GuardianXander

So I'm really not to sure where to start, but I'm 22 years old, and my whole school life has been based on the shame of this truth about me wanting to be diapered forever, especially since a particular incident in my first day of pre-school, and especially since another incident where I was 15, both incidents are two different scenarios, the preschool incident was the most embarrassing of the 2, and I'm really shy about going into it, especially when this is the first time I've ever posted on this forum, and I've finally got my mother to understand why to quit bringing up the pre-school incident where I pooped my pants in class and was repeating "Don't poop pants" later on that day, and then the incident from when I was 15 was way more different, because my father held me and my mother hostage on a high speed chase where I apparently had to pee so badly, and cried because I never wanted to think about death or wetting my skinny jeans fullblast, my father kept telling me "Just pee your pants" and I didn't want to think about it, so my crying and moaning to an extent I wished I wasn't in that car, and was at home in bed wearing an adult diaper, and being someone's adult baby, which is a thought I fell in love with, I could go into more detail about why I didn't want to think about it, because I was afraid of some awful things happening with me if I wet my skinny jeans, and for about the past month, I've been in doubt of finding someone who could diaper me forever, and baby me and nurture me like I want to be nurtured, and treat me the way I want to be treated, dress me up like a beautiful women, and show me off, take me out, change my diapers, and let me wear panties over my diaper, and just be gentle with me, and treat me the way I desire to be treated, and have my freedom to live to be myself, and I'm desperate for that special person who would take care of me like that, and some times I cry tears about the fear of never finding or meeting that special person, very desperate, and feeling like the only one who feels like this most of the time.

So I'm really not to sure where to start, but I'm 22 years old, and my whole school life has been based on the shame of this truth about me wanting to be diapered forever, especially since a particular incident in my first day of pre-school, and especially since another incident where I was 15, both incidents are two different scenarios, the preschool incident was the most embarrassing of the 2, and I'm really shy about going into it, especially when this is the first time I've ever posted on this forum, and I've finally got my mother to understand why to quit bringing up the pre-school incident where I pooped my pants in class and was repeating "Don't poop pants" later on that day, and then the incident from when I was 15 was way more different, because my father held me and my mother hostage on a high speed chase where I apparently had to pee so badly, and cried because I never wanted to think about death or wetting my skinny jeans fullblast, my father kept telling me "Just pee your pants" and I didn't want to think about it, so my crying and moaning to an extent I wished I wasn't in that car, and was at home in bed wearing an adult diaper, and being someone's adult baby, which is a thought I fell in love with, I could go into more detail about why I didn't want to think about it, because I was afraid of some awful things happening with me if I wet my skinny jeans, and for about the past month, I've been in doubt of finding someone who could diaper me forever, and baby me and nurture me like I want to be nurtured, and treat me the way I want to be treated, dress me up like a beautiful women, and show me off, take me out, change my diapers, and let me wear panties over my diaper, and just be gentle with me, and treat me the way I desire to be treated, and have my freedom to live to be myself, and I'm desperate for that special person who would take care of me like that, and some times I cry tears about the fear of never finding or meeting that special person, very desperate, and feeling like the only one who feels like this most of the time.

I'd love to too. I'm trying to stay on here more often, I'd be down to talk to you and meet someone similar in my area

I still haven't yet, I'm looking for extender pads for my thick diapers, and plastic panties for double protection and lavender baby powder for extended wear and especially when I'm going out.

I live in Blue Springs, and near Independence and Liberty near the Kansas City area, and I'm looking for friends and support of all Kinds, I'm having a hard time leaving the rat race, and finding friends in the community, and I'm ready to leave the rat race and expand from here.

I live in Blue Springs, 30 minutes away and I want friends. I'm in Blue Springs looking for friends. I'm 30 minutes near Kansas City

I'm 21, and Trans in Blue Springs.

I live in Blue Springs, Mo, and here where I live it is hard for me to find anyone in the diaper community here in west of Missouri, and I at times have a really hard time feeling like I'm the only one, and I wish I could know of community members I could physically meet, I been coming to terms for the first time in over many years of this being in my identity. Anyone from Independence or Sedelia and Lee Summit or Liberty Missouri are mainly where I'm around living in the Kansas City area, and I've never met anyone physically around here in the community, and I'm looking for the best support that I can get near me.

I too use them for the same purposes, I'm in love with both the sensation of peeing and pooping my diaper, and feel it fill up the seat of my diaper between my legs and the back seat of my diaper with a pointy bulge, and the squishyness, all of it. I loooove it, I always have, It just feels comfortable and right to me, It makes me feel naughty and taboo, Regardless of how naughty it is, it feels like heaven, holding it in for awhile can be a pain, but releasing after awhile, and I prefer hard poops, not soft and loose as they make me feel nasty, so I guess I'll take peptobismol. I want to do it someone in public, see if anyone acknowledges me doing it, somewhere late at night, curious of they're reaction.

I used to be a bed wetter alot, I wore huggies pull ups and then Goodnites, and they never really did their job keeping me dry, But I on awake days I would put them on at home and mess them at home. I know now I can buy better thicker diapers, especially since I'm working and get money, and can buy them, I've honestly thought of messing my diaper in public myself lately, it would be even funner if I had someone else with me who is into diapers the exact way was I, because we'd mess our diapers together in public, It honestly feels right, I love the idea of even getting someones attention and asking if they can change me, it just feels right and makes me feel naughty and taboo. I never done this before, but It feels like its going to feel fun and right.