughing hysterically in his lap. Briefly stopping Mike asked “now who’s daddy’s little sweat pea?” He then began his assault again focusing on Ryan’s ticklish tummy. Almost laughing too hard to speak, Ryan managed to say “Mehee, I’mmm Dadaddy’s little swwweat peeeeeeheheheh” Stopping Mike kissed Ryan’s temple saying “yes you are baby. Yes you are”. Ryan once again snuggled into his Daddy’s chest as the rocked in a comfortable silence. When ten more minutes had passed, Mike looked down at his baby and said “Okay love we should probably get you dressed so we can get going. You ready?” Not liking this idea but knowing Daddy was right Ryan reluctantly nodded. Mike stood up and carried his baby to his changing Table to get him ready for the day.

 

Part 46

 

            Mike removed Ryan’s wet diaper, taking a baby wipe he cleaned off the little boy’s private area then gently messaged lotion into Ryan hairless and sensitive skin. Finally Mike applied baby powder and rubbed it in before he re-diapered his baby. Mike pulled out a pair of Cars underwear and worked them up Ryan’s legs and over his diaper. Mike then dressed Ryan in a pair of corduroys and a long sleeved Cars t-shirt. Once Ryan was dressed picked him up again and carried him to the bathroom.

 

            In the bathroom, Mike sat Ryan on the counter top, standing in front of him to ensure that he didn’t fall Mike proceeded to gently wash Ryan’s face. Then picking up Ryan’s toothbrush and putting toothpaste on it he said “smile for me baby”. Ryan gave his daddy a funny look and asked “why Daddy” giving his baby a little tickle Mike said in a joking voice ”that was a question baby not a smile. But to answer your non-smile Daddy is going to brush your teeth to make sure they get nice and clean”. Ryan looked reluctant and reaching for the toothbrush said “No Daddy I can to it myself”. Mike shook his head and replied “I know you can sweet pea but you have Daddy now and this has just become a Daddy job so smile for Daddy like a good boy unless you need a timeout to remind you to be an obedient baby who does as his Daddy says” Ryan wasn’t crazy about the idea of having Daddy brush his teeth but he liked the idea of a timeout even less so  he quickly assured “I’ll be good Daddy no timeout!” before putting on a big toothy smile to allow his daddy access to his teeth. Smiling himself Mike kissed Ryan’s cheek before saying “Thank you my love” Mike then turned his attention to his baby’s mouth. He made sure to clean each tooth and Ryan’s tong before putting down the toothbrush and saying “spit for Daddy baby”. Obediently Ryan spit in the sink then smiled up at his Daddy.  Mike took Ryan’s chin in his hand saying “There’s daddy’s beautiful baby boy with a beautiful smile too”

 

             Feeling self conscious Ryan asked “you think I’m beautiful Daddy?” Kissing Ryan’s forehead Mike said “I’m your Daddy love of course I think your beautiful, you’re the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen, I think all parents feel that way about their baby’s but it’s absolutely the truth in your case. You’re just too cute for words sweet pea and I love you sooo much” Ryan nodded embarrassedly and said “Okay Daddy I love you too”  Smiling again Mike lifted Ryan into his arms and asked “You ready to go study baby?” Ryan nodded as he was carried to his desk and deposited in his chair. Daddy fixed Ryan a bottle and gave him Christopher to cuddle with while he studied. As Ryan sat reading his text book, cuddling his monkey and drinking his baba Mike decided to do some studying himself, after all they still had 30 minutes before they had to leave for breakfast.

 

Part 47

 

            Half an hour later Mike closed his book. He looked over to find his baby lying across his chair with his little feet hanging over one end. Ryan had his eyes closed. He was nursing his bottle and was using Christopher as a pillow. Mike smiled. This was too cute to let go. He quickly got his phone and took a picture before getting up from his seat. He quietly walked over to his little boy and ran his hand down the sole of Ryan’s very exposed foot. He was not disappointed by his baby’s reaction. Opening his eyes, Ryan dropped his bottle and burst out laughing. He convulsed in giggles as he attempted to get himself into a less vulnerable position away from his Daddy’s fingers.

 

            Mike smiled down at his baby and said “did you have a nice nap baby?” Ryan shyly nodded and Mike continued, “I didn’t realize you were tired love, but did you get enough studying done?” Nodding again Ryan said “yah Daddy I finish with everything but I didn’t want to bother you so I just closed my eyes and relaxed”. Picking Ryan up Mike pulled him into s tight hug and said “what a polite baby I have but if you were finished sweetheart you could have had some playtime and you are never a bother to Daddy sunshine, not ever. Mike kissed Ryan’s cheek then feeling his diaper said someone needs a change lets take care of that then go to breakfast”.

 

            Placing Ryan on the changing table, Mike quickly changed his wet diaper then sitting Ryan up Mike placed his toy story flip flops on his feet. Mike then grabbed both of their backpacks and placed Ryan’s binky in his. Walking back to his baby Mike handed Ryan Christopher and asked do you want to walk baby or do you want Daddy to carry you?”  Ryan knew what he wanted without having to think. He raised his arms and simply said “up Daddy” Mike chuckled and gathered his baby in his arms. Ryan leaned into Mike and rested his head on his daddy’s shoulder and he hugged Christopher to him. Mike gave Ryan a kiss on his temple as they headed out the door.

 

Part 48

 

            When they arrived at the dinning hall Mike put his baby down and took his hand. Explaining “Daddy needs to hold the food baby, now what should we have for breakfast? “How about pancakes again Daddy?” Ryan excitedly asked. Shaking his head Mike responded “not today baby we should eat health today but how about we have pancakes on Sunday. You can even get Chocolate chips, won’t that be yummy” Ryan was disappointed but knowing that there was no point in arguing with his daddy nodded and asked “what can we eat then Daddy?” Mike smiled at his baby’s obedience and said “how about oatmeal, toast and fruit love does that sound good?” It didn’t but knowing that he wasn’t really being asked Ryan nodded like a good boy and allowed Daddy to lead him to the food.  Mike filled their tray with healthy food then they grabbed some juice and found a table.

 

            Mike placed the food on the table then sat down and without asking pulled Ryan on to his lap. Ryan did not expect this. He wiggled and attempted to free himself from his Daddy’s grip. Picking up the spoon Mike said in a stern voice “stop that baby Daddy has to feed you breakfast so we can get to class” Ryan became upset and said “No Daddy I can feed myself I want to get up”. Remaining calm Mike responded “no love you can’t. Your just a baby and much to little to feed yourself. This is a daddy job”. Feeling defeated and sad Ryan closed his eyes. At that moment his bladder let loose and he wet his diaper with no control. Knowing that his daddy was right and that he was just a baby he opened his eyes and said “yes daddy”. Ryan leaned into Mike and hugging Christopher tightly to his chest opened his mouth and allowed his daddy to feed him breakfast with no further resistance. Mike was happy that Ryan had acquiesced so easily. He fed his baby breakfast eating himself as the same time. He hoped the next transition would be as easy. Once they were both done eating Mike opened his backpack and pulled out one of Ryan’s bottles. He then unscrewed the top and poured some juice inside. Ryan was not happy about this but he had kind of expected it. If he was too little to feed himself then he was defiantly little to hold a big boy cup. Mike rearranged Ryan in his arms and put the bottle to his lips. Ryan began to nurse without complaint. Seeing sadness in his baby’s eyes Mike gave him a kiss and said “Thank you for being sooo good baby you make daddy soo happy and I’m so proud of you. You’re such a good baby” Ryan couldn’t help but smile at his daddy’s words. If he had to be a baby at least he was a good baby.  When Ryan had finished his bottle Mike repacked his bag, and then once again lifted Ryan into his arms. They left the cafeteria, Mike knew that his baby needed a change before class.

 

Part 49

 

            Mike carried Ryan to the restroom outside the dinning hall. As they entered Ryan couldn’t help but feel panicky. This was not like the out of the way bathroom in the academic building, This bathroom was very public and always busy, however scared Ryan felt he was also very aware that he had no choice in the matter. Breakfast had shown him for sure that Daddy was in charge and he had to be a good baby and do as he was told. With this in mind, Ryan remained quiet silently trusting that his daddy knew what was best for him.

 

            When then entered the bathroom, Mike walked directly into the unoccupied Handicapped stall and locked the door. He unlatched the changing station and once it was open Ryan was laid on top. Seeing that Ryan looked slightly apprehensive about their location Mike took his binky out of his bag. He brushed the binky over Ryan’s lips as he said “its okay my love, babies get changed all the time and Daddy wont let anything bad happen I promise. This is nothing to worry about but I know you’re worried so Daddy will be quick”. Feeling reassured Ryan smiled and opened his lips to accept the offered binky which also helped to put him at ease.

