segufix

So a couple of weeks ago my stepdad was looking for Christmas decorations and he happened to stumble across my stash of diapers. I feel bad because I lied to him and told him that I was having bedtime issues and he was completely understanding and supporting in the matter. Last night though I was out drinking with my friends and I didn't want to take the restraints off my bed so i threw a couple thicks sheets over it to conceal it. He had his girlfriend over and since I was out he wanted to grab an extra pillow for his girlfriend so he went into my room and picked it up and voila he saw the restraint system I had on my bed. He brought it up with me when he got home tonight. I really didn't tell him much about it, just told him my feelings and what not, but I didn't tell him I was into bondage. He knows I've been through a lot the last decade. I lost my mother (his wife) in a tragic accident in 2002 when I was in high school. My birthdad has been in and out of mental institutions since I was born. He is on so many meds right now he hardly recognizes me. I was in the armed services and I lost my good friend in Iraq, to make matters worse I had gotten in an argument with him and 10 minutes later a mortar hit the building we were in and he died on the spot even though I tried to save him. It still bothers me that he died with me being angry at him. I used to cut myself until I got into bondage which IMHO i find as healthy alternative to cutting. I don't know what I should do, I really want to tell him, it's really hard though. But he has been supportive this whole time. I've been seeing a therapist as well and I don't have any intention of tell her any of this, but I've ben taking anti-depressants to help me out. I don't want him to worry about me though. Give me your input.

I'm looking to see if any of you know of any good sites out there that combine our two favorite things, the only one I really know of it http://www.theoriginalinstitute.com, they are centered towards bondage but are open and do crossover to the diaper side a little bit, although they don't have a forum like I was hoping. Or are we simply on our own since we have 2 unique fetishes?

.....And is also the scariest part....

I'm trying to find out which tena diapers are the most absorbent. Not pull ons, not cloth backed but standard diapers, and where can they be purchased(online)? How would you say they stack up against moli super pluses?

I got them in!!!! I ordered from segufix-shop.de (they've consolidated there stores since then, their site is now http://www.patientenfixierung.de/ its the same site though just more stuff). The restraints are AMAZING to say the least, you can't sit up, raise your waist, or even roll onto your sides. Took about 2 and a half weeks to get it

i love it! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uh4yoaviBSo

Thats just a product catalogue, you can't order from there

hehe.....thats my idea, i'm going cray just thinking about it......it's like posey but you're secured even more, although unless i find someone in the new england area i can fully trust then I'll have to resort to ice cubes to delay letting myself out I'm ordering from http://segufix-shop.de . They ship to the united states, their prices aren't bad, and best of all they aren't asking WHY I'm buying any of this. And there customer service speaks decent enough english to help you out. I'm getting most of the stuff in the pic attached, wowsers i love that pic

I'm trying to figure out where to buy segufix restraints in the united states, I've been looking around the internet and the only place I can find them for sale is from German sites and I don't wanna have to pay an arm and a leg for shipping not to mention deal with the customs delay. any help or links appreciated