How did you start?

[spoonchicken]

When I was 15, I was flipping through a (junk mail ) catalog for a novelty shop that specialized in magic stuff. For reasons unknown they were also selling what they termed "hygiene pants", whichwere side-snap plastic pants with a snap-in flannel liner. The product jumped off the page and captivated my attention. So I went there and bought a pair. When I put them on for the first time the feeling was electrfiying, and I was hooked.

[jonnyabdl]

On 8/3/2024 at 12:42 PM, hlcl said:

@jonnyabdl Did you mind wearing diapers because you were older? It's understandable why you had an accident.  Sometimes when there is stress or a change to their routine someone will have an accident. The Pampers you wore were probably the crinkly plastic backed ones. When you needed to pee did you wet your diaper or did you ask to have your diaper taken off so you could use the potty? When the sitter took you to the store to buy diapers,  what kind did you get? If I was taking someone to the store to buy diapers I would diaper them instead of putting big boy pants on them because an accident in public is more embarrassing than an accident at home. 

Once she put me in a diaper that was it I was wetting and messing them from then on  as she said babies don't use the toilet. I think she bought pampers but it been so long ago I don't remember and she didn't have any more diapers that fit me which is the reason we went to get more. I didn't need diapers during the day as I was potty trained it was a choice to wear them which she had no problem with and the longer it went on the more I like it. After we got back from the store with the diapers I stayed diapered 24/7 even if we went out. About a week into staying with her and being diapered we had to go to the grocery store and I wet my diaper. After shopping and putting the grocery's in the car she had me lay down in the back seat and she change me in the parking lot. When at her house I only wore a diaper and a tee shirt and she made me drink from a bottle

[Kawaharu]

15 hours ago, jonnyabdl said:

Once she put me in a diaper that was it I was wetting and messing them from then on  as she said babies don't use the toilet. I think she bought pampers but it been so long ago I don't remember and she didn't have any more diapers that fit me which is the reason we went to get more. I didn't need diapers during the day as I was potty trained it was a choice to wear them which she had no problem with and the longer it went on the more I like it. After we got back from the store with the diapers I stayed diapered 24/7 even if we went out. About a week into staying with her and being diapered we had to go to the grocery store and I wet my diaper. After shopping and putting the grocery's in the car she had me lay down in the back seat and she change me in the parking lot. When at her house I only wore a diaper and a tee shirt and she made me drink from a bottle

I was like that too. Once I got put back into diapers, my mom told me I was never allowed to use the potty ever again and was told only adults, grown-ups and big kids get to use the potty. She also told me babies like me don't use the potty. I was even told that babies like me are not allowed near any potty including ones in public as well. She then told me I am only allowed to potty in my diaper and that included wetting and messing in them, no matter where I am. After all that, my mom told me I can never call myself an adult, grown-up or big kid because I am in diapers and not potty trained. Not being potty trained meant that to her, I am not an adult, grown-up or big kid and in her view, I am an adult baby/toddler. Which is why now, I am kept in diapers permanently and kept as a full time permanent adult baby. I'm only ever allowed to wear a diaper, t-shirt or onesie around the house. She even allows me to drink from a baby bottle or sippy cup.

[DiaperedJeff]

When I was about 6 I was watching my mother change my younger brother. I must have wanted the attention as I asked her to put me back in cloth diapers and plastic pants. She promptly did and kept me that way for about three days. I had to use them. Been “pinned” ever since! Always cloth diapers and plastic pants.

[jonnyabdl]

On 2/27/2015 at 7:34 PM, Marcie_06 said:

The truth is that I never stopped. My stepmother started the girl clothes for me.

You need to go on with this story

[Babyleighanne]

It started when I was with my ex, she wore them and suggested I try wearing one. It felt so good that instantly felt urge to pee, it took some time to let go but I did. She told me that I had to stay in to get the full experience, so I stayed in it and she decided that we should drink plenty of fluids till we went again. 

It grew from there now I will spend days wearing one when I can. My new partner love it when I do and has started to treat me as an adult baby or sissy when I wearing a diaper. 

