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Chapter 33: RIGHT THEN I just wanted to cry for my mommy, but I reminded myself I was a big college student and forced myself to just grimace. Well, a big college student in the biggest damn diaper ever invented! I heard several giggles but one girl, Natasha, took pity on me, “Piggyback ride?” she asked me with a smile as she stood in front of me. I nodded, “I think that would help…” She helped me stand up, then knelt in front of me to let me climb onto her shoulders. The sad thing was that I knew this was the littlest Nest of littles and she was easily able to handle me on her back! “Better?” She asked. “Other than my pride?” I whispered to her. She giggled and grabbed onto her loop, “We’re ready to go Miss Madison!” “Hmm… if you get tired Tasha let me know and I’ll take over for you.” “Thanks Miss Madison, but Stacy has to be the lightest little ever! She actually makes me feel big! I got this!” There were some giggles, and I watched Laura roll her eyes further down the line, but no one said anything else as Madison pulled our little caterpillar rope along. Thankfully for us it was only about two blocks to get to the football stadium, just on the other side of the big residential halls. “Right this way,” Madison said as we entered a gated area and we were led onto an enormous football field. Some mass chaos ensued for the next several minutes while they organized the class into a huge capital ‘E’ on the field. All of the littles were directed to go to the front in order to be seen. Natasha was able to take a break from holding me and set me down towards the middle. “Thanks,” I told her and gave her a hug. “Don’t mention it shrimp,” she said to me with a smile as she returned my hug. For a while a photographer was giving us directions that most students seemed to be happy ignoring. After a while I saw Amanda show up along the side rails, and I was relieved know I would have a way home that wasn’t going to involve making some poor friend carry me! Just as the photographer said, “Now on three, everyone say ‘Griffins,” my bladder demanded further attention. Knowing it was useless to resist I let the urine run into the overgrown pillow that was the diaper. The results were almost instantaneous, and resulted in a photo I knew had to be comical as I fell down onto my butt. There was no way I could stand as the padding expanded even further beyond anything I could imagine! I just groaned and smiled though for the next two pictures while looking up to the camera from my padded seat on the ground. “That’s it ladies and gentlemen! Casino night starts at eight, hope to see all of you there! Well, all of you except the littles who need your sleepy time!” a loudmouth Amazon yelled. I decided he must be one of the orientation leaders as he shouted through a megaphone. “Asshole,” I heard from somewhere nearby followed by a loud smack, and a little screaming from a spanking. I tried to struggle back to my feet, but quickly realized that effort was pointless. As I sighed and tried to figure out what I was going to do to get to Amanda, I was relieved to look up and see she was already almost there to me. Before she got to me Madison said, “Time to go Stacy.” “I know, my mommy’s right there,” I pointed at Amanda less than ten steps away. “Oh, well then, we’ll see you sometime tomorrow maybe?” She asked. “I don’t know actually. We may have other plans, I’ll try and let you know if I am coming though so I can find out where you are?” “Okay,” she said with a smile and ended up helping me stand for a second as Amanda walked up. “Sorry, she was all out of her cute diapees, so I had to go dig into the storage closet. All I could find in her size were some infant diapers.” “That’s okay, we were both kind of worried about her running out, but decided to take a chance,” Amanda told her, “I appreciate you found something to change my sweet baby girl into.” “No problem Professor, good night!” She said as Amanda scooped me up into her arms. I watched Madison pick up the end of the rope and begin pulling the girls along back towards the dorm. As they walked away I saw Laura wave at me, then make a weird face, as I definitely heard loud farts from multiple girls in the line. All around me several other lines of littles seemed to be similarly letting loose of gas. “Hmm…” Amanda distracted me then as she tickled my side and smiled at me, “I might have to get some of these to keep you out of trouble!” “Ugh… there’s already two in my backpack… and Madison put the rest in the changing table…” I groaned. “Don’t let me ever forget to have like a dozen extra diapers every day!” Amanda laughed a lot and said, “Did you have fun at least?” I shrugged, “I got to know the others a little better I guess. We were talking about scores on the CARE exam and Madison didn’t believe me on mine… she ended up scanning my ID and verifying that I’m too smart before noticing that I was the little that was nearly kidnapped today.” “What’d she say?” “Well she was pretty shocked and just kind of blurted it out… I think everyone else was pretty terrified for me. On the other hand though, every little basically expects to get kidnapped at some point… so it’s kind of normal… Madison was actually nice to me after that though.” “Except the diaper?” “She probably did enjoy that, but for her I think she was being downright sugary sweet.” As she came to the end of the fence with everyone else I saw a security cart waiting for us again and clung tightly to her as it drove us to her car. The officer watched us get into our car before he drove away. I couldn’t help but notice that Amanda locked the doors as soon as she got in too. “So… umm… did you hear anything else yet?” I asked. “About what?” she asked in an odd voice. “The thing?” “No, no one has any in-stock so we’re out of luck for a day or two.” “Oh,” I said. I guessed that meant the car was, or might be bugged, and I just sat quietly and played with my watch a bit. Just then though I realized I needed to pee again. As I let loose into the padding I couldn’t feel a single bit of dampness on my skin. There would be no chance of leaks with this monster diaper - it almost seemed to laugh at all that I put in! As we pulled into the garage I noticed that Amanda did something quickly with a keypad on the center console before the garage door closed. I fidgeted in my seat waiting for her to come get me. “Let’s go show your sissy and Daddy just how cute you look in that ridiculous diaper!” Amanda said with a smirk as she picked me up. She started to set me down on the ground next to the car, and I said, “Umm… Mommy… I literally can’t even stand in this… carry me?” She laughed, “Only to the kitchen,” she said with a smirk. “What…?” I complained as she grabbed my backpack and held it in her other hand and walked through the door into the house. True to her word she sat me down on the ground and I lasted a second before I landed on my rear and stared at her departing figure. “You’re mean!” I called after her as I figured I would have to crawl. I soon discovered that even crawling was difficult then! When I finally covered the distance to the living room I saw Fred with his camera, Bella standing next to him in her pajamas giggling, and Amanda with her cell phone taking a picture or a video too. At the bottom of the stairs I just sat down and said, “Would someone please get this pillow off of me?” When the laughter finally settled Amanda kindly picked me up and carried me upstairs to the nursery and laid me down on the changing table. I let out a huge sigh of relief as she gave me a hug and set me back down on the floor in a thin Pamper. “Should I leave these in your backpack?” She asked me as she fought for a moment to open the front compartment and giggled at them. I had no response so I just glared at her before wordlessly sitting down at my computer. As I started to login she said, “Actually sweetie, can we move you and your laptop down to Mommy’s work room for the moment?” “Sure… umm… why?” I asked curiously. “Baby Bella needs to go to bed here in a few minutes and you can work in there without keeping her up?” I nodded, “I guess… Just out of curiosity… does she really need to go to bed this early?” Amanda knelt down and hugged me, “Remember the changes we did to you with the nanites? They really do let you get by with a lot less sleep than her. Remember also that you’re not from this dimension… The 7:30pm bedtime of the dorm is actually really smart as most littles tend to need twelve hours of sleep a night.” “But that only leaves half the day to do anything?” I asked in confusion. “The only other way you can see that time expand is if they take an hour nap in the morning and in the afternoon. I’m going to try and get Bella onto a schedule like that, but we still have to sort out where she’s going once I start working again…” I nodded knowing that was going to be tough to figure out without putting her in a crazy daycare. “You need a hand grabbing your power cord?” She asked me as I closed the lid and grabbed the laptop. I nodded and she grabbed the converter, strip, and power cord and led me down to her workshop. I saw she had that other highchair setup there and I asked, “Why didn’t you just have Bella use this one?” “I didn’t even think of it,” Amanda said, “but this one would be a bit small for her I’m afraid.” “The short jokes today are getting old!” I groaned. She laughed as she plugged everything in and then lifted me into the highchair, put the tray on, and helped me plug it in. “There, comfy?” She asked. “I could use a bottle…?” “A bottle? Not a big girl cup?” she raised her eyebrows. “Please?” “Okay, let me go get you one,” she told me and I opened up the computer as she left. I wasted no time in logging in and searching for keyloggers. To my amusement I found someone had in fact installed something – or rather tried. I had setup the system to totally sandbox anything that might try and get in, so it wouldn’t do anything like they wanted. I took a quick moment to activate a dupe program I’d designed for fun back home that made the spyware think I was doing various web surfing activities. Of course if the person checked they would discover the websites didn’t work in this dimension… but messing with them would be fun! Especially since I was pretty sure in this case it was Amanda! ‘I’m guessing she’s curious…’ I thought, ‘I doubt she’s being malicious with it. It’s a new toy to her!’ I logged in and opened my e-mail account to look at everything there. To my surprise I had received a lot of e-mails since I had last checked. I remembered I hadn’t e-mailed my parents much of an update so I figured that would have to happen tonight since I had some time before bed still. I noticed though that there was an e-mail from ‘Dr. Og Wernstrom’ who had proctored the test earlier and curiously opened it up. ‘Good evening Ms. Westerfield, I wish to inform you that I have graded your test and I have some concerns. I would like to meet with you, your mother, your advisor Dr. Butler, and Dean Sanders tomorrow at 1pm. Dean Sanders and Dr. Butler have already indicated they will be able to attend, please let me know as soon as possible if you are able to make the meeting, Dr. Og Wernstrom Associate Professor Computer Science Emerson University’ ‘Great…’ I thought, ‘either I completely bombed it, or blew it away and they’re sure I cheated…’ I figured Amanda was probably feeding Bella still so I decided to wait until she came back in to worry about that e-mail. Another university wide e-mail informed me that my math placement test could be in a different location and I needed to check a chart by last name. To my relief the letters ‘Q-Z’ were being moved to the lecture hall in the Kilby building, so I’d be just downstairs from Amanda’s office again. The test was set to begin at 10am, so that would be plenty of time to get there and wake up. I looked through the other e-mails and saw a campus wide alert had gone out about our incident earlier. I clicked it and saw my sketch and information to stay on the lookout for anyone suspicious on campus. If spotted we were to call the security extension immediately! I was curious then to see if there was anything on the local news about it, but was disappointed that none of the local sites seemed to be carrying information on it. ‘Must be trying to avoid bad press for the university…’ I decided with a shake of my head knowing that many times universities would sweep problems under the carpet. I clicked through a few other messages that really weren’t important before starting an e-mail response to my mom’s from the other day. ‘Hi Mom, I don’t know if I’ll have time to type up everything that’s happened since last Friday - but I’ll try. I know Amanda is probably coming to give my bath soon, so sorry if this ends up short! The last two days have definitely not been dull, and neither was the weekend! I think I mentioned a little bit about it in my last e-mail, but Friday when we were on the plane to the city, Selegansol, a little sat down next to us. For the most part, if my hair is covered, my new appearance lets me blend in as a regular Amazon newborn. Amanda had kept me in a sling and hidden me as one most of the time going through the airport, so that way I didn’t draw extra attention and taunts. The little just glanced at us, but otherwise kept to herself, when she sat down. About midway through the flight one of the stewardesses gave her a hard time about not drinking the cup in front of her, and pretty much forced her to drink it. I kind of guessed, and rightly, that it was spiked with something! I didn’t want to see her ambushed like that, so I quickly gave her an antidote medicine that Fred has disguised into an easy to hide form for me. Amanda let her know I wasn’t a regular baby then and began talking to her in whispers. She made a quick decision to try and help the girl, and Bella decided to let her help her when she realized her other options were worse. In the end Bella verbally had to give Amanda permission to adopt her to protect herself. Amanda then made the stewardess give her a diaper that would fit her, and put on her in the bathroom. It was supposed to just be a ruse to get her off the plane and safe, but in the airport Bella saw the stewardess and another woman talking with the man that had been her contact for a clothing deal she’d been trying to make. She was completely devastated by that fact! It became apparent that she had been lured with a fake business deal to catch her… We quickly discovered there was a pretty significant group behind it, so we ended up going to an adoption center and making Bella my ‘sister’ officially to protect her. After all of that we ended up at a hotel that basically is the Disney World of this dimension. Apparently LooneyTunes got the park here, and Disney’s just movies and toys. It was fun that next couple days going around and I was actually able to get into a tank and go swimming with these massive dolphins! I’ll have to get a picture from Amanda to send you… It was a blast! Sunday we ended up enjoying their waterpark and I was given permission to swim without the floaties littles usually have to wear, and in the regular pool that most littles get into… Oh yeah… that’s because we kind of had a couple more run-ins with that group that tried to kidnap Bella. They’re not a good group of people and we had some more excitement with them. The park provided us security though to the airport and we hoped we left our problems there. We did run into them again there, but Amanda was amazing and took care of the problem and security took them away. On Monday Fred and Amanda’s dad moved Bella out of her apartment, while Amanda got me situated on campus with my student ID and went to the first Little orientation event. I also got assigned a ‘Nest’ so that I’m sort of a part of the littles dorm even though I don’t live there. I’ve made a couple other friends that are sort of my size… actually even the shortest of them is still almost two heads taller than me… I wish I knew why I shrank so much! Today we went and got… I was typing still when Amanda came in, “Mommy?” “You about ready for your bath?” “Actually before that can we talk and you maybe let me have some copies of some pictures before I send an e-mail to my mom?” She looked at her watch and shrugged, “Sure, what about?” “Well first did you see the e-mail from Doctor Wernstrom?” “No?” I minimized my current e-mail and pulled that one up. “What in the world?” she said squinting at the small font. “It sounds like he thinks you cheated?” “I know… do you think he thinks you coached me beforehand?” She shrugged, “It’s possible, but I didn’t do anything more than talk about coding languages with you. You’re just naturally one of the best student coders I’ve seen.” I blushed, “Thanks…” I timidly asked, “Do you think I’ll be in trouble?” “Well to manage to cheat on that test would be really tough! You’d have to be an amazing hacker and have gotten access to it in advance,” she glared at me, “which I know you actually are, but they don’t!” I giggled, “And a memory beyond even yours I think! Also, I’ve never actually had much of a reason to be involved with them other than to write the AI problem.” “That one may be the problem though?” I asked. “Did you solve it?” I shrugged, “I think so?” “Hopefully he brings a printout of your test and I’ll be able to show him some reasons it’s your work. You have a lot of quirks I’ve noticed in your code that still leave it functional, but aren’t standard practices here. Really you’re like a dinosaur with most of your code!” I stuck my tongue out at her, “I know, that’s why I’m here!” “Okay, you said you wanted pictures?” “Me with the dolphin? Maybe one from earlier with our new haircuts so I can show her who I’m talking about with Bella?” She nodded, “Give me a few minutes and I’ll e-mail you those. It’ll be a bit quicker…” “Thanks!” I said and went back to my e-mail. Today we went to get Bella and my hair styled in the morning. I’m attaching a picture so you can see my new haircut and what Bella looks like. I really like my hair! I mean I know I still look like I’m in elementary school, but at least it is an improvement over daycare bound? Which unfortunately I think describes Bella’s haircut… Unfortunately things seem to be continuing with whoever we made mad, so Bella has volunteered to play baby more… I’m not sure how I feel about it – but I am sure it’s nothing Amanda is forcing her into at least… It’s weird that I’ve only been here a few weeks and already feel a bit jealous about someone else moving into my space! Guess being an only child couldn’t last in both dimensions! This afternoon after a university luncheon (you should see the size of crab legs here!!!!) I took my placement test for computer science. I felt like I did pretty well and I have a feeling I’m one of the very few who finished the test today. Not sure anyone else did actually… I just barely clicked submit before it ended, so hopefully it was okay. There was an email from the proctor though that wants to meet with Amanda, my advisor, little’s dean, and myself tomorrow. That part sounds odd and I just hope everything is okay. I’m personally guessing he’s going to have some bias that there’s no way a little could have completed the test without cheating… I’m REALLY glad I have Amanda in my court though! I