lilzander382

It depends. I love my baby/toddler clothes... love my onsies, love my diaper shirts, especially love hanging out in my footies. I want to say that during the day I dribble (if I am not at work, and then I flood as soon as I come home). On weekends I definitely dribble. At night, I have no idea if I flood or dribble. All I know is that I usually wake in a completely swelled Crinkelz diaper and not a wet spot on the bed or my PJ's. I consider myself 1.5 to 2.5 years old. I really haven't figured out how to regress (I have bought baby toys). But when I wake to a swelled diaper and then I mess it promptly, I call myself a "good baby".

just ordered my Rearz babygro lil'monsters and safari sleepers through amazon. I cannot wait for them to arrive on Wednesday and wake up to those sleepers.

oh, I forgot to mention that my adoptive son who was placed with me at 2.5 (still in diapers) years of age is currently in a special home for behavioral children outside of my control. He is 11 now. When he comes home for weekends, I do block all of my baby from him. I do still wear my diapers and onsies under my clothing with a paci near by if I can get away with it in front of him. At night I do where my sleepers with a diaper on and it is ultimately wet when I wake in the morning. I guess this is why I also want to hear from Mark too as he is a parent.

Thank you Rusty for your reply. I have actually taken care of babies as a licensed foster parent (yup, single male). it did dimish my want to be a "baby". How many people can you claim said that? when I am baby, it is not role play at all. this is my life. I am a baby period. Now tomorrow, I have to hide it and be an adult to my adoptive son. Watch good college football game with hmmm (Kentucky @ Missouri)

Eddie, I thought you might like my thoughts on your subject. I still wait and hope to hear back from Rusty and Mark and their thoughts further. I hope you finally get your wishes with your own place and get to be the baby you want to be. it is worth it if you can keep a balance as Rusty already said.

Mark, I feel your pain and embarrassment. I got caught by my mom with just a plain white ConfyDry 24/7 on my bathroom floor and she said nothing a few months back. I know you want to be a sissy AB, but maybe go without the pretty pink princess diapers when you travel. Not even the Crinklz (my preference), but rather the NorthShore or 24/7 white when you travel. that might be safer if you forget.

I guess to keep my thought on. My false adult side is my caregiver right now. If I had an actual adult caregiver right now, that person unsnapping my onsie between my legs and removing my diaper, cleaning me up in the most caring way and re-diapering me would be welcome in my mind. if that person is willing to nurse me by breast or bottle regularly, that is welcome to me. If that person wants to spank my bottom, then that is OK because they are disciplining me as they see fit to do so. That is not role playing or pretending. That is an AB being a BABY. Lastly if you listen to Baby Pants Hypnotic recordings, they all tell you that you are a Baby. So, I AM A BABY, about 1.5 to 2 years old with adult skills (sadly).

Sleepers are the best!!!!!! I wish it was easier to find them with zippers that go all the down the leg. So far I have only found them on Baby Pants website and a couple of sites over in Europe. One company is based in London and you can completely customize them, but they are very expensive. The other I believe is in the Netherlands. They do allow some customization and they don't ship to the U.S. I have started to appreciate the sleepers that snap up both leg and then main body. I have one I got not too long ago from Cuddlz like that. Rearz has a couple of patterns as well that I want to order, and I found a fleece dinosaur patterened one from Awe So Cute that I want.

Is it role play or pretending? As an AB, I prefer wearing AB clothes instead of my adult clothes because the make me happy. The first thing I want to do at the end of the day when I get home is get out of my adult clothes, clip a paci to my onsie and proceed to relax. I suck on a paci or a bottle not because I am trying to pretend to be a baby, but because I truly do enjoy it. I wear diapers and use them because I prefer diapers over underwear. I think I was about 5 y/o when I started to have desires to be back in diapers again. Now that I have gone 24/7, I cannot even remember the last time I have used an actual toilet. I feel that I am more role playing and pretending to be an adult when I have to put adult clothes over my baby clothes and keep my paci strictly in my pocket and out of view when it is time to go to work or otherwise out into the adult world.

That was four minutes of my life I will never get back.

I have not tried ABU diapers yet. I have tried Rearz and Bambino. And lately I have been exclusively been ordering Crinklz from northshore.com. I have been wanting to try out the ABU preschool or Kiddo diapers.

I like the mam 16+ month. They don't hurt my teeth and they stay in my mouth. Plus I don't feel like I am gag on something like with the nuk size 5.

Every morning I wake to a paci in my mouth, a very wet diaper and hugging my plushi rabbit. I just feel so calm and relaxed waking to my baby side that it is difficult for me to get out of bed and accept the fact that I have to go out into the adult world and suppress my baby. This feels like such a downer everyday. Although I do always were a diaper and a onsie under my adult clothing with a paci in my pocket every day out in the adult world, it is still a downer for me. Does anyone else experience this?

