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All I have to do is decide how much. it will probably be ragther large. I bet I use the most bandwidth of anyone here and this does host the RUFFLES & RIBBONS GIRLS' HOME group. BTW, the email accounts related to that and here got caught up in that Yahoo security breach mess and are inactive until I go into Verizon Yahoo and reset the passwords, which is a daunting task requiring good eyesight. anyne interested use my PM here

Thank you!!! Someone understands me When Obama was elected twice you didn't see conservatives or repulicains causing riots, chaos, traffic blocking, destroying stuff, burning flags, etc etc But here you see libs and demos doing stuff that should be illegal as sin But you see our "good" President Barack Obama turning a blind eye and go golfing and do NOTHING ABOUT IT Sent from my SM-J320V using Tapatalk

Plus Let's not forget what Hillary said during the debate about Trump accepting the results,

I really liked the plastic Preschool version. It felt almost like the plastic Pampers of decades ago. However I think both Preschool Cloth and Plastic need leg gathers. The plastic felt pretty darn smooth to me.

It's different for different people. Personally, I wasn't abused, wasn't abandoned, had wonderful loving parents that were present and raised me well. For me it certainly doesn't come from a negative space although it certainly does for others. That said, the why isn't really important to me. I'm happy, confident, married to a wonderful women that accepts and participates in my diaper play and I accept my desires and have no desire to change them. Over time you'll find the why matters less than just being happy and comfortable with who you are. Snugglebear

The real baby is Hilary Clinton and her camp. Causing stupid liberal riots, demanding pointless which shows that Trump had more vote then she did, telling news station to stop reporting fake news by the way she is the most two faces person ever, and now she is begging for another electoral college vote, I mean come on...... I'm sorry if I step on toes but my God, liberal and democrats are bunch cry baby's if they don't get there way at all. Again I'm sorry but everyone needs to grow up. Lets make America great again Sent from my SM-J320V using Tapatalk

Wow. I haven't been on in like forever. Life has been crazy and only is going to get crazier (in a good way). But, I miss talking to you bunch of weirdos (yes, I know I'm one too)

Hi there guys ! I'm trying to boost my nighttime incontinence project by a bit of daytime training. I'm doing reversed kegel training by straining my pelvic floor muscles outward and downwards

Hated them!

Like you I wear my stents for three or four days in a row at most. Then my incontinence becomes a bit of a routine and less exciting. Nowadays I like to play my secret incontinence game

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Major Update-Nearing End:Please Read I have not been doing a ton of updates lately for a few reasons. My body is changing rapidly, and as such I'm actually having a bit of troubles keeping up. Both mentally and physically. These past couple weeks have I have seen huge leaps. More than I ever thought would be possible while on this path. As I mentioned I got to the point of no return. Both mentally and physically. My body has been changing so quick I really should be doing daily updates at this point. However I've been maxed. Let me catch everyone up. My bladder is now literally spasming at all times. It feels something In between a catheter being in and a your foot asleep. My bladder is acting more and more like that of an infants or child's. I have near, though not constant leakage. This seems to be due to the rapid fire spasming of the bladder. I wake up every 30-45 min to urinate. Though am not sleeping through things except on the rare times. Though they have started. So they will continue becoming more frequent. Half the time I wake up with a full bladder, the other half I wake up empty. It seems the last hour or so is my deepest sleep.- by full I mean about 7-8 oz. which at this point is bursting for me. I leak now in the car. Though have yet to have a full wetting. During the day it has become impossible to go without a diaper. I WILL have accidents. Even if out for a few minutes at a time. Whether its leakage or a full blown wetting. I have an average of about 5 seconds of warning before a full wetting. (3-4 oz during the day. 4-6 oz. at night). I can rarely hold it even if I try. If I DO put my full attention, I might be able to hold it to get to the restroom. It is now impossible for me to tell how much I'm going to wet. I have no sense of how full my bladder is. Usually I'm completely off. I'm forgetting and misjudging the frequency and amount of times/urine expelled into and how full my diaper is. Diaper checks for fullness is now a must. Though there is a continuos spasm. When urine is expelled through a full wetting a harder multiple spasm occurs. Thus making it much harder to hold. I am now almost completely reliant on my abdominal muscles to expel any remaining contents of my bladder-if I think about it. Even then I'm almost positive my bladder is never truly completely empty. Frequency between full settings is now between 15-45 minutes. Though no longer than an hour and a half. Even when extremely dehydrated. Average is about 25 minutes in about 75% of cases. Sleep has become difficult. I think my body is in shock right now. It takes me between an hour and two hours to reach sleep. Both with constant leakage. Distracting spasming. And even the unexpected leak. Due to sleep. Waking up quite often. Etc. I've been quite out of it. Doing the minimum with work. And trying to slow things down. Two weeks ago all of this was just Barely showing. Just beginning. I honestly did not think this amount of progress or degradation was humanly possible in such a short period. ------------------ My hand was forced. Due to various reasons. And I was forced to come forward to my family. This was highly emotionally taxing. Though happy to report everything turned out great. Everybody is onboard. Even got some closure on infantilism from my dad, he finally came to accept it as part of me, and is just fine with it. While not relevant to this story I think the point at the end will be. One of my best friends betrayed me. Stealing. Things came together and it appears she has a sociopathic personality. Lost a friend to mental health issues. Not fun. The point of all of the above drama is that there will be very trying weeks in this journey. I don't talk about my trials or tribulations often. Though I think it's important to covet it in some aspect here. There will be times where you have a very bad day or week. Something(s) will happen like the above. Something to force your hand. Or extreme drama or life trials. During these periods. It is up to you what you want to do. I'm in no way going to tell you that this journey is more important than your life trials. If you need a break. You take it. This is about self care. Do what you need to do. ------------------ I am trying to find the most efficient and effective route. Document and observe. This OS an experiment. Something that is documented, and hopefully will be able to be replicated. This journey is all about you. Have fun with it. Take as much or as little time as you want. A very good friend reminded me recently that I needed to remind myself and everyone else, ok we are trying to make ourselves incontinent here. Then what do we do? What's next? His point is well taken. This is just as much about the journey as it is the destination. While I'm trying to find the shortest, most effective path there possibly is for this journey. That doesn't mean you have to follow in my footsteps. Take and use what you want out of this. Pick and choose. My guide, and site will be article/mini guide based. The site itself will be wiki style. Though formatted in a guide for easy navigation. Everything will be searchable. As well as the articles/guides will link to each other through keywords. I will include my journey. The exact steps I took. Etc. and have guides for each of those. I will also try to have as much supplemental material as possible. Stuff I don't need or didn't do. But may come in useful for someone else. It should work out to be a. A la carte option. Allow you to pick and choose what you want to do and don't want to do, based on the speed you want to go. Remember this all about you and your life, your journey. Do what is best for you. If need 10 years. Take it. ---------------------- Based on recent developments I can't help but think this journey is nearing an end. As I mentioned before. I will wait and continue to post until my body stops changing. I know there are still some things left to go through. But I can't see them taking too terribly long. I do also think there will be a setting In period of a few months after my body stops changing. At this point I'm going to update my progress as usual. And start on the guide and site as well. Everyone here has been wonderful. I honestly thought this thread might seriously get flamed. Or at best get a few views. Nothing like it has. I somehow feel like I'm saying goodbye here. Though that isn't exactly the case. I'm actually trying to prevent myself from breaking into tears. What else is there to say except thank you. As we are nearing the end. If you've held of rating posts please do so soon. As well as now is the time to ask questions. Lots of questions. Before I get the guide written. -Blake-