ColinDL

Bought it for Section 1. I wore it, came in it, wet it, wore it some more, then messed it. Can't remember the brand actually, Tena maybe?

I was just wondering, for no reason other than a mixture of boredom and I was reminiscing with a friend last night. So who was the first person you came out as G/L/B/T to? Or person's.

I've had dreams about it before, but not since I got my first batch of Adult Diapers and used them. I think it was pretty clear it was a yearning to try the DL thing out, and so it makes sense that a fairly common dream I was having (about diapers) went away after I tried it.

Tena Slip, gonna wet it then wear it for a bit then have a shower. It's pretty warm so that's about it. Edit:It's now very wet.

Depends what you mean by worked out okay? I di some stupid shit, because I felt I had the owrst shit in the world happening to me. I used to cut myself pretty badly to cope, I also used to smoke a lot of weed, drink fairly large amounts of alcohol and when I could lay my hands on them, take prescription painkillers to numb the pain of it all. However, for me the release when cutting myself was not the blood, but the pain, and I get why so many kids do it these days. I know it's "emo" and all that shit, but I was pretty hardcore into it, I also used to put fags (as in cigarettes, rather than homosexual people) out on my skin. In the end, I almost got off on the whole thing in a way, as it was the only time I ever felt good about myself. The worst bit of it though, is the fact it has been almost 4 years since I stopped it, but whenver something gets fucked up, my first instinct is to cut myself. I don't, but I wish I was doing it everytime something goes wrong on a alrge scale. The worst bit about it, well depending on how hard I think about the worst bit varies, was the fact that I wasn't necessarily gay even then. Hell, currently I usually describe myself as questionable when asked my sexuality, because I do vary a lot. Strictly speaking I am bisexual, BUT that said, I don't like to be called that. I'd prefer to be known as a straight guy who likes guys too or a gay who likes girls. I'd rather suck a dick than eat a pussy, but I'd rather sink my dick into a girl than a guy. I'd rather be with a guy for all the other bedroom stuff, but generally I prefer talking to girls about stuff. It's a delightful yet irritating quandary to find oneself in. I'm also a firm believer in "What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger." And I think it did. Whenever I had the shit kicked out of me, I went down swinging every time. And as they say, "It's not the winning, it's the taking part that counts!" Anyway, long rambling post coming to an end. I consider myself to be fine, of all the stupid shit I did, I'm just glad I never had the balls for a serious suicide attempt. I have a lot to live for, and part of that is giving a giant middle finger to the pricks who tried to fuck things up for me. My life is going pretty well, I'm actually pretty happy these days, and having grown up, I realise a lot of people have it a lot worse than getting a little bit bullied in high school.

Things are a bit different in the UK from the USA I see. For instance, if anyone paid attention, or well even had their brain turned on, the UK legislation was very specific in that it clearly calls it a Civil Partnership rather than a Same Sex marriage. Weirdly enough, I do agree with this wording, I kinda agree, MARRIAGE should be between a man and a woman, BUT I feel it took far too long for same sex couples to be granted the same rights as a married couple could get, it's actually fucking stupid that it took so long. It's the conservative prude inside me that feels that way about that specific word, but that's the way I am.

Tena Slip (dry for the moment) and a Bon Jovi T-shirt

I am not a fan of pets. My friends rat bit me a beast once and took a chunk out my hand. My gran's cat used to scratch fuck out of me and I was once bitten by a dog. So animal lover, I am not.

I always had a thing for David Boreanaz and Alexis Denisof from Angel (and formerly Buffy). Especially when Alexis Denisof grew stubble. Not so mucha teenage crush, but I love Dr Cox from Scrubs when he grows his man stubble out in Mid Season 5. I was like 18 or 19 at the time so it still counts!

It's an interesting theory. There's also that old thing about boys who are mothered way too much turn gay as no woman meets their standards, but I really don't believe any of the old Freudian crap. As a guy of "questionable" sexuality, I don't know how much I put into these theories. It makes no sense when considering "Gay Phases" that a lot of people go through, surely your brain doesn't get that messed up in puberty?

Horrible Gay Stories? I liked this guy when I was like 14, he was 16. Anyway, at the under-18s night at the club everyone went to, I got talking and we got to kissing. Anyway, my school found out, and I was bullied and had the shit kicked out of me several times (I'd suggest a number fairly close to 100) over the next three years. That was pretty sucky for me. Lead to me being pretty fucked up in the head, meaning I had to go see a psychologist for a good few years. I'm okay now, but I was really messed up at the time, I'm just glad I didn't do anything too extreme. However, about 99% of people in my school hated me for a good few years. Being "gay" at school was fun!

I'm about 275lbs, around 19 stone. (In my defence I am slightly muscley and also 6"3, but I am also quite fat). I'd want to get down to about 250ish by June (I'll be 21 then). I'll need to weigh myself in the near future to see if that's about right still, I haven't checked in a while. (Also, is drinking diet fizzy juice really as bad as that? I drink a lot of Diet Lemonade...) My plan is to cut out junk food, go to the gym (which I already do regularly) and see where it takes me. I usually end up walking for about 45 minutes every day though it's in a 5-15-5mins over several hours-15-5 formation of minutes due to my class structure.

I'm wearing a Tena Slip and a tshirt. (Still dry)

I masterbate in diapers everytime I use one. If I wet I definately do and sometimes if I'm just wanting to have a little extra on I put on on just to keep dry but masterbate in. As stated before, the bulk between the legs is awesome, but also when I wet, the feeling of wetness is very nice.

I have to say, and generally I'm supportive and open minded, what you suggested here... it is insane. I just think getting surgery in Thailand to irreparably damage yourself is nuts. I think you should go see a shrink about it.