know she’ll make things work out! “Check your e-mail sweetie,” Amanda said as she patted my head, “then wrap up your e-mail and let’s get you in the bath.” “Kay Mommy,” I told her. I minimized the window and found her e-mailed pictures. I hadn’t had a chance to see the pictures of me and Suzy swimming, but Fred had clearly outdone himself and gotten some amazing ones! I immediately decided that one with me holding onto Suzies fin leaping out of the water was my favorite! My face and smile were fully visible - and it would be my new profile picture if I ever did social media stuff in this dimension! I selected that one, one with Amanda and I and our dolphins, one with all of us plus the characters before dinner, and then one that Amanda had taken with both Bella and I that morning with our haircuts. I quickly compressed them a bit more for the trip through the dimensional link, before I attached them to the e-mail. Amanda just sent me those pictures and I’ve attached them. I think you’ll be aweing a bit. I need to go now, I’ll e-mail you again when I get a chance. Not sure what the next couple days will be like. Love you! Stacy I clicked send and saw Amanda waiting for me, “Ready?” I nodded, “Thanks for being patient.” “I know you had a lot to tell your mom,” she said as she took my closed laptop from me, my cord off the chair, and then released me from the highchair. As she picked me up she gave me a squeeze, “I love you Princess, I want you to know that. You’ve only been here a short while but I can’t imagine what life will be like without you.” I smiled at her, “I love you too Mommy,” and returned the hug. She carried me to the bathroom and I chose to use the diaper for what little urine I had and realized she’d never brought a bottle to me and I was really thirsty. “I’m thirsty…” I told her. “Oops… I never brought you a bottle,” she said, “I’m so sorry…” “Any chance you could get me something before the bath? I really am thirsty…” She stood back up from where she’d been about to set me down and carried me downstairs to the kitchen. From the fridge she pulled out a juice bottle that had already been poured and handed it to me, “Here you go sweetie.” She began walking upstairs while I was drinking out of it still. I was so thirsty I had about three-quarters of it gone before we got back to the bathroom. “You really did need something, I’m so sorry I forgot about you baby,” she told me with a squeeze. I pulled it out of my mouth, “It’s okay, I know Bella distracted you.” She hugged me and sighed, “We’re both going to have to get used to me having two girls to care for.” I nodded and she grabbed the bottle from me and pulled my jumper over my head, top over my head, then pulled the tapes of my diaper open while I stood and she wiped me real quick with a wipe. “Can you take off your socks while I check the water?” She asked me. I nodded and pulled them off leaving me naked for a moment. “Let’s put this shower cap on your hair,” she told me, “it’ll make getting ready tomorrow a bit easier.” I nodded and after she placed it on my head she plunked me into the bath. “Water okay?” She asked me. I nodded and let her begin to wash me. She was gentle and thorough as always and asked, “I’m trying to remember, what’s tomorrow’s schedule?” “It should have just been my math test and a visit with my advisor maybe? He hadn’t sent me an e-mail yet?” “But now we have the meeting with everyone…” “Yeah,” I sighed. “Do you think I’m in big trouble?” She shook her head, “You didn’t cheat. There are cameras running to make sure you weren’t looking around at other students. You turned your phone off, right?” I nodded, “I didn’t even have it – you had it,” and thought for a second, “I didn’t my watch though?” She shook her head, “You and I both know it can make video phone calls, but it’s something that would have been obvious to everyone. The video will show you weren’t looking at it either. It’s a protective measure for you as a little so I don’t think they’d have any ability to say anything.” I nodded, “Hope your right.” “The worst thing they could say is that I somehow pre-taught you the exam, but like I said – you do weird things with code that are uniquely Stacy. I read the e-mail and responded myself that we would be there. When I did I saw Doctor Butler listed too - which is a good thing. He knows my code and after ten seconds of looking at yours he’ll know it wasn’t mine.” “Anyway it’s just the test tomorrow otherwise? There’s a movie night at 9pm, but of course that’s not for the littles.” “It’s so unfair that the littles get to miss all of the best parts of college orientation!” Amanda said sadly. “We could have our own movie night tomorrow night if you wanted?” “Really?” “Make it a pool party and invite Megan?” She suggested. “How about your parents too?” She shook her head, “If I invite them it’s a family rule I can’t only invite one sister along… So I’d have to invite Cassie and Chloe.” “Yuck,” I said. “Just Megan then!” “You can show her your big girl bed then!” She smiled at me. “Why didn’t you buy another crib?” I asked. “I told you earlier… as much as it goes against my instincts - I have to let you grow up some. The original plan was to convert your crib into the toddler bed last week.” “What happened?” I asked curiously. She flushed and looked embarrassed, “It was too easy to want to just keep you safe in a crib? Every instinct of my being wants to just keep you as a baby… This weekend reminded me more of the stakes.” “What about Bella?” I asked. “Once things cool off again I’ll ask her if she would be happier in a big girl bed too.” She shook her head, “I have a feeling though she’ll tell me she’d rather keep the crib though.” “That’s weird…” I told her. “Is she at least going to be able to play with her sewing stuff at all?” Amanda shook her head, “Not until things cool down a bit. Once it does maybe we can set her up to do it if your Daddy or I can watch her.” “I feel bad for her,” I told her, “But I’m also jealous…” “I know, I read over your shoulder… I’m sorry.” “Do I have to be a big girl all of the time at home?” “For a while I think that’s a good idea Stacy… I’d put you in training panties at home if they made them small enough for you.” I laughed at her, “They barely make diapers small enough for me!” “You know I think Madison kind of did feel bad for you,” she told me. “Given she didn’t mess with me in any other way I think you’re right…” “Come on sweetheart, let’s get you out of the tub now before you shrivel up into a raisin.” “Not that!” I told her as she pulled the plug and wrapped me in a towel. She sat me down on the counter for a moment and handed me a toothbrush to use. As I brushed my teeth she pulled the shower cap off of my head and pushed my hair behind my ears to keep me from getting toothpaste on it. I spit out the toothpaste and she handed me a cup to rinse out before I spit again. “Let’s get you dressed for bed then,” she told me with a smile. She quietly carried me into the nursery, which was lit only by a couple nightlights, with Bella’s snores surprisingly loud right then. Silently she dressed me in a thick princess diaper and pulled one of my pink nightgowns over my head before carrying me back out into the hallway and downstairs. I had a moment of hoping that maybe she would let me nurse from her, but that was quickly dashed as she picked up a warmed bottle that had to be plain old milk. I sighed and she squeezed me tight, “I promise I’ll let you nurse Friday night,” knowing the problem, “if you can make it through Saturday without a poopy accident we’ll do it again Saturday night too.” “So we can get back to bedtime?” I asked hopefully. “I hope so,” she told me with a smile, “but if it does anything with your control over your poopy we have to stop. Hopefully it won’t be too late for you by the time we realize that.” That made me think of the littles departing earlier, “I think there will be some poopy littles in the dorms tonight…” “Why do you say that?” I sighed, “I’m pretty sure someone spiked the punch at dinner.” Amanda sighed, “Sounds about right… Well, as long as they have a pull-up or a diaper on tonight they’re okay.” “Tomorrow during the test they won’t be though? That counts as in class?” “No, they won’t…” she said softly as she carried me to the rocking chair, and gathering me up in a blanket that she had draped on the chair. I felt calm and relaxed as she sat down and eased me into her arms and laid me back to hold the bottle to my lips. I made no motion to hold it myself and just suckled it gently as she began to hum a sweet lullaby. ‘WHAT THE HELL is that!’ was my next thought as a loud siren klaxon rang through the air. I sat up in my new bed and saw Bella looking terrified in the crib. I heard a car screech away and suddenly Amanda was in the room grabbing first me, then Bella, into her arms! “It’s okay,” she shushed us as she then hurried to their bedroom and shut that door, locking it behind her. “What’s going on?” I asked her. “That’s the intruder alarm.” Sirens filled the night as she took us into their walk-in closet and sat down. Bella began whimpering and having a full blown panic attack then while I just wondered why I hadn’t grabbed my switch. ‘What would a shrunken 9mm even do to an Amazon?’ I wondered darkly. ‘I need to do something else with it in case something like this happens again…’ As Bella cried fairly quietly, Amanda wrapped us into a protective hug and said, “shush, it’s okay…” As the door to the closet suddenly opened I smelt a smell telling me that Bella had another reason to cry now. I looked up, afraid it would be an unknown attacker, but instead it was just Fred, who knelt down and wrapped us all in a hug. “It’s okay girls,” he said while wiping off tears from my face that I didn’t know I had, “the police are here. They’re looking around downstairs and want to speak with us too.” “Okay,” Amanda said, her voice a little shaky, “you want to take Stacy. I’m going to need to change Bella before we go downstairs.” Bella was hiccoughing non-stop all of the sudden and I wondered if there was any point into bringing her down at all. Fred took me and gave me a tight squeeze, “It’s okay,” he told me as he and Amanda split up at the staircase. Downstairs I could see that someone had smashed through the glass of the back door. It seemed clear to me that they had shattered the glass, tried to get in, and then were being frightened off by the alarm sounding. “I thought the backyard was supposed to be covered now with some new sensors…?” I whispered to him. He squeezed me tight, “It’s supposed to be, and that is a good question,” he told me. “I’m not sure how they got around that grid.” Several cops were walking around with flashlights looking everywhere. “Sir, you have a pretty sophisticated system here, do you have cameras hooked up by chance?” A young officer asked. Fred sat me down in the playpen and grabbed for his phone. ‘Gee thanks…’ I thought as I was penned away like some dumb baby then and sat down with a sigh. “Here you go officer,” he said as he played a video with sound that I could hear glass break on, then the alarm went off. “They’re all wearing masks…” the officer frowned. “And gloves it looks like too…” “I doubt we find much Rookie,” an older officer said. “Go look around the other side of the fence. Maybe someone dropped something before they hopped over.” “Yes sir,” he said and walked away. Amanda came down about then with Bella swaddled tightly in a light blanket. She cuddled her in her arms like a small infant closer to my size. She’d thrown a robe on too before coming down. “Sir, I noticed as we looked at your address that it seems like there was an incident this afternoon with your wife and daughter?” Fred nodded, “Amanda was with Stacy at the university and someone shoved her down and tried to grab Stacy and run with her.” “The school gave us a sketch,” he said while opening up the tablet he had for notes, “was this her?” “Yes that’s the drawing my daughter gave.” “Well it looks like she’s been identified but not picked up yet…” he said and walked over to me, “Is this her?” He leaned over the rail of the playpen and showed me a picture of the same woman that Amanda had identified earlier. “Yes sir,” I said, “who is she?” I asked to pretend I didn’t know yet. “Her name is Serena Ricci, and she’s a bad lady,” he told me like I was an idiot. “I got that part when she tried to kidnap me and scramble my brains officer.” I glared at him. Fred reached back over and picked me up from the playpen. I think he did so to keep me from jumping over the rail and decking the cop! “Sorry, I guess you would have, huh?” “Excuse me?” A woman detective asked towards Fred mainly, “Did you just have one security system or two?” “It’s actually three,” Amanda told her. “Three systems?” she asked in surprise, “Why?” “Just a hunch,” Fred told them. “When we adopted our baby girl over here this weekend we seem to have gotten a group angry at us.” A knocking on the front door interrupted anything else they would have said. “Excuse me,” Fred said and I sat in his arms as he peeked through the peephole for a second and then opened up the door. “Hi Joe,” he told Grandpa who had shown up. “What the hell happened?” He asked. I watched the lead detective gulp before he reached his hand out and said, “Hey Joe, how are you doing?” “Pretty good Jake, except this crap happening to my daughter!” He looked at the back door and then at us, “Is everyone okay?” “Yes Daddy,” Amanda told him as he gave her and Bella a hug. He gave me a friendly wave before saying, “Your video cameras get anything?” “Not anything usable…” Amanda said. “I’m going to go back and look at the backyard myself. How did they get past that system?” “I think the detective here was about to tell us that Joe,” Fred said. He looked at the detective who had been asking questions and she seemed to gulp nervously before saying, “It looks like they managed to splice the power line and feed over on the system that was on the exterior. I think they believed they’d knocked down the whole system, but Ma’am you said you had two other systems?” “Yes, redundancies just in case…” Amanda looked nervous, “I never would have dreamed they’d be needed though. That first layer is not your average system…” “Let me go take a look at it,” Joe said and I watched as he left the room. “Joe’s your dad?” The older detective asked Amanda. “Yes sir, he is, how do you know him?” “He’s helped us out a number of times over the years. I also sparred with him during a training seminar he did one time when I was younger and dumber… Didn’t make that mistake again!” Amanda laughed, “He’s pretty intense.” There was another thirty minutes taken up of questions and signing of a report then. When they left at about 3am with a promise of extra patrols it was just a relief to get them out of the house. Fred and Amanda still held us, although Bella had long since succumbed to her stress and went to sleep in her arms. My body was having the opposite reaction and as Joe came in it didn’t help when he said, “Mandy, I don’t know how we’re going to stop these guys… they’re not amateurs.” “What did you find Dad?” she asked. “Why don’t you put the girls back to bed first and then come to look with me?” “Can I come?” I asked. He looked at me oddly but nodded, “She might see something else I don’t too.” Amanda whispered to Fred, “Here, can you put Bella back in her crib and I’ll take Stacy?” “Sure,” he said and they performed a baby swap maneuver that was more than a little awkward for me, but Bella never stirred. “I’ll stay upstairs with her until you get done.” “Thanks honey, I’m guessing she’ll be a little upset when she wakes up again.” Amanda stood and watched him go upstairs for a moment before readjusting me on her hip and saying, “What did you find?” “Over here,” he said as he led out the broken glass door. At the edge of the closes fence post to the house you could see they’d pulled a board away and accessed a cable running along it for one set of motion sensors. Some alligator clips were visibly still hanging onto the line. “I think this was their first point of entry,” he said. “Makes sense…” she said as she examined it, “Not bad actually… but that only got that side of the yard down…” “They hit the system control panel over here next,” he told her. A gray box concealed some of the guts of the new system. As she came up to it I could see a little black cube hooked into it with some leads of some sort sticking out. “What is it?” I asked. “I don’t actually know Stacy… You Dad?” He nodded, “It’s military grade equipment – we give them to our special ops people for when they run into systems like this.” “Shit…” Amanda said. “How can they be this pissed off about one little?” “There’s got to be something more going on here…” Joe said. “Is this booby trapped?” She asked him as she pointed to the device. “They didn’t used to be,” he told her. “Be careful…” he warned. Amanda sat me down on the ground and used her fingers to pull the little device loose. When nothing happened except the alarm starting to beep we all breathed a sigh of relief. “Come on, let’s get you both back inside. Do you want to come over to our house tonight to sleep?” “Daddy I have two babies…” “We still have a crib upstairs in the nursery they could use?” Amanda shook her head, “It’s not like we have a long time to sleep now anyway. I’m going to put this one back in her bed now, so she get some sleep before her math exam.” I groaned, “Why couldn’t they have picked another night to do this stuff?” “Well Stacy, as soon as I figure out who’s behind this there’s going to be some hell to pay from me. No one messes with my family and gets away with it!” “Thanks Daddy,” Amanda said at the bottom of the stairs. “I’ll send Fred down so he can help you figure out the door in a moment.” “Sounds good,” he said. “Come on Princess,” she told me and carried me up the stairs. She walked down the hallway to her workshop first though and put the cube in a box that she had. “What’s that?” I asked her sleepily. “Souped up Faraday cage,” she told me. “Just in case it’s more than it obviously is. It’s also thick enough that if it’s an explosive the box should contain it…” “That’s a pleasant thought…” I said as she carried me into the nursery. Fred was watching over a sleeping Bella from the rocking chair as we came in. Amanda felt my diaper, decided it needed changed, and walked over to the changing table to quickly change me into another of the princess diapers. “Try and get some sleep if you can,” she whispered as she tucked me in my new toddler bed. Something about not having the rails actually made me more nervous about everything. “Mommy?” I asked. “Yes sweetie?” “Paci?” She smiled and found one that she placed in my mouth before kissing me on the forehead and said, “Good night, we’ll keep you safe – I promise!” “Lub you,” I told her around the pacifier and watched as she and walked away. “Love you too baby,” she told me. I tossed and turned for a long while then. Between Bella’s occasional whimpers, other sounds in the house, and everything it took me a long while to fall asleep in my new bed. The last time I looked at the clock it said 5:30am. ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ Please comment, like, and let me know how you felt! I enjoy all of the comments you all have left this week! Glad to see such a big discussion!!!!

