Uh Oh Skettie Oh'SStorry of regression
Posted 09 March 2012 - 12:19 PM
Uh Oh, Spaghetti Oh’s
Well here I am, alone in this room with only my thoughts to myself. I wish I could explain how I got here but you wouldn’t believe me. I’m a 25 year old stuck in a crib in a nursery wearing a green stripped shirt and blue jean overall shorts. Oh yeah, and… a diaper.
The truth is I used to help around with the kids at the local orphanage. There are a couple of kids that like to dress me up as their “baby” and I go along with it. I mean, I’d do anything to see them smile and forget about the fact that they don’t have parents anymore. Oh, I forgot to mention I’m not your average size. The term is dwarfism. I’m barely 3 feet tall with short curly red hair and freckles all over. Honestly, I could pass as a little boy dressed like this. And I did.
The director of the orphanage was not necessarily my friend. She liked to run a tight ship and keep things as gloomy as she could. I really don’t think she likes kids all that much. But I digress. Two women came in holding hands and just head over heels for every kid in there. Of course I was dressed as I am now because I was playing “house” with a few of the kids. I’ve seen them before, several times actually. They pointed directly at me. I read their lips, “That’s the one.” I dropped my jaw and was hit upside the head by an incoming dodge ball. It knocked me off my feet and rendered me unconscious. I completely blacked out. When I came to, the director was peering over me in what seemed to be a different room, perhaps her office. I’m assuming this is when the diaper was put on me because I wasn’t wearing one before.
My head hurt terribly. I felt tears in my eyes and heard the director mumbling to me through her teeth. She had this crazed look on her face. Before I knew it I was picked up and handed off to this, from what I could tell, pretty genuine couple. The one woman carried me holding the back of my head. I was still kind of woozy from my head being attacked by a dodge ball. She put me in a car seat, buckled me up, and drove off. I was too out of it to protest and any word I said was gibberish. Suiting for a nearly two year old no?
So this is where I came to, the crib, in a little child’s nursery. To be honest, it looks as though a lot of thought went into this room. There’s what I would imagine the door way out to the right of the crib, a bookshelf stacked with books and a rocking chair on the other side of the door, another doorway which is open. When I look through it, it appears to be filled with toys like some sort of play room. Then a big wall with windows and a changing table. The theme seems to be blue and white stars and teddy bears all over.
I look in the crib and see a blue, fluffy, silky blanket and a brown bear. I decided to name him floppy because he doesn’t sit up very well. I sat up on my knees holding on to the bars peering into what I feared would be my fate. I could tell the couple. I could explain this was all a misunderstanding. But that would destroy them I feared. But I can’t just disappear from the face of the earth and live life as a two year old. Can I? It is very tempting.
Posted 09 March 2012 - 03:36 PM
Posted 10 March 2012 - 12:40 PM
As I take in my fate, I feel a pressure in my bladder. I panic. What am I supposed to do? I notice the baby monitor and try not to make too much noise as to cause one or even both of the women to come into the room. Then I remember that I am wearing a diaper. I sit up on my knees again and embarrassingly relieve myself. I can feel the diaper swell up and warmth spread around my nether regions. I sigh and lay back down on my stomach letting my thoughts take over.
What seems like fifteen to twenty minutes later, I hear the two women open the door. I peek through the bars at them and hear them whispering to each other.
“Do you think he’s awake?” said the woman who carried me in the car.
“It doesn’t look like it honey” said the other woman.
“Maybe we should wake him up. I don’t want him sleeping all night” said the first woman. I had no idea what their names were. I took this as my hint to stir around in bed, so I rolled over onto my back. They took that as their queue to enter the room. I put on my best “I just woke up and am droggy look”. The woman who carried me earlier came over to the crib and ran her fingers through my hair and smiled. I peeked at her and then rubbed my eyes. The other woman stood by the first woman and rubbed my tummy. “Time to get up sport” she said.
Sport? Oh yeah, I’m a boy to them. Oh no… I totally forgot! I had a look of panic on my face once again. What’s going to happen when they um… uh… change me? That’s inevitable at some point and I’m guessing any minute now. At least I’m hoping so because it’s getting cold, clammy, and uncomfortable.
The lady that carried me in ran her fingers through my hair again. I have to admit I liked this part and it made me remember bits of my childhood. “Hey little guy, you ready to get up?” she said. I sat up and rubbed my eyes again. Unbeknownst to me, she reached over the crib and picked me up bringing me to the changing table. “Oh crapola” I thought to myself. I guess I could throw a fit, or scream hysterically but eventually they’d figure out I’m not a boy. So I guess I’ll just surprise them.
The one woman carrying me laid me down on the changing table and popped open the bottom of my overalls. I so didn’t know they did that. She slid the overalls up to my tummy. I peeked at her and then what I now realized was her girlfriend. I was distracted until I hear the tapes being undone and could feel embarrassment overcome me. I sighed holding onto my overall straps when she opened the diaper up.
“Um woah!...Do you think something is missing here babe?” said the woman changing me. I could see the other woman’s gaze change from my face to my nether regions. Instinct kicked in and I wanted to immediately cover my privates but I know that if I did that then I would give something away. So instead I chewed on my fingers. I’ve never felt so embarrassed before. “Yeah, how is that possible?” said the girlfriend.
“Well, obviously there was some kind of confusion here. Let’s get her changed and call the director” said the woman changing me as she lifted my legs up and pulled the diaper out from beneath me and in one quick swift move slide another one underneath me again and fastened it on just right. She buttoned my overalls up and sat me up. I was still chewing on my fingers. “What do we do? I mean, we can’t just take her back” said the girlfriend. “Besides, she’s really cute Amber,” Says the girlfriend as she ruffles my messy and curly hair. I peeked at the girlfriend still chewing on my fingers when Amber picked me up and brought me out to the kitchen. “I know. And we’ve waited so long to have a child. I’m happy no matter if we ended up with a boy or a girl.” Said who I now know as Amber as she set me in a high chair, buckling me in and sliding the tray in place and slipping a bib around my neck.
Posted 11 March 2012 - 12:05 PM
Posted 11 March 2012 - 04:56 PM
Posted 11 March 2012 - 07:32 PM
Amber had set out some cut up hot dog and steamed carrots on a plate with a sippy cup of milk for me and every couple bites she fed me applesauce. I assumed it was dinner because I had already had lunch. The last time I remember looking at a clock it was nearly 3pm and if I squinted I could read the clock to be at 530pm. I stuck a hot dog bit in my mouth and chewed it as the two women talked to each other.
“You know the director never told us what uh, what her name is…” said Amber’s girlfriend. “Well, we could still go with Alex, short for Alexandra. And Ryan is a girl’s name too.” Amber said spooning a bite of applesauce to my mouth. I was hungry so I took a bite and grabbed a handful of carrots shoving them in my mouth. Amber grabbed my hand, “Easy baby.” I didn’t realize it but I smiled at her calling me baby. “Maddie, she smiled at me!” I grinned even more because it brought so much joy to her. Maddie came over from cooking something in the kitchen that smelled much more appetizing than what I had been given. “Aww, does baby Alex like mommy?” Said Maddie. I couldn’t figure out what to do next so I just kept smiling and grinning. Amber smiled and cooed at me, “You like the name Alex sweetie?” I tried to remember what kids do, regressing as the day went along; I kicked my feet and smiled back at the both of them chewing on my fingers.
Amber wiped my mouth, unhinged the tray, and unbuckled me, lifting me up onto her hip. Maddie finished her cooking and brought dishes to the table. “Dinner’s ready babe,” said Maddie. “Ok let me see if she’ll drink some milk while we eat.” Amber said as she reached into the cabinet and pulled out a bottle and filled it with milk. She sat down at the table with me on her lap and handed me the bottle. I thought to myself as I just held the bottle, “a bottle? This is a bit much for me.” Amber and Maddie took some bites of their food but were much more interested in me and what I was doing. Shyly I slid the bottle’s nipple in my mouth and lifted it up to suckle out the milk. Amber scooted me closer to her and leaned me back against her. I settled in and stared at her momentarily and then peeked at Maddie when she started talking. “And then there were three,” Maddie said smiling from across the table. “And then there were three and they were a family,” Amber said smiling down at me. I really had not paid too much attention, but Amber has a beautiful smile with bright brown eyes and long brown hair. I kept suckling on the bottle slowly and peeked at Maddie. Maddie was taller than Amber by half a foot and had black short hair that swooped to the side with green eyes and light freckles on her cheeks. They seemed to be very much in love too.
Posted 12 March 2012 - 07:45 AM
Posted 12 March 2012 - 10:24 AM
About the time they finished dinner I had emptied the bottle of milk. My tummy was very full. Amber took the bottle from me, laid a blanket over her shoulder and began burping me. I wasn’t expecting much to come up but was surprised by the few that did come up as they were kind of loud. I could feel my face turn a little red from the unexpected embarrassment. Exhausted from all that commotion I laid my head on her shoulder out of instinct. Immediately Amber started swaying.
