All struggling, stop and accept yourself for who you are. I know that sounds difficult but I would much rather have my husband have a diaper fetish vs. some kind of nasty cheating problem or he like to beat me or he had to watch kid porn to get off or something twisted you get my point (although some of these may be normal for some folks). I am glad my husband is brave enough to share his life with me as a whole man and a wonderful man. I wouldn't change a thing and I try to buy surprises when I get my head wrapped around what he likes and what turns him on. So have fun with it, you only go around once.