Being hungover after two small beers and a glass of wine just shows that i'm now officially not cut out to be an adult anymore lol I used to warm up on a bottle of wine before I even got out. Now its a bottle of milk

Definitely the Rearz Princess, though I haven't really tried any other girly diapers yet. I really want to try DC Amor, they looks so cute with the little kittens on them.

In terms of my history and religion there isn't all that much to say... I went to church with my mum up until I reached the age where one day I just said "I don't want to" and mum stopped taking me, stopped going herself in fact. I don't think I ever believed any of what I was told, I think I was just bored by the whole thing, I certainly didn't like going. When I stopped going nothing else in my life changed... I never had any second thoughts growing up, even now I have absolutely no desire to go to any church for any reason. I've never drifted close to any religion since. I've never looked at any "miracles" and thought there isn't a rational explanation or that it is simply a hoax or "fake news" as it were. I've only ever seen it as a way of controlling people and throughout history it has been a tool to direct hate at each other. So organised religion is a MAJOR turn-off to me. I would go more into it but I don't want to cross the line of bashing any religions but suffice to say I am not into anything organised. However... I don't know if this is something that all people do or whether it is just me but when I am really hoping for a certain result I will sometimes, I guess pray? I'll just hope for the event I want and speak to anyone who might be up there. If someone is up there I must be a terrible friend because I ask for things but never give anything back Anyway, I'm a really rational and scientifically minded person... I don't believe in mysticism, fantasy, fables or anything else that can't be proven by science. But I do still find myself trying to make deals with anything that might be out there. I guess you could say I'm hedging my bets! At the end of it all I think the keyword is "rational"... I don't think there is a rational reason to have belief in a god except to protect yourself against the harshness of life. It's a lot easier to live with a lot of what happens in the world when you belief it's all "part of a plan" or something like that. I think, at the moment, that belief in any deity is irrational. And I think the above is the reason for my agnosticism (and maybe really what the word means), I don't have religious feelings because I don't find it rational but I'm open to it if proof could actually be found, not that I think there ever will be proof... And I guess that's the difference between me and religious folk.