[247dlwear]

Between 4 and 5 I was potty trained. I'm the youngest of 3. My brother and sister took my pacifier away from me around 4 1/2 and tossed it.  Before I turned 5, I remember taking toilet paper and stuffing it in my underwear to make a make shift diaper.  Between 5 and 15, I would take maxi pads and make a make shift diaper in my underwear. I would also anytime I would find diapers from friends and families I would take one or two. At 16 my first job was janitor at an office. A lady turned 40 and they threw a party for her at the office.  They gave her and adult diaper as a gag gift. In one of the offices next to the trash as the bag of attends diapers (mid to late 80s). I took the bag home but first I took one of the diapers rushed to the bathroom and put one on. I was in heaven. I was on a quest to find more. We lived in a small town where everyone knows everyone. So I went to a town over and found more. When I moved out of the house and moved to a bigger city, I got my first pay check, where most kids my age bought beer and party, I bought diapers and baby toys.  In my mid 20s (in the mid 90s) I started to wear at night all the time. I discovered other people on line just like me called ABDL. Now I know I was not crazy. In my early 30s I started to wear 24/7. Now in my early 50s and married. I still wear 24/7 and have stuffies, my wife is not ABDL but is okay that I wear 24/7 and loves my stuffies.

 

[justababyboy]

I started in my early teens due to childhood trauma, it helped me cope with the things that happened to me which I won't discuss here for the sake of everyone, let's just say some very bad things happened to me and regressing to a younger age before everything happened helps me cope and forget for a while.

[SparklyPrincess]

I distinctly remember being about 9 years old and finding my youngest brother's nappies. I tried one on and loved the feeling. It wasn't until my teenage years that I experimented further. Once I left home and moved away, it was about 2000 / 2001 and online retail was becoming a thing. I remember the freedom from ordering my first proper adult nappies and the rest, as they say, is history. 

 

I never bonded with my mother due to her mental health, alcohol, benzo and opioid problems, so that's my reasoning behind wanting to feel vulnerable, yet safe, loved and protected and that's what being an AB gives to me. 

[SissyBabyBenita]

As my former wife fall in love with her african bf and as he moved into the house, they started to living as married couple.
Later she told me, that she read a lot about women who treat they husbands as babies and sissys and she began to think that is also the best for me.

And she said the only way to stay with her, is that i become her little daughter and baby. And i agreed.

But to become a baby was a longer way - step for step.

My name was before Ben and she liked to change my name into Benita and she did. To be diapered was at begin not easy - she said to me, babies don't diapering themself.
Because i had bladder problems as kid (age 😎 it was not a problem to anti potty train me again - and i must say that i was proud as i start bedwetting.

I had a lot to learn - to use baby pacifier - how to drink from a baby bottle - to accept infant food like follow on milk pre or 1 - early bedtimes - to wear a baby hairstyle - to hear only baby music and baby radio plays - to play only with baby toys - also baby books and baby colouring book - to wear only baby clothings and also to be visible as baby in public

Now i am so happy to be a real baby

 

[babystevie1987]

I think it started way back when I was maybe around 6. I saw an ad for dry nights and ask my mom could I get some. She obviously said no as I wasn't a bed wetter. I remember when I was sick and tummy troubles, I wore plastic pants as I didn't always made it to the toilet on time. My parents separated and that's was tough. We got the internet sometime when I was still in secondary school. I remember finding adultbabysource.com and a few other sites. I also sometime after I finished school and starting working in a new agent shop, I came across a magazine and on the front cover was photo of a man in abdl clothes. I bought myself some baby diapers and tape some together 😅. Sometime later in my life I finally bought myself really adult diapers and abdl diapers shortly after. I bought a lot of abdl items and bin them when I felt like I was been stupid. I eventually came to realise that the more I try and force to shut my little side out the more it came back 1000 times stronger. I learnt to accept it, thanks to sides like this one read. I also accepted that wanted to wear diapers, suck on my pacifier and all that, doesn't hurt anyone. It does help me relax and switch off from the horrible things that are happening. I don't expect people to understand, I don't go around demanding that others should go along with it either. I'm happy, I get my little most weeks. Sure if I had a place of my own and money I would build a nursery and build a crib but for now I am greatful that I finally became comfortable with myself.

