I know this probably isn't a problem for most people but....what could I use to have the feeling of a diaper but without diapers? I have tried putting on layers of p-panties (don't like that word very much) and I almost cut off the circulation to my legs with that one. I am trying pads in my panties but it's not giving me the thickness I want. I just wanted to see what you guys would suggest. I don't want to use it, just have a feeling of a diapey. I'm 18 but no one knows about me liking my diapers. I can't go and get diapers and come home with a pack of diapers. My mom got mad at me when I texted someone online that I like them. She said that I don't really like them so I should stop acting like that. Of course we are talking about a lady who wants to spank me when i dont want to go to a gynecologist and threatens to send me to a therapist or physician to see what is wrong with me. I can't figure out why I like diapers or being babied or spanking. I'm starting to wonder of there is something wrong with me.