 

            Mike Pulled Ryan’s pants down but as he was in the middle of stripping off his wet diaper the bathroom door opened and they heard someone walk toward the urinals. Nursing his binky Ryan attempted to stay calm. He reminded himself that they were in a bathroom stall and the door was locked but he was still scared. Ryan was so preoccupied with his fears that he didn’t even notice that his Daddy had finished changing him and was pulling his pants up. Sitting Ryan up Mike lifted him from the changing station and placed him on the ground. He was about to unlatch the door when Ryan stopped him. Although he was still nursing his binky Ryan motioned to the door and shook his head silently pleading for his daddy to wait. They had not heard the other person leave. Mike was torn. He did not want to embarrass his baby but he also knew that Ryan would have to get used to more frequent changes now that he was back in diapers fulltime. Deciding that this lesson could wait a bit Mike bent to kiss Ryan’s hair and said “okay baby we’ll wait, this time” Feeling very relieved Ryan hugged his daddy in gratitude. A moment later they heard the bathroom door open and knew they were once again in an empty bathroom. Leaving the stall Mike steered Ryan toward the sink. He stood behind Ryan and squirted soap into his Hand. Taking Ryan’s smaller hands in his own Mike washed both at the same time. Once satisfied that both he and his baby had clean hands Mike took Ryan’s binky from his lips. He put it back in his bag then lifted Ryan into his arms before leaving the bathroom. Even a day earlier Ryan would have complained about being carried so much or at all but now he knew better. He was a baby and baby’s get carried, it’s just natural and to Ryan it was becoming normal, just like diapers. With this in mind Ryan got comfortable in his Daddy’s arms He rapped his arms around his daddy’s neck and laid his head on Daddy’s shoulder as he was carried to class.

 

Part 50

 

            Entering the classroom Mike walked to their usual seats in the back and placed Ryan in his seat before bending to remove his shoes for him. Once Mike was had Ryan settled. He took his own seat next to his baby. He opened his notebook and got a pen before stopping to check on Ryan. Mike was surprised but happy to see that Ryan hadn’t bothered to put Christopher away. He sat drawing in his notebook and hugging the monkey to his chest while he waited for class to begin. Mike couldn’t help but smile, Ryan looked up and seeing Mike’s face asked “what are you smiling at Daddy?” Stroking Ryan’s cheek Mike said “nothing really baby, you just make Daddy very happy, that’s all” As Ryan was about to reply the professor walked in. So Ryan smiled instead and turned to face the teacher as class started. Mike too turned to the front of the room to focus on the lecture.

 

            As class ended Ally once again caught Mike’s and smiled, Mike who was busy gathering Ryan’s things briefly smiled back before turning his attention to his little boy and asking “how’s your diaper doing love do you need a change before class?” Shaking his head Ryan replied “no Daddy I’m still dry” Mike gave his baby a skeptical look and standing him up inserted his finger down the back of Ryan’s diaper before saying “actually sweetheart your really wet, we need to get you changed” Ryan looked horror struck, he turned bright red and said “butt, I didn’t know… I mean… Dadddy!” He then burst into tears. Mike knelt down and gathered his crying baby in his arms. He rubbed Ryan’s back and in a soft comforting voice said “It alright sunshine, this is why you’re wearing a diaper, you’re a baby and babies can’t always control when they go peepee and that’s okay because Daddy’s here to take care of you. Now how about we get you in a nice dry diaper?” Clutching his daddy and his monkey Ryan nodded into daddy’s chest and relaxed, Daddy always knew how to make him feel better and he never minded taking care of him, it made Ryan feel safe and loved. Once he managed to stop crying Ryan pulled back and looked expectantly up at his daddy waiting to be lifted into daddy’s arms and carried to the bathroom however, to Ryan’s surprise Mike did not stand, instead he opened his bag and pulled out a changing pad and clean diaper.

 

            Ryan looked down confusedly at the diaper in his Daddy’s hand then his eyes went wide in shock. He looked up at Mike and shook his head in a silent plea. Mike seeing his baby’s panic said “its okay baby, the room is empty no one will be here for at least 10 minutes. There’s just no reason we have to walk all the way to the bathroom when we have plenty of privacy in here. We’ll do this so quickly I promise you baby. Please just trust Daddy my love and everything will be okay” Ryan was still scared but he nodded. Mike stroked his cheek and said “That’s daddy’s good little boy, such a good baby” Mike laid the changing pad on the ground. Obediently Ryan lay down and closed his eyes as he silently prayed that no one would walk in the room. Mike pulled down his baby’s pants down to his knees then quickly removed Ryan’s wet diaper. He cleaned him down with a wipe before taping his new diaper in place. Mike was quick and efficient as he changed his baby. He wanted to get Ryan used to being changed in public but this would be a slow process. Mike was committed to allowing his baby make this adjustment in his own time, he would just help it along whenever possible. Fixing Ryan’s pants Mike helped him to stand then used a baby wipe to clean both of their hands. He then walked Ryan to his seat and helped him to get settled. Mike waited for a few other students to arrive before he left the room, kissing Ryan on his way out and leaving him with his usual don’t move, be good, I love you speech. Returning his Daddy’s I love you Ryan turned his attention to his drawing as he waited for class to start with Christopher still perched proudly in his lap.  

 

Part 51

 

            Walking into class Mike immediately spotted Ally and took the empty seat next to her. They exchanged pleasantries and waited for class to begin. Mike realized that he really like this girl, she was sweet, and funny and very pretty. However Mike was unsure of how to proceed, he might like Ally but he loved Ryan and right now his baby needed a lot of attention so anything with Ally would have to wait at least until Ryan was more settled and Mike had gotten him adjusted to daycare and found a good babysitter, there was just too much going on at the moment and Ryan would always be Mike’s priority he was after all Ryan’s Daddy. But if he could find a way to fit Ally into to his life in a way that did not hurt or scare his baby all the better but that was a big if.

 

            As class ended Mike hurried to pack his things He stood and grabbed his bag. He was about to leave the room when Ally who was also packing her things spoke to him. “Hey, I was wondering, would you like to grab some lunch with me?” Mike was shocked but also excited he had just been asked out. However, this happiness was short lived, He had to decline, he had Ryan to think about. His baby was waiting. Mike smiled at Ally and said “oh I can’t today I have to get back… but next week, things should be more settled, how about he have lunch then, maybe on Tuesday” Mike wrote his number on a piece of paper and handed it to Ally. “He said call me and we’ll make plans okay”. Ally smiled and assured Mike that she would call him then left the room leaving Mike staring after her smiling at the prospect of his first date in college.

 

            Mike was feeling extremely happy as he walked down the hall toward Ryan’s class. He was having a great day, He had the prospect of a date next week and before that he was going to have a great weekend, He and Ryan were going to have a Daddy baby day tomorrow then his younger brother was coming for a visit. Mike couldn’t remember when he had felt happier, more complete. Most of this Mike knew was Ryan. When he became Ryan’s daddy, he became aware for the first time of how deeply he could love. All he wanted was to love and protect his baby. Being Ryan’s daddy would always be his first priority however Mike also felt that he had room in his life for friends and maybe even a girl friend, He was worried but he told himself that single parents date all the time. Even with this one concern Mike still felt very lucky. He was loving college and he had a healthy happy baby what more could be ask for.

 

            Mike walked into Ryan’s class to find Ryan bouncing up and down in his seat looking agitated. Ryan was still hugging Christopher and now had his binky in his mouth. He was intensely nursing it in what mike perceived was an effort to stay calm. Seeing Mike Ryan spit his pacifier out and in a desperate voice said “I have to go poops Daddy real bad!!!” Lifting Ryan into his arms, Mike headed toward the bathroom, however before they had made it to the door, Mike knew it was too late, Ryan was shaking and fidgeting and Mike knew that they would never make it all the way to the bathroom. He stopped and took a breath, and decided it would be better for Ryan to have an accident in the privacy of this room then in the very public hallway.

           

            Instead of walking out the door Mike took a left and walked around the perimeter of the classroom. Ryan noticing this said in a strangled voice “I NEED THE POTTTTYYY DADDDDYYYY” By this point he was crying from the effort. Make gave Ryan a kiss on the forehead and in a gentle voice said “Oh baby we won’t make, I’m so sorry” As Mike said this he rubbed Ryan’s back from his neck to his butt. Almost immediately Ryan let out a Wail. He tightened his hold around his Daddy’s neck as gave in as he pooped in his diaper.

 

Part 52

 

            Mike stopped walking. He kissed Ryan hair and rubbed his back in an effort to calm him as he said “it’s okay sweetheart, you did soo good, yes you did. You’re such a good baby making poopie in your diaper for Daddy like a good boy, such a good baby! Daddy loves you soo much and I know you’re sad right now but you don’t have to be. You’re a baby and good babies do both peepee and poopie in their diapers. For being such a good baby Daddy is going to buy you an extra toy tomorrow, okay baby?”

