Goerge I think other than watchin ur wording so u dont offend anyone, u havent messed up at all. As a matter of fact, I have never fantasized about being severely mentally handicapped but I have enjoyed working with ppl who are severely handicapped and have always asked myself why I enjoy that. Then i came here and found this AB mommy world and I discovered that I just like being needed. I want to be needed as much by someone as I can be. Dont get me wrong. Im glad my kids are 100% healthy and live perfectly normal lives and are self sufficient. I never once ever wished anything was wrong with my sons but when I worked with adults with mental disabilities I was happy. So even though my situation is different than yours Goerge, we are sort of in the same boat. I completely understand ur reasoning behind it too! Wanting the love and caring and 100% attention that the disabled teenager in ur foster home got that u did not get. If u ever wanna talk just mesg me here and we can chat sometime ok? Truth is we all have wants, needs, and fantasies of some sort and even tho they can be different, we all have them. And its ok to talk about them if we find someone willing to have a one on one heart to heart with us and sometimes that helps us to feel better and not so alone. I check the boards and my messages every so often so msg me if u care to.
huggles and kissies and lots of love,
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