I'm new here and am looking to find out more about myself and the role diapers play in them. I've always liked them for the relaxing quality they have when wearing(when circumstances would allow) and the improvement in quality of sleep.
Recently though I find myself in situation where I can expand on this side of my life and am looking foward to seeing where this can go.
Sorry if this is a little longer than a simple 'Hello there', I hope to have a fun time here and make some new friends. Cheers.
It sounds like you're conflicted, and it's eating you up. It's causing anxiety, depression, and you're conflicted about that connects to children.
A lot of us have been there, and I'm included. I struggled coming to grips with my little side, and wished it would go away. I felt guilty about my desires, but when I ignored them- I got anxious.
I'm 47 now, and I think I've finally come to a balance with this. It's part of who I am. On the outside I appear to be a fairly confident and calm individual, and I'm used by some of my friends for a bit of a counselor (not professional- just apparently good listener). And like all counselors, I don't break confidences. I guess I'm a trusted colleague
But here's the thing: I'm still fighting depression every single day. I know that a-hole is coming back, and I'm not going to give it any leverage over me. Depression is a bastard, and whatever you need to do to fight it- do that. I have no problem being in social situations, but I still deal with anxiety And one of my coping strategies is: Diapers. I wear them every single night, and about 2 to 3 days a week. It's hard to say, because I don't say "i guess it's time for a diaper." If I get the urge to put on a diaper, I do.
I'm fairly certain I physically could go without a diaper and have no accidents, but I'm going to go nuts. I need that diaper, because it helps me function as a normal adult- and it has taken me a long time to realize that. My prayer for others like you, and younger folk- is that it doesn't take you as long. I'm usually pretty open with my issues. It's public knowledge on FB that I have too much iron n my blood and my other health issues are mostly known, but this is the only place I've ever shared this. I'm not sure why, but I've never been tempted to tell my best friend I wear diapers to keep myself sane. Mind you, he smokes pot for the very same reason.
The biggest difference between being 26 and 47 is the knowledge that we all have issues. At 26 I felt like crap because I dealt with this stupid thing, had a crappy job and was embarrassed where I was in life. I was convinced everybody else had it going on, and it stopped me from doing things I wish I had.
The key is that nobody can define what this means to you. We can get caught up in various labels, and whether or not we are part of a bigger community. If you don't feel like wearing a diaper- don't wear one. If you feel like wearing one, and feel safe (to you) wear one. If you feel like wearing a diaper, and it's not safe, find a place a where it is safe.