 

            Ryan was so shocked by his daddy’s words that he stopped crying, he looked at his daddy and asked “your not mad Daddy” Kissing his baby’s cheek Mike responded “of course not my love I told you before Daddy will never mind taking care of you. You’re Daddy’s baby and Daddy loves taking care of his baby. Poopie diapers are just part of being a baby so this is okay in fact it makes Daddy very happy because this just makes us even closer. Ryan looked embarrassed and said in a sad voice “but it’s yucky for you daddy I mean…” Stroking Ryan’s cheek Mike said “Baby Daddy loves you so much and nothing you do is yucky to me. I love all of you even your poopie diapers. Really sweet pea, I mean it”

 

            Feeling better Ryan hugged his daddy and allowed himself to be carried toward his bag and the changing supplies. Mike found a clean diaper and laid out the changes supplies. He laid Ryan down on the changing pad this time without protest. Mike opened Ryan’s diaper and was careful not to react as he removed it and wiped the baby down. Ryan was already embarrassed enough. Once Ryan was clean Mike lotioned and powered him then put him securely in a new diaper and redressed him. Packing the supplies and once again lifting Ryan Mike Grabbed both of their bags. Ryan still feelings sad snuggled close to his daddy. Although Ryan was embarrassed he knew that his daddy meant it when he said he loved him and didn’t mind taking care of him. This made him happy. As they walked Ryan couldn’t help but smile and ask “do I really get a present Daddy?” Mike too smiled and replied “of course baby after all, you made Daddy a little present in your diaper didn’t you?” When Ryan didn’t respond Mike tickled him and again asked “didn’t you baby” Ryan squirmed and responded “Yes Daddddy!!!” Kissing Ryan’s forehead Mike said “You’re such a good boy and daddy loves you so, so much baby. Thank you for letting me be your Daddy and trusting me take care of you”

 

            Kissing his daddy on the cheek, Ryan said “I love you too Daddy and thank you for being my Daddy and loving me and taking care of me” Mike responded “its my pleasure sunshine and my job as the Daddy, you never have to thank me for being your Daddy, it’s who I was always meant to be”. Walking toward the cafeteria both Mike and Ryan felt at peace. Mike knowing that his baby was accepting being a baby more and more each day and Ryan knowing that he was safe because he had a Daddy who would always love him and take care of him no matter what which meant that he could truly relax and just be a baby even when that meant poopie diapers.

 

            Part 53

 

            Lunch went well. Ryan stayed quiet in his Daddy’s arms while Mike selected soup and sandwiches for lunch.  Before sitting down Mike got a glass of soda for himself and filled Ryan’s bottle with water. Seeing this Ryan said in a whinny voice “but I want soda too daddy!!” Readjusting Ryan in his arms so they were facing each other Mike said “baby remember daddy does not speak whine. Please try that again” Seeing his Daddy serous expression and wanting to avoid a timeout or worse a spanking Ryan cleared his throat and wrapping his arms around his Daddy’s neck said in as a sweet little boy voice as he could manage “Can I please have soda too daddy, I been real good today Daddy, remember!” As always Mike couldn’t help but marvel at just how cute his baby was. Kissing Ryan’s forehead Mike said “ you have been so, so good and you can drink some soda but Daddy doesn’t want you drinking too much right now because as a special treat Daddy’s going to let you have some with dinner too so for now we’ll just share okay angel?” When Ryan smiled and happily nodded Mike said “such good boy, can Daddy have a kiss?” he then pursed his lips waiting for his baby to oblige. Ryan didn’t disappoint his Daddy. Leaning in he placed a quick peck on Mike’s lips before returning his head to his Daddy’s shoulder. Mike said “thank you Baby before once again shifting Ryan to his hip than loading their tray with drinks and heading for a table.

 

            Once seated with Ryan comfortably on his lap Mike picked up the soup spoon and dipping into the potato soap brought to his baby’s lips. Ryan accepted the offered spoon.  However as he was swallowing the delicious soup a thought occurred to him. Once his mouth was clear, Ryan asked “Daddy why do you always feed me first?” Mike looked down at his baby and without having to think replied “you’re my baby so you come first, I’ll always make sure you get enough love.” Ryan made to protest but he was gently cut off Daddy continued “this isn’t something you can change baby I’m your Daddy and I promise you that you are my first priority and that will never change. I will always put my baby first and you will always be the center of my world, no one and nothing comes before my baby now open up again love this plane wants to come in for a landing”. Mike once again fed Ryan before taking a bite himself. Once their soap was gone Mike picked up the soda and offered Ryan a sip. Taking one himself Mike then moved on to their sandwich. Once they had finished their food, Mike repositioned Ryan in his lap so he was in a comfortable position to take his bottle. Without fuss Ryan allowed his daddy to feed him his bottle, at this point he was completely unbothered by what others might think. He was his Daddy’s baby and his Daddy’s first priority, which meant that Ryan was safe. As Ryan lay in Mike’s arms nursing his bottle, he was struck by a sudden urge, he sat bolt up right but it was already too late, he was again pooping in his diaper. Ryan felt panicked, his breathing became erratic and he was about to cry when he felt his Daddy’s hand on his back. Seeing his baby’s distress Mike began to gently rub circles in Ryan’s back and asked “what’s wrong sunshine please let Daddy help you” Calmed by his Daddy’s words and the physical contact Ryan took a breath. He knew he was safe, his Daddy loved him and would take care of him, he knew that. Taking a breath he said in a calm voice “I went poops again Daddy” Hugging Ryan Mike said in a reassuring voice “you did!! What a good baby! You are Daddy’s good, good boy yes you are!” Kissing Ryan’s temple Mike continue “How about we pack up and go back to the room, we’ll get you change and then you can take a nice nap, how does that sound my love?” Nodding Ryan replied “great Daddy, I’m kind of tired too”. Wanting to make his baby comfortable as quickly as possible, Mike immediately stood up and moving Ryan to his hip he grabbed Christopher and hand him to Ryan before grabbing their bags. They exited the dining hall and headed back to their room for a diaper change and naptime.

 

Part 54

 

            Once in the room Mike stripped, cleaned and re-diapered his baby then he moved them to the cuddle chair for a pre-naptime cuddle. It wasn’t until Ryan was safely cuddled in his Daddy’s lap in the safety of their room that he truly realized how much the days events had affected him. He had pooped his diaper twice in one day. He felt incredible shame and began to sob as he clung to his daddy for the comfort he so desperately needed.

 

            Understanding his baby’s distress Mike began to sing him a lullaby as he rubbed Ryan’s back and they rocked. After the day’s events Mike knew that they had to make yet another change but words could wait until Ryan was calmer.

 

            After 10 minutes, Ryan’s Sobs had died down and although still hitchy, his breathing was beginning to even out. Mike stopped rocking and looked down to find Ryan’s bright blues looking up at him still brimming with tears, Mike took a breath and kissing away his baby’s tears said “okay love, we need to talk”. Mike continued,”well sweet pee I know that you’re really sad about today but I promise it’s okay. I kinda saw this coming, this is way we put you back in diapers full time so it really is okay baby boy. Now you know how much Daddy loves you and loves taking care of you right?” Ryan nodded and Mike went on “Well like I said earlier, that even includes changing poopie diapers, I just love you that much! Now you have been so good today and this is not a punishment in any way but Daddy has made a decision… From now on baby no more potty.”

 

            Ryan was shocked, too shocked for words, too shocked to cry. He opened his mouth but no words came out, only a sad whimper. Hoping to make things better for his sad little boy Mike gave Ryan another kiss and resumed their rocking as he spoke “sweetheart, you really don’t have much control and if we keep trying to do things the way we are currently we’ll just be setting you up to fail and Daddy loves you too much for that. You’re just a baby and much too little for the potty. Your back in diapers, they’re all the potty you need. You know that you have daddy to change you whenever you need and I promise love I will take care of you, you don’t have to worry about anything but from now on the potty is only for big boy’s and defiantly not for Daddy’s beautiful baby boy. As Mike said this he gave Ryan a little tickle then asked “You okay baby”

 

            Ryan squirmed and let out a giggle he was very sad but he also knew his daddy was right. The small amount of control he had was vanishing by the minute. If he was just a baby then he had to believe that his Daddy knew what was best for him no matter how difficult it was going to be.  Taking a deep breath Ryan said “yes Daddy I’m sad but I had a really hard time today and Daddy knows best” Giving Ryan a tight squeeze Mike said “That’s my good baby and you’ll see we’re going to be just fine I promise. Now I think it’s someone’s naptime. Settling Ryan onto his shoulder Mike stood up and carried him to his bed instead of Ryan’s crib. Pulling back the coving Mike set Ryan down and handing him Christopher and his binky he explained “Uncle Nate is coming tomorrow and he will need somewhere to sleep so I’m going to turn your crib back into a bed during naptime and you can just bunk with Daddy for a couple of nights okay sweetness?” Unbothered by this Ryan simply nodded and gave his daddy a goodnight kiss before inserting his binky and lying down. Closing his eyes Ryan rolled onto his tummy and shook his shoulders in a gesture that clearly indicated that he expected a back rub.  As Daddy chuckled and began to rub his back Ryan relaxed quickly began to drift to sleep, it had been a long morning.

 

Part 55

 

            Once Mike was sure that Ryan had dropped off, he readjusted the blankets to ensure that his baby was covered then stroking Ryan cheek, he realized that he had to get to work, he had a lot to do and a small amount of time to do it in. He then made his way to his computer, the first thing on his to-do list was to find his little boy a daycare.

