Earliest Memories Of Bondage

[Mean Mommy]

GoldilocksParadox's post on self-bondage touched on something else pretty interesting: one's first experiences with bondage. It was nice to hear that other people also used to mess around when they were kids. For me, discovering my twisted sexuality was a secret I felt horrible about. I drew my own porn since the age of like, eleven, and was often disturbed by what I found when not masturbating to it. It took going to college to finally accept and be proud of my kinky self.

One of the earliest memories I have of a BDSM scene (well, barely a scene, I don't think I knew what I was doing at the time) was playing with my dolls around the age of five or something. I used to select a victim from my piles of dolls - one that I especially hated - then would pretend to cut it, torture it and lock it away. Wow, I can't believe I still remember this. I also kept my male dolls naked most of the time. But that's probably because I wasn't bothered to change them. But now that I look back on all this, there was a lot of BDSM undertones between me and my dolls. Those poor things...bwa ha ha.

When dolls became lame to play with, I began to play more with other kids. I distinctly remember bossing around boys (girls held their own against me more of the time - I suppose I saw them as equals, especially if they were my age or older). I really delighted in boys that didn't put up a fight and would conspire to terrify them with ghost stories or anything else I could concoct.

What are your guys earliest memories of your freaky sex lives?

[lz1396]

When I was in 2nd grade there was this girl Amy Abernathy who was in 4th grade that always sat in front of me on the buss everyday. She was mean. She would always try to do mean things to me. I would tell her she should stop but she just do something to me the next day for no reason. Like many of the other girls she had panted finger nails that were kind of long. One day she raked her nails down my arm for no reason and drew blood so I hit her in the face and split her lip and blooded her nose. You know what after that she was not mean to me any more. I don’t know if that counts as SM. Yah, I don’t make a very good sub but some people have to find out the hard way. I know you should not hit girls unless they want you to but when my mom saw my arm she said it was good that I hit her.

[Aria Rift]

Well, when I was around four or five I used to sit in a hole in our backyard and pretend that it was a mother figure and that it wouldn't let me go. It was more of a nurturing feeling and not at all sexual. Later, when I was around ten or eleven, I let my friends tie me to a chair. One friend's older brother then decided he wanted to burn some of my hair. I remember that experience not really being sexual either. The thought of BDSM sure is now though. I've tried some self bondage, but didn't really have the right equipment to do it properly and I've never had the courage to actually go to a professional.

Part of me really gets off on the thought of relinquishing all control, while the other half is repulsed by the idea.

[goldilocksparadox]

im honored that u quoted me in ur thing and let me just say right off the bat ur signiture scares me lol. but yea the psychological factor of it all has also really interested me. looking back, my neighbors once tied my arms to a tree when i was little and i cant say that it was a bad experience. my favorite tv episodes were when the power rangers were trapped in a giant cocoon thing, in the batman cartoon when poison ivy would tie people up with vines and stuff (she was also too attractive for little kids lol), and just in general in cartoons people are tied up alot. i really feel like that has had a great influence on me liking bondage and just that "trapped" feeling.

[jenniebear]

ok.........this is one of the most horrible things i would ever fess up to...............and really feel terrible about.......

but when i was two years old our family picked out a kitten and so.......this kitten and i grew up together.......we were best friends for most of her years....she lived to be 18+ and was one of the best cats/pets i've shared my life with....

i was often left on my own as a small child...left to entertain myself, not much interaction with people until i was school age. We had a big old house that had one of those old screened in porches....the kind that you'd take the screens off of in winter...and this was my "cage" where i spent most of my time...no one to take me outside....not allowed inside (my father slept days so my mother didn't want a small child inside being noisy and waking him...)

here's the terrible part....

I had plenty of dolls and toys, and my cat.....i suppose at the time i just wanted to be wanted or needed...or loved or something that showed me i was of value to anyone or anything.....and so at age 3 or 4 i learned somehow that if i tortured this cat....(torture would include covering her eyes and twirling with her until we were both dizzy ... or chasing and batting her with a broom - then picking her up and holding her......both things would make her cling to me for a moment...happy to not be tortured more then likely...but what i remember was how it felt to have her cling to me....snuggle into me....they were absolutely for the wrong reasons......but as small child who was starved of affectionate touch.......her reaction was a wonderful feeling.

