My_Little_Shadow

Yeah, I learned the hard way. Apartment maintenance got it unclogged. The things I do for research. I've collected the data I needed. Never again am I ramming something up my ass.

I found out that I fit perfectly into size 7 pampers. No issues.

Wow, I really did have no control after a while. Downsides: Long cleanup time I clogged my fucking toilet with wipes And my plunger broke. Oh joy. I am NOT doing this again.

Okay, my research-obsessed side of me got the better of me. I did this. I got about 5 up there (geez, they're hard to get up, I spent a while trying to get it up and not have it break apart. probably more like 3-4 due to how much broke apart), and now, about half an hour later, I'm feeling pressure down below. Going to try to hold it. I don't mess in diapers. I do not like it. This was for the sake of my own research on how things worked. FOR SCIENCE, YOU MONSTERS!

What kind of oatmeal did you use? Please be specific, I want to try this. I also heard that noodles work? I have plenty of those.

Okay, so my theory from my boring adult side. *pushes up glasses, adjusts lab coat* Hypnosis works like a placebo. You want and expect it to work, and it will. You doubt and fear that it works, and it won't work. That's why people who doubt hypnosis aren't affected by it, but firm believers in it work into it so well. If you want it really badly, but doubt it deep down, it'll have a light, partial effect, like what Oliver explained. If you don't want it, but believe it, it also may have a light effect, but not as much, as both times, your mind will be subconsciously or actively resisting the effects.

It's not erotic, is it? I'm completely innocent with my diapers, I'd rather not do anything crazy.

I am not shoving ANYTHING up my ass. I really should try the oatmeal suggestion.

I'll make this short and sweet, I doubt anybody wants to hear me ramble. I want to use hypnosis. I really really want it to work. However, the logical side of me keeps saying to me that it won't work, no matter how much I want it to. What do I do at this point? I want so badly, to just feel more innocent and happy, but the stupid adult side of me has to ruin it all, every single time, with silly things like worries and logic. Please provide suggestions. 'Hypnosis is bullshit' is a valid suggestion, if you want to post something like that, go right ahead. Thanks, guys.

So, is anybody in the Green Bay, Wisconsin area? I'm actually really poor right now, as I lost my old job of $400-$600/week and now am working minimum wage, so travel isn't really an option. I'm just wondering if any AB/DLs want to meet up, if they're around? I'm 21 years old, and not into the sexual fantasies, I just enjoy being little and wearing/wetting. I don't mess, though. Also would be happy to meet up with Caretaker roles. If we are to meet, it'll be in a highly public area, for the first meet especially, as nowadays, you don't know who you can trust. Eventually, we can move to more private areas, and maybe, someday, I'll allow you into my apartment so we can have some time to just talk about what makes us what we are.

So, um, I'm new here. I enjoy wearing diapers, but do not find any sexual excitement.