 

            By doing a simple Google search Mike was able to find several local daycares. He focused on 4 which were within walking distance of their school. Mike spent 20 minutes looking through reviews for each daycare and basing his decision on the reviews chose a place called teeny tot’s learning center. Parent reviews reported that teeny tot’s provided a safe and fun learning environment and also that they worked hard to accommodate family’s special needs. Mike looked over to his baby who was sound asleep. As always Mike felt a strong wave of love for the little boy who had become the center of his world. His baby needed this to work, daycare would give Ryan friends at his own development level to play with. Prying that this daycare was able to accommodate their special need Mike picked up the phone and dialed the number.

 

            On the third ring the phone was answered by a cheerful female voice “hello teeny tot’s how can I help you” Taking a breath and composing his thoughts Mike began “hi I was looking to enroll my little boy a few mornings a week?” The lady cut in “you’re in luck we happen to have a couple of openings which is pretty unusual for this time of year” Mike continued “well that’s great, now your website said that you accommodate special needs?” The woman replied “We absolutely do, we’ll work with you in everyway way possible, what are your son’s needs?” Mike couldn’t help but smile “my son well, he’s a great little boy umm he’s in diapers full time and has no real  control so he’ll need frequent diaper changes” “well that wont be a problem” the lady responded “okay” Mike continued “the other thing is that he’s older I mean developmentally he only about 3 or 4 but he’s actually  he’s um 18” When “Ohhhh” was the only response Mike received he quickly continued “But you’d never know it, He’s really small and cute only 4’11 with blond hair and beautiful blue eyes and like I said, he acts really young. I mean I change him, dress him, bathe him and feed him. He sleeps in a crib and takes naps, he even uses a pacifier and carry’s a stuffed animal he really is a baby”. After a moment of silence the woman on the phone took a breath and said “Well I’m not sure about this but why don’t you and your little boy, what’s his name?” Excitedly Mike said “Ryan, his name is Ryan” preceding the lady said “right why don’t you and Ryan come in for an interview on Tuesday morning and we’ll see. Just come in at 10 am and ask for Barbara that’s me” Mike said ”thank you so much Barbara and we’ll see you then” before hanging up the phone. Crossing one big and very important thing off his list Mike next turned his attention to dismantling Ryan’s crib and cleaning the room before naptime was over.

 

            Mike had the room clean and Ryan’s crib almost disassembled before Ryan began to stir from his nap. Looking at the clock Mike realized that he had let Ryan’s nap run over by 30 minutes which meant that they only had about 45 minutes until their next class started and Mike was sure that his baby would be in need of a change and a wakeup cuddle. Deciding to he could finish this job after he put Ryan to bed  Mike made his way over to his baby’s sleeping form and began to gently rub Ryan naked back to slowly rouse the sleepy little boy.

 

            Yawning and stretching Ryan let out an exasperated sigh and whined “Daddy I sweepy!” Smiling at Ryan’s slip into baby talk Mike began to gently message Ryan neck as he spoke “I know baby but we really have to get up, Daddy’s already let you sleep and extra half hour love so we need to get going”. Borrowing his face further into his pillow, Ryan mumbled “No Daddy sleep” Smiling Mike responded “Daddy said it’s time to get up sweet pea if you choose to be a naughty baby and disobey then you must face the consequences!” Receiving only a mumble in reply Mike flexed his finger then quickly pulled the covers from the bed leaving an almost naked Ryan very exposed. Deciding on a course of action Mike focused his assault on Ryan Neck armpits and sides. The first tickle got a squirm, By the third Ryan was writhing with laughter and desperately attempting to break away from this tickle attack. This was made impossible by the fact that Mike has seated himself on the bed and by this point gathered Ryan in his arms while he moved his attack to Ryan’s feet. When Ryan was hysterically giggling and crying from laughter Mike decided that his baby was probably awake so he stopped and once the laughter had died down Mike repositioned Ryan so he was cradled against his chest and looking up into Daddy’s face. Leaning down to plant a kiss on Ryan’s lips Mike said I love you so much baby”. Snuggling in Ryan said “love you too Daddy, that was fun”. Rocking Ryan a bit in his arms and giving him a little tickle Mike said “I don’t know love it was supposed to be a punishment for a naughty disobedient little baby but, I don’t know if I did it right, Maybe we should try again” Smiling and giggling Ryan said in a hysterical tone “No, no more Daddy I’m a good baby wont be dis’bediant no more promise”.  In a mock serious tone Mike responded “Well if your sure love and you promise to be good…” cutting in Ryan said “So good Daddy, best baby ever” Even though Ryan was playing their game Mike could hear a slight pleading tome in his voice. Looking his baby directly in the eye’s Mike said “Sweetheart, you know that daddy is only playing right? I mean, you’re not naughty or disobedient and you are always Daddy’s good, good baby boy that will never change. You know that right?” looking a little relieved Ryan nodded and said “Yes daddy”. Smiling at the baby love of his life Mike said “okay good baby now how about we get you changed and dressed sweetness then you can have about 20 minutes to play until we have to leave. Receiving a nod Mike stood and carried Ryan to the changing table.

 

Part 56

 

            Mike quickly got Ryan changed and redressed before he set him down in his playpen. He then returned to taking down Ryan’s crib. Ryan began playing with his doll house and was in the middle of setting up the bedrooms when his daddy announced that it was about time to leave. Ryan looked up from his game and said “5 more minutes please Daddy” Smiling at his little boy Mike shook his boy “sorry baby, we just don’t have the time but you can play more later I promise now come love on we need to get your shoes on and get going”. Putting down his toys Ryan lifted his arms so his daddy would pick him up.

 

            Lifting Ryan off the ground Mike carried him over to his bed and put him down. Forgoing socks Mike slid Ryan’s sneakers onto his little feet. He then told Ryan to sit still for a moment while he packed their bags for class. Mike grabbed everything they would need for later including Ryan’s binky and Christopher as well as a couple of other things, he then lifted Ryan under his armpits and settling him on his hip Mike headed for the door.

 

            They arrived at Ryan’s classroom with over 20 minutes to spare Mike helped Ryan with his shoes and got his things situated. He holding Ryan in his lap giving him one final cuddle when he without warning Ryan burst into tears. “Don’t leave me daddy please please don’t, I’ll be good, a good baby I promise please Daddy just don’t leave me”. Mike pulled Ryan closer in an attempt to sooth his inconsolable little boy. It seemed to Mike that Ryan might be developing some separation anxiety which made sense considering that Ryan was already very anxious about their situation. Because Mike knew a lot about child development and was studying it he understood that this was a natural part of the process that he and his baby would go through, he just wasn’t sure of how to best deal with it.

 

            Taking a breath Mike gently stroked Ryan’s cheek with is hand then cupping Ryan’s chin he forced his baby to look into his eyes. Mike spoke in a genital but reassuring voice “Ryan baby, please believe me Daddy will never leave you, I just love you too much, now I have to go to class but we have our next class together so I will see you in one hour sweetheart I promise” Mike rearranged the little boy so that Ryan’s head was fitted under his chin. He then slowly rocked the baby in his arms until Ryan’s breathing became more normal.

 

            Even as Ryan’s breathing evened out Mike was reluctant to let him go so he continued to rock his little boy but after a minute he was surprised to hear Ryan ask “why” Pushing back a little bit and looking Ryan in the eyes Mike asked “Why what baby?” In a low voice Ryan asked “why do you love me, I mean I’m not… I’m… I’m such a baby, I mean I’m useless, I’m scared and small, and I, I cant take care of myself, I cant even control my own poop and I’m soo much work for you, you can’t have wanted this and”. Cutting Ryan off Mike Said “oh baby, my baby I Love you, all of you I love how little you are, I love your little nose” Mike said giving Ryan’s nose a little kiss “and your hair” Mike said stroking Ryan’s hair “and your little hands” Mike said kissing each hand “and your little tummy” Mike said rubbing Ryan’s stomach “and especially your little feet” as Mike said this his tickled the soles of Ryan feet and was not disappointed by the high pitched giggle he received in response. Once he got his baby smiling Mike continued “Baby I mean it, I love everything about you. I love that I get to be the one to bathe you and put you to bed and even change you. I love that I get to be your Daddy and I promise that I will not be going anywhere sweetheart, not without you anyway not without my baby, no one can take you away from me. I won’t let them Okay.” When Ryan nodded but still looked reluctant Mike reached into his pocket and took out his wallet and keys. He said “here love would you hold these for me” Sniffling slightly Ryan looked up at his daddy with a questioning look. Mike explained, I’ll always come back for my baby but in case you get scared, just remember, I can’t go anywhere with out my wallet or keys, I cant even get into the room, I’d give you my phone baby but I need it in case you call me, but I’ll text you if it will make you feel better every 10 minutes, every 5 if you want, okay love?” Mike was slightly worried about Ryan losing his wallet but he realized that he would gladly replace his keys and every card in his wallet if it gave his baby piece of mind. More then anything Mike was just sad that his baby was so afraid that he would abandon him. Silently Mike promised himself and his baby that that he would do whatever it took to prove to Ryan that he wasn’t ever going to leave him. Ryan took the offered Wallet and keys and looking Reassured once again snuggled into his Daddy’s chest laying his head against Mikes shoulder. Mike held Ryan while he continued to calm down then sighing said Okay baby, I don’t want to but we only have about 10 minutes until class so I need to go but remember you have my wallet and keys and I will text you the second I get to class. Ryan quietly nodded and got up to allow his Daddy to stand. Mike stood up and helped Ryan sit back down before handing him Christopher and swooping down to kiss his baby’s cheek. Mike then gave Ryan a final goodbye before leaving the room to head to his own class. Once out the door Mike looked back to find his baby looking composed but sad and cuddling Christopher as he waited for the class to fill. It took all Mike had to leave his baby but he also realized that he didn’t have a choice so he forced himself to go to his own class which even though it was in the same building and just 2 floors a way was all together all too far away.     

