Guess what!!!! Well my wanting of diapers have gone crazy stress levels went up and I bought a case of abena m4's and she found out as I told her when she asked me if I was craving them. I told her yes and that I bought diapers. She wasn't happy but wasn't mad, I think she realizes now that they are a part of me. She lets me put them away in our walkin closet .
Yesterday she seen me looking at the costco adult diapers as we went shopping to buy out soon diapers. We had a discussion in the car and it was all good and even funny.
I'm in a happy place