Seizures? Depression? Suicide?
It sounds like you have bigger problems than becoming incontinent.
But if it is really what you want...then....
Whatever you imagine it to be like, that's what it is like.
You mess without knowing. You wet without knowing. It happens anywhere, at anytime. Times will come when people notice, either from the wet/poopy bulge or from the smell. A lot of people don't like the smell of feces...I dunno why since it's a lovely smell....but you WILL get looks and sniffs and eyerolls and chuckles nd giggling from other people.
But that is the price to pay for being happy, stinky, messy, and wet.