 

Part 57

 

            It was amazing how long an hour could take. For both Mike and Ryan that class was the longest hour of their lives. Mike had kept his promise and texted his baby the moment he got to his class and then every 5 minutes afterward. Although he was not a good texter Ryan had managed to respond to his Daddy’s words of love and reassurance with simple replies. When the class finally ended, Mike was the first one out the door.  He practically ran from the room ignoring a confused looking Ally who had been about to talk to him. As he hurried toward Ryan’s classroom Mike released that he hadn’t heard a single word his professor had said, although he did not know what they were going to do Mike knew this could not continue, they would both end up failing out of school.

 

            Finally making his way to the door of the Ryan’s classroom Mike walked through the door. It was so early that the room had not yet emptied there were still some students hanging around chatting and packing their bags. This however did not matter. Upon seeing his Daddy Ryan burst into fresh tears, ran barefoot across the room and launched himself into Mike’s waiting arms. Mike instantly lifted his baby off the ground. Once Ryan had rapped his legs around Daddy’s waist and settled his head on Daddy’s shoulder Mike began to rock his little boy quietly murmuring words of love into Ryan’s ear.

 

            The room cleared as Mike waited for Ryan’s tears to stop and his breathing to even out. As Mike held Ryan and rubbed his back he noticed something else, Ryan had once again messed his diaper, this time in class. Mike could not help but smile to himself, things were so different now then they had been even two days ago. Ryan was back in diapers now full time and was now using them for their intended purpose and without too much embarrassment. Two days ago Mike could get Ryan to call him Daddy now Ryan was sobbing in his arms because be hated being away from his daddy for even an hour. Although he knew he shouldn’t be, Mike was very happy with these changes. He really did love being a Daddy and taking care of his baby made him happier then he ever thought was possible.

 

            Mike shook himself from his thoughts and feeling that Ryan was probably calm enough now he decided it was time to get down to business. Shifting Ryan in his arms so that he could look into his baby’s eyes Mike kissed Ryan’s forehead and asked “feeling better baby” When Ryan nodded Mike smiled and continued “I’m so glad little one, Daddy missed you sooo much” In a sad voice Ryan responded “missed you too Daddy. was real sad” Hugging Ryan again Mike said “I know love you were a sad little baby weren’t you?” When Ryan nodded Mike continue I know baby, Daddy was so sad too but Daddy’s got you now my love and there’s no more reason to be sad is there?”  Looking at his daddy Ryan said “No Daddy. Happy Now!” Mike couldn’t help but chuckle at this comment and tickling Ryan he asked “whose a happy baby, whose Daddy’s happy little baby?’ Squirming and giggling Ryan responded “Meeee hehe, Me, I’m Daddy’s happy baby!!” Kissing Ryan’s cheek Mike said “yes you are baby, yes you are” Patting Ryan’s Diaper, Mike asked “did Daddy’s baby make him a present?” Finding that he was no longer upset by this question Ryan shyly nodded before hiding his face in his daddy’s shoulder. Giving Ryan a little squeeze Mike said in an excited voice “You did, Thank you sweetheart what a good baby you are, how about we get you changed so we can go to dinner” Giving Mike a quick hug Ryan said “okay Daddy”. Mike lowered him to the ground before getting out the changing pad and diaper supplies. After everything was set up Mike began to wordlessly strip Ryan. Although this came as a surprise Ryan knew that Daddy knew best so he obediently allowed his daddy to undress him until he was naked except for his dirty diaper. Once Mike had completely stripped Ryan he had the baby lay down on the changing pad and he quickly removed Ryan’s very dirty diaper then proceeded to clean Ryan’s very messy bottom.

           

            Once satisfied that his baby was clean Mike put Ryan in a fresh diaper then from his bag pulled a footed sleeper. Mike was in the process of feeding the sleeper onto Ryan’s feet when Ryan flailed and kick out nearly kicking Mike in the face. Surprised and annoyed Mike was about to yell at Ryan when he caught his foot in his hand. Mike was immediately struck by the fact that Ryan’s whole little foot fit inside the palm of his hand. Mike once again realized exactly how small his baby was. He had known Ryan would not be happy about the sleeper at first and really how could he be upset, this was just how babies acted sometimes. Giving the bottom of Ryan’s foot a little kiss Mike said in a warning tone “careful baby you almost kicked Daddy in the face and just because you have the cutest little feet in the world doesn’t mean it wouldn’t hurt” Squirming Ryan whined “but Daddy I don’t want to wear that, it’s for babies” Shaking his head Mike said “well then it’s a good thing I brought this because right now you’re being Daddy’s very little baby” In a lighter tone Mike continued “But I kind thought you might like these baby there so soft and warm and see it’s a monkey suit to match Christopher, it’s the same color and it was a tail and everything. Mike turned the sleeper around to reveal a curly monkey tail protruding from the back. Ryan gasped excitedly, he hadn’t noticed this before, although he still thought it looked babyish he didn’t care, he really wanted match his monkey Smiling he said “okay Daddy I sorry, I want to be a monkey like Christopher!” Smiling Mike said “Okay, that’s a good boy now lets get you dressed.” This time Ryan nodded and allowed Mike to dress him in the sleeper and zip it up. Packing their bag, Mike stood and lifted Ryan onto his hip. Handing Ryan his monkey, Mike walked out of the room shutting off the lights when they left. As they walked across campus Ryan asked “Daddy, me and Christopher are monkey’s so can we have bananas for dinner because monkeys only eat bananas” laughing Mike responded “Of course baby if monkey’s only eat Bananas then I guess you have to eat bananas it’s too bad though because tonight is pizza night”. After a moment of shocked silence Ryan responded “monkey’s eat pizza sometimes too though Daddy” Once again laughing Mike gave Ryan a kiss and said “I thought they might, come on monkey, boy lets go get pizza” and they walked in to the cafeteria. 

 

Part 58

 

            Dinner was easy. With pizza being Ryan’s favorite there wasn’t even a hint of an argument about the meal.  He happily sat on his daddy’s lap accepted bites of pizza when they were offered. He even drank his bottle of milk without complaint because Daddy told him that milk is a monkey’s favorite drink so logically being a monkey Ryan had to drink his milk. Once they had both had their fill of pizza Daddy brought Ryan to the dessert table where he was allowed to get M&M cookies for dessert. Daddy then carried his happy baby back to their room. Once they were home Ryan looked at the clock and sighed. It was already 6:30 at most he had 2 hours until bedtime. Looking up at his daddy with his best most adorable eyes Ryan asked in his sweetest little voice “Daddy ummmm is 6:30 an umm you said that bedtime tonight was 8:30? Being attuned to his little ones body language Mike could tell that his baby was angling for something but he was too cute for it to matter. Mike knelt down in front of Ryan and said “yes baby why” Looking down Ryan scuffed his padded foot against the floor and wrapped his arms around daddy’s neck saying “do I have to take a bath tonight Daddy I mean you sayed we could watch a movie together and we only have like 2 hours til bedtime Daddy” Wrapping his arms around his baby’s body Mike chuckled and said “that’s fine beautiful boy no bath tonight, Daddy will give you a bath before we go out tomorrow your already in your jimmies anyway but I do think that someone needs a diaper change” Mike said patting Ryan’s soggy bottom and lifting him onto his hip.  

 

            Mike placed Ryan on the changing table and got to work on his wet diaper. This was made easier by the fact that Ryan’s sleeper has snaps in the crotch for quick diaper access. Mike enjoyed how easy this feature made changing Ryan’s diaper and thought that he would need to look into getting snaps put in to all of Ryan’s pants. Diaper changes would be a lot quicker if Mike didn’t always have to undress Ryan to get him clean.

 

            Mike had Ryan out of his wet diaper and into a new one and was redressing him when Ryan said “Dada umm my feets are sweatin in the feeties” Mike laughed, he loved being daddy but dada was cute too.  Lifting Ryan’s feet into the air Mike began to detach the booties from the rest of the outfit as he said “Daddy thought of that angel see the feeties can come off if your feeties get too warm. When Mike had freed Ryan’s too warm feet He gave them a tickle and asked “ready to watch a movie now sunshine?” Ryan happily nodded and motioned to be picked up. Mike obliged and carried Ryan over to where their movies were stored. He pulled out all of the child friendly titles allowing Ryan to decide from the pile.

