Aki 315

Okay so I've never been able to wet in any position other than standing up (except very rarely when I'm sitting down and my attention is on something else but I can't reliably do that). However, just now my bladder was completely full and I was wearing a diaper that I knew could hold it all (Rearz Safari), so I figured I'd try to wet lying on my back. I tried for about an hour while listening to running water ASMR and pushing/relaxing on and off. I ended up not being able to do it, however I did end up experiencing one of the greatest feelings I've ever had in a diaper afterwards. After I gave up I just tried to wet standing up which took longer than usual because it turns out I had underestimated just how much I was holding in. The moment I started wetting, I absolutely could not stop and I nearly filled the entire diaper in one minute long wetting (usually this takes a whole afternoon). After the "floodgates" opened and my body took control I felt so genuinely vulnerable and childish it was amazing, I'm surprised I didn't leak. Anyways sorry for the blog style post but I had to share this. Besides that, if anyone has any more tips/advice for this kind of thing I'd love to hear it.

I won't say where specifically but some time during high school/late puberty I was on a website centered around fetish stuff. Some of the stuff was interesting to me but I didn't really visit for a specific thing until I found some diaper stuff. My initial reaction was that I was unsure how to feel about it so I clicked on it, but deep down I knew I liked it and I'd be back for more. I think even if it weren't for that I'd have found this part of me somehow because it feels like it's been there much longer.

Woah wait, are you actually DSP? I heard about you way back when Dark Souls came out because you were getting a lot of flak for your playthrough of that but I never watched any of your stuff and I had no idea you had a history with the professional fighting game scene... small world I guess. Even though I don't play street fighter I watched a ton of competitive SFIV and I try to keep up with SFV but it's not nearly as hype.

I've tried 24/7s, M4s, BetterDrys, and Rearz, and I think that Rearz are by far the best. All the other ones are good for their own reasons, but Rearz are just softer and squishier than anything else. Although they can be expensive and there was that ABDL copyright/trademark controversy, they're still the best diapers imo

I've tried 24/7s, M4s, BetterDrys, and Rearz, and I think that Rearz are by far the best. All the other ones are good for their own reasons, but Rearz are just softer and squishier than anything else. Although they can be expensive and there was that ABDL copyright/trademark controversy, they're still the best diapers imo

I'll play any game if it's good to be honest (indie, AAA, most any genre), everything I play nowadays is on Steam except smash ultimate which I've been playing a lot of lately.

I enjoy smaller things like humiliation or being submissive, but really my only other major fetish is straight shota. (for example: https://imgur.com/a/FtiCbxb)

If I have to sacrifice it, then it isn't love. So I guess not. I don't care if my partner participates in my fetish or not, as long as they accept it as a part of me and allow me to practice it myself. As far as an ideal partner goes, I think it's someone who makes me feel happy, someone who gives me another reason to wake up in the morning, and again someone who accepts me. And hopefully I can reciprocate those things for them. However, I don't think that a partner necessarily needs to participate in my kink to fulfill all those things I listed as ideal. Essentially, it feels too shallow to say my partner needs to be a part of this kink. If I wanted that I'd look for a fwb

I seem to only be able to mess while on my knees sitting on my heels. I would love to do it squatting, but I feel like I need something to hold on to first.