Yes, I have noticed since I am now almost 2 years of 24/7. I bed wet almost every night in my sleep now. There have also been times when I have been doing air out time without a diaper for a short while at home and I suddenly get the urge to go and I cannot hold it back or stop the flow.

well, I have been wearing 24/7 for about a year and a half now and I don't find it a hindrance at all. On the very rare occasion I am going into a situation in which I have to wear regular underwear instead, I find that it just feels weird and un-natural without a diaper and a onesie on under my clothes. I don't wear 24/7 because I need to physically, but I need to emotionally. I do however now have to wear at night while I sleep because I have truly regressed back to being a bed wetter while I sleep. It is a rare morning now that I wake up dry now.

24/7 and also with a onesie on under my clothing and a paci in my pocket.

A plastic back Crinklz diaper. In the summer a light weight cotton footed sleeper, in the fall/winter a heavier fleece footed sleeper. A paci strapped to my pjs and my plushy with my musical mobile playing and projecting stars onto the ceiling.

Well, so far so good. My mom has still not said anything. We talk or text almost daily. I think in some way she has known all along. I was a bed wetter until about the age of 7 or 8. When I was in 1st grade, my mom used a cloth diaper as punishment and sent me to school with it on under my clothes. I was begging her to let me go back to diapers after that. So she no longer used that as a punishment. After that I would steal diapers from my cousins stash when the would come over to our house for overnights. I thought I had them hidden well, but then I would find them removed from the hiding places and once again my mom would never say anything. Then my cousins grew out of diapers so I started to make home made ones out of trash bags and female pads, and those would disappear from the hiding spots without a word from my parents. Then I got a job and my driver's license and a whole lot wiser to buy diapers and hide them elsewhere in the house along with my underage whiskey (I wonder if the bottle of Jack Daniels that I left in the attic or the diapers I left in the crawl space of the basement of the house we lived in Chicago have been discovered). Yeah, I think my mom has known for a while that I am an ABDL. I am still embarrassed about my mistake though.

That was my thought all day today. Back in the 90's up in Chicago, I caught my dad with "Depends" while my Mom was out of town back in St. Louis. Little did my parents know then, that I had a love for diapers.

Crap, I was caught by my mother today due to my own carelessness and mistake today. My mother arrived to my house last night from St. Louis last night (I live in the middle of the state of Missouri) and I had hidden all ABDL. I didn't put on my nighttime diaper until I was sure my mother was at rest. My mom does know I where footed PJ's (that look a little juvenile) as she had hers on last night as well. Well crap, I had a plan of hiding diapers from my mom. I woke two hours before she told me she would wake. Took a shower and worked on configuring her new computer. Planned to throw away nighttime soaked diaper before my mother woke. Opps, I forgot about it, and my mother showered in my bathroom and made up with it balled up on the bathroom floor. I went into my master bathroom and saw it sitting there... Palm/face.... shoot. My mother did not say a single word about it all day, but I am sure she recognized it for what it was.

It took me about a year and a half to become a bed wetter again while I sleep. What I found worked for me is the need to have absolute confidence in your protection (plastic sheet, good nighttime diaper). Even with that confidence you will still have to mentally accept that you might occasionally leak and that it is ok. The hypnotic training file from baby-pants.com and listening to that while I go to sleep, driving, or at work also helped me achieve this and I still listen to it often. Keeping a daily log, I have also found to help encourage this and increase the frequency of sleep wetting. Once I was to the point of being able wet laying down, I would wake in the middle of the night and with some concentration be able to wet while in bed, then go back to sleep. Then that started to become I would wake, simply wet with little effort and then right back to sleep. If I leaked, then oh well, I wet the bed and now I have to sleep in it, no big deal. I keep the mindset "real babies have to sleep in a wet bed until checked upon in the morning so I have to as well". Now I am to the point of wetting 5 to 6 nights a week while sleeping. I am also noticing that it is becoming multiple times in the night as I will wake sometime in the middle of the night and find my diaper is a bit wet and then when I wake in the morning it is filled to near capacity like a balloon. So yes, as a lot of people have said before me, this is something your have to be sure you want, and there is a lot of mental retraining you have to remind yourself of daily.

It is awesome that you have a family that knows about and is understanding of this side of you life.

Dry in a fresh Confidry 24/7 that I put on just before bed.

I wear a didee and a onsie under my adult clothing and a paci in my pocket to work every day.

well, I do live in the perfect center of the USA, and my City and State is supposed to receive the best show of the 08/21 total eclipse nation wide.