Lanthey

To my friends. I'm sorry I've been flighty, unreliable, bitchy and generally vile to be around. I'm sorry I've insistently put people who are terrible before my actual friends. I've missed Weddings, Christenings, Birthdays, I've stolen, lied and acted like I didn't care. I DO care. I do and I'm sorry. I'm trying to deal with a lot and I'm struggling but that doesn't excuse my behaviour. It stops now though. (Well a couple of days ago). I'm taking my life back... And when I say that what I really mean is I'm giving it back to Jesus. 
See this video? It's the story of my life. I've done and been through EVERY single part of that skit now and more. It's terrifying. I've tried to take my own life 5 times and I'm covered in scars but the part at the end? It's beautiful. It's what's next for me. 

Thank you to everyone for being my friend and supporting me through all this. It'll be worth it. I'm ripping out of the cocoon... I'm becoming a butterfly. 

"Oh, let me rise in the morning and live always with you!
And please, God, do away with wickedness for good!" - Psalm 139 (Between 17 and 22 somewhere) The Message.