So I've always had a hard time understanding myself. Ever since I was in like middle school, I enjoyed pleasure (masturbation).
as I got older those Desirees never transitioned to actually wanting sex. Even to this day I don't want to Have sex with anyone.
I love diapers though. That love for diapers is definitely tied to arousal and pleasure. I even enjoy watching messing videos as long as they don't actually have people having Sex.
my wife kept telling me that I was a sexual, I always disagreed with her because I would say how can you be asexual and enjoy pleasure (masturbation).
A few months ago I found out about a term called gray-sexual. Apparently this is on the asexuality spectrum, but it's halfway between the two ends.
I guess I'm just curious if others out there are the same way.
I have had people tell me that the reason I don't want to have sex is because I've never had it, but I don't know that I agree with that
i'm also curious about the psychology behind the link between diapers and arousal, but that might be opposed for another topic.
I guess I'm just open to feedback from others.