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Instantly feeling a connection to the story cause i share the same first name, i liked it. but as i kept reading i felt as if this would be my thought process

I haven't been able to get on this site in a while due to a neighbor's internet having a filter on it. well anyway i've been confused about something in my life for a while now. See i recently graduated from high school and i should be happy for that but looking back on my senior year there was some mountainous heights and some sewer lows. you during the winter of my senior year my family had a run in with a pedophile and while i am mostly over the whole incident there are still some things that i can't quite figure out. i like to wear diapers but ever since i had the run in with the bastard it bugs me that what i am doing is fucked up or not. now i have reasoned with myself that i would never fuck a child. never even crossed my mind. but when i look at adult women in diapers the thought appears in my mind every time. this thought process didn't really start appearing until earlier this summer. i was meeting up with a friend who is now a senior at the career technical school i went to. now we are both big into anime and he brought up how people jerk off the loli's and it was the same as being a pedophile. i thought, is it so different from what i do? really i've been torn up about this ever since. and ever since i've had this thought process appear it makes me think back to the pedophile i met which then just leads me to being pissed off beyond anyone's comprehension. now i've gotten through the worse of my rage through several media sources. There was an anime that came out at the time that this was happening called ERASED. i felt a very strong to the main character Satoru and how he was saving a classmate from a child murderer. i don't expect anyone to reply to this considering i don't get on this site much anymore like i said earlier. i just wan'ted to get my thoughts out in to the public and be honest about it.