baby valeria

"Bu..But what if i get bored with nothing to do" i felt you put the bottle in my mouth as i had a feeling i wouldn't be getting out of this one as i barely drink much of the bottle.

"Can't i just stay here and you go by yourself" i look at you alittle not knowing what you might say as you get a bottle ready, i start to wonder what you ment by following your rules.

I nearly forgot about tomorrow as i get a bit scared and nervous as i try to say "d..do i have to go tomorrow"

I give up alittle bit as i settle in to your arms as deep down i really was feeling scared to go out there and be on my own as i wouldn't know what to really do. As i lay in your arms i look up to you as it was easy to tell that i really did need to stay with you.

I felt a bit defeated as i didn't know where to go on my own as i was quiet only proves more that i wasn't ready to be on my own cause if i did i would of back talked you by now.

"Great and is your guest still going to join aswell" she askes as i could hear alittle bit of the phone conversation.

"Hey jeff your still coming to the bbq tomorrow i just wanted to be sure that your still coming as everyone will be here" your mom says as she waits to hear what you say.

I shrug my shoulders as i didn't know where i wanted to go as i haven't really thought about it as i still stay in your arms as we hear your phone ringing as i mumble a bit saying "i..i don't know".

"no thank you" i shook my head no as i look up to you as i sat there on your lap still as i didn't really know what time it was or what going to happen today.

"Its helping alittle bit" i say as i reach and take an apple slice and eat it slowly til each slice was all gone as its most you were able to get me to eat since ive been there with you.

I nodded my head as i say "yes cut it please" i then took a sit of water as i try not to move my arm too much as i still sat there on the counter.

"water please" i look at you as i try to keep still as the frozen veggies were on my arm as i try to think of something to say but i wasn't sure how to say it so just end up saying "c..can i have an apple please"

I flinched when you touched it as it hurt alot as i nodded my head yes that it hurts as i looked up at you unsure of what to do next as you hold me as we then hear a phone ringing as i knew it couldn't be my phone that it had to be yours thats ringing.

I felt scared to talk as my head and arm was really hurting as i try to calm down as you manage to find a pair of shorts to put on me as you could tell something was really wrong as i didn't respond about wanting to be a big girl.

I felt too scared to let go of you as it really hurt when i fell from the bed as it only made me feel worse as i barely was listening to anything that you were saying.