"Surprisingly, she took it well, dispite being really weirded out, and disturbed.
I asked her if she would have a problem if I actually bought a pack, and promised her that I would only wear em ocasionally when I'm alone in private, unless she didnt mind.
All she told me was, that she didnt want to see it or hear it, gave me a hug, and chanced the subject."
If she said there was no problem about it as long u don't tell her about the "details", I don't see what's your problem with : "but I'm afraid she'd find out, and be more disturbed about it than I thought." Because I believe she knows it. I mean of course she has to know... but she just doesnt want to hear about it. So just dont tell her. Or have you noticed that the relation has changed after that been brought up?!
I understand you're afraid of losing her... But do you want to live hiding forever? Or living in a relation where your girl doesn't want to accept the whole of you? Because you have to admit that she knows, she just doesnt want to acknowledge to herself that you're a diaper lover.
In my case I accepted my Necare's fetish from the moment he told me about it and I had never heard about this fetish before. I guess you just accept the person you're with entirely or you don't.
I don't really know what advice to give you, because:
a) if you talk about it again she might feel pressured
she told you herself she doesnt want to hear about it
c) but keep the diaper moments to yourself and live in anxiety, it's not really helping you...
so, yeah...
All the best,
Kitty