 

            Being a monkey it was only natural that Ryan excitedly picked a curious George DVD when he found it. Once he had made the selection Mike put the video in then pulled Ryan on to his lap with a warm blanket, Christopher and a bottle of juice. Ryan Happily cuddled in Daddy’s lap cuddling his monkey and drinking his bottle. He made it through 2 and a half episodes of George before he started to feel tired. Looking al the clock he was happy, it was 7:45, he could at least make it to 8:00. With this thought he gave a contented sigh and shifted in his Daddy’s lap. Mike took the bottle from Ryan and continued to feed him. Ryan was comfortable, he closed his eyes and relished the cozy feelings he had. Daddy began to rock, it was nice, then came the lullaby somewhere in the middle of Baby don’t cry Ryan lost his battle and slipped into the contented sleep of a much loved baby. After waiting until his baby was soundly sleeping Mike moved him to the bed they would be sharing and gave him Christopher and his binkie before sitting back down Mike gave Ryan a kiss and said “Daddy loves you baby more then anything”. He then moved back to his chair and started flipping though the channels to find something to watch. He settled on an episode of a crime show, it was one of his favorites but he never got to watch it because it was a show he would never allow Ryan to see due to the violence. As he sat back to watch he looked at the clock. It was 7:59      

 

Part 59

 

            When Ryan woke up on Saturday morning, he was aware of two things, first it was morning which meant it was time to stop sleeping, get up and go to the park, Daddy had promised and second he had messed himself during the night, which meant that he was in very bad need of a change. Ryan looked up from where he lay cuddled on his daddy’s chest and realized that he had a problem, Daddy was still soundly sleeping. Ryan thought about it and decided that he had 3 options, he could get up on his own and get ready for the day, he could wake his daddy or he could be a very good little boy and lie quietly and allow his daddy to sleep. Valuing his ability to sit comfortably and wanting to have a good day Ryan immediately discarded getting up on his own as a viable option, last time he had done that Daddy had been very upset and he didn’t think he could talk his way out of another punishment. Looking at the clock, Ryan weighed his last two options, it was 7:30 and Daddy was still really sleeping, instead of waking him Ryan rolled back into Daddy’s chest, He could be really good until daddy woke up!

 

            As Ryan lay quietly, he thought about the day him and daddy were going to have, they would go to the park and the book store. Daddy said they could go to lunch, maybe McDonalds! Ryan thought and maybe even the toy store, it would be soo much fun and that was all before nap time. The more Ryan thought about it the more excited he got. Taking a deep breath, Ryan knew it was time to get up, he had been laying there forever! Well according to the clock it had only been 5 minutes but that wasn’t the point, it was time to get up!

 

            Once again shifting, Ryan said “Daddy I’m awake” he got no reply. Taking his finger, Ryan gave Daddy a poke in then said and said “Daddy is time to get up now” This time he received a snore as his only reply. Sighing in exasperation Ryan shifted until he was straddling Mike’s leg. He then began to claim up his daddy until he reached his upper chest. Settling himself in a seated position on Mike’s chest Ryan leaned in and began to pepper Daddy with kisses all over his face saying in between “Daddy is time to get up, is morning, the sun is out and I’m wake wif no adult to take care me, Dada, I’m gonna wash in’prporiat movies or eat chocolate for brefast. Yet again, Ryan got no response, He sat back for a minute trying to figure out what was going on and it was at that moment that Daddy decided to launch his own attack. He quickly rapped his arms around Ryan’s body and brought him back down to a laying position on his chest. He started tickling him and said “you better not watch inappropriate movies or eat candy, that would be naughty and naughty little baby’s get tickled and besides my little angel would never ever do anything like that would he, would he!! Mike then proceeded to kiss whatever parts of him he could reach as he continued to tickled and waited for Ryan’s replay. Once Ryan was giggling and squealing promising that he was a good boy, Mike stopped and said, “guess what baby daddy’s awake, but you were being so good and cute I just couldn’t resist playing a little trick on you, besides I wasn’t quite ready to get up yet. Shifting once again so he was sitting on Daddy’s chest Ryan said in a very serious tome “Daddy you have to get up now, babies can’t change themselves you know”. Ryan stopped dead for a moment, he had never really acknowledged that he was a baby before, not on his own anyway. A little boy sure but be had just on his own called himself a baby. But then he smiled, he realized that this was okay, it was the truth, he was a baby. He was a baby with a daddy who loved him and he was safe. Giving daddy another playful pull Ryan said “come on daddy“

 

            Ryan’s statement and its meaning was not lost on Mike. He also saw the struggle that was going on in Ryan’s heart. At that moment Mike felt the trust when Ryan gave him more strongly then ever before, closing his eyes for a second Mike promised himself and Ryan that he would treasure the gift that Ryan gave him and never let him down.  Sitting up in bed Mike pulled Ryan into a big cuddly hug and said “I love you to the moon and back again baby” Then lifting Ryan He got out of bed and went to give Ryan a much needed diaper change.

 

Part 60

 

            Quickly removing his baby’s sodden diaper Mike gave Ryan’s diaper area a cursory before lifting him into his arms naked.  Mike explained “Daddy needs to give his baby a bath before we head out for our special day” he made his way to the bathroom. Once inside Mike placed Ryan on the toilet seat as he proceeded to fill the tub. As Ryan watched his daddy prepare his bath be thought a bout all of the exciting things that they would do today. He smiled and clapped his hands, he hadn’t been able to play at the part for a very long time and he couldn’t wait.

 

            Ryan was shaken from his thought as daddy gently took his hand and guided him into the bath. As he settled into the warm bubbly water Ryan asked “Daddy ummm will you play wif me at dah park today?” As Mike placed Ryan’s boats in the tub he smiled at Ryan’s lapse into baby talk and replied “of course baby  Daddy will play with you but I have some reading to do too so you and Christopher will have to play alone for a little while too. Ryan nodded, he was only half listening at this point as he was already engrossed in making his boats zoom around the bath water. Mike settled himself on the closed toilet seat and watched his little boy contentedly playing just like every other little boy did in the bath.

 

            After 15 minutes Mike decided to cut Ryan’s playtime short saying “Okay baby we need to get going, we have a big day a head of us as he slid to his knees beside the tube and grabbed the baby soap and a wash cloth. Ryan was so excited that he didn’t give his daddy and trouble as Mike removed the toys from the tub and set them to dry, he then began to wash his little boy as he said “Ryan, sweetheart we are going to have such a great day today I so excited but before we can do anything we have to go over the rules okay sunshine?” When Ryan nodded, Mike continued “so baby when we leave campus you need to stay with daddy at all times and you always need to hold my hand especially if we’re crossing the street. When we’re at the park or the store or lunch you have to stay in daddy’s sight at all times. You will have your cell phone on you so if we do get separated you can’t see me then you call me right away. Now baby you can absolutely play with other kids but no talking to strange adults okay baby” When Ryan gave a serious nod Mike went on “Now baby I know that you will be so good while we’re out but if you break any of these rules even by accident we will have to come right home and there might be a spanking, I want you to have so, so much fun today but your safety is always my first priority and you only get one strike today sweet pea , understood?” Once again nodding Ryan said “Yes Daddy I uner’stan and I’m gonna be a real good boy I promise!” Mike smiled down at his baby and kissing his hair said “I know you will Baby, I know you will” Mike said as he proceed to get his little one clean.

 

            Once Mike was satisfied that he had gotten Ryan nice and clean he drained the tub and after rapping him in a fluffy towel lifted the baby from the tub. Mike carried Ryan to the changing table where he quickly got him lotioned and powered. He then lifted Ryan’s legs and slide a clean diaper under his raised bottom. Once Ryan’s diaper was securely typed in place Mike dug in the drawers and pulled out a red Elmo t-shirt then helping Ryan sit up mike pulled the t-shirt over Ryan’s raised arms and fitted it in place. Next Mike pulled out a pair of shortalls. He had Ryan stand and raise each leg so he could raise them up Ryan’s body and strap them in place.  Once he had Ryan mostly dressed Mike pulled a pacifier clip from the supply shelf and clipped it to the bib of Ryan’s shortall. Mike the attached the other end to Ryan’s binkie and said “so you wont lose it while we’re out baby”  Ryan opened his mouth to protest but then he realized that his baby image was so complete that the binkie really didn’t matter in fact he realized that he liked thee idea that he had his paci if he wanted it so he just smiled and said “thank you Daddy”  As he wrapped his arms around his Daddy’s middle.

 

            Taking a minute to rub his babies back and enjoy the cuddle Mike then pulled away and said “okay Ryry, I need you go play in the playpen while daddy goes to the bathroom to get ready, I’ll only be a minute but I want you to stay put and play like a good baby can you do that my love” Ryan nodded saying “yes Daddy” and scampered to his play area smiling Mike said I’ll be quick baby then we can go. Mike watched as Ryan entertained himself with his doll house then went to the bathroom to get dressed. 

 

            Once he was finished Mike busied himself packing the diaper bag while Ryan continued to play with his toys. When Mike was satisfied that he packed everything his little boy would need, he called Ryan from his play time. Figuring that he could just carry Ryan Mike added Ryan’s flip flops to the diaper bag deciding to leave the baby barefoot for the moment. Ryan grabbed Christopher and excited ran to his daddy Mike lifted him into his arms then settling Ryan on his hip and inserting his binkie they headed for the door and their first ever daddy/ baby day.      

