(Last time, on Dragonball Z!)
(aka backstory)
Before I broke up with my last gf, I was insanely sexually active. I'd try anything once, and a lot of things more than once. After that, I'd not do much more than masturbate two or three times a week.
Now that I'm mostly over the cluster, I've been getting back into the swing of things sexually. Or my mind has been, anyway.
The most recent example would be a couple of days ago. I'd gotten it into my head that I wanted to piss myself. To utterly flood my knickers and work pants with hot, steaming, delicious piss.
So I did ()
And then I noticed something odd. On the mental side of things, I was all a flutter about what I'd done. I was rubbing the piss into my clothes, into my skin, licking it off my hands. I was in ecstasy.
On the physical side, however, nothing. Nada. My grrlcock was limp, my nipples soft. There was no reaction.
This has left me wondering if there's been some kind of severance between my physical desires and my mental desires. I mean, I do get off on videos and pictures of other people indulging in the kinks that I enjoy. I love reading stories about them as well. And I'm constantly thinking about wetting and messing myself, and wearing nappies of course. But when doing these things myself, which I want to do immensely and find incredibly hot, I get no arousal from it. But my brain thinks I should be.
Has anyone else ever had something like this happen, or am I completely and utterly bizarre?
~Luci