“Some baby is getting sleepy,” Amber said softly as she rubbed my back. “But first we need to get you a warm bath,” Amber said as she carried me back to the nursery bathroom with Maddie following close behind. Amber sat down on the closed toilet setting me on her lap and began running the water in the bathtub. Once it started filling up, Maddie poured a capful of Mr. Bubble into the tub. Amber began unhooking the loops on my overalls and stood me up in her lap sliding the overalls off me. I peeked at Amber and then back at Maddie who was stirring the water with her hand. Amber then removed my shirt and diaper in one quick swift and lifted me into the sudsy bathtub.
“Okay sweetie, let’s get you all squeaky clean,” Amber cooed at me as she soaped up a wash cloth. I remember hating taking baths when I was younger. I guess that’s because I had a rough childhood. But I found myself so relaxed and comfortable with Amber and Maddie. They are very genuine and nurturing. I was so deep in thought that I didn’t realize Amber soaping me up until she scrubbed my toes. I was taken aback and squirmed a little because it tickled. I peeked up at Amber and saw a grin across her face. “Oh! Are you ticklish?” she cooed and tickled the bottom of my feet. I stuck my finger in my mouth and grinned. She went for my other foot and began tickling again. I resisted the urge to giggle but found this a very difficult task given my ticklish nature. Maddie joined in and I succumbed to the tickling and let out a giggle. Instantly I heard them both melt. “Awe, you are ticklish,” said Maddie as she handed me a squeaky duck. Honestly, I didn’t know what to do with the duck so I just held it as Amber soaped up my hair and leaned me back while holding onto me. At first I resisted because I thought I was sinking under the water but Amber reassured me that everything was ok so I complied with her movements as she rinsed out my hair.
As soon as I was sat up with the help from Amber, I shivered. “Awe, are you cold Alex?” said Maddie. Instantly I felt my teeth chatter from being exposed to the cool air. Amber unplugged the drain and grabbed a towel. “Babe, can you hand her to me?” said Amber as she set the towel in her lap and held out her hands. Maddie scooped me up and set me in Ambers lap. Amber wrapped me up in the towel and brought me to the changing table in the nursery. Maddie was digging through some drawers and pulled out a blue onsie looking shirt with green dinosaur on it as Amber dried me off. My chattering subdued as I began to warm up. Amber grabbed a diaper and lifted my legs up sliding it underneath my bottom. A cloud of powder floated in the air as Amber dusted my nether regions with baby powder. Amber then taped up the diaper and sat me up. Maddie took the shirt and stretched it over my head and guided my arms through the arm holes as Amber stood me up and fastened the bottom half of the shirt.
Amber scooped me up, grabbed the soft, blue blanket from the crib and brought me over to the rocking chair with her wrapping me up all cozily in the blanket. “Honey, will you go in the closet and get me a paci?” Amber said softly to Maddie as she began rocking slowly. “Of course babe,” Maddie said as she dug around in the closet and pulled out a white paci with a blue handle. I was preoccupied with trying to see what Maddie was doing I didn’t realize Amber humming softly to me. I peeked back at Amber and unexpectedly yawned. Amber smiled at me and popped the paci in my mouth. At first I just held the nipple of the pacifier between my teeth before I began sucking on it. Amber cradled me closely and brushed my hair away from my eyes. I could feel myself drifting away in her arms.
Posted 12 March 2012 - 10:42 AM
I honestly couldn’t tell you what time it was. I last saw a clock around 5:30 PM. The last thing I remember was Amber rocking me and humming softly. I must have fallen asleep because now I’m lying in the crib again and it looks to be dark around the room. I kick off the blanket and sit up. The air was kind of chilly so I pulled the blanket onto my lap. The only light in the room was the little green light from the baby monitor. I lie back down and let my thoughts consume me.
I really enjoyed the past few hours with this lovely couple. And I have a feeling they would be devastated if I informed them that I’m actually a 25 year old who was mistaken for an almost two year old. But at the same time, it was another opportunity for me to have a second childhood. Another chance to have a loving and nurturing environment rather than the one I grew up in. See, I was raised in that orphanage with the same director. And she used to punish me and neglect me all because I was littler than the other kids. I looked like a runt compared to the kids my age. I never had a birthday party, never really had a Christmas, or any of that stuff. But is it selfish of me to try to take advantage of this new opportunity?
Just then I heard my stomach growl. The kind of growl that says you need to go and not the “tinkle” kind if you know what I mean. I couldn’t. I wouldn’t. But I have to if I’m going to keep this up. And the only thing I can do is succumb to this babyhood. Regrettably, I relieved myself. Completely disgusted with my situation, I did the only next thing I could think of, and that was to cry. At first I let out a few sniffles as hot tears flooded my eyes. I grabbed the blue blanket and held it to me rubbing my eyes in its’ soft fluffiness but the tears came out harder. I let out soft wail. Nothing happened. I let out a louder wail and grabbed onto the bars of the crib holding myself up on my knees so not to make the situation worse. And then I really let out a cry. I surprised myself. I didn’t know that I could even cry like that. The door flew open and Amber came rushing to my side. Tears flooded down my cheeks.
“Shhh, Shhh” Amber said softly to me as she picked me up. “It’s ok, baby girl,” she said as she wiped my eyes and then rubbed my back. “Seems like we got some stinky pants don’t we?” she whispered softly as she laid me down on the changing mat and proceeded to change me. Maddie came in shortly after with a droggy look on her face. “What’s a matter with Alex babe?” Maddie mumbled. Amber had already finished changing me and sat me up, “Someone just had some stinky britches is all. You can go back to sleep honey.” Amber scooped me up and picked up the paci and blanket from the bed. “Say nini Alex,” Amber said as she waved to Maddie. I waved too. Maddie smiled and kissed me on the cheek and then kissed her girlfriend goodnight. “Night,” she whispered softly and headed back for bed.
Amber popped the paci in my mouth and again wrapped me in the soft, cozy blanket. Then she sat back down in the rocking chair and slowly rocked me again humming softly. I resisted the urge to tell her so badly. She grabbed my hand and continued rocking softly patting my bottom. I’d have to wait until tomorrow to tell them. I just…am…too…worn out. I could feel Amber carry me over to the crib, kiss my forehead and lay me down all tucked in. From there, I was gone to the world.
Posted 12 March 2012 - 12:23 PM
Posted 12 March 2012 - 09:30 PM
I woke up to Amber rubbing my back. I must have slept really heavily because there was drool where I was sleeping. I sleepily pulled myself up to sit and rubbed my eyes. “Good morning sweetie,” Amber said with a smile as she swept my moppy hair from my face. I rubbed my eyes again. “Awe, I’ve got a sleepy head,” she said lifting me up to her. I grabbed the blue fluffy blanket as she picked me up. I had kind of grown attached to it since I got here. “You got your blankie baby?” she cooed as she carried me out to what appeared to be the living room. I hadn’t been able to explore their house much yet. Maybe I’ll get to do that today.
Amber set me on the couch and put on cartoons. It looked like Little Bear, which happened to be one of my favorite shows as a kid. I leaned back against the couch and chewed on my fingers. Amber pulled my fingers out of my mouth and popped the paci in. “I’ll be right back sweetie. I’m going to get breakfast going ok?” she said before kissing the top of my head. I didn’t know how to respond so I just kept quiet. At this point, I had not gone to the bathroom and the urge was growing. I held my breath and once again allowed myself to succumb to babyhood. The diaper swelled up and the warmth spread around my privates. Amber returned just as I finished.
“Did someone just go potty?” Amber cooed at me returning from the kitchen. “How in the world did she know?” I thought to myself. “We’ll get you changed and dressed after breakfast honey,” she said as she lifted me up and brought me to the high chair. Something smelled good, I think it was bacon I smelled. She tied a bib around my neck, which I could not care less about, but I was hungry so I obliged. Amber then set a plate of cut up waffles and some cut up fruit in front of me along with a sippy of milk. “There you go baby girl,” Amber cooed as she sat down with a plate of waffles and bacon. I stuck a waffle bite in my mouth and watched Amber eat a piece of bacon. That looked so yummy. Amber smiled once she noticed my gaze. “This is bacon. Do you want to try it?” she asked as if I was able to communicate back to her and broke off a piece of bacon and handed it to me. I gladly took the piece of bacon and ate it happily.
Maddie came out from the hallway dressed up for work and stole a piece of bacon from Amber’s plate. “Good morning!” she said with a mouth full of bacon. I smiled and ate another piece of waffle. “Do you have time for breakfast honey?” asked Amber before taking a bite of her waffle. “I actually have a meeting babe, and I’m running a tad late,” Maddie said. She then kissed her girlfriend and then pat me on the top of the head. “I’m going to try to be home early!” Maddie chimed as she grabbed her keys. “Ok honey!” Amber replied before Maddie stepped out the back door.
