BlankieLover

Hi there and thank you again for your kind and considered responses. I always welcome discussion about my journey.

Hello and thanks for your kind comments. I think you're absolutely right in that there's what your inner little person needs but also the importance of your grown-up self to make the right, healthy decisions for them. She doesn't have a space on the website where this could be discussed more but if you are a member of Fetlife and search for MummyGrace, you'll find more of her writings, thoughts and discussions with littles on this and other subjects. Mummy Grace was my FT mummy for quite a while. I found that once little BlankieLover got what he needed, he didn't need to shout so loud in order to get what he needed. What has happened, and this would have seemed unbelievable to me some years ago, is that I barely engage as an AB any more at all. My little side got satisfied and with that, decades of dressing up and yearning for a mother's comfort have almost vanished. I don't intend this to sound negative; I still have all my baby stuff. It's available if I ever want / need it but I see it as a major step forward emotionally for me - she totally repaired and filled the huge gaps left by abusive, biological mother. I feel like I've moved on from being an AB but of course, will never forget the warm, reparative experiences. BL XXX

Hello All, Something I feel is an important subject is that of littles who choose to visit a professional mummy. I remember plucking up the courage twice to inquire to a pro-mummy but when it came to having to ring her in person (one of her requirements), I lost my nerve. Like a lot of ABs, I really needed a mummy who could provide me with the right kind of care, which for me was a very young and vulnerable pre-verbal baby. I needed a mummy for whom the process wasn't an "act" nor did I want a domme who offered it as a bolt-on service. I wanted nurturing and comfort for my very needy and wounded little self; nothing even vaguely sexual at all. This narrowed my choices considerably for it seemed, in the UK at least, there were very few who could fulfill this role. I want to share with you a page written by a pro-mummy who deeply understands the needs of her littles, loves and cares for them unconditionally and who has heard first-hand the bad, sad and sometimes disturbing experiences of those who have visited other pro-mummies in the UK. There is great advice in here about how to choose the right mummy for you; one that meets your needs, which as she also advises, may not be her. She has a procedure that is followed before any littles visit to make sure she is the right fit for them - not always. http://www.mummygrace.co.uk/#!due-diligence/ultvx I hope that this helps all those that consider visiting a pro-mummy. I know how terrifying it can be; it's expensive, it might involve travel, it's showing your most vulnerable side to someone you don't intimately know. Make sure your little gets what they need and deserve.

Hi everyone,Thought I'd share with you all a link to a just-published interview with a professional ABDL Mummy. It's a thoughtful, intelligent, positive and balanced article written with genuine intrigue into the ABDL community. It's one of few articles not out to denigrate or exploit the ABDL world for "freak-show' entertainment.

I am reminded almost every day by my Mummy, Grace, of how much she loves me. I am her little boy for whom she would do anything. No matter how I’m feeling, her love is unconditional and unwavering. It still amazes me how someone can possess such endless love because for most of my life, I never had a touchstone or yardstick for what true maternal love was. Many may take their mother’s love for granted but frequently I ponder about how wonderful she is and in doing so, I feel waves of deep appreciation, admiration and respect for Mummy.

Feel very proud to be Irish today. It was a landslide in the 'yes' camp, who were composed mainly of the new, younger generation. Great to see acceptance and tolerance in the Irish youth - hopefully this is a sea change now for the future. The intolerance and prejudice should be a distant memory of how bad things used to be. BL xxxx

Hello everyone, It’s been a while since I posted on here and I thought I’d write some on my current situation and the journey I’ve been on to get here. In June 2014, I met the person that would become my FT mummy. We started as friends, even considered a sexual relationship together but eventually settled into our roles as mummy and child. As our unique and inimitable relationship grew, we spent more and more time together. By Christmas of 2014 we talked about moving in together. We spent 3 months finding a place for ourselves and in April, we moved in. Mummy is here whenever I need her; for cuddles, soothing, talking about things that worry or scare me, feeding time, nappy changes, play time, nap time. Not a day passes where I don’t feel like the luckiest baby in the world. She also helps me to explore my little side and his fantasies, needs and desires. Mummy is confident and calm – a stable tower of support and unconditional love for little BlankieLover. When I am my adult self, she also helps me explore my crossdressing side and in doing so, has led to my greater acceptance of myself and my longing to be in women’s clothes. Mummy has taken me shopping for dresses, helped me try them on, showed me all her make-up and fashion secrets and lets me express myself in this form as I wish. Soon we want to go to crossdressing events, adult baby events and fetish clubs – things I’ve never experienced before. She also looks after other babies and together we have built a baby room complete with full size cot, changing mat, clothes, toys and books. I get to sleep in the cot while Mummy sleeps next door with the baby monitor on in case I wake up wet, hungry or cold. My life now is fast becoming more and more authentic with who I am. It’s a far cry from the toxic shame I used to carry with me about my AB and sissy sides, the binge and purge cycles and the self-loathing. For others struggling to accept their AB or sissy sides, acceptance is possible; I even bought (but never used) some supposed “re-patterning

I first purged my AB wear about a year or 2 after I started realling indulging in it. I was in my early 20's and away from home so that meant I could order these things dicreetly and have privacy to play dress-up. I struggled with accepting my AB for many years so have purged 3 times now. The first 2 times I had a look at myself in full dress-up and a voice inside told me that what I was doing was crazy; I was ashamed of my desires. I immediately binned everything before I had a chance to change my mind. It would only be a matter of months before the urge to be an AB would return and I would set about re-buying all the nice things I dumped. The third time was a little different but still bound up in shame and embarrassment. I was dressing less and less as an AB, it had become much more of a background thing. I thought that I could make the leap to ridding myself of the desire altogether, Of course, it failed and thankfully I got to a place where I fully accepted and embraced it. Now I am much more confident and am connecting with ABDL's and the lifestyle more.

Thank you Robbie,

Hi Everyone,

I'm from Derry but I live in England now.

Hi. It's been a whole month now that I've been off benzos and nearly a full month off training, diet and anabolic steroids. I'm being looked after now by an addiction & rehab centre. There's lots of support there and I'm feeling really positive about going to the group meetings, the complementary therapies and the strong supportive environment. Anthony