Not sure how many understand what it means to be a Hermaphrodite? Really it is just a label for a birth defect
In 7the grade I acted as an escort for a new boy on his first day, it has had a never ending effect on me. We soon became best friends then went on to become BF and GF outside of school in school we were just best friends but when we left school we went back to what we were
Just to look back on the pain in her life then, by being forced to live as something she was not, and was not even happy as. In fact she hated.
Remember the look on her face in the 8th grade when I paid for her to go to a beauty shop, and get the whole works done so we could go to a spring dance, and she was the best looking girl at the dance that night, she had guys falling all over then self’s trying to dance wither that night
Funny the same guys that were calling her names during the day now were almost fighting over dancing with her. But the only other boys she danced with were to ones from our small group.
Later we had dragons painted on our bedroom wall by her. Roberta dragon was a pinkish blue color and flew thought lots of fog banks on the wall
While the other wall was my dragon and it was a bluish purple, and it flew many fights with demons and the both made the turn on the far wall and started to twist and dance with each other as then flew into a cloud then flew out and up on the roof as a beautiful golden dragon that she said was us in love.
The love we shared was unreal with each other it was very different, then what other kids thought love was about.
Love when you do not have the right or same parts as others of your same sex is very hard she had no female parts as when she was born there were partly outside her body so a doctor removed them, she had what was called a sudo penis and most male infants have a bigger one.
That does not mean she did not get turned on the same as other girls, and once we learned how to light that fire we had lots of fun with words and touching but sex was still a different story.
While many thing kids our ages could not have that understanding. While we may have only been 12 years old we both had years of taking drugs which made our body age way faster than other kids.
Few can understand the pain of thinking no one will ever love you or even understand you or you will never feel the love other share as you watch other kids look at each other but you know deep inside you what you are living is a fake.
The pain you feel from being different in other ways from kids too so you are called names or hit and kicked for no reason other than you are standing there, to be playing in your own front yard and have other boys put a bag over your head and beat you up then drag out into a field and repeatedly rape you then they call you names as do other kids for what they did to you, to the point your mother just packs up and moves to a different city many miles from where she works.
To have to start all over at a new school knowing it will happen again as you just stand out from other kids, you are a least a foot shorter than they are
You have flaming red hair, you now walk funny you now have a fear of others almost to a panic attack each time someone comes near you, to know that someday others will learn how different you are even in the smallest way like going to the bathroom you were diapers, and as soon as other learn that you will become the object of attack both verbally and physical by others. Then you are made to sit in an office as your mother talks to the office, and this other boy walks in with also flaming red hair.
You have no idea of the pain of her loss all these years ago, for no reason really the pain she had to have when her new step father forced her to go back to being a male with the threat of abuse to her mother, with her letters going unanswered as the letters were being removed and just through in a big box you feel abandoned by the one you loved for over 5 years.