I love your story too, It’s well written and captivating. As for what to call diapers is better, in my opinion “nappies” and “plastic panties” evoke a bigger psychological influence on me. The terms sound less clinical and allow my brain to regess to earlier times more easily. As someone who is incontinent due to an auto accident, “diapers” are what I have to wear and “nappies or didees” is what I want to wear.