Thank god she didn't hold those times against me as i matured...infact we became so close in later years that she would follow me everywhere...always near by when i played at friends houses or even to school seeing that i made it safely and waiting for me when i came home....her fur dried my tears over many a childish hurt or loss.

please let me reassure you that i'd never intentionally hurt any animal now...i'm devastated if my car hits a bird....i feed every stray and have nursed many an injured animal to health....

Then when i was about 38 or so, i had my first official bdsm experience, after the Dom had beat me, and i was in that moment between "subspace" and returning to the real world........my mind was trying to understand what had just happened...why i had reacted like i had....what the Dom had felt when He'd beaten me and How He felt afterwards as i lay in His arms........and it came to me...........that cat so long ago.......how she had nestled into me when i'd tormented her....her relief...her clinging to me....of course she didn't feel the feelings i as a sub felt....but did the Master or Domminant feel sort of as i had...those moments afterwards when i held her to me....

and wasn't i as a sub.......looking for a way to fill in chinks in my armor when i'd felt abandoned.......unloved......when i'd felt next to nothing at all?....feelings left over from when i was that child...alone...

[belinda_sue_fox]

Wicked child!!

[belinda_sue_fox]

Ok, some wicked individual (who will remain nameless) *cough, cough* ^^^^^^ requested i do a proper post here.

Where to begin. I could maybe start with being dragged to school kicking and screaming from day one, which carried went on for a few years on and off. First day of school was spent sat under a table refussing to join in with anything or come out. Oh the times i would lock myself in the bathroom at home just before school or ask to goto the bathroom at school then trot off home.

How about the shoes? Oh the joys of having to fight people for the shoes you wanted, then have to fight to keep em at the end of the day.

Then there was the games of Colditz later on, which always involved people getting tied up and locked in sheds. But that normally happend to the the kid with the knock off toys ( you know the ones the dolls/action men with less joints then needed and the naff clothes) or the one who lied all the time "You bust me windpipe, i'm going to tell my mum" has always stuck in my mind, damn that was funny). He always got left tied in the shed over long, a few hours while we stopped playing Coldirz and started playing other stuff wasn't really cricket.

Maybe Charlies Angels is where it should really start. Did you ever notice how in just about every episode they got tied up? So at a friends house and they would watch that every week so i did too as was there on that day at that time most weeks. I seem to remember we used to try the things they did on the episodes after the show see if we could get out of what they had. If only they had hogtied more often on that show.

I don't think there was ever no one thing that got me into bondage. And i hate slapdash bondage, the any old rope, old scaf un matching locks thing. Wrist cuffs with odd locks or each cuff on different drives me insane.

So anyway if i had to go with a time would be Charlies Angels time although it was always fun wrestling for the shoes, just they had to be held down for me to get the shoes so not bondage in anyway for me.

In next weeks exciting episode we learn about how to open combination locks and how to pick locks in general.

[jenniebear]

hey!

i had to be dragged to school too........and they had my mom take me in the back door....not sure if it was accuse i was causing a scene or because they thought i'd be less traumatized by it.....

then when the teacher wasn't looking i'd sneak out the door and run home too!........once they locked me in the nurses office all day while i sat in there and screamed at the top of my lungs..........my mom had told them to keep me at school cause i was always fine when i got home....

[belinda_sue_fox]

Welll i was too good for the back entrence.

[MyNameIsDee]

Oh Bel I could never imagine you walking through a back door.... you are far too good for that!

[beallucanb]

My earlest memories of bondage has got to be me hogtieing myself, I did that to get off, untill a few years ago.

Now I have one leg that only bends about halfway, so my hogtieing days are over.

It's tough to play alone, but I could never find anyone here to have bondage fun with, so I just do it myself, it's not as much fun I imagine, but it still gets me going.

[Clarkin]

earliest memory of bondage would be old TV shows like Batman where Batman & Robin were captured and tied up on a weekly basis, Popeye with Olive Oil being tied up. I also remember a science book that showed a spider wrapping up it's victim into a mummy wrap of sorts.

