Imortal-baby

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My first diaper desires came to me when I was five years old. My sister was new born and maybe there was a subconscious draw to be loved like her since my own mother didn't want a boy she wanted girl. Perhaps it was I was such a happy baby and by the time I was five our family was in a mess. Whatever the case once I began to desire diapers and it never left me. There were times I was distracted by other things that it got put in the back of my mind but it never went away. Off and on I secretly desired to be diapered but never told anyone not even my best friends. When I was in my teens I made fake diapers from towels and garbage bags. Once I was old enough to move away from family and was earning my own money I worked myself up to buying my first real adult diapers. I think I was around 18 at the time. When I put it on, the simple joy made me want to just sit and cry. A life long yearning finally come true. But as with many of you I immediately also felt guilt and shame afterward. From 18 to 45 was a continual binge and purge sessions. After using diapers for a few days I would feel so guilty I would swear them off forever and throw all my baby stuff away. Later when I got married my wife knew but she didn't approve of it. Now days take a different approach. Now consider where the ABDL feelings come from. Imagine a road filled with potholes. An emotional scar is a pothole in your mind. What kinds of things you fill it with matters. Filling the pot holes with jello for example won't work very well, but nether would loose pebbles. You need the right filler placed in the right way. Abdl feeling are complex and layered so no one solution will work the same for everyone. I can offer you thoughts to help control ABDL feeling and allow you to continue to grow spiritually. Here are some helpful tips to be ABDL and still be spritual 1 Separate the sexual from the baby as much a possible. When your in need of release. Do so as a separate act from anything ABDL. Don't do so while wearing diapers or doing anything abdl. 2 Commit to stay away from ABDL pornographic pics that encourage more lust. 3 Instead of reading abdl material that usually contain vulgarity or pornographic material, vent those feelings by writing your own clean version of a ABDL story. 4 Practice wearing diapers but doing usual life chores and not strictly ABDL. This will help disassociate the diapers with strictly sexual or ABDL activities. ( cleaning your room, laundry, paying bills, etc...) 5 If you use diapers don't continual focus your thoughts on them. A. Wearing diapers is not a sin but lust is. If you use them to feed your lust then it is a sin. B. Doing baby things like sucking a paci is not a sin but putting them more important than God is a sin. C. If you think of the ABDL feeling as a way God keeps you humble it can be helpful. Its hard to be prideful while diapered and sucking on a paci after all. Use your ABDL desire for a mommy or daddy to transfer to God. Desire him to care for you just as much in your life. Seek him as much as much as your do a ABDL parent. 7, When you fail and get caught in lust, don't give up come back to God ask his forgives and start over. 8 Accept God's punishment for sin in your life. Its hard to be ok with chastisement but when you know what he does he does for your good its helps. 1 before you go any further, do you know you are truly saved by Jesus sacrifice? Ephesians 2:8 For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: 2:9 Not of works, lest any man should boast. 1 acknowledge your sin 2 accept Jesus paid for them 3 ask him to forgive you of those sins and save you. 2 The fact that you struggle with it spiritually means the Holy spirit is working with you. John 16:8 And when he is come, he will reprove the world of sin, and of righteousness, and of judgment: 3 Most anything pleasurable to the flesh can be good or bad depending on the situation. ( example : A husband and wife having sex in their house is fine but on a park bench in public is not fine) Jeremiah 17:9 The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? 4 Your flesh needs three things to survive : food, water and air. The Holy spirit uses three main things to help you grow ( studying the word, praying , and praise ) Psalms 1:2 But his delight is in the law of the LORD; and in his law doth he meditate day and night. 1 Thessalonians 5:17 Pray without ceasing. Psalms 100:4 Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, and into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, and bless his name. 5 Understand you need to desire God more than diapers. Seek God first before anything else. Mat 6:33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. 6 Keep in mind anything taken to the extreme has bad effects eventually, but most thing kept in a balanced and moderate way can be helpful. Let the abdl be a part of your life but not controlling it. Ecclesiastes 3:1 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: