I must say, that though it seems to be few and far between, there are people enjoy it as you do. I mean, you could search and search and search to find another abdl of your sexual preference then there would be no turn off in the matter. Or, there are people that just really don't mind the diapers and such, and some that even think its cute. Anyway, my point is, you may never find someone as i described - - or you may. I think the most important thing is that you are happy with yourself first, then find someone that likes you for you and go from there, whether that means diapers or not. Just my 2 cents.