 

Part 61

 

            Ryan laid his head on daddy’s shoulder and snuggled in. Mike rapped his arms protectively around his little boy wondering to himself how he ever lived without his baby in his arms and his life. As the walked out the front door and off campus Mike gave Ryan a kiss and asked “how about some munchkins munchkin, I know it doughnuts aren’t health but I think you deserve a treat for being such a god baby and anyway, Daddy needs a coffee” Ryan kissed Mike’s cheek and said “Peeesee Daddy I yove doughnuts” Mike just smiled at Ryan’s cuteness and walked to the near by doughnut shop.

 

            Once inside Mike got in line asking “what do you want baby?” Ryan took a deep breath and looked at his option, this was a big decision and he had to make it good. Finally he looked at his daddy and asked “can I have three Daddy” Mike nodded so Ryan said “okay I want ummm chocolate and Chocolate and powdered peeesess and juice, the orange kind please Daddy!” Kissing Ryan’s hair Mike said “sure Baby, that’s just fine”. When it was their turn Mike ordered Ryan’s juice and doughnut holes plus a coffee and bagel for himself. Once Mike paid he put their order in Ryan’s diaper bag and they continued their journey to the park.   

 

            Arriving at their destination Ryan couldn’t help but smile as he looked around, This Park was huge, it was completely made of wood with slides swings, monkey bars and even a fort and best of all it was all Ryan sized. Nothing felt too big for him but nothing felt too small either he could easily play here, as he looked around, he realized that he wasn’t even the biggest kid on the playground Ryan was used to being smaller then the average 10 year old but for a change this didn’t bother him, in fact it made him feel better, he was feeling so little lately that the idea of pretending to be big like he used to do seemed very scary.

 

            Mike sat Ryan down at a picnic table and placed his doughnuts on a napkin in front of him he then poured Ryan’s juice into a bottle and placed that on the table. Ryan was hungry. He made it through one munchkin and about half of his bottle before he started to get fidgety, he loved his breakfast but he really wanted to go play. Smiling at his little boy Mike said “one more munchkin baby then you can be done and go play” Ryan Smiled and shoved the munchkin in his mouth at lightning speed

 

            Once he had eaten the required amount of food Ryan scrambled to his feet however he was stooped my Daddy who squatted down in front of him first placing his flip flops on his feet then cupping the baby’s chin Daddy asked “what are the rules sweetheart?” Obediently Ryan recited the rule which his daddy had laid out, he was rewarded with a kiss to the forehead as Daddy said “go play and have fun love, Daddy will be right here if you need anything!”

 

Part 62

 

  As Ryan ran though the play ground trying to decide where to go he couldn’t help but take notice of how segregated the play ground was by age, and because of this he didn’t really know where he fight in.  First he came to the big play structure, this was occupied by kids between the age of 10 and 12, Ryan watched as they pushed and shoved each other running around, they were too aggressive for Ryan and anyway most of them seemed a lot bigger then him and this scared him, Moving on Ryan came to another area with a slide and swings this seemed to belong to  kids aged 6-9, watching Ryan realized that height wise he fit square in the middle of this group, He was taller then some but still shorter then a lot too this made him feel more at ease but watching these kids play Ryan realized that they were no less aggressive then the bigger kids and he felt to little to join them. Finally Ryan came to a fenced in part of the park, this was clearly designated for the little, little kids, there were swings and slides and a smaller play structure but also a sand box. Looking around Ryan realized that most of these kids were between the ages of 3 and 5 but Ryan liked the way they played, they took turns and played together, holding hands and sharing toys, Ryan realized this was where he belonged as he made his way to the sand box. Reaching his destination Ryan slipped off his flip-flops and sat down between a tallish girl and a boy. Without hesitation the girl looked at Ryan and Said, Hi I’m Sophie, want to be friends. Feeling nervous Ryan gave a nod. Sophie immediately began explaining the intricacies of their game and before he knew Ryan was hooked, He had been accepted without reservation, it didn’t matter that he was a little tall, they could tell he was one of them, that he belonged here. Even the watching parents didn’t blink an eye because he was so obviously little. Ryan knew in his heart this was where he belonged, safe behind a fence in this quiet area with the other babies and toddlers away from the noise and chaos of the big kids area that seemed so scary and foreign to a little baby like him.  

 

            Mike watched as his baby wandered around the park trying to find where he fit in, He was relieved when Ryan found the other little ones and the sandbox. This was where he hoped Ryan would end up. He watched with joy as his baby made friends with the other toddlers and began playing. Mike watched as Ryan played with a girl who was clearly older and more mature then Ryan, She took charge of their game and Ryan fell into line doing what she said. Mike watched as they interacted and had fun. Ryan laughed as they made a castle and Mike knew for sure that he had made the right decision about daycare, Ryan would love it.

 

            Time seemed to pass quickly and Ryan was having such a good time that he didn’t want to stop, He know that it must be almost lunch time but he wanted to play with his new friends for as long as possible. Ryan was in the middle of rebuilding a tower that he and Sophie had just destroyed when it happened, He had to go and he couldn’t stop it, before he know what was happening his diaper was full, Shocked Ryan did the only thing he could, he began to cry. Momentarily shocked Sophie looked at Ryan, then smelling more them seeing what happened she asked “are you a baby”? Embarrassed but unable to talk Ryan helplessly nodded as he cried. Taking charge Sophie said “its okay baby Ryan my brother makes muddy diapers too he’s almost 2, I think you two might be the same age. I’m a big girl so I know what to do, I’m gonna take you to your daddy” Without another word Sophie stood and motioned for Ryan to take her hand. Ryan was so relieved that she wasn’t teasing him that he did so without any hesitation. As Sophie led Ryan through the playground, he couldn’t help but think what a good big sister she was, she had even remembered his shoes.  

 

            Mike saw them coming, He saw Ryan’s tears and had a pretty good idea what must have happened. But not wanting to make it worse for Ryan, He stayed where he was and let them come to him even though every muscle in his body ached to run to his baby.  Once they finally reached Mike Sophie let go of Ryan’s hand and handing him Ryan’s shoes said “the baby made poops”, Mike nodded. Then looking at Ryan she gave him a quick hug and said “bye baby Ryan” then skipped away. Now that they were alone Mike knelt down taking his crying little boy in his arms, He said, “it’s okay baby, Daddy’s here you’re okay my love, how about we get you nice and clean?” Ryan nodded against his Daddy’s shoulder so Mike stood and lifted Ryan on to his hip. He grabbed the diaper bag and they made their way to a more isolated part of the park. Mike found a picnic table with relative privacy  and grabbed a changing pad from the bag it was while he was setting it on the table that Ryan realized what was about to happen. He sobbed saying “Noooo Daddy please nooo” Mike felt bad but this was their best and easiest option so taking a deep breath he said in a calm voice “baby please listen, no one will see and we have to get this diaper changed so you don’t get a nasty rash, I promise baby this will be fine, just close your eyes sweetness. Resigning himself to his fate Ryan obediently closed his eyes and let his daddy do his job.

 

            With his eyes closed Ryan did not notice the people walking by which was good however Mike did and he realized that when they looked at the two of them they saw a daddy changing his baby and nothing else. Still Mike changed Ryan in record speed and was redressing him when Ryan opened his eyes. Kissing Ryan’s Cheek Mike said “all done baby see no big deal, it’s just part of being a baby. Ryan couldn’t help but smile a little, the worst was over and he was okay. Once again picking his baby up and setting him on his hip, Mike grabbed the diaper bag and said “I think we should get going baby we have lunch to get and toys to buy, all before naptime”, Mike looked at his watch, He was worried about time and he didn’t want to throw Ryan’s schedule off by napping too late, but he thought he might have a plan, he just hopped Ryan would cooperate.

Part 63

 

            Mike carried Ryan the short distance to the strip mall where he had done his earlier shopping. Instead of going straight to McDonalds like he has planed Mike decided to make a quick stop in the Wal-Mart to get what he required. Noticing this Ryan who had been contently quiet during their walk due to his wonderful experience at the park and the drowsiness that came with it ask “Daddy what are we doing here, I thought we were going to lunch Um kina hungy” Smiling at this lapse into baby talk Mike gave his baby an extra squeeze saying “we are baby in one minute, we just need to get one thing first”. Ryan who was contented by this answer laid his head on his Daddy shoulder and closed his eyes to dose while his daddy did whatever bit of shopping he had to do.  Noticing Ryan relax and close his eye’s Mike smiled and gave him a little kiss before heading to the baby section, a sleeping Ryan would make this bit of shopping much easier.

 

            Once the reached the correct isle Mike went straight to the stroller section. He sighed to himself, Ryan might not like this new development but it was really necessary. Mike loved carrying his baby but it just wasn’t always practical like today, Ryan could nap in his stroller which would be great plus it would hold storage for the diaper bag and their school bags and it would absolutely stop Ryan from wandering off and make Mike feel better about crossing streets.  That final most important thought in mind Mike began to browse, rocking his baby a bit to keep Ryan lulled into sleep Mike pulled out his phone to look at reviews. After looking at everything and reading up Mike settled on a stroller he was sure would be a good fit. This particular unit was big but could fold up, it was defiantly big and strong enough to hold Ryan plus it was reversible, meaning it could be adjusted to be either forward or rear facing which meant that Mike could talk to Ryan and also keep a better eye on him, Mike was sold, He selected the appropriate model in blue and proceeded to the check out line. This was difficult because He had Ryan contentedly sleeping in his arms but he struggled though to the check out and was overjoyed when the check out girl noticing the item he purchased and his sleeping baby offered to have the Wal-Mart assembly techs put it together for free.

