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[~Zozo~]

Rina, need a slap back to reality?

I've been bumming off couches for a year now, you get used to it eventually.

[Baby Rina]

Yay finally back. My PC had died. first Motherboard and then processor, but its all good... my only issue with bumming couches is its a hell of a drop from owning your own house, and at the time i technically still will since i'll be moving before it sells.

[Bettypooh]

I went through something similar for a short while in my younger days. It's one he!! of a shock when you suddenly find yourself essentially 'homeless' when you have a good job and are making decent money but lose your living space instantly through no fault of your own anyway. Friends will see you through though- that's why they are your friends

I remember those times when I see someone living on the street. I remember that I could be them very easily even now- and so could any of us. That is also why I value my true friends so highly, for without each other we'd both be there on the street It's only temporary Rina, and I'm glad you have friends who will do this for you- they are real friends I'm sure you will not forget them when their time of need comes.

Bettypooh

[Baby Rina]

Back at the work thing... IS it good or bad that I have the Regional Vice President and Head of Team Relations plugged into my phone? ... and not the office numbers...

[Bettypooh]

Both It's good that you have them if you need them but bad that you might. Look at it like having the fire department and ambulance on your phone list- things you don't want to use but which might be very helpful should they ever be needed Treat them accordingly- use them only when needed urgently. Much of life is like this with good and bad intermingled and no way to separate them so you just adjust your perspective and keep smiling


Bettypooh

[Baby Rina]

I spoke with loss prevention the last week, i'm not sure why they sent him other than to have a neutral person conduct the 'interviews' it felt more like an interrogation. He seemed i dunno... made me feel like half of my complaints weren't that important, like i was just being an entitled jerk really... i know he spoke with the 'new' assistant manager, i am not sure if he spoke with the both of them. Apparently though some sort of action was being taken and something was put in her file... which to me feels yet again like nothing is being done. After making it known to the guy from human resources i put in my notice and was going to cut my losses he talked me out of it, i get the feeling now that the regional vice president is involved he wants to 'make an example' of my boss... but i am not sure i really have the strength to continue.

As a side not the vacation i thought i was going to have this week has completely shit the bed. i have 10 days off in a row coming now and no where to go because i am back to not being on speaking terms with my mother and the plane tickets down there have been canceled after my last little uhm... tantrum... With everything escalating and continuing at work and my one friend who's couch i was going to bum having to withdraw her offer because that couch was under her parents roof and they said no... i fell into a really dark and familiar place. Not a place anyone should want to be... Not a place i want to talk about on this forum... Anyway i have today to work, and then 10 days off to hopefully get refreshed, reorganized, and recentered... and if i'm lucky for my boss to get fired.

[kvetinka]

Good to take action against discriminators!

[Baby Rina]

Back to work from an awesome staycation. I hung out with one of my old babysitters, fixed my grandmother's sewing machine and stared making use of it. Got some new movies watched, some work on my RPG and book done.

At work, the schedules have changed again, the things being posted now are printouts from the computer which means that my name now appears on it as it legally is. I had to work with my boss yesterday for 4 hours and in that time there wasn't a lot of communication but i wasn't feeling that same level of dread as usual. She did speak to me but there weren't really any conversation at all. It's progess I guess and puts it back above my bare minimum to not go completely crazy... I am still trying to move to WA state and put my aplication in at another place a good 9 miles away (yay bike rides) to be out of my store before i can get my house sold. It looks like i'll be hanging in PA until it closes unless one of you following this thread has a free couch to lend >.>

[Baby Rina]

Ok some more things have happened at work, and this time for the better. I think my boss is actively trying to make me NOT want to leave my store any more, quite possibly because she knows I'm the one who does most of the freight processing on truck. The older assistant does her best but she's like 60 so she's moving a little slow and the other assistant is my age but does NOTHING but stand around... Anyways my boss is now actively calling me Rina... Sarina when i screw up, and has actually started refering to me as she and her. In the end that's all I have really wanted... I'm still moving as soon as I can but at least the stress at work has finally dropped down to its old levels before I started to transition.

[Bettypooh]

Glad to hear of your progress I'd tell you my sad tale but I don't want to depress you I'll manage though- I always do
Glad you're back here too

Bettypooh

[Rihanna]

Ok some more things have happened at work, and this time for the better. I think my boss is actively trying to make me NOT want to leave my store any more, quite possibly because she knows I'm the one who does most of the freight processing on truck. The older assistant does her best but she's like 60 so she's moving a little slow and the other assistant is my age but does NOTHING but stand around... Anyways my boss is now actively calling me Rina... Sarina when i screw up, and has actually started refering to me as she and her. In the end that's all I have really wanted... I'm still moving as soon as I can but at least the stress at work has finally dropped down to its old levels before I started to transition.

Too late and tired to make other comments. I have followed you from day one, so best to you for hanging in there!

[turtlepins]

Lookin good girl!  There are a lot of people in this world who forget that everyone is a wonderful and complex person!  After talking to you tonight I decided to comment on your story and add what encouragement I could.  It's the people who love you for who you are that count.  Good luck with your efforts to become incontinent.  luv and hugs

[diaperpt]

Seeing Turtlepins post to this thread brought me to re-read the entire thread. Baby Rina, I don't know where you are or what the situation is for you now and I can only take Turtlepins' post as an indication. I'm happy for you that his post seems to indicate you are in a good place - geographically and/or emotionally. I give you all the credit in the world for sticking to your journey through all the crap thrown at you. I find it amazing that you managed to suffer through that boss who was so amazingly insensitive and outright cruel. 

 

That you now seem to be looking for incontinence is fine as long as you are as confident with that as you were of your gender transition. Seeking incontinence is not something that is to be taken lightly but in reading this thread I know you take NOTHING lightly. There are any number of wacko's on this site looking for incontinence, but that does not in any way take away from whatever your needs or desires are. The wacko's stand out by what they say and how they act; not simply by what they seek. You stand out by what you say and how you act and that is ALL highly to your credit.

 

There are many people on this site I'd love to meet in person because I admire them for the person that shows through in their posts. You are one of those people. A meeting is certainly not likely and that's OK. I would just like to meet someone who has maintained such strength and character through a difficult process. I wish you the best as you continue your journey.

[Baby Rina]

I know right? Honestly work really turned around, and for reasons that I can't actually fathom (i think some of it was laziness) i am still working at the same store and still living in the same house. Yea I'm really working towards being incontinent because i SO want it. After everything I have gone through just to be the woman that I know i am, going on to being the baby girl that I know is in me is just one more stop on the same path.

All seriousness aside. I never treat anything serious, it's all wise ass and snark from this mouth. Yea there's a lot of wackos out and about and I try not to get pegged with them because it's what I want, and something that I am working for. I won't back down from this goal, i understand the impact it will have on my life and finances. In the end I still think that the math plays out in favor of being incontinent. I dunno how to explain it, it just feels right and makes me happy when i wet without really noticing it.

[kvetinka]

After everything I have gone through just to be the woman that I know i am, going on to being the baby girl that I know is in me is just one more stop on the same path.

You summarized my opinion. For that I was working, too. My form of HRT and orthopedical problems increased my incontinece and bettwetting.

[Baby Rina]

*blows dust off the thread* Necro Magic!

 

I'm having more issues at work again. This time the problem is NOT coming from my store manager but rather from the District Manager. She's instituted bag random bag checks you know ... to check for integrity among a bunch of other BS.

Problem is they aren't all being done equally, so far I have been there for all 3 of the ones to happen at my store, whereas another employee has yet to be searched at all. On the first occasion neither of us had our bags checked since we had no actual shopping bags, and it was a former employee of the actual store I work at rather than another store. For the second it was requested to view my pack but not the Assistant's purse and I declined requesting to see a search warrant and a badge. Now on this third one again the assistant's purse was given a wave at first but I told her that I would not allow my pack to be checked until after the assistant's purse was checked. She APOLOGIZED to the assistant and gave it a real quick glance into her purse and then she pulled my bag open to have a better look in side. At this point I'm pretty functionally incontinent, actually had a little leak at work today that I wasn't expecting (yay?) So there are 2 spare nappies in a plastic bag on the bottom of my pack... I can't help but feel that I'm being singled out at least a little...

[Diapered Jason]

*blows dust off the thread* Necro Magic!

 

I'm having more issues at work again. This time the problem is NOT coming from my store manager but rather from the District Manager. She's instituted bag random bag checks you know ... to check for integrity among a bunch of other BS.

Problem is they aren't all being done equally, so far I have been there for all 3 of the ones to happen at my store, whereas another employee has yet to be searched at all. On the first occasion neither of us had our bags checked since we had no actual shopping bags, and it was a former employee of the actual store I work at rather than another store. For the second it was requested to view my pack but not the Assistant's purse and I declined requesting to see a search warrant and a badge. Now on this third one again the assistant's purse was given a wave at first but I told her that I would not allow my pack to be checked until after the assistant's purse was checked. She APOLOGIZED to the assistant and gave it a real quick glance into her purse and then she pulled my bag open to have a better look in side. At this point I'm pretty functionally incontinent, actually had a little leak at work today that I wasn't expecting (yay?) So there are 2 spare nappies in a plastic bag on the bottom of my pack... I can't help but feel that I'm being singled out at least a little...

 

I don't know what to be more concerned about, the fact that you are possibly being singled out or that they instituted that random policy, which is not really lawful (in my belief) nor really useful to the store.  Most stores I know of have it in there policy that they are strictly forbidden to accuse anyone of stealing, but that may only apply to customers.  Still, I got to wonder, is this a prison checking for contraband.  What do they want to find?  The missing pencil from the manager's desk.  It is so stupid because all stores have some of their goods stolen and they generally account for that in the budget.

[Baby Rina]

It's considered an 'integrity check' and is /supposed/ to check everyone's bags but this particular woman doesn't feel the need to check the Assistant's purse only my larger pack... and the main reason why it is larger? Oh right ... to accommodate my nappies and changing supplies. If that woman sees them and starts to gossip about them to her store ... that's a lawsuit of nearly biblical proportions... which isn't something I personally want to go through, as i don't think I could continue to live in the area I currently do.

[Diapered Jason]

It's considered an 'integrity check' and is /supposed/ to check everyone's bags but this particular woman doesn't feel the need to check the Assistant's purse only my larger pack... and the main reason why it is larger? Oh right ... to accommodate my nappies and changing supplies. If that woman sees them and starts to gossip about them to her store ... that's a lawsuit of nearly biblical proportions... which isn't something I personally want to go through, as i don't think I could continue to live in the area I currently do.

 

You got to be careful here.  Don't assume, actually, don't even think that the store manager is going to spread gossip and I say that because you already mentioned a lawsuit.  I know you probably hate this person, but what you said is kind of unethical even though what they are doing is unethical too.  I just see bad all around there.

 

Now, integrity checks are for the hiring process.  They shouldn't be checking anyone's bags as it undermines management and I can see already the hostility it has brought.  While I am no store manager, that is what I think.  I don't know how you can manage anybody if you suspect them of stealing all the time.

[Baby Rina]

we are talking about 2 completely different people here. The woman doing these bag checks is from another store acting under orders from the District Manager not the Store Manager. The Store Manager and I have reconciled our differences, and you know by only searching one persons bag and not another's that does qualify as discrimination . Given how very little courtesy this woman has displayed while searching my bag I mean forcing the mouth open larger to get a better look... do you really think someone like that is willing to respect privacy regarding what they may see? I don't want a lawsuit, I don't want an issue... but it's better to plan for the worst and hope for the best than to simply assume everything goes swimmingly.