I am really happy that you guys all exist. Since the age of 4 or 5 I have been fascinated by diapers and then wore, stole, hid them my whole adolescence. Upon leaving for college I tried to rid myself of something I saw as unlovable and start fresh. Within a month I met an amazing girl and things were going great until the diaper feelings came back. I indulged a little, gelt guilty, threw them out and started repressing the feelings thinking they will go away. The girl and I had some sexual issues as I pushed for kinkier sex to try and push down the cravings I hated.