Hello everyone, I am a lurker and I recently became interested in posting a bit on here. I've had a fetish of being diapered and turned into a baby for years now, but it was always something I hated about myself, I'm trying to recognize and accept this part of myself instead of just constantly repressing it. While I don't want this to be a huge part of my life, I do want to have a healthier relationship with myself.
Anyway, I would categorize myself as both an Adult Baby and Diaper Lover, I love the idea of being a baby/toddler again but it's especially nice with a thick and puffy diaper. Losing my independence and having to rely and obey my mommy also appeals to me (though only if she's nice, I crave gentle love and nurturing, not harsh discipline). Sometimes I really like the idea of being turned into/treated like a baby girl which I guess makes me a bit of a sissy too. The ruffled diaper covers, poofy skirts, hair ribbons, pink colors, tights/stocking socks all make me feel extra babyish, embarrassed, and trapped in a wonderful way.
I usually like connecting with these feelings through art, stories, games, and text roleplay. I rarely actually wear diapers because I'm too nervous about someone catching me with them or finding out, and to a lesser extent because I don't want to actually wear them all the time (only when I want to feel like a baby). Well I guess that's my introduction, maybe I'll see you around on the story or roleplay forums.