Getting the motorcycle all dusted off and serviced this month. Anybody else happy that the salt is getting off the roads and the days are getting longer. Just found out a good friend of mine is taking their bike test too so with any luck I wont be riding alone this year. Can't wait. Anybody else getting excited?

To all that are seeking professional help stop thinking the psychologist or psychiatrist are there to judge you. They're not. Years ago upon my wife's insistence to deal with my issues I went to see a psychiatrist. Yes it was scary to reveal this part of my life that I had never shared with another human being other than my wife but I knew if I didn't I would never have an understanding as to why I was afflicted with this desire to wear and use diapers. My psychiatrist was a man which I thought was gonna be even harder to reveal my secret. Boy was I wrong! Although it's almost 20 yrs past I still clearly remember that conversation to this day. Im not going into detail but I will say that I was more surprised by his reaction than he was to me revealing my secret to him. That session we delved into details about my diaper wearing. We discussed how I felt emotionally when wearing and the need I felt for them emotionally. Here's the one statement I remember clear as a bell. We were discussing things about me wearing diapers and I said to him that I just dont understand why I felt a need for diapers, its not normal for a full grown man to want to wear and use diapers and I totally taken back when he looked at me and said and I quote " whats the big deal". I said its not normal and his response was " whats normal?". So now that that was out of the way we focused on the dynamics as to how I got there. So long story short, after that session diapers were very seldom brought up. We focused on other more important issues like my fear of rejection, social outcasting, and my inability to stand up for myself. Understand this. That professional is not there to judge you. They are there to help you plain and simple. And trust me when I say this, a psychiatrist has probably heard far worse things in their career than you wanting and needing to wear diapers. Another thing is if the the professional your seeing has little or no understanding of ABDL then its your job to ask them to do some research on the subject so they can better understand you. One poster said they would have a hard time being honest with the professional. Well that's not gonna help either of you and you'd just be wasting their time and your money. If your worried the professional will discuss this with other ppl you need to get that thought out of your head because they can't. They are legally obligated under the Dr, Patient Confidentiality agreement. By law they cannot discuss their patients with others unless they have written consent and signed by the patient. Even if they wanted to consult with another professional they have to ask permission from the patient. IT IS THE LAW. The only time a professional is legally obligated without written consent is if the patient poses a danger to themselves or the public and ONLY then they are bound legally to protect the pubic or patient. I feel I'm a much better person today than I was 20 yrs ago. I feel good about myself. I am more socially adept. I stand up for myself and ppl will not shit on me anymore and if they do I confront them instead of crawling inside of myself. I no longer fear rejection. I now have friends, real friends for the first time in my life and to be honest it feels so good. I've learned to balance my DL side with my life. My home life is awesome and I couldn't be happier in life with my wife and kid. In closing I will say, get over your fears and seek professional help if you feel you truly need it. You will feel so much better in the long run.

