SuperTrouper

This morning I showered but after it got really tired. Lay down on the couch to nap, needing to use the bathroom. I had lots of diaper dreams and then woke up very dizzy and confused. Went to pee in the toilet then went into my office. I needed more than pee. I was still dazed and confused so put on a diaper even though I planned not to during the day. I refuse to change this until it's wet fully and now it's not wet at all...

This is very strange but does anyone else have this problem? Sometimes I can't tell if I went or not. Like once I pushshed and pushed and felt nothing come out so I assumed nothing had. A few hours later I changed and it was a full diaper. Today I needed to go and was able to a tiny bit. and I THINK I went two more times but I'm not sure? And I still need to go...

I just got so excited, I HAD to tell someone. I've been lurking hee for years and had an account once a long time ago. I've had a pants pooping (now diaper pooping) fetish for about 15 years. Five years in I actually started trying to indulge but it didn't work. I heard about the marshmallow trick about 9 years ago and THAT worked - but no urgency and I had to push. I was able to FORCE a constipated one out once after two hours of trying, and on the toilet first. The same thing happened recently, I started on the toilet with nothing on, then put it on and forced it. I've done enemas, I have to push. If I don't push I'm able to hold it until it absorbs and no water comes out. I tried suppositories, they were just painful until I went in a toilet. I've done bananas, but it's so fake. I tried prune juice, it didn't work. Milk of Magnesia works great but I have to push that too. I only had a genuine (tiny) accident with it once. I also only had a "just relax and it comes out" thing with it once. I've been trying to shit myself for years and years and always had to fake it and force it no matter how many times I tried, pushing, almost crying, on the toilet with my pants going up and down while I tried. Today I needed to go, went into the bathroom, sat down and it felt easy to come out and then I remembered I had diapers. I rarely have them. I went into my bedroom expecting to not be able to go, pushed and hurt myself, Then I remembered from the last time I forced myself to go, to go slow. Two minutes later I finally shit myself unassisted and with no struggle after trying for 10 years. I'm so happy and so proud I finally accomplished this. This is such a stupid post but I had to tell someone because I've been trying for so long.