[wellpaddedagain]

I started when I was about 5 or so. My mom had kept some old cloth diapers and plastic pants (what we called em) and I found them in the closet. I was intrigued and put one on. It barely fit but I was hooked. I started ‘playing baby’ so I had an excuse to wear them.  Now here I am 40 years later and my wife and I refer to the state of being diapered as ‘wearing’.  I’m firmly entrenched as both an AB and a DL. She’s also very supportive and in her own words to me, “You like what you like” 😊

[Little Piglet]

I always had this inner childlike state to myself. No matter if I was wearing diapers or being treated as a baby, I loved watching cartoons and toddler type shows. Music that made me smile and relax was also children's and toddler type music. This was even my persona before I got into the ABDL world. 

Growing up, I lived a pretty normal life there was nothing out of the ordinary. The only thing I could possibly contribute to all of this ABDL stuff is I am the youngest of 3 siblings. Now when I say youngest, I am several years younger. My oldest brother is almost 9 years older than me and my older sister is almost 7 years older than me. So growing up I was babied and spoiled rotten. That is the only thing i can contribute this to from my childhood.

The rest just comes from who I am and my personality. I, like I said have always had that childlike nature to me. I have always loved coloring playing with Legos and other toys where I could build things. When at the beach, I loved making sand castles. I just feel like I have that inner child still in me I guess. 

[Andrew54]

I was in 5th grade, and had a few bed wetting issues, my mother said that if I wet the bed again, she was going to put me in a nappy and plastic pants, well that got me thinking, I tried a lot of makeshift nappies, and found out that I actually liked them, they made me excited for some reason, fast forward some years after I finished with school, I bought my first packet of "Snuggers" disposable nappies(1983), WOW, I was hooked, I didn't know it at the time, but thought I was strange for doing so, fast forward again many years later, and I still enjoy wearing adult nappies, and just ordered some plastic pants.(For nighttime)

[CrookedRain]

I've always had the occasional accident. But never wore protective wear for them. However, I've always been sexually aroused by seeing girls pee, including wetting. Wetting myself in protective wear on purpose started on a whim. One night I was drinking beer and got annoyed having to get up every 2 minutes to pee. So I drove to CVS and grabbed a pack of adult pullups just thinking it'd be convenient and I could see whether it was something I was into as a turn on. As soon as I let that first warm pee begin to fill up the pullup, I immediately realized I was scratching an itch I didn't know I'd had my whole life. I'm not into full on baby role play but I like being changed. It makes me comfortable in a body positive kind of way. I discovered one time I don't mind some hints of AB when, one time, my mom was changing me and cleaning my penis off after a particularly full bladder pee. She unconsciously got overtaken with a sense of nostalgia for when I was little and without meaning to, said something about my "little pee pee." She got so embarrassed and started barfing out a rambling apology. Said she didn't know why that just slipped out. I looked her in the eyes and said, "Mom, it's fine. You're changing your 40 year old son's diaper, which we both know I change on my own all the time. By all means, feel comfortable to say or do whatever. That's what this is about." She says stuff like that every once in a while now or tells me anecdotes about what it was like changing me back in the day. Love it. There is no greater freedom than comfort in the face of vulnerability.

[ddjas03]

Around June 2016, the sexual side of my puberty came in & I suddenly got an insane urge to wear diapers despite being potty trained since 3.5 and not feeling it at all. There were pupils who wore nappies in my school but since it was an all-autistic school, it was the most severe pupils

I was confused by this at first and I privately started going in my adventures learning about diapers/abdl while doing the deed & I came across DD. I lurked here till 2023-2024 and treated the gallery like a wank bank.

in December 2016, it was after lunchtime and I was doing some work when I thought it was a normal fart but I sharted my pants & I was pretty embarrassed [no pupils cared though]. I ended up in the spare clothes area and while everything was clean and I was offered spare pants, I didn't want to put my nuts into someone else's underwear & I remembered the nappies.

I luckily found a staff member [let's call her S] & I told her what happened. Since she was in the more severe classes, she offered to bring out 4 nappies/diapers, they were ID Slip Plus's. She asked if I wanted changed but I said that I could handle it myself [i had watched videos at the time].

I got to the nearest bathroom, sloppily changed myself & it was close to home time so I got in my transport and got home.

When I got in the door, my mother asked "why are you wearing pads" and I explained that I crapped myself by accident at school. I got in my room and done my first ever wet. It was satisfying and unique for sure.