Many ABDL have dreamed of becoming incontinent but very few understand what it would mean. As random as this sounds I'm reminded of a Japanese carpenter, the way of tradition Japanese carpentry is very different most other parts of the world. They never used nails or screws he always said one phrase I will never forget, "with nature or against nature." Even though it was about woodworking I have taken that to heart. I noticed when I was 23 I had a bald spot on the back of my head, over the next 2-3 years it got a little bigger. I know I can try to fight nature and do all kinds of things like taking the hair from my butt and put it on my head but how do I know it won't happen again? Since I was 27 I have had a clean shaven head, if I told my 18 year old self that I would be bald in 10 years I would have freaked. You have to make a choice, your body is progressing down a path and you fight to decide, is it worth fighting? From your story it looks like no matter what you do you will be incontinent sooner or later, so will you work with nature or fight against it? I personally don't really like being bald, but if someone told me I was going to be incontinent and it was just a matter of time well... I think you know what I would do

They leave and head to the room. Girls laughs as they pass by. The woman doesn't even try to stop them. They pass the three girls from the train. Only one of them reconzied her. "Look at the big girl. No bra, not even a training one but she does wear training pants." "She needs to be changed." They reach the room. A girl is there. "Nancy, this is Jill. She is thirteen but should be treated like she's seven. She's still wets the bed every night. You know what to do. Put her into diapers if you feel you must. Day or night." "Yes, I know about the bed-wetting. I got plastic sheet on her bed," Nancy said. "Ok, don't go easy on her because I won't go easy on you. If she is caught in wet clothes, you will get spanked along with her." The woman leaves. Nancy sighs. She gets down to Jill's leave. This is meant to comfort Jill but it does embarrases her. "Now calm down. I'm not going to be mean like others girls." She wipes Jill's face. Jill calms down to sobbing. "Let's get you changed and dressed." The training pants come off. She cleans her up with a baby wipe and then slips on a new training pants. She lets Jill pull them up. "In public I will have to pull them up." She gets the uniform out. "Sorry about the uniform. All bed-wetter have to wear them," The white shirt with peter pan collar is next, followed by light pink jumper. It's shorter than what the girls on the train wore. It just does covers up the training pants. "Keep your legs together when you sit. It' will help. Expect students and teachers to lift your dress. Either to check to see if you dry or not or just for the fun of it. Jill finds her voice. "I don't wet the bed. Please don't make me wear a diaper. I want to wear big girl panties." Nancy smiles. "Let's see what happens. If I cannot get you dry at night, that will happen. You just got to remember to use the potty. Now let's go to lunch. You can unpack after." She takes Jill by the hands and leaves the room.

Just let it flow dear,be happy with wearing diapers and go full out wearing and be happy.

I made myself an AB sleeping bag. nap time is much more fun now

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“ of course you can honey “ Hailey said. She got Sarah all nice and comfy in the rocking chair so she could suckle from. She started to pay Sarah bottom.

an intense start to your story!! but i had a severe "the simpsons" moment with the lines: "Owww, what the hell are you doing. I call police brutality, Owww." (Snake) "Trying to dispose of evidence are we, cuff him Lou." (Chief Wiggum) "Owww, hey now what do you think you are doing? You can't arrest me." (Snake) "Sir you are being detained until I can sort all of this out. Ultimately it is up to Miss Dawson if she wants to file a police report or not." (Chief Wiggum) sorry, but i had to say it lol! keep it going!

