Hello, I'm so sorry for you. All I can say is listen to your heart and live your life the way it's best for you. Unfortunately, life is far too short not to live it out and enjoy it.
Unfortunately, I am in the same situation as you, my ex-wife also persuaded my 2 daughters to be dressed in diapers and bodies are sexual role-playing games even though my children knew from me years before that I am urinary and bowel incontinent and like to wear bodies with children's motifs, the whole thing was no problem for years until my ex-wife saw a chance to take the children from me. I have not been in contact with you for 6 months now. The whole thing is nothing sexual or a fetish to me, I'm just a little. And it goes through court, outing in public. As a man, you have little chance against a wife and mother. Being gay or lesbian is already recognized, but a little unfortunately is not.
Greetings and all the best