Oh I love chewing on those teething rings lol, my mom used to have a bunch from when I was younger, but now they are gone But I do like the idea of getting a pacifier, I think that would be the best place to start, after getting diapers of course lol. As for the trip thing, given my crappy work schedule, low funds and lack of a car I don’t think the hotel thing can happen, I love the idea and I will for sure try it when I can. As for the eating baby like things, I can totally do that (kind of do normally lol) or the apple sauce, I do not like that stuff.
As for the feeling safe and just letting go, I like the idea off that, even if its hard at first some time away from the world would do some good for me lol. This is all been very helpful and I want to thank you all so much for helping me with this, and making me feel so welcome.
One more question, do you guys know the best place to get diapers and ab stuff online? like I see so much of that stuff with I look around I was wondering if when I am ready for it, where I would get it from?