Sunday came around, and I was in the congregation again. I watched the altar boys serving the Sunday Mass with envy. It was a bigger deal than the weekday ones with four altar boys attending the priests. I got in line for communion with the priest that Mike was assisting. Mike gave me a wink as I approached the priest. I knew all the boys serving where wearing diapers, I mean purificators. I was leaving the church afterward when mike came up to me in his street clothes. He must have done a really fast change out of the cassock. I’m sure the other boys were cleaning up. Being the senior knight had its privileges. “Did you see the notice in the bulletin?” he asked me. “No,” I said. “Order meeting tomorrow afternoon. Be there, aloha,” he said and bounced off. I flipped through the bulletin, and sure enough, it said there would be a meeting of the Altar Servers Monday at 3:30 in the vestry. The next day I made my way to the vestry. There were some other boys there but not Mike or anybody I knew. They were getting undressed. One looked up at me standing they're confused. “You must be the new guy,” he said extending his hand. “I’m Jim.” I shook it and nodded. “Jason.” “Well, you better get undressed. Order meetings are just purificators and medallions.” I remembered how Mike and the knights appeared to me when they gave me the medal. I got undressed. I pulled a purificator from the cabinet and quickly got it on. I pulled the plastic pants over it. I saw the boys heading through a door I’d not ever used before. I followed them into a room with a conference table and extra chairs along the walls. Jim signaled me to one of the chairs along the wall next to him. “So, you just started last week,” Jim said to me. “Yeah. I only officially got into the order on Thursday.” “Well, it’s great to have a new guy. I hate getting up early to do the weekday masses. I know you think it’s great but after you do it for a while, it gets a little tedious.” “So you like Sundays?” “Sundays and Holy Days of Obligation are good. Weddings and funerals are the best, however.” More and more boys entered. All were clad in the plastic pants over diapers and wearing the medals like mine. A few arrived and took seats at the table. These were the knights as they sported the more ornate medals. Mike called the meeting to order. “First, I’d like to introduce our newest squire, Jason.” He motioned for me to stand. I did so, and there was a brief round of applause. I would have been more embarrassed if everybody else hadn’t also been wearing a diaper. The applause subsided, and I sat down. Next item, schedule. Anybody got any absences planned for the next month? A few boys made statements, and Mike noted them. He started to rearrange the schedule. “Jason, are you good covering all the weekday masses the next two weeks?” I nodded. “Good, we’ll also put you on the 9 AM Sunday mass if you are OK with that. “ I nodded emphatically; I was moving up. “Don’t burn yourself out though. We want you to stay a long time. We can go back to taking turns on the weekday masses.” I waved my hand to say it was OK for now. “The ushers ask that if we’re in church and not serving mass that we check with them. They have been coming up short on volunteers and wanted to know if we can help. That’s entirely voluntary on your part, but they’d appreciate it.” Mike then paused and appeared to be looking at his notes. I noticed a yellow tinge start to appear behind his plastic pants. My eyes widened, and then I realized Mike was looking at me. He was peeing. I looked away quickly. Mike continued with the next item. Later as we were changing back into our clothes, I was talking to Jim and confessed my embarrassment at watching Mike wet his diaper. “Yeah, he’s worn so long that he probably doesn’t even think about it,” Jim said. “That could cause problems at times,” I said. “I’m pretty sure he wears a diaper all the time, not just during Mass and meetings,” Jim said. I thought to myself that’s got to be pretty strange.

Snap Crotch make feel more little

well I just left, anf that was an experience (and a very positive). i get there and I'm so nervous I'm nauseous. get out, headed towards the store, and there few people walking around and I get scared and call an audible and walk all the way to the opposite end of the strip to buy a bottle of water. get my nerves back, head to the store, and just as I'm coming to the door I see a customer inside. another audible and I keep on walking to several stores down the way and pull out my phone to act like I'm busy. a few minutes later the guy still hadn't come out, so I figured he was most likely there for the same reason as me, and get up the nerve and go in. he was not there for the same reason, he was buying incontinent protection for his mother. helen is dealing with him and doesn't do any "hi, can I help you find something" (i figure to save me embarrassment), and after a couple of minutes I fake a phone call and go outside. eventually he comes out (and takes his sweet ass time heading to his car), and I suck it go back in. helen is in the back I'm kind of glancing around, and she come out and asks if i need help with anything. i'm nervous and just say I'm looking around. she doesn't ask if I'm a parent or anything looking for something for a child, or if i'm looking for something for a medical issue. she can tell why I'm there and asks if I'm looking for printed diapers. no "are you an abdl" or "looking for something to have fun with", just a discrete "are you looking for printed diapers". i say I am, she asks what size, what types I've tried, and goes right into sales mode. i never thought I'd have someone pitch me diapers, let alone pitch me diapers like a car salesman. she pulls out all the types she has in my size, and asks if i preferred more discrete or thicker the better. i say thicker, and she pushes all the ones that aren't out of the way and starts describing all the remaining ones in detail. "this one has a fun, colorful pattern and when you wet it the stars disappear. that one has a nice quilted texture on the padding. feel the cover on this and imagine that against your skin." i was waiting for her to go "why don't you take this one for a test drive around the block and see how you like it". she even described the more sissy ones without any "...if you're in to that sort of thing", and was not judgmental when I picked out a rearz princess. the she asked me to step behind the counter to double check the sizes because I originally said XL and she wanted to make sure it wasn't going to be too big because I needed a large. i was a bit nervous picking out the diapers and checking the size because the storefront is large glass areas and the customer floor space is pretty small and I was worried someone was going to walk in while I was trying them, but thankfully no one did. then she asked if i wanted to get any pacifiers, and i said I've never tried them (as an adult), so she pulled out a display set and started to describing them to me, and said there was a special if you bought three. then she asked if i wanted a onesie or plastic pants. i said I've never worn plastic pants and was curious, so she asked me to pick one out to look at. i picked one with teddy bears and she pulled it out (along with the rest of the samples) and started describing them to me. then she took the samples of the diapers I picked out and started to match them with the plastic pants to see which would have the best look. and again she wasn't judgmental when I asked her to pair the princess diaper with a white one with ruffles (since it was the only one she didn't have a sample of, so she grabbed the one out of the display). after I sampled them she asked if i was interested, and I said I was, so she asked me to go behind the counter to measure me. then she took me to the back to try on some pairs, and discretely asked if i was padded since it affects the fit. i wasn't, so we had to adjust to fit to make sure there is enough room for when I am. i ended up getting a pack of rearz princess pink, abu lavender, abu barebum, abu simple, three pacifiers (red, pink and white), a pair of teddy bear plastic pants, and a pair of ruffle pants (which she said I was the first person to buy since they just started carrying them yesterday). spent more than I originally intended, but who cares. it was my first time being at a place like that, it was a long trip to go there, it was my first time coming out to someone about liking to wear diapers (and being a bit sissy), and I've had a kind of rough last couple days, so I decided to treat myself. helen is very knowledgeable, very kind and open, and seemed genuinely enthusiastic and happy for me when I left (especially about the rearz princess and ruffle pants, and how cute they look together). it was a fun experience and I wished I lived closer so I could visit again. it was well worth the trip (i think the fact I've spent the last hour in a target parking lot typing this out on my phone is proof of that)

The Chlorophyll I get from Chemist warehouse, any chemist should have it though. The Devrom I bought from Devrom themselves in the States and got it shipped over, the more you buy the cheaper it works out with shipping. Nullo I haven't tried yet as it's only available online in the USA. Walgreens or Walmart or CVS pharmacies didn't have it last time I was over.

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