[beallucanb]

If you want to go into TV show and movie bondage, then you can go back to the late 30's early 40's cowboy movies, they were always tieing people up.

[guitar_a_goo_goo_ga]

i always was (and still am) the "weird" child. i remember when i was a youngin' sitting in the middle of the back seat of the van and putting on all the seat belts. i had the lap belt in the middle where i was, the left "shoulder" strap belt stretched over me into the right "belt buckle" and doing the same with the right side seatbelt. i felt secure and i remember liking it. not in a sexual way of course i was still a kid.

even before i was masturbating i was tying myself up in bed and to stationary objects even tying myself up and sitting in a closed box imagining being shipped to an alien zoo. then i grew up a little and started to "tent" my pants, but at the time i didnt know better and had my hand behind my back, over my head or somewhere else where i couldnt pleasure myself. once i "discovered" the pleasure ive tied my hands to my sides.

[beallucanb]

When I tied myself I never had to touch myself to get off, just the pressure of what I had on made me cum.

But being I'm older now and on some powerful pain meds, I do need to touch myself in order to get off, I'm just happy I can get off now, because for 7 years I didn't get off at all, untill I stopped takeing some of the meds I felt I didn't need anymore.

[lil_angel]

Let's see....

For me there are three things that stick out in my early childhood.

The first is that as an only child, I had to use my imagination a lot and one of the things I often fantasized about was being tied up and someone coming to my rescue.

Along those same lines, number two is when I used to play with my friends, I was always always the one that was tied up and rescued. It made me feel special that even in make believe, there were people who cared enough to 'risk danger' over me.

The last memory is a bit more obscure. There was this (not very popular) British TV show called The Tomorrow People that was all about these kids who had 'special abilities', as in could read minds, telekinesis, etc. (Living in the states, I obviously didn't get British TV in the late 70s/Early 80s, but the show was picked up by Nickelodeon back when it was a good channel) Anyways, there was one particular episode where the kids went to this planet for vacation and found out all the kids on the planet where being held as slaves by this alien race. they all wore bondage gear and slept in cages when they weren't digging in the mines. I remember how that used to make me tingle, even though I didn't understand why at the time.

That show was such an influence that when they released the box set on DVD a couple of years a go, I had to go out and buy it. It's a pretty dumb show overall (for an adult), but that one episode still makes me tingle to this day.

[beallucanb]

Lil Angel I did see that show a few times, I remember that the guys were kinda cute, like I look for in all tv shows I watch, I have always been interested in being tied, but could never find anyone to indulge me.

[Diapers4Ever]

One of my earliest moments of bondage when I was around seven years old. I was watching the old cartoon "Inspector Gadget" and there were many scenes with Gadget's niece getting hand-gagged, kicking and struggling as she was dragged to some sort of captive scenario. There was plenty of hand-gagging, struggling, kicking, screaming, squirming and bondage.

At that age, I sure didn't know WHY I was aroused by it. Now I do.

[beallucanb]

Yes when I was very young I do remember being turned on just thinking of bondage, I had no idea why, I just knew I liked what I saw.

The only problem I had I just kept my likes secret, and I never looked into doing things with others, and yes I tought I was some kind of a freak and no one would be interested.

Like all guys my age I wish I had an internet at that time, or a way to contact others who were of the same interest, I do think my life would have turned out WAY different.

[Mean Mommy]

Hee, you guys got my memory going. I can remember some more stuff now..

I remember reading the silver chair (silver something) book in the Narnia series. And I loved reading about the Prince being lashed to an enchanted throne, screaming and crying out for the children to set him free. I would read that page over and over. Getting this deep, rich thrill imagining this beautiful prince held down and screaming. Mmmm.. Can't wait for that to be made into a movie. >D

Also, does anyone else remember this cartoon? I remember seeing this Tom and Jerry cartoon where Tom is forced to where a diaper and is tormented and humiliated by Jerry and these other cats. I was like, six, and was so turned watching this cartoon! I felt filthy and refused to explain to my mom or her friend why I liked it. I just remember my mom's friend had a video of Tom and Jerry cartoons. And I would sit through an hour of boring Tom and Jerry shenanigans to get to that kinky diaper episode. It's on youtube, if anyone cares to look.