poookid

hello i am new to this. i'm scared a little. i wondered if there are any people who will tell me hello and a little about themselves. i want to get connected so i dont feel alone in this.

well, i identify as transgender even though i am more of a transsexual. I was born intersex, which basically means i was born both sexes. i did not have a penis at birth, so i was raised as a girl, but i don't have a fuuly working vagina and i never felt like a girl. i came out as a lesbian when i was about 16, and that was helpful but still didnt feel right. when i was 24 i realized i was a guy, which explained a lifetime of hating my body, my boobs in particular. So i went into gender therapy (i was already in regular therapy cuz i have post traumatic stress disorder from childhood trauma). After being in therapy and when time came that i could afford it, i got a double masectamy (breastoffame) and then went on hormones which i've been on for 2 years. I just recently figured out i was into this whole diaper thing... which to be honest is a relief in a way, but a little scary too. ok. a lot scary. but anyway, transgender is a word that includes not only transexuals, but transvestites (who are USUALLY, but not always) straight men who like to wear women's clothes, drag queens and drag kings (people who wear the opposite sex's clothing for performances), gender queer, gender varient, etc people, who are people who for the most part feel that neither gender really fits them, or they just dont believe in gender at all. And a lot of intersex people identify as transgender, but being intersex doesn't nececearily make someone trans. For me being intersex greatly affected my trauma growing up for several reasons but i'm not going to talk about that cuz it could be emotionally triggering. There are lots of communities and messege boards and support for all sorts of trans people. i'll list some if people want. otherwise, my post here is done. peace.