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If you go to a site like https://www.tumblr.com/ you will see so many AB "Daddy's Girls" these days. I guess they have given the wake up call to other females with daddy issues or women that desire a little extra TLC that it's okay. Wouldn't most heterosexual females agree they seek the idea of being taken care of by a big strong man in their life? It doesn't mean it's a clone or even a replacement of their real bio father. Rather a different meaning for the same word. So, does anyone care to help by adding their thoughts to what I started? If you go to a site like https://www.tumblr.com/ you will see so many AB "Daddy's Girls" these days. I guess they have given the wake up call to other females with daddy issues or women that desire a little extra TLC that it's okay. Wouldn't most heterosexual females agree they seek the idea of being taken care of by a big strong man in their life? It doesn't mean it's a clone or even a replacement of their real bio father. Rather a different meaning for the same word. In the past, almost any ex I trusted with my diaper desires usually took to idea and loved to play the "Daddy's Girl" role initially. And I enjoyed helping to fulfill the “Daddy” role with them and for them. I’d care for them as a little girl would want and need to be taken care of. And it all gave me a sense of purpose. From a Guys perspective, it was good for me since it helped me feel more like a Man. Even if it was changing her wet Huggie’s or bottle feeding her. It was just a different way to show her my love I felt for her. Being mostly a DL, I was just "Daddy" wearing a diaper. It was all about them. But it worked for me as well. When it became sexual, it was two consenting adults either in a role/age play. Or sometimes we’d play it straight. To me, it was never about a Father having sex with his Child. It never really crossed my mind that way. But, eventually some of my ex's took the term too literal. And they began to feel shame and disgust for their behavior. Especially if they shared what was meant to be private with a friend or family member. And I used to be the blame for what they did. They usually purged the role, the idea and me out of their life in their new found disgust. It was an empty feeling to say the least. In my 20's, I sometimes would go through the same feelings of shame and end up purging the diapers, and other AB/DL things. Now, I know how to embrace and even be somewhat proud of being a lifelong DL. I hope any Girl that has joined us here feels first off this is a safe place for you. Most Guys here are decent. But if you feel you are being harassed by anyone, check in with a Moderator if needed. Also, understand this... It's okay, natural and sometimes necessary to want to be little again. So if you have a consenting and understanding Man (or Woman) in your life. Calling them "Daddy" doesn't mean you’re perverted. Most of us aren’t thinking of the real one. It's just a name. If you are uncomfortable with the name think up a new one. Sometimes, I want to be cared for, but I cannot call anyone "Mommy". And I haven't tried Daddy, yet. I like having a Babysitter, or a care taker. Like the one I remember from my real childhood. Sometimes you may want to add in a childhood memory. For some it's not a good idea. I have good and bad memories. Or sometimes, I like to even be a little Girl with pigtails and lots of PINK

Does anyone have any issues with self-induced vomiting? Basically I'll eat either with the intention of throwing up, OR I'll eat and realize it made me really full, and then make myself throw up. Sometimes what I eat can be a big meal, but if you saw me eating it you wouldn't be like "oh my god he is eating so much." On average I'd say it's as much as a hamburger with fries. I could get more into detail, but I was hoping someone might have some experience. I am currently seeing a therapist for this and also on medication. As my depression as gotten worse, so has this issue. I know that this issue is typically associated with bulimia. That's not what I'm talking about (according to two therapists I don't fit the criteria for bulimia, but I do fit criteria for "eating disorder not otherwise specified" - - not that it matters what the DSM IV says, I'm just trying to explain my situation. I'm an average-sized guy and I do like how my body looks.) I didn't realize this was really a problem for me until I started doing it more and more, and now it is something I do several times a week, sometimes every day, especially when I am depressed. I realize this is very unhealthy. Very bad for my body. I was hoping someone might have some experience or insight about this. Again, I understand from a medical perspective this is very, very not good for me.