To this day, I wish that I accepted S changing me because to this day, nobody  has changed me and I wonder how differently things would've played out if I accepted [and if I got a better fit].

[BabyAmeilia]

   I guess it really started when I was three years old. I was in a foster home, and was a bedwetter. My foster mother punished me by putting me back in diapers and molesting me. I regress involuntarily to an age before that happened whenever I get triggered. 

[LittleSusieQ]

I started by wearing adult pullups several years ago.  Not sure why, I just did.  Found out about ab/dl on a fetish site, looked interesting.  I bought myself a pack of diapers and a onsie.  When I opened the diapers, OMG they are huge.  Put it and the onsies on and loved how it felt.  Soon got myself a paci and a bottle.  I loved them both. 

Now I'm diapered about 70% of the time, no more useless pullups.  Wear onsies almost every day and have more little gurl clothes than I can imagine.  I love being diapered, wearing plastic panties, ruffle butt of course, and little gurl clothes.

[bbtwin]

ive been wearing diapers ever since i was young. seems never wanted out of them. never was a bed wetter but there was always diapers in the house. came from large family use to sneak them and wear them when no one was looking. now that im older im in diapers 24/7 now cause of medical issues. i guess my wish came true when i was young. 

[DiaperboyEddie12]

Wow some incredible stories!

I guess I will post mine when I get up in the morning.

[Kaliborio]

I had previous continence issues, so I had experience with diapers. I was also an AB/DL but wasn't in the kind of family that would accept it. I went back into diapers voluntarily, telling myself it was for continence anxiety (which it partly was!), just before I turned 18.

[BabyJmann]

When I was younger my sister was a bedwetter, one day I laughed at her because instead of a pull up my mom put her in a diaper. Stupid brother. Then I was yanked into the bathroom by my stepdad and put into one too. I was then paraded out so my mom and aunt can see. They laughed and I ran off crying into a room, hid under some covers. Ever since the warmth of a diaper between my legs has been a want that I wanted but couldn’t get since I was young with no money. So when I grew up and got my own money, I hesitated for a long time to go out and buy some. Jump forward to today and I married a very supportive spouse. Read my story in diaper lover forum, 

 

[DiaperboyEddie12]

I have been a DL for over 30-something years.  Liking diapers ever since.
When I was at the age of 10, I used to wet the bed. Though I believe it was only when I visited my mom and stepdad.  One night, while we went out to a friend’s place in the apartment complex to see the friends, one thing I did not know was he had gotten a diaper from them.  When we got home, I was told to get a bath and then get ready for bed.  When I came out from the bathroom, I was told to lie on the bed, and he then put a diaper on me for wetting the bed.  Though one thing I do remember from that time was I said I am a big boy, I do not need diapers.  But he insisted on me wearing one.  That night is when I started to like to wear them.

Now it is 43 years, and I need them as I got #2 issues.  But I still love them, and they help me with my Anxiety and other issues in that area.  And for some reason, I sleep a lot better in a diaper.

 

[spark]

I'm 56.  About 52 years I made a huge mistake.  I learned how to use the potty, which was I mistake I immediately regretted it.

I didn't wet the bed, nor have potty accidents, but was always fascinated by diapers.  After I started high school, especially after I hit puberty, I started reading stories about delayed potty training.  I remember when Pull-ups were introduced, and wished I was young enough to wear them.  And then Goodnites were introduced and I used my first paycheck to buy some.  It was the first time I could pee in something without wetting my pants.  I found HDIS and bought some old school Attends.  Thus started to my quest for diapers.

[liljim57]

I am the oldest out of 3 boys and a few cousins. I liked the thought of being the one being changed and getting the attention. When I was about 10 Mom diapered me in cloth diapers and plastic pants and short shirts with no pants; for a weekend, No matter where we went. That first day she took me shopping in every store downtown to try and embarrass me for having messy pants from school. At 14 I got a job and bought some xxx mags (Penthouse and Forum) that had AB/DL stories in them. One gave sizes 21x40 Curity diapers and Gerber toddler size plastic pants and baby pins; the next paycheck I bought some. I got a chance to put them on and was PINNED ever since. Later I got over of feeling crazy.