I feel like I have more hatred for myself being ABDL then being lesbian. That may be because I have come to terms and accepted myself more. No one knows about me being gay except my friends and ex’s, but my parents would judge me more if they knew. Yet, no one knows about my abdl life and probably never will. So overall, I feel, for me at least, they are hard in different ways. No matter what you have to learn to love yourself ☺️