SissyConfused

Thanks for the reply :). To be honest looking back over my own words I am really the sissy archetype lol and I just wonder if I should really act out on my urges and actually get dressed up etc and get fucked/gangbanged in real life or if I should just stick to the dildos and fantasy.

It's strange for me because I've always been attracted to women and have only ever had girlfriends. Whilst I have never been attracted to men or the male form I have since a young age been turned on by being dominated/humiliated. I also reached a point long before ever seeing sissy hypnosis videos where I was wearing my mum's high heels, putting on make-up and sucking bananas like they were cocks when I had the urge occasionally (and then squirting something that looked like cum on my face). I also got obsessed with a video where the girl gets 'forced' into a gangbang and found myself imitating the scenes as her and wanting to be her. I also have a recurring fantasy where I am dressed as a woman in make up, lingerie, high-heels and fully shaved and get gangbanged as such whilst being filmed. Again this came before ever watching any sissy hypno porn (which turns me on massively). Nonetheless I still am more attracted to women and can't imagine fucking men without being dressed in erotic outfits/lingerie/make up. It's very strange. Furthermore, since stumbling across sissy hypno videos I have bought dildos and tend to have one up my ass whilst sucking on two others and having a sissy hypno video playing. The thought of being dominated by huge cocks and being fucked in the mouth and ass at the same time is a massive turn on but I only feel attracted to the cocks themselves.Any advice on this and can anyone relate? Part of me really wants to live out my fantasy and get gangbanged whilst dressed as a 'sissy' but I wouldn't want to change my gender etc or do it all the time. Can anyone else related to the banana/dildo thing too?