Posted 11 October 2011 - 08:52 PM
Hey Tofu! I do not know if you have the patience for this, but I practice a form of systemic relaxation. I memorized a list of body parts with corresponding numbers. Linking each number in the countdown with a state of relaxation in the corresponding body part! It really is not that difficult to master this, and it is beginning to unlock me every time! It will take approximately one hour per day for roughly two months. Message me if you are interested, and I will tell you the manual that taught me this (just ignore the sections that are irrelevant to you)!
Fight Like A BABY!
The spirit has been showing me a ton of painful memories that are related to my shy bladder. A lot of it has to do with the way my parents handled my bedwetting. The issue was not that I was a bedwetter, they gave me pullups for those. I needed diapers, pullups leaked, I woke up soaked 2 times a week. I also woke up like a steam locomotive. It was my responsibility to wake up "in time" to bathe before getting dressed and leaving the house. Otherwise, I would be dragged out the door in whatever state I was in. And sometimes, I smelled like soggy pullup.
And as usual:
I would rather be at Hippie Hollow!