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  1. Panties like the "Dress-Eez" baby pants made by Playtex: with the "gingham" pattern embossed into the vinyl. Such a pattern could be printed on the vinyl just as effectively.
  2. Melatonin is a natural sleep aid. If you have a health food store in your community, consult with someone there. The big chain health stores (Whole Foods, Mothers, and so on) have extensive departments of supplements, with trained experts. If that doesn't work, try visiting a Naturopathic Physician (an ND) or an Herbalist.
  3. O Canada, the true north strong and free! Welcome!
  4. Congrats on getting your name and ID changed. Speaking of that...change is never easy. Some folks--your boss, for example--don't easily handle change. It's not your fault! Yes, everything seems to have fallen apart. And right now, life sucks! But use that strong will of yours. You'll make it!
  5. There is nothing wrong with you. We are all "defective models" in one way and another. We all say and do things we wish we hadn't. Life can suck--really suck. So easy for me to say...but true. Also so easy for me to say: hang in there!
  6. The last few days, I have wrestled with guilt, shame, embarrassment, self-hatred, and depression. I reach for self-acceptance, but do not consistently grasp it: I have it for a time, and then it's gone. That I have it even for a time represents progress, to be sure. But progress seems so slow! Yes, yes--progress is slow. I've done enough therapy to know that. The hardest thing is that no matter how many adult things I do or what adult things I do, I cannot change who I am and who I want to be: a little baby girl. I am a baby, and want to be that! Arrghh! The next hardest thing is that my identity, little baby girl, will not please everybody; some people will simply hate it. Why do I need to please everybody? Because if I please everybody, their acceptance of me will help me to accept myself. The funny part is that so many do accept me as being a little baby girl. Some even see me as a baby girl, think of me as a baby girl--my dream come true. Yet I myself have not reached that point. And I sense that I must reach that point in order to have inner peace. Yes, yes--acceptance must come from the inside out. And I do feel such acceptance growing. But again, progress seems so slow! For me, self-acceptance means more than simply "I'm OK as a little baby girl." It means feeling whole, together, not somehow "unfinished". It means knowing who I really am and what I really want. I have begun to see the first part, who I really am. Yet I feel that I have only begun. Some say that depression is anger turned inward. That may be true for me. I hold seething anger, bubbling rage, and howling fury. Directed at my parents (mostly my mother), at the situation, and at myself--for being who I am and not being able to change. You see, everything that happened those many years ago was my fault. Yes, yes--it really wasn't my fault. But I fight that notion. I probably take these issues too seriously. I always have. Yet I fear that if I don't fix it all, don't get it all "right", something terrible will happen: everyone will abandon me and I will disappear. All these are old questions, questions that I have pondered again and again. I will resolve them, over time. However, they hit me in the face again and again! How do you all handle these issues? Thanks, everyone, for being here, and thanks for listening.
  7. Ask each vendor about its shipping procedures. If they are not discreet enough for your taste, ask for special treatment. Vendors understand.
  8. I must be predisposed to that kind of breathing difficulty, because breathing difficulties follow my use of talcum.
  9. Interesting, your using just corn starch. I first tried only tapioca flour, then added corn starch. The combination worked better.
  10. I respectfully disagree. Baby powder made from tapioca flour and/or cornstarch, without chemical additives, can be expensive. My suggested ingredients are available in the baking section of any market.
  11. So true! Yet talcum causes breathing difficulties for some.
  12. I have not had that experience. This is tapioca flour, which is a fine powder.
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