For me, I just don't know. I don't know why I have this urge to sometimes wear a diaper or why I want to wet it. Or why I even like doing it enough that I would do it again right after or in the coming days. I don't know why, randomly one day in the supermarket, I had this sudden impulse to buy diapers and try them on (that time I ended up getting Depends and that was my first experience with using diapers and wetting them, that is of course, in recent memory since I don't remember any of what happened when I was a baby). And even now as I continue using diapers I cannot explain why I like to wear them or wet them. It just doesn't make sense to me. Sometimes I think I will never really know why I like to either. That being said, I also feel I shouldn't like wearing diapers and that I shouldn't use them precisely because I have no rational explanation for wanting or liking to use them, it doesn't make sense to me why I feel like this.