tyrantblade

Well, maybe I should say I can squeeze into them as the tabs get pretty tight when I stretch them out (and I have to fully stretch them out or I need a second pair of the tabs at the back), I know I lost some weight, but not enough to be able to get into pampers size 7 without needing a second set of tape tabs. Did they get bigger/did the tabs get stretchier or is it just me?

i take one diaper, strip it down to the middle part, cut the outside and stick it in another diaper. it makes for a decent amount of absorbency when using baby diapers/thin diapers, and allows you to fit in them snuggly (by using two sets of tabs at once) if they are a bit too small.

hence why i use 2 sets of tabs, i wear size 34 jeans and with 2 sets of tabs i can fit snuggly into a size 6 diaper (of course its not the best fitting thing ever, but when your on a budget and have to use whatever you can access or go without then you really dont mind).

its a brand of cheap diapers that save a lot carries. good for a few hours of wetting when doubled (unless you drink a lot of fluids or try to flood it. i take the tabs and leaks guards off one and put the stripped down diaper in another diaper and use 2 sets of tabs at once.)

i shower whenever i mess, it makes cleanup so much easier.

well i have been caught, not in the act but rather afterwards when i thought i wouldnt get busted only to find out my mom had investigated the apparent overwellming smell which must have not been apparent to me. i still indulge, though ive found better ways to hide it.

im not talking about forcing it on others or talking about it, im talking about just letting it happen instead of trying to shame me out of it. i mean think about it this way, if you dont like to hunt what right do you have to say that somebody else even somebody related to you cant hunt? what right do you have to say they cant buy a gun to hunt with? its not about forcing it on to them or talking about it, its just about tolerating it and letting it happen.

i know i cant make her accept it, and i never asked her to take part in it, but it wouldnt hurt to just let me do it.

i know some of you at least have people that accept it (it = our lifestyle of using diapers and / or other baby items) even if they dont want to get involved. but for those of you that have to deal with people that wont accept it and may even go as far as to try to shame/ridicule you to stop, dont you hate it? i mean sure they often find it "weird" and dont understand it, but that doesnt mean they have to fear it and refuse to accept it. im speaking as one that still lives at home with my mom, whom knows im a diaper lover, but just refuses to accept it and just let me be, so i have to sneak diapers in and if she finds out that i did she tries to get me to stop, and i know i cant.

well my depression i suspect is the result of being in a bad situation for most of my life. ive always had a lot to deal with between my oldest brother robbing us blind (he got involved with drugs when he was 15, now hes like 28 and hes still involved with drugs and we recently kicked him out because living the way weve been living is no way to live (we always had to keep a close eye on our stuff with him around)), my parents (my dad yelled at me for just about every little thing imaginable; it didnt matter what you did right, he just pointed out what you did wrong and yelled at you for it. and my mom always naggs about how much of a mess the house is when it really isnt a mess) and school (in elementary school and middle school it wasnt that bad, it was almost non-existant in high school (overall i was well liked by most teachers and students, though i was always being messed with by some kids, and some teachers flat out hated me for no apparent reason) not to mention i hated my last 2 years of high school because of the schoolwork (sometimes there was way too much) not to mention the few times i got in trouble i shouldnt have , or i got in more trouble than i should have because the other person was just as much to blame, if not completely to blame and at the end of senior year i was i was struggling to pass and thats when i got depressed, started cutting, and wanted to drop out. qnd a few months ago my mom and dad got divorced and nmy dad left behind idk how much $ of unpaid bills. sorry for the long reply with bad punctuation, im on the internet on my phone which doesnt let me seperate senetences.

ive been getting professional help, but im still anxious, depressed, and struggling

i still have mine and must say, hopefully they give you good painkillers. im not looking forward to eventually getting mine removed (they havent given me any problems in a while)

since about 10 months ago ive been cutting myself, i know its bad and ive been getting help, but its still such a struggle

it makes me feel amazing i like the feeling so much and sometimes the smell, the only thing is i need to cover it up (it sucks living with somebody that wont tolerate or accept it)

a poopy diaper makes me feel a bit babyish, just wetting doesnt do it for me.