Morioriaty

I am headed there to see what my skill sets and talents can do to aid them in this hour of need. And in turn become respected and feel more at home and honored there than I ever have in the mainland US. I am done with the life here. I have done all i could do in this area where i am and feel it is time to move on with life and to place this life behind me and to in turn become a better person for it.

Also being i am a former state outdoor employee I am used to long hours of physical and psychological hard labor. This nation and I are done and to add another good purpose I do not want to be reminded each day on how invisible i am to the rest of the earth. So I am making a whole new life and rebuilding a better one.

It is fitting wen you think on that in allot of ways honestly. A broken man giving all he has to do something far greater than to rot away in a world that all it managed to do was to treat him as a low life expendable piece of trash when done. 

The sooner all this happens the better I am done wasting my life and time and money in this thankless land I swore an oath to protect with all i am as a man. 

Maybe it will be a good match for you.  Better than the one where I think you said you were going to Las Vegas.  I didn't think was a good choice for you.  Just my opinion.

I'm sorry you have reached the point of bitterness with the mainland, but you can turn this around perhaps with a new beginning in the way you have stated.  I wish you the best in your endeavor.

When you are a man that took an oath to defend and do your absolute best for god and country as a civil service man and end up getting tossed away as a piece of trash after your no longer deemed important by the same government that employed you in the first place you tend to get bitter and very very very angry. 

Each day and night i come home to an empty dark apartment with no one to look forward to being apart of you tend to feel that life is voided with out point or purpose. Being a daddy means going above and beyond what is expected for the sale of others. That same concept is no different than civil service in that same exact sense.

Once i leave the main land I am going to give the biggest middle finger ever out the window for all to see before leaving this all behind me as a symbolic gesture of my absolute disgust to a nation that does not care of some one who made an oath to protect and serve those in it... 

There are allot of betrayed good hearted men of honor that endures what I have and trust me we are not the type of people to betray and toss away. Society wonders where all the good men are going to. 

Well here is a hint out of here and not looking back. I can only hope god will be merciful to this land of bs when it comes to judgement. I will not even blink and eye or cringe when it does happen ether.