Doughboy420

I can't stand Miley Cyrus for being another in a long line of useless, untalented diva wannabe celebutards who is just another train wreck for the tabloids to soak up (and to provide fresh sacrifice to next year's harvest). Even though I dislike her as a human being, I still think she looks adorable as a baby and that it is nice to see ABDL in the media. I just think with her name attached to it will just bring more negative attention to our lifestyle. End rant.

Thank you everyone for your words of encouragement. I appreciate everything you have to say. Heck, I even feel better knowing people just pop in to read my depressing thoughts. I'm not

Thank you, Rockies Fan. I do feel a little better and I appreciate all the help. The only problem is that I know these down trodden feeling will return like they always do and they'll just keep getting worse. I'll continue to keep my head up, but I really don't know how much longer I can deal with this level of loneliness and depression. All I ever feel now is tired and sleep is my only escape. I'd sleep forever if I could.

As long as I can remember, I've been plagued by bouts of depression. All I've ever wanted is some friends and maybe one day a steady relationship, but my social awkwardness makes even talking to people difficult, let alone trying to speak with a girl (or boy). After years of being mistreated by family and people who pretended to be my friends, I've developed such a defensive wall around myself that I can never feel safe enough to just be myself. I find it nearly impossible to lower my guard and let anyone close. I can't seem to trust anyone out of fear of the past repeating itself. I feel useless and have almost no self-esteem. I've almost reached the point of giving up on everything and just living in my car. All I seem to do is wall myself off in my apartment and vegetate, smoking a little weed to make it so I don't care anymore. Even base things that I use to enjoy,

I've always wanted to do Fat Elvis, complete with jumpsuit, balding pompadour, and maybe even a trailing parachute. The King never dies!

For as long as I've been going to ABDL websites, I've always looked out from the all-concealing shadows of the lurkerverse and never really engaged the online crowd. Maybe I'm just nervous or tired from working the graveyard shift, but I've decided to finally jump out from under the bed and begin associating with the people of our unique fetish / lifestyle. So let's start with an introduction : My name's Dwayne and I'm an adult baby from Connecticut. Outside my particular ageplay kink, I'm a lazy slacker who works a deadend job, though I'm tryin' to get back to school so I can get a future in the environmental field. I love nature, so it only seems fitting to get a job relating to it. I also love movies, video games, and most of all, eating. As my name implies, I also practice the sacred art of cannabis-smoking, which comes only in second to my love of food. Nothing helps me unwind better after a grueling day at the gas station than toking up with some sticky icky. On the AB front, I seem to enjoy all aspects of being treated like a baby. I have a fondness for sissy style clothing, thick diapers, and everything in between. For me it is a mix of comfort and innocent ageplay, as well as sexual pleasure derived from being teased and humiliated. Like many other adult babies and diaper lovers, I've never been able to define why I enjoy this type of stuff, but I've reached that point in my life where I don't care anymore. It's a part of who I am and I've decided to just embrace it (without interfering with my adult life). To sum it all up, I finally poked my head out from under the online soil and I hope to get along with the DD community, maybe even make a friend or 2. Peace for now!