irreverent praxis

A little bit of A, but not as much as I might like.

I know what you mean rusty, between diapers its fine, but after the last one a more thorough clean is required. That said, I find myself in the reverse situation of a lot of people here and find that I can't sleep with a diaper (I am prone to waking up partway through the night and if I wake up wearing, for some reason, it takes me much longer to fall back to sleep) and so I take it off before bed. If I don't feel like getting up for a shower before nodding off, wet wipes of some kind (baby wipes for authenticity, but it doesn't need to be) let me feel clean enough to go to bed. I wonder if packing some wipes for your outings and using those rather than paper towel to clean off afterwards would help.

The little dribble was all that came. It was interesting to get that much and have it be pretty much involuntary but from just lying there relaxed that was it. I mean, I could have made myself wet more in that moment, but it would not have been the same thing. I can make myself go whenever, I was just curious about that experience of loss of control.

I don't have any kind of designs on incontinence, but I am fairly strongly hedonic and this sounded like it might be a novel and pleasant experience. I spent about forty minutes trying to get it to work. Started holding my breath to 30 seconds and added another three seconds every third attempt. When I got to 63 I got a tiny dribble that was fully involuntary and that was enough to make me try to hold for a few seconds more, no more dribble but the other end let go a bit. I guess that would be a good thing for some people here, but I really don't like a messy diaper. As it appears my bladder is stronger than my bum, this is not a game for me. : ( I suppose its a proof of concept anyway.

Lets see: tons of chocolate, four books, some shirts and a new sweater, the THQ package from steam (super excited for darksiders though I haven't loaded it up yet) , and some new pots (stainless : D).

Hey all, I am not really sure what I hope to get out of making this account--I have lurked this forum for almost a year without feeling any particular need to join. In any event, since I have done so, I may as well make some introductions. I am a uni student studying computing, active member in my local queer community, sometime chorister, and strong believer in the Oxford comma. : P To unpack some of the above, computers are cool and from about eight onwards were my favourite toys. I am an agendered asexual (the drop down in sign up could afford an I don't play that game option of some kind, n/a or some such if agendered is too uncommon to get its own entry) and I have done a little bit of visibility work for both as well as volunteer work in queer organizations more generally. For those who care, I experience non-sexual attraction to both men and women but experience sexual feelings for no-one. I love singing; music brings a particular vitality to life and I don't know what I would do without it. Finally, I am something of a lit geek and have been known to read the likes of Foucault, Derrida, and Baurdillard for fun. If I write like a textbook at times, its probably because I was just reading one. As to where I fall with regards to being on this site, I am definitively a DL but I have trouble deciding where I sit exactly with being little. I am very playful, prone to bouts of cuteness, and I have a particular affinity for swing sets. I often tell people that I just grow up slower than everyone else, I am the root of my age. For reference, I was a very precocious child and came up with that around that time it would have meant three and a half though I am happy with five now. The thing is, it is not age play. As a matter of my own brand of personal ethics (see epicureanism, transhumanism, post-modernism), I refuse to relegate functions of happiness to age categories. Playing with k'nex makes me happy so it is fundamentally appropriate to my age (or any other trait of my being). When I say I am five, it is most often a shorthand for "I like to play and be highly affectionate" or "I am deliberately choosing to treat the world as if it deserves innocence." That said, I like the idea of a more deliberate age play, it just isn't really a part of my experience to date. I spoiled what follows as it ended up really rather quite long. As I said before, I don't entirely know why I made this account. I guess it partially has to do with a desire for people I can talk to about this stuff. Having been out in so many ways in the queer community for so long, it irks me to closeted about any part of my identity, but I feel that I would substantially loose some degree of respect from those I care about if I were to expose this part of myself. If I am entirely honest, there might be some degree of hopefulness for a partner who understands this part of myself, but frankly that is not a high priority at this point in my life. Regardless, this community seems populated by nice folk. I look forward to getting to know you.