My new parents (open)

[Wannatripbaby]

"Thank you, Mommy." I start eating. 

[jan241989]

Alice: We both eat are food 

[Wannatripbaby]

I only manage to eat a little more than half of mine before I stop for fear of making myself sick.

[jan241989]

Bob: We decide to take the leftovers home with us

[Wannatripbaby]

That made me feel a little better about not finishing it.

[jan241989]

Alice: I get up and take you to the bathroom 

[Wannatripbaby]

As soon as we get up I notice my pull-up feels kinda weird. Oh no, I hope I didn't wet while we were eating!

Sure enough, when we get to the bathroom and I pull down my pants I see that my pullup is thoroughly soaked. "I-I-I'm sorry, Mommy! I d-d-didn’t even feel it!"

[jan241989]

Alice: It’s fine honey let’s go change 

[Wannatripbaby]

I nod my head, trying very hard not to cry. "Okay, Mommy."

[jan241989]

Alice: I take you to the bathroom

Bob: I pay the bill

[Wannatripbaby]

I tried not to cry, I really did. Wetting myself didn't upset me that much. But I knew my Mommy was disappointed in me even if she wouldn't say it. That combined with the fear of ruining our evening out if I started crying only made me more emotional. I started to tear up.

[jan241989]

Alice: I help you change and we go home 

[Wannatripbaby]

I felt horrible. Not for wetting my pull-up, but for crying. I knew I'd ruined the evening, even if they wouldn't admit I had. So on the way home I just pulled the hood of my coat up to hide my crying face and curled up against the car door.

[jan241989]

Bob: I pull into the driveway and park the car 

Alice: I get you out of the car and we go inside 

[Wannatripbaby]

By now I had stopped crying, but I still felt terrible.

[jan241989]

Alice: I take you upstairs and get you ready for bed 

[Wannatripbaby]

I had to say something to her. "I'm sorry for crying, Mommy." and for wetting my pull-up and for ruining our evening and for being a no-good dumb stupid baby!

[jan241989]

Alice: I stay with you till you fall asleep 

[Wannatripbaby]

Just like at naptime she stayed with me in the room after she tucked me in. I felt just awful. Normally when I feel that way I would just cry my self to sleep like I had countless nights before, but with her in the room... I didn’t want to cry again. I thought it might be time to try something new. After carefully choosing my words I sat up and looked at my Mommy whom I love more than anything in the world. "Why do I always feel bad?"

[jan241989]

Alice: You had a accident 

[Wannatripbaby]

"I know why I feel bad now, but it just doesn't go away. I always feel like crying."

[jan241989]

Alice: I turn on some music to help you sleep

[Wannatripbaby]

"I used to think it was 'cuz my foster family h-hated me. But now I'm... I'm with you and I still feel bad. I just... I just..." whoa, I feel really sleepy.

[jan241989]

Alice: I kiss you n the forehead and leave the room

[Wannatripbaby]

I felt like I had more to say. But I just felt so sleepy that I couldn’t remember what it was. I was out like a light in minutes.