Search the Community

I've been lurking this site for awhile now, and finally took the plunge and joined... Let's see, I've had a "fascination" with diapers that literally goes back to some of my earliest memories. (this is one of my first "memories:" Not of diapers mind you, but literally one of the FIRST things from my early life I can remember) I remember being maybe about three yrs. old, and finding a stash of diapers we had around for when the "un-trained" cousins were over. I was ecstatic, put one on, pranced right into the living room proudly, and instantly got scalded by mom: "You don't need THOSE anymore! You're wasting them and they're very expensive!" (Disposables were fairly new when I was young, and apparently they were quite pricey yet) Both my sister and I were potty-trained before our second birthdays, from what I've been told, so that was literally like being diapered for the first time again. AND I LIKED IT. The next memory I have, was discovering that our new neighbor, who was the same age as us, (5) still "wore" to bed, as she still had night-time accidents. One day we were over her house playing, and when my sister and neighbor left her room, I darted to the closet, and quickly stashed one in my pocket. I excused myself, let myself into the bathroom and put it on as fast as I could... I STILL remember that feeling... It was so soft and comforting, and most compelling, seeing as it was a bit taboo, as I was "trained" so young. I remember staying in the bathroom for as long as I could without it seeming "weird," took it off, folded it back the best I could, and stashed it back into the package when the girls left the room again... A few years after that, all three of us were "playing house" and I was selected to be "baby." Well, she still had a stash of the over-nights, even though she was out of them by then, and they were quick to tell me: " You're the baby so you're going to need to wear this, and handed me a diaper... I blushed a bit, not from embarrassment, but sheer excitement. (not that they needed to know that) Once puberty hit, the interest waned.... It was still there, just not in the fore-front. But, I remember going out trick-or-treating with a good friend from school, and his sister who was a grade ahead, had dressed up as a baby... complete with disposable diaper... Well, I already had a "thing" for her, and when I saw her all "dolled -up" I nearly lost it. That's when I knew this was something that wasn't ever going away.... Onward to college... The internet was still was in it's infancy. (I remember getting my first 14.4k modem, let's leave it at that) and vaguely remember catching glimpses here and there of Adult Baby Girls, (mostly Halloween costume adverts I'd imagine) but still had no Idea there was another living soul quite like myself. I got into a pretty extensive relationship at that point, and though we were a bit kinky, nothing like that ever came into the bedroom. Seeing as we were young and poor, we had no cable, internet, etc, so It literally wasn't until about 5 years ago, that I FINALLY learned there was an ENTIRE COMMUNITY devoted to Diaper Fetishists. It blew MY MIND. So after spending a few YEARS "researching" the fetish online, I finally got the gumption up, and ordered a box of Adult Diapers early in the spring of '11.