After breakfast, Amber brought me to the couch and told me to stay put. When she returned, she had changing supplies and some clothes in her hand. She laid me down and proceeded to change me. I just watched her while chewing on my fingers. After diapering me, she slid the onsie off me and put on a navy blue shirt with a brown puppy on it and navy plaid shorts. “Hmm, you really could pass as a baby boy,” Amber said to me gently tickling my tummy. I instantly squirmed and let out a giggle. She then lifted me up and blew raspberries on my tummy. I let out a louder giggle trying hard not to say anything to blow my cover. Amber then held me to her softly patting my back. I leaned against her for the first time allowing myself to sink into her embrace. She smelled so good. “You have no idea what we had to go through to get you baby,” She said in a soft tone.
So here I was in this woman’s embrace as she testified to me the many rigorous steps her and her girlfriend took to get me and I couldn’t help but feel a little bit of remorse. I felt a tear well up in my eyes. I had to tell her. I know it would be devastating to let her know who I really am but I couldn’t falsify who I really am when she cares this much. She deserves to have a real family. They both do.
Posted 13 March 2012 - 08:25 AM
Amber leaned back against the sofa holding me to her and rubbing my back. I peeked up at her and she ran her fingers through my hair. “You are one special little girl, you know that?” Amber said as she softly pat my back. I couldn’t hold it in anymore. I had to tell her.
I sat up and gazed into her eyes. Amber dusted my hair to the side so that she could see me better. I took a deep breath and with a lot of hesitation in my voice I softly said “I’m not really a little girl.” I saw Amber’s gaze of affection turn to astonishment. She sat up abruptly. I felt hot tears well up in my eyes. “Wait what? You can talk?” Amber said holding her hands to her mouth. “I’m so sorry. I wanted to tell you yesterday but I think I had a concussion.” I said rubbing my head where I remember getting hit.
Amber picked me up and set me on the couch next to her. “I… I don’t know what to say” Amber said still in shock. “This is some kind of mistake. You’re supposed to be a baby. I mean you look like…I…I have to make a phone call.” Amber said rushing to what I presumed to be her bedroom. She left the door open and I could hear her unsteady voice. “Maddie, you don’t understand she talked to me. She isn’t a baby. There’s some sort of mix up or something. We have to contact the director….Ok, see you soon honey,” She mumbled as she returned to the hallway. I just sat there staring at the floor with tears streaming down my face. I could feel her eyes peering at me. She hung up the phone back in its charger and came back to the couch. I sniffled and wiped my nose on my arm. Amber grabbed a tissue and wiped my arm. I looked at her through blurry tears. “I… I’m sorry,” was all I could muster up at that given moment. Amber sat down next to me with a concerned look upon her face.
“Why don’t… Why don’t you tell me truth?” Amber said holding a box of tissues in her hands. “I’m really 25 years old. I’m what you call a dwarf and my name is Kylie,” I mumbled. Amber bunched up a tissue in her hand and then flattened it out “Kylie huh? I like that name. So how did you end up here?” Amber said in an almost whisper.
I explained to her that I grew up in that orphanage and often stop by to visit the kids because I know how hard it is to grow up without a family. I told her how when they pointed me out I was hit with a ball and the next thing I remember was being diapered by the director and then blacking out until I woke up in the crib. “Honestly, I didn’t want to upset you. But I didn’t know how to tell you. You both seemed so happy.” I muttered with a sniffle. “Blow your nose sweetie,” Amber said, handing me another tissue. I obliged and blew my nose holding onto the tissue in case I needed it again. Amber then took a deep breath and sighed. I felt the wave of tears come over me again as they streamed down my face. “I understand if you hate me,” I said through sniffles and wiping my nose. “Sweetie, it’s not that I hate you. That’s a very strong word. I’m more confused and at a loss for words.” She said.
Just then I could hear the garage door open and Maddie came rushing in. “Babe, what the hell is going on?” Amber stood up and took Maddie’s hand leading her to my blubbering mess. Amber sat down next to me still holding Maddie’s hand. “Go on and explain, Kylie” Amber said. And again I explained the twisted turn of events that lead me to where I am today. Maddie sat down next to Amber with her head in her hands. After a moment of silence Maddie sat up and spoke. “She can’t stay. There’s a whole bunch of legal matter involved that would get us into trouble. Not to mention that the director committed fraud. I mean we took out a loan babe,” Maddie said with a slight tone of panic. “I know honey,” said Amber rubbing her girlfriend’s back.
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