 

            Mike sat on a near by bench while he waited for the stroller, since they had relative privacy it figured it would be a good time to rouse his little one and talk about things. Mike sat and cradled Ryan in his Lap then starting to rock said “come on baby wake up sleep time is over” Ryan gave a little stir then opened his eyes and asked “What time is it Daddy how long was I sleeping, what about lunch?” Mike chuckled and repositioning his baby in a sitting position said “it’s about 12:30 sweetie umm you were sleeping for about 20 minutes and we’re going to lunch right now we just have to wait one minute my love” At this last piece of news Ryan gave an annoyed twitch and in a whiny voice said “but I’m hungry now Daddy!” Mike raised an eyebrow and said “Baby remember Daddy does not speak whine do you want to try that again?” Ryan still looked annoyed so Mike added “cranky grumpy little babies don’t get to go toy and book shopping they get to go straight home to bed” understanding his Daddy’s warning Ryan  slumped and in a sad and worried voice said I’m sorry Dada, I’m just hungry, I don’t want to be bad, I’ll be good I promise.” Giving his baby a cuddle Mike said in a calm and reassuring voice “oh baby, of course you are good, your always my good boy, you know that, but thank you for apologizing and I promise we will eat in one minute but we need to talk about something, We are here waiting for something what will make things better for you and me but you might be a bit sad about it, remember precious that Daddy loves you so much and only does things to make you safe and happy”. Ryan looked nervous and asked “daddy what did you buy?” Mike was saved having to answer by the assembly tech who at that moment came over to them pushing Ryan’s new stroller.  When he reached them he said ‘I believe that this is for you” Mike assured him it was then thanked him before the technician walked away. Once they were alone again Mike looked down at his boy and could see the confusion in Ryan’s eyes. Giving the baby a kiss mike said “it’s no big deal baby, It just makes life easier for us. You get to be nice and comfy and plus it is good to store things like our bags and snacks okay love? Ryan for his part knew he couldn’t fight that logic but it still made him sad and he a teary voice he said “but I will miss you daddy, I like when you carry me. Mike was shocked he has expected an argument from Ryan about him being too big not one about him miss Daddy Time. He recovered quickly by saying “oh Baby I love holding you too, more then anything! And I will always hold you when ever you want just let me know, This is just more practical sweetheart, that’s all but look at this Mike said “I choose this one for a very special reason baby, it does a magic trick” and Mike stood to Ryan how he could turn the seat around saying “this way daddy can always see his baby and we can talk more easily too. At this news Ryan Looked less sad and almost pleased so Mike said “hop in baby so we can try it out, plus I think I own some good baby a happy meal, now who could that be?” Ryan practically jumped in his new carriage saying “me daddy it’s me. I’m good and I’m your only baby so it’s me dada! Mike bent down He made sure everything was sound before he closed the safety bar locking Ryan in then giving him a kiss on the cheek said if your sure baby we better be going, and with that Mike and Ryan left the store to go to lunch, both were aware of how much more comfortable Ryan’s new baby carriage would be for both of them.      

Part 64

As Mike pushed Ryan toward McDonalds in his new stroller he looked down at his peaceful little boy. Ryan was contentedly sucking on his pacifier and snuggling Christopher. He was awake but still sleepy. Mike was glad that they didn’t have a long walk he just knew that if they were going to be more than 5 minutes Ryan would be fast asleep again and too much more napping would make bedtime difficult. Mike wanted to be sure to keep Ryan on a consistent schedule which would be extra important if they were going to be transitioning Ryan to daycare. Mike took a deep breath. He realized that he needed to tell Ryan about daycare at lunch. After all they had their interview on Tuesday. Mike was nervous, he knew that daycare was the right way to go to help Ryan he just wasn’t sure exactly how Ryan would react. They had been through so many changes in the last few days and this was another one. It was another clear indicator hat Ryan was very much a baby. He hoped this news wouldn’t be met with tears or tantrums. Ryan needed socialization, he needed to make friends and feel safe to be little. Daycare would do both of those things. Mike steeled himself, he would do this, Ryan was going to daycare. The baby had no say in the matter. He, Mike was the daddy he knew best and he could and in the end would get Ryan to obey him.  He just wondered how many toy or treats it mike take? He was the daddy, he was the daddy.

Mike was roused by his worrying when they came upon the restaurant.  He shook himself from his thoughts. He parked the stroller looked down at his baby and said “we’re here baby boy ready for some lunch?” Pushing himself up Ryan nodded excitedly and said “Yes please dada, I’m very hungry!”  Mike couldn’t help but smile. As he lifted Ryan from the carriage he gave him a kiss and said ‘such a polite baby I have! Now what kind of happy meal would you like precious?”  Mike grabbed the diaper bag and Ryan’s flip flops and headed into the restaurant as Ryan clapped his hands excitedly and said Cheeseburger Daddy, I want a cheese burger oOo or maybe chicken nuggets, I think I want Chicken nuggets Dada”.  Mike just Smiled and said “Whatever you want baby. You can get whatever you want”

Since it was a nice day Mike chose a table outside near the play place. He put the diaper bag down and carried Ryan back inside to the counter. Once there he put Ryan down and said to the girl behind the counter I’d like a quarter pounder meal please then looking at Ryan he asked and what do you want baby? Feeling shy Ryan looked down and whispered “nuggets Daddy” lifting Ryan’s chin and stroking his cheek Mike said “we didn’t catch that baby please tell the nice girl what kind of happy meal you’d like” Ryan’s shyness concerned his new Daddy. On one hand it was very cute but on the other there were sometimes when Ryan still had to act like a big boy so Mike had to force the issue a bit. Turning Ryan toward the counter Mike ran a gentle hand through Ryan’s hair ending by giving his neck a reassuring squeeze and said” Go ahead baby” Taking a nervous breathe Ryan Said “Can I have nuggets please”  The cashier smiled at Ryan and said “of course cutey, One number 2 and one Chicken nuggets happy meal coming right up. Ryan couldn’t help but blush and smile at the complement.  Mike beamed at his babies smile. He thanked the girl and paid for their food.

As they walked back to their table Mike said “good job baby, you ordered just like a big boy” Ryan smiled proudly as he held the door open for his daddy When they settled in at their table Mike pulled Ryan onto his lap. He poured Ryan’s soda into a baby bottle and poured Ryan’s nuggets and fried onto a napkin. Looking down at the food he said “okay baby you need to eat all 4 nuggets, at least half of your fried and drink a baba before you can go play” With that Mike dipped a nugget in sweat and sour sauce and brought it to his baby’s lips Ryan took a big bit. While Ryan chewed Mike ate his own burger. They repeated this process until they were out of food.

Rearranging Ryan in his arms Mike moved Ryan’s almost full bottle or soda out of view and pulled a bottle of cool water out of the diaper bag. He put the nipple to Ryan’s lips and Ryan immediately began to nurse. Taking a deep breath Mike began “Okay Baby we need to have a little talk. You know how much I love you right” Ryan nodded so Mike continued “well Baby remember Daddy loved you more than anything and I only want what’s best for you. I want you to be happy and I think that for you to be happy we need to help you make friends” When Ryan stopped drinking and looked worried Mike paused to give his baby a kiss than continued “You are so smart and funny and cute baby that I just know that anyone would love you and want to be your friend but as your daddy I need to keep you safe and that means helping you make safe friends, friends who are more like you”. Looking confused Ryan spit out the bottle and asked “what do you mean Daddy who’s like me?” Chuckling Mike said “well there’s no one like you my baby but I mean other kids, Kids like you played with today other little ones with the same interests you know” Ryan nodded but still looked worried so Mike continued “So baby starting next week on days when we don’t have classes you are going to go to a different type of school. Starting next week baby you will go to daycare with other kids like you honey won’t that he fun!”  Whatever reaction Mike was expecting, he did not expect what he got.

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Okay this was a very cute warm and touching story. Almost to much so. As I am reading this I can’t stop thinking this to to perfect and keep waiting for the real Mike to show up. The Mike who abuses Ryan and embarrasses him. Not that I want to see that mind you. It is just that things in life are never as great as things are for these two right now. I can’t stop myself from being paranoid and expecting something bad to happen. I realize that it has been a long time since this was updated but I would love to see it continued. And cute does work for me. 

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Thanks for your kind words of encouragement!

Cdfm, I think you kind of hit the nail on the head, I love this story and intend to continue but I wrote it  long time ago when I was very young and my style has since changed. I’m worried that I will write with a different voice now. We will see. Anyway my goal is to complete Ryan’s journey.

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As we grow as writers our "voice" does change. That effect could have an impact on our stories but the interesting part is seeing the responses to those changes. NEVER be afraid to continue a story just because your voice has changed. I would love to see a continuation of Ryan's story as it has tugged on my heart